So, instead of studying, like I should be. I'm on the internet.. of course.. I graduate on Saturday, CRAZY! Unforunately, I have 3 finals on Thursday... which I am not looking forward to any of them. I also have to go to class tomorrow night from 6-9pm... I am SO ready for Thursday to get here!

 

Oh and check out our awesome new blog

 

http://www.grayandbecca.com/blog 

In my Creative writting class I wrote this, I had nothing else to write about:

 

"I think about the promises you made me.

All of them were broken."

We were only to write 2 sentences about whatever and everyone had to guess what your work was going to be about and here were everyones guesses:

*Love*

(no)

*Past*

(no)

*Future*

(no)

 

This was a poem about broken promises duh.

About the after when you hurt?

So then I wrote about 7 pages and it wasn't really good writting but I wrote in about 20 minutes. And it was called "I think about it all" And my Teachers so cute and she goes

"I said write a poem not a book"

awwe.

But I just reall thought about it and wanted to let you guys know I worte it.

Coldplay- Yellow

I dedicate to Carmel

: )

http://www.coloradoan.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20071209/UPDATES01/71209024

 

Terrible tragedy kept from being worse by a trained woman with a gun. 

I have something to say.... its very unimportant , but on the contrary its something i feel like saying: tonight i went playing in the rain ,there's something wonderful about having wet clothes stick to me & my hair just soaking & flat.... I ran to a very special place to me, there was something special about being there, a lot of memories come flying in my head on that balcony... even though i probably looked like dirt i felt so pretty. & i thought about all the things that happened in the last week, & ya know there s a time for everything . the Lord will give & he'll take away. that really hit me tonight.

So I have just kinda been hanging out. Friday I went to a see Peter Pan at the Renaissance center [Dickson TN]. It was not all I hoped for and more though. It was a great play don't get me wrong, but it did not meet my expectations. I thought it was a good play though. During the changing of the sets it could have been darker because I could still see them moving, I also heard some talk. I thought this to be very amateur, it also broke the kinda feel, if you will, of the play. There where a couple of sence that I thought Peter Pan should kiss Wendy. Yes I understand that it was not a romantic type play, but it just seemed right. Ok so Peter asked Wendy to be the mother of a bunch of kids that he takes care of, then safes her, and she basically begs for it. I quallify saving someones life enough for "dude kiss her"  I had to hold back from screaming that a few times. It seemed as though the main actors held themselves very well. Over all I enjoyed the play. I almost want to go buy another ticket and see it agian. For some reason I love, love, love, plays. So I just got home from work about an hour and a half ago. I love working, almost as much as I love seeing plays, lol. I work with Westerman Farm inc. Yes on Aaron's dad's farm. I just think it is great they are a corporation now. Gosh that is cool. I had to try to stop a 1600 pound bull today and I lost. He hit me with his head a few times and I jumped back. I was told that his neck and head strength could throw me 10ft in the air. So I was glad he was not really mad. He just wanted more feed. Well that is where my weekend is at.

So last night I was thinking. I was wondering why some girls are always worrying why they don't have a boyfriend. I mean I wouldn't mind having one, but if I don't thats OK. Then I was wondering why so many girls have had too many boyfriends to count, and I've never had one. I've come to realize maybe why I've never had a boyfriend is because it's God's will for me not to have one. Dating just isn't what's right for me right now. I mean I have so much more stuff to look forward to right now. So much more things I need to worry about right now. Like school work, family, friends, dance, reading. The list goes on. It's like the Diary of a Teenage Girl series (and you haven't read these you really need to. They are awesome!) or Barlowgirl's song, Average Girl. The perfect guy WILL come one day. I just have to wait. Until MY time. Not every other teenage girls'. And if you're wondering why you don't have a boyfriend right now, there's probably a reason. And not because you're ugly or fat or anything else like that. A deeper reason. It's just not for YOU. So stop worrying. Your day will come. I like to think of it this way: I'd rather have five great relationships rather than 500 meaningless ones.

