So, I'm about to head off to college and leave everyone behind. To be honest, it is the strangest mixture of emotions I think I've ever had. On the one hand, I am scared out of my mind. On the other, I have a strange peace about it all. Not a peace that makes me fell peacefull on the surface, but when I really did down into my deepest feelings, all I can find is this strange peace. It's kinda cool. I am just so afraid that things won't turn out the way I have hoped. I have hung everything upon this leap of faith. I've never had to do anything quite this extreme based on very little other than a contant quiet assurance that has to be from God. The weird thing is, I can barely detect it, so it makes it kinda scary to go off of, but as I have said, when I dig down deep, I know this is where I am supposed to be, whether I like it or not. Another fear is that I will get there and be doing what God wants me to do, but that it will be a huge trial for me. I know that He will make me strong enough, but it still haunts me, y'know. Especially since it seems that the first fourteen years of my life seem to have been focused on giving me endurance, and so I wonder if that will come into play know. What exactly do I need such a capacity to endure. Anyway, I would feel much better if I knew that you guys were praying for me. It would mean a ton. I love you guys.

In Christ,
Zach