12-8-05 Thursday... -_-

December 08 2005

"I can smile naturally about this time tomorrow
As if nothing had happened
I've always walked in such a manner
But I can't control this game as I wish"
-Ayu (GAME)


i posted those lyrics and that picture cuz i watched Ayu perform that song in her MY STORY concert this morning while I was getting ready for school. but now those lyrics are speaking to me...:
I've always been the one thatz ok with God being in charge and control of my entire life (tho i wasn't always the one to give up everything especially willingly). but i kno i think all the time how i want things to go my way... I usually can smile about something horrible that happened today tomorrow... and i like to see myself walking along happy-go-lucky... but i'm not. i'm really not and that makes me feel like i'm lying to myself or someone else or something... i can't control the GAME that is LIFE... but i wanna keep walking. i don't wanna give up. i can make it tho i kno it will not go smoothly at all... but I will walk on.... 

Karen

December 08 2005
bad day?

Rachael Robertson

December 08 2005
yeah i hide my feelings well... check your email... and email back