 

"Average Girl"

So what I"m not your average girl
I don't meet the standards of this world
Chasing after boys is not my thing
See I'm waiting for a wedding ring

No more dating
I'm just waiting
Like sleeping beauty
My prince will come for me
No more dating I'm just waiting
'Cause God is writing my love story

Boys are bad that's certainly not true
'Cause God's preparing one for you
If you get tired waiting till he comes
Gods arms are the perfect place to run

Sleep that's the only thing
For me 'cause when I sleep Gods
Preparing one for me

 I'm not allowed to see that new movie that looks really cool called The Golden Compass because it is based on athiest themes. The movie is based on a trilogy of books in which the main charators kill God. My church sent out a bulliton with this information in it and at first I didn't know weather or not to belive it. But it's true. I Googled it and the author (Pullman) has admitted to being a proud athiest and is quoted saying "My books are about killing God." There are little to no hints to this in the movie, but some people will go buy the books after seeing it, and the anti-Christian theme is much stronger there. In each part of the trilogy the hints get stronger until the villan is called "the Almighty" and "Creator" in the last book.

 

I just wanted all yall to know this before you went out to see this movie and support this industry.

Apologize- One Republic

"I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new - yeah yeah

I loved you with the fire red
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...''

"Maybe I'll win, maybe i won't come out alive. But God didn't tell me i'd come out alive; He just told me to stay and fight."

--- From the book This Present Darkness by Frank E. Peretti

 

Okay so i'm kinda going craZy here. I'm not going to use names but i'm gona give you the gist of whats going on and ask you guys what in the world i should do. Ok so i'm losing someone i care about. I know I know this sounds like another one of those sad posts about losing everything BUT ITS NOT. I'm just kinda scared for this person (lets call this person Jill) Anyway so i'm scared for "Jill". I have not a clue whats going on with "Jill" and "Jill" usally tells me everything. I'm trying not to be nosy but i would kinda like to know whats going on. I guess i should step back and let them come to me if they WANT to...but i'm scared :(
What should i do?????

i wish this thought had sound effects.  i would be yelling through the entirety of it.  yes, i have hit a low spot in my very happy little streak of happiness.  why does it feel like that every time i try to do something right it goes bad and comes back in my face???!!!???  i tried to be happy and i tried to be nice to everyone and still, someone ends up mad at me, they won't tell me why, and i hate it!!!!  WHY does it have to be like this?  if he knew how hard i was trying to be happy and be nice, would he even change his mind?  if he knew the reason i was upset, would he even change his mind?  one of my newest, closest friends is mad at me!!!!!!!!  you don't know how frustrated i am right now...because i am EXTREMELY TICKED!!!!!!!  boy it's times like these i wish i could just yell at someone or smack someone across the face....or something.  i...i can't even think...i am just so....ANGRY!  he sits there and laughs like it's no big deal, all the while knowing it's bugging the freaking crap out of me!!!!  i wish someone would hit him in the head with a football.  or something hard...not really.  but i'm mad, ok?  i know, it's not good to do that with your anger and/or frustration, but i haven't done this in a little while.  i'm usually sad, not hardly mad!!!!  like this!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm gonna go scream at something now.  bye

"France IS full of crazy people..."
By: Someone WAY cooler than you  
"12 Signs that you're (falling) in like:"
12. You'll read his/her emails over and over again...
11. You'll walk really really slow while you're with him/her...
10. You'll feel shy whenever you're with him/her...
9. While thinking bout him/her...your heart will beat faster and
faster...
8. By listening to his/her voice...you'll smile for no reason.
7. While looking at him/her..you cant see the other people around
you...you can only see that person...
6. You'll start listening to SLOW songs.
5. He/She becomes all you think about.
4. You'll get high just by their smell...
3. You'll realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you 
think about them..
2. You'll do anything for him/her...
1. While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole time.

When life don’t make too much sense,

& I realize my sense won’t get me to the place I long for,

 But you’re not sure where that place really is anyways,

So I wander aimlessly enjoying every breath I take,

 Not sure about where I‘ll be tomorrow

But knowing I’m falling up is a good feeling,

& knowing I’m going somewhere is beyond comprehension,

 Doing cartwheels when nobody is around,

Turning on the music to actually listen & not fill empty thoughts,

It puts a smile on my face.

Losing should give us a chance to gain,

& having everything I want would just make me miserable,

 Not giving you all but enough is enough for you,

But everything I do give I’ll give my best.

 You can see passion written in my eyes,

My determination is a solid foundation

I’m never near perfect,

but Perfect is never my goal,

My house was built with calluses

achieving all of the some I planned to do is way

better, than some of the all.

I am content, and it’s hungering!

But you’re not sure where that place really is anyways,

& I realize my sense won’t get me to the place I long for

When life don’t make too much sense.

