Pretty Pointless and not that worth your time. God and I have had a kind of weird relationship. I am not completly sure where I am at with him all the time. I am not talking about if I am saved or not but just who he is and who I am. I never mention God much at all during the day and I am fine with that. I don't call myself christian, because I hate most christians. They are so frigging judgemetnal, hypocritical, fake, and liars. The best part about it is that they don't even notice it. I know i just describbed a lot of my christian friends. But any way this is not a rant. God and I have just kinda been like two really good friends that grew apart. We talk about hanging out more but then I just blow it off. Truth is I didn't care all that much. Now I see and understand that God wasn't just wasting air when he said "hey lets get together some time." It took a lot of pain to realize that. Now I am being pushed to be this leader that I know I can be and I now understand why God wanted to hang out more. God has this certain will that WILL get done. I realized that he will try to prepare you for what is going to happen but if you don't listen you will have to prepare yourself, because it is going to happen. Before and really still, I won't talk about God. I know that I am not really at the place to be a representative to him, not yet. I have been changing like crazy to get there. Ya know I learned that it is not good at all to be a different person in different places. A lot of you who see me at school know that I am not the same at school. I say a lot of things I would not normallly say but that is what God has really been working with me about. With a little more work and sweat I will be the man God wants me to be.