Rant+Whine+Thinking = Boredom

July 03 2008

    Okay so i'm super bored and you guys know what happens when i get super bored. But for those of you that dont know i will explain for you. When i get super bored i either

1~Rant about something

2~Whine about something

and or

3~Try to write something with meaning that might help you smile,laugh, or maybe even think a little.

I think today it will be alittle of all three, oh yeah i know its alot to handle but just bare with me here.

   ~*~RANT~*~

   I hate when you wave at someone and they just look at you, Like i'm throwing them the bird or something! I'm like "what the heck, i'm just being nice." i dont need a death stare, i need a wave back. Or maybe even just a smile! I MEAN COME ON how hard is it to pick up your hand and wave back. If you can text and drive you can wave and drive...its not rockit science.

*^*WHINE*^*

    Why is it that when your hurt and confused you dont want to tell people whats actually wrong, you just want to whine about it? I mean the other day i was so down, hurt, and sad..and the one guy that really cares about me wanted to know what was wrong b.c he couldn't stand to see me hurting and i wouldn't tell him what was wrong with me. Yeah in time he got it out of me but i was so..i guess scared to tell him. Scared he would laugh at my pain i guess, and when he didn't laugh and he just stood there listening to me and then i realiZed he really does care. Its not all a lie, he isn't faking just to get close use me and then run..he really cares. And that feeling was amaZing! YET i was so stupid not knowing if i just let him in he could change my world, change how i look at things...he could and does make me feel like his world!

*-*Thinking Time*-*

    when people look at you, who do they see? Do they know your a Jesus Lover. Do they see understanding and caring. Do they think happy and laughter. What do they see????? You might want to look over yourself and make sure your putting out whats really you and not the fake crap that helps you fite in, makes you look cool, or whatever its called these days.

 

 

PEACE

 

Mathis

July 08 2008
I just got back from Boston and yeah...no one waves back there...But....some how when I was in Boston I thought of these things that you said...not the guy one but the rest. I like this blog.