So I've been thinking? Are Second Chances really...... worth it? I mean come on now? What's the point? Not saying it's unnessasary? I'm not saying that I'm in that situation? But my Friends been trying to get back with her boyfrind and he's all like "Second Chances they don't matter, people never change?" And I totaly agree with him. I mean if they hurt you once, they do it again? It's Just life. But whatever?

 

I got one of my phones back? But it's my house phone?

Which is wicked awesome! But I want my cell phone.

Anywho. LAST night I just thought about how things use to be, then I started to like wheep. And I'm so thankful things are different. I don't really know how to explain it but there you go.

 

 

(I love this song "Until The End of Time." It's Fantastic.)

I'm me
Me be
Goddamn
I am?

 Not very nice lyrics but a great song. Only says it once so Please enjoy and edit out that part in your mind. 

Well I had this really long blog written out about how much I hate christianity and the preacher and what not. I accidently deleted it before I posted it. Right after Aaron (my cousin that I live with age 29) came into my room and sat down and I told him that I have started to hate preachers and most people who claim to love Christ. We talked for a little while and he said that you see the bad the most because it sticksout you don't see the little woman giving up her meal so some child in Africa can have it. You see when people mess up. Forever it has been like that but there are more people fighting for what is right then screwing up. As long as we have one person fighting for the right thing we will be all right.

 

--

Ok so we didn't say all that but that was adding some in. You get the point. I was going to judge most of christianity for a few people being stupid pricks. I still love what Ghandi said "I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ." I really believe it is true and I still stand by it. But for all of those who are standing beside me from so far away I salute you my brother. 

Today was the last day of classes.

 

Tomorrow I have to present my Nordstrom commerical as my final project for Single Cam.

 

And then I have one final next week.

 

And then I get to rest... well... at least from school work...  

9 WORDS WOMEN USE.......

1. Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2. Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3. Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

4. Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5. Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6. That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7. Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say you're welcome.

8. Whatever: Is a women's way of saying screw you!

9. Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking "What's wrong?" For the woman's response refer to #3.

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!!!  for those of you that know me at all, you know that i usually have something i'm upset about.  but, i am just so happy right now!  i can't even describe how good of a mood i'm in.  i've totally turned around.  i've learned that really, when you are going through something that stinks, or you're having a bad day, smiling really does help!  and when you bless others, you are also blessed!!!!  i've been like this for about a week and a half now.  i am just carefree because...i don't know why!  but other people are noticing that i am in a good mood.  i think i have the definition of joy.  i'm truly thankful and happy with what i've been given.  and i know Who i have to think for that!  ;) (thanks God)

well this is my happy little thought.  even though things still bother me, i smile and pray through it.....and it truly TRULY REALLY helps!  i'm so happy...i hope the rest of you can be this way.  it's not hard at all.  you just have to get rid of that little frowny face, that's all!  lol

luv ya'll!

Carmen

So, it's only Tuesday and I'm feel like this week has been going on forever! I don't know why. I'm not excited about this weekend maybe that is why. I have to do a craft show for my brother and it's gonna be cold and they say we can't bring a heater. : (

 

 I've been working at Kohl's a little bit ever since Thanksgiving. And amazingly I actually like it. I've always said that I would never work at Kohl's because my sister and Jarred both have worked there....Well, Jar is still working there. But I decided to work the day after Thanksgiving and I really enjoyed it. I think it's because I like the feeling of accomplishment at the end of the day. I feel like I have accomplished something and that gives me a good feeling. Plus the people there seem to like me which is nice. : )

Haha.. these are gonna make some people mad,

but im just joking so don’t flip out!

I found these verses, & I want yall to know I believe God has a sense of humor many times we think hes some boring old man sitting on a throne looking down at us, but hes really not!  Well. … some are sorta gay….

 1 Cor. 13:10“For when perfection comes , the imperfect disappears.”

That means when I enter a room, you are to LEAVE!

James 1:15“then after the desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; & sin when it id full grown gives birth to death.”And that’s how Hitler was born… 1 Cor. 7:9“ but if they can not control themselves, they should marry because its better to marry than to burn with with passion.”

This should be our schools mission statement!

1 Corinthians 13:11“ when I was a child , I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man I put Childish ways behind me.”

& when I become a MAN ill stop being a little girl!

2 cor.11:19 “you gladly put up with fools since you are so wise.”

Yes, i gladly put up with you!

1 corinthians 7:4 “The wife’s body does not belong to her alone but also her husband...”So when I get married: on my husbands birthday im gonna buy me some clothes, and wrap them & give them to him, and be like happy birthday ….. ;)Philippians  2:14“do everything without complaining or arguing.”

What..?, Aw Man. Do I have to? This stinks….

Philippians 4:13“ I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.”

So upon seeing someone jumping off a ten story building, assume they were Christians, this is their favorite verse & they were trying to fly!

1 timothy 6:7“ for we brought nothing in the world & we can take nothing out of it.”

Haha. You ignorant Egyptians …..

Jeremiah 15:16“when your words came I ate them: they were my joy & my delight.”

I think its weird They had alphabet soup back then

 Proverbs 27:14“if a man loudly blesses his neighbor early in the morning it will be taken as a curse.”

Well.Duh,if you wake any of my neighbors up you’d be sure to get cursed, that or egged!

Psalm 40:1“I waited patiently on the Lord,he turned to me & heard my cry.”

& after that I went hoarse for 2 weeks.

Psalm 119Blessed are those whose walk is blameless, & who walk according to the law of the Lord!”

i bet their in shape ,too.good now lets see them run!

Proverbs 16:30

“He who winks with his eye is plotting perversity..”

You know don’t even let anyone blink at you….

 Songs of Solomon 4:1…” your hair is like a flock of goats..”

Ya know that’s why we should be thankful for our hair

 

so....i've been thinking lately....i want to go to Juilliard.  i...always kind of have, but never really considered the fact that i might actually be good enough to make it in.  double major....voice and piano...wow.  i need help with the tuition...it's about $40,000 dollars a year.  so...i need major scholarships!  right now i'm not thinking about the 'if i don't's.  because this is a dream that i'm gonna go after.

"Don't ever follow your dreams...chase them."

i didnt go to bed till about 330 or 4 this morning. i'm pretty dang tired.

 

i hate it when i cant find a parking spot anywhere near my apartment building. it seems if i pay rent there i should be entitled to a spot outside my building. or at least remotely near it.

 

oh well. i'm probably just mad cause i'm so tired.

 

piece

I Just PIMPED out my

 

profile page...

 

 

 

...check it out... 

it's been a while...but here's an update on everything.

 

i figured i should probably update you guys on what's been going on.

so, brian is out of my life for a very, very long time. i found out that he was lying to me yet again, so i broke off all ties of communication and i feel so much better than i did before.

but i've also been pretty stressed as usual.
the bowling season for districts is coming to an end...we only have one match left to play and at the moment, we're 7-0. again...undefeated. but it always puts a little stress on me at the end of season trying to keep up my average and whatnot.

then adding in the fact that i'm in my junior year of high school...
it's been really hard...hard classes, hard teachers, hard tests...everything.

freaking sucks...but i've been doing okay in my classes...passing at least

we found out a couple of days ago that my granddad (mom's dad) has now been diagnosed with cancer....only six months after losing my aunt to a very similar type of cancer. it hit home pretty hard...we're having to postpone christmas until he gets out of the hospital in january. seems like yesterday that we found out about my aunt's cancer...it's like a reoccuring dream..i'm getting all of those emotions and feelings of depression again...but we have faith that he'll get through this. if god is on our side, who can be against us?

just, right now, it's been a really tough season...
but i know that it will make me a stronger person and will get me a little closer to god...which is what i strive for.

anyways....for now...that's it...
hope you guys are doing well.
-becca

so yeah.

i'm bummed.

i don't know how to figure this out.  i've never been so confused in my life! 

but i've been really happy the past few days.  little things have been really bugging me though!  so...yeah.  really random and really short.

bye

Ok so I think today I am going to do something nice for someone. I am not sure who it will be or when but it will be today. I think it might even become a yearly thing. On the third of December Austin Mathis will do something nice for someone. Maybe even monthly. Like the monday after the first sunday of that month. Yeah what do you think? Just remember you yes you could be that lucky person!!!

Ok so I am going to do something nice for one lucky person today.  

 what can be good can be BAD if at the wrong time!

 

            Just because something is good DOESNT mean its good now!

 

 

So classes end in 3 days and then I graduate in less than two weeks.

 

AHHHHH

 

Oh and Gray and I have a new blog:

 

http://www.grayandbecca.com/blog

 

Check it out! 

