It's amazing to me on how loving someone lingers with you after it all  ends.... I just want this one feeling to go away. I want to pretend like it never happened, and that it never ended like that. Yes, it has been 4 months, but when you were in love with someone for longer than a year its hard. And when you decided not to be friends is even harder.

Tho I am single I have moved on. I have learned so much about myself. And that I did not deserve half the crap I went through. But you know what they say: you live and you learn. And one day I will find a nice guy.....

Ok, so enough about all that. It was just on my mind and sorta bothered me. I'm looking for a new vehicle for me. I really want a truck, so I am looking into that. So is my dad. He really wants to help me out.I want an older truck tho, not these new cheap ones. I just want a HUGE truck I can go mudding in and won't mind if it gets dinged up... I'm also looking for an apartment, and all the good stuff. I think it is time for that. It will be hard, but I should be ok.

And I am ready to graduate!....

What Hurts The Most
-Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do