and slowly going down hill

January 09 2006

thought life was going great


but then i realized it throws stuff at you that youd never expect


you lose friends... you gain them.. but the difference is i still love them with every beat of my heart.. every friend ive lost.. i still love.. and the 2 that are drifting away are pretty much my life.. and i will be lost without them.. so yeah


what do you do in a situation like this?


when you dont realize what your doing wrong.. you dont see it.. and you stand your ground because you think your right? but the cost of standing your ground is losing 2 of the greatest friends you have ever had? what would you do?


so now i sit here wondering.. what if i did lose them? what woudl become of me? i would actually probably be nothing..


but now one of my main goals is to strive to prove them wrong.. i will succeed in writing and singing music.. im more mindset on that now that they said i couldnt.. i all the sudden feel over my stagefright.. and im gonna make it.. you watch and see...


i love you 2 with every thing in me.. but i really dont think i deserved it at all. I would give my life for both of you.. and you dont even realize it


love you forever


jessica

Chris Slate,

January 10 2006
u really think that shitty 2nd grade poetry is gonna get u anywhere in life... think again... a lot less the voice... u should work at a gas station... hell... get drunk a little and ull be at the street corner... uv already lost me as a friend... forever... i dont know about hunter... she can do what she wants... but you need to fuck off... u get on my last damn nerve... u get on everyones last damn nerve... trust me... iv heard it a thousand times... im just the only one who will actually tell you... fuckk you jessica gaines... fuck you!