Ok, so last night I went to the cast party for A Midsummer Night's Dream (i was a fairy, it was awsome!!!) Anyway, it was at this guy's house and his parents were out of town (which i did not know.) So after our adult supervision left, ppl started drinking and smoking. So i left. I really thought some of the ppl there were cooler than all of that, but i was wrong. It was a really disappointing night.

i thank You God for most this amazingday:for the leaping greenly spirits of treesand a blue true dream of sky;and for everythingwhich is natural which is infinite which is yes
(i who have died am alive again today,and this is the sun's birthday;this is the birthday of life and love and wings:and of the gaygreat happening illimitably earth)
how should tasting touching hearing seeingbreathing any--lifted from the noof all nothing--human merely beingdoubt unimaginable You?
(now the ears of my ears awake andnow the eyes of my eyes are opened)  -ee cummings 

Today's Verse

If a man shuts his ears to the cry of the poor, he too will cry out and not be answered.

Proverbs 21:13 NIV

So not many people listen to my blogs anyways, so im just gonna ramble….I don’t really expect anyone to read all this… im really just writing for the heck of it & because it will improve my typing skills, and I might as well write about whats been on my mind…       So one of the girls on the mime team has really been an great personal example to me… I cant explain my feelings towards her I mean maybe jealousy(but not the Cain-killed-Abel-kind) and admiration for sure,uhm…  a desire to be close friends with her! & she has a phusebox , but she doesn’t get on a lot…. Introducing miss Savannah Wheeler! She is amazing, and she has been so sweet to everyone. she is hilarious when she has a question just the way she asks it, It makes me laugh. When I got carsick going to .. Columbia,she was right there by my side making sure I was okay! & she even offered me water from her green jug! J she showed me kindness when she didn’t have to. I can’t explain the desire I have to be a better person…. just because of that girl. So  Thanks a lot look alikey! Next topic I know it seems I have no life right now , so today I guess I wont even though there are plenty of things I need to be doing… but sometimes I think i should just need to stop and look at things… ever feel like your kinda just watching life? Like watching yourself do things, you can be the biggest motivation in your life! Its true you know how to threaten yourself, and how to reward yourself.. the only problem with what I just said is enforcing it! A lot of people say I m to hard on myself, that is funny to me because I am capable of a lot more than anything that looks hard to me.  True I am not physically strong, but i have worked as hard as almost any boy my age & when the days finish I had blisters on my hand & My hair thrown every-which-way ive been there….        also, I am concerned about my future I am, but to be honest I am more concerned with the present ,because that will soon be your past, and you have to start living right now to lead up to where you wanna be right later. Besides you can’t do certain things when your 25 you can do when you’re my age… even though I will still have sleepovers when I am old! I am just saying I will not spend every waking minute wishing I was married and being on my own, because those things are great,but no there will be more problems then than now…  I cant pass one part of life dreaming about the next. 1 Tim 4:12 My next topic with my babbling is about these last few months… I have learned a lot… the hard way!! I wouldn’t take back one day that I had a hard day, because of my failure,and mistakes I made I persevered to do whats right,and it took me awhile but im finally where I am way better than was before my life went chaotic… most people don’t have a clue what im talking about awhile back I got depressed,and found myself being lazy, and rude ,and doing stupid things. If you know some of the things I said & I did it wouldn’t make you to happy! But I think it was more of an attitude. it took some time but I found where I should be,and got right again. & with God I am out of that…& im better than I can remember which means something even though I couldn’t remember what I had for breakfast… but its FINE!     Well, Austin & I have been together a little over 3 months,and its funny we ve been through problem after problem,but we worked through them… there were some times when I didn’t feel totally crazy about something he would say or do, but I can accept him for those things, because I knew his reasoning ,and his motives were right well most of the time they were, and when they weren’t I told him how I felt about it.and I know I annoy the heck out of him with things I do,and say too.. he lets me know, most of the time anyways…. & that’s really what I think a relationship is about working through difficulties, seeing other points of views, learning how to relate, and love! We made this promise to each other that we would always be honest, & I hope we always stand on that! Many times ,in the dating scene problems are swept under the rug or not worked out it’s a training ground for divorce not eventually marriage…I know my relationship isn’t perfect for sure,but knowing Austin has patience with me,and things can be worked out is a good thing and brings a good feeling too.  just knowing we made it this far is wonderful, Its amazing how different we are in things… we are both stubborn & hardheaded that is for sure. But we are a lot alike too. What if Austin & I wont last more than a few months well…I would miss him a lot but I would be happy for having those months because he taught me a lot & at least we tried, but I never want to end a relationship because of an argument or misunderstanding.   