Have you ever had a friend who is near and dear to your heart really hurt your feelings? Have you ever left someone messages only to never receive a response? Have you ever been hurt that they were spending time with other friends, but not taking the time to spend with you? And then that hurt is escalated by the knowledge that they are aware you are moving across the country but still take no steps to contact you back.

I wrote a letter to someone like this who I love dearly in class on Monday as part of an activity. I expressed my feelings of hurt and anger. After I wrote my letter to this person, I felt a lot better and not so angry anymore. I am sure they have their own reasons for the way things have turned out and the fact that they still have not contacted me.

But then I came home and changed my clothes and it hit me like a ton of bricks. That is how I have been in my relationship with God. I keep telling him I am going to "call" but then I don't. I make time for everyone else but not for Him. God has been leaving me all these messages but instead of calling Him right back, I erase the message and tell myself, "I'll get back to Him later." But then I don't. I just let it go until it seems I've forgot and don't care about Him. I cannot even imagine the hurt that He feels when His children's hearts are far from Him.

That's a really cheesy metaphor, but it just had a profound impact on me this week.