ok...

September 16 2005
Last nite, i accidently ran thru a red light and then i stepped (barefoot) in dog poop, then i ran into Rae in the dark... now, my dad says i'm gonna have a car accident soon. God told him... so i'm SO scared... i feel like not even letting anyone ride w/ me anymore ya kno? i mean, i'd be sooooooo scared if i was in an accident all by myself but i'd rather go thru that than have someone i love in the car w/ me get hurt in the accident...

"The moment I say something
Everything may slip down through my fingers like sands
And I only wait the time passing by so calmly
Please tell me that this pain is surely an illusion
Please tell me that I'm not like myself at all now"
-Ayumi Hamasaki