Next topic this could take awhile you know?I am going to be a Hawaiian girl with a few girls I have selected for a wedding next Saturday, my dad is the preacher & he has to be Elvis. but anyways, I have to watch hawaiian dancer movies , choreograph something & teach it to the girls good enough, to perform for a wedding…. The girls involved are spending the night at my house next Friday .. this will be a blast. If any of you (Carmen Grace, or Tamara would like to get involved especially Carmen because you went to Hawaii & I think you would be good for this) just have one of those Hawaiian dresses you can use , and let me know & ill give you details , it will be great to have any of you in this, & it will be fun!      Oh yeah, I didn’t get my truth & peace stuff I wanted so bad to be in- in time, I will apply for it next year, but Im really upset, because it would’ve been really good for me… it was due in October & I didn’t have it done in time but I have a friend that’s applied for it , & im rooting for him, and I hope he gets in… since I cant anyways, I hope he can!!! Truth & peace i pretty sure I would’ve been in it, too. Thank you Jarred for recommending me :) it meant a lot. By now im positive no one is reading this … Good! It taken me like 25 minutes to lose your attention..Okay so I don’t understand how anyone could hate Christmas!!!(Austin). I mean to me, Christmas is amazing! sure everyone has this fake merry joy happiness to the world & I love you because its Christmas attitude I don’t like that, because its so cliché & put on …but I mean we are supposed to be giving & remembering Christ’s birth,but we shouldn’t just do things because its Christmas, that’s just silly you know! I like Christmas because one it represents the day jesus was born. Two seeing the little kids excited about everything, three Erin comes over & we celebrate the year of being best friends by roasting marshmallows over an open CANDLE!lol.I love Erin! & four its just the lights, and food & ppl being silly.Hmm. This is getting pretty insane right about now… Last night I talked to Angela … we haven’t talked that long in forever! We talked about EVERYTHING…. We talked about high school & how retarded guys are,& how I need to get Austin to bring a friend with him & we can all go to the movies or something. and we talked about Taylor swift songs, and the 8^th grade .. goodness those were the best times ever, about when I did a toe touch and kicked her in the eye, and how we cracked up in science class everyday OVER SILLY things , one time I was texting with a sub in the class and I told him my head hurt, and he is like ahh I see ,and i put my head on the table while texting, and angela is like Elizabeth & I was like not now im texting, and the sub is like oh I see he was standing right behind me! Oh & when I kissed her on the cheek because she won most friendly, & I won most talented… lol. Ahh.. I love Angela Fay!it feels good to catch up! I miss all my school friends everyday at school was a blast! You guys hold on to your best friends okay?      So I really want to go by Erin , but that’s my other best friends name , but I don’t know, I just love  that name & I love it when people call me that, Especially when Austin calls asking for erin, or Jarred sends emails  Saying hey Erin! Or when I get a comment saying hey miss erin! I love it.. I love the name .. hmm… I also love the name Naybe skylar.. but some ppl think it’s a black kids name…ahem.I just really like it, oh what about Jillian fay .. that’s pretty . or Austin Cayson or Brett lacole? Those are so pretty to me… my baby sister named her baby doll after me isn’t that sweet? Well. Kinda .. I mean the Baby is a Boy!!! But it’s the thought that matters anyways!   I think typing is a lot of fun! I think I have an addiction to it.. no seriously. Not like you don’t believe me after seeing all this … but I mean its awesome. Anyways…You know what bugs me …. When ill be crying & someone asks me what wrong it makes me cry harder not sure why. Im like don’t ask me that… I hate it, I hate crying altogether although it does make feel better a lot. I haven’t cried in like 2 weeks, and even then it was just my eyes getting watery nothing serious, and that was at mime practice ,and I felt like an idiot for even doing that….. but I don’t know I deal with teardrops from a lot of ppl & when they do it its okay they can do it,and I don’t think they are being babies or anything! its just me doing it that gets me… when I was in 5^th & 6^th grade there wasn’t a day I prolly hadn’t cried… but tears are serious to me & when you are hurt so bad you cant cry oh that’s the worst! So. Yall remember your not a baby if you cry, and no one is to tough to cry…..

 I think that’s about it. Thank you even though im pretty sure no one read all of this,and if you did & understood it congratulations! You just lost 20 minutes of your life!

-ERIN

"I'll give you this one because it's broken." -Jerel's son Caiden to me while distributing peanut butter cookies among those at their house last night. Thanks, Caiden, thanks.

okay.  i'm sick of being stabbed in the back over and over while each time i keep running back to the knife.

so i'm saying this once and for all:

THIS IS OVER.

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okay....well there's this guy at my school and i've never even talked to him but i feel like i'm supposed to know him.  i think he's really awesome but no one else agrees with me.  i think he's handsome...again, no one agrees.  i don't care.  i want to meet him and i need help!!!  keri, you have to introduce me....(you know who i'm talking about, right??? lol)

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=43IcZNuXQ4g (i could probably find a better one, but this one is funny and good)

 

I've always enjoyed inspirational things, and then again, who doesnt. sometimes when i wonder why i row, i go and watch the video of the mens team that won the olympics for the first time in like 40 years. here's a link to that video too.

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gcthtn3BBN0&feature=related

(it looks easier than it is)

 

people admire the underdog, and why is that. because that is what america was built on, people starting with nothing and finishing ahead. we admire them because we want to do the same thing. we wanna be great. I admire people like Jimmy V. because he was dying yet still made the most out of life. Ya, he's not the only one to do that. there are alot of people that have cancer yet they live thier life like it's just another day. But i believe everyday you should challenge yourself to make the most of what you have, dont worry about what you dont have, and ask yourself what you can do for someone around you.

 

Even if all you do is smile and say hi to the person sitting next to you in class, cause you dont know what they are going through, that could make a world of difference to them. the world isn't perfect, but maybe the little things we do can make a huge difference. i wanna make a difference in the world. i've told some people that before. thats why i wanted to be a teacher. but i was going to have to stay in school for an extra two years.

 

Pat Tillman once said: "Coach, you can do with me what you like, but after four years i'm gone, i've got things to do with my life."

 

If you dont know how Pat Tillman is, he's the guy the football player that gave up his 3.5 million dollar contract to go to Iraq. He was a pretty cool dude if you wanna read about him. I may not be a great athlete, a soldier, or a great scholar, (and there is definately more to life than school, and not everyone needs it so i dont hold it against them), but i know i can make a difference, even if it's a small one, and so can you.

 

so remember four things as you go throughout these next few weeks: 1)make a grand entrance Focus on 2)Family 3)Religion (or whatever is important to you) 4)and the Greenbay Packers

 

Your "Greenbay Packers" can be whatever you want it to be, but try and make it successful.

Why is it that I feel different and the same all in one?

How can I do things different but see things the same?

Do I have alternate motives for you? or for me?

Why are there these other thoughts haunting me?

If I am not ready to jump then why do I try to fly?

If I know my max then why do I put 10 more pounds on the bar?

I don't look back

I look beside me to see what my shadow is.

My shadow is dark with these other feelings, 

How can you fight something that is not real?

Or is it real, how can I tell?

What makes something real?  

I can't see what is there but I know it is.

I can feel what is there but I can't touch it.

I can't fight what has been but I can move what is in front of me.

Can you remeove the black that follows me?

Do I want it to be removed, or is it what keeps me knowing what is real?

If you hate me then why do you say you love me?

If you ask for the truth then why do you deny it?

If you beg me then why do you push me so hard away? 

Where am I going to be with all of this?

Will you be there too, or do you fight hard in the other direction?  

And you're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive, and not dead

 

 

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I have decided to post two songs today. I told someone I would post this for them but I am posting another that is not for the "Song of the Week" it is for "Song for the Austin" 

    Please enjoy Edwin McCain. 

So I have 4 more days of class... forever...

 

It feels so strange to think that in a week I'll be done with class. Craziness. My schedule for the next two and a half weeks is kind of crazy.

 

Monday - presentation

Tuesday - 3 papers due.. yes 3; and Makeup class final and portfolio due

Wed - last day of class

 

Then I have a take home final due the Monday of finals and 3 finals on Thursday 

 

 

crazy 

"A parent can spank their child without abusing them, just like a parent can hug their child without molesting them." -Glenn Beck

 

So true.  

so when drawing this picture i was inspired by a beautiful mime...& i tried to draw her in her exactness( i drew this about a year ago) , & put it on the fridge at my house.... Hannah walks up & says to me "why does tyler have Really dark hair like that, Elizabeth are you colorblind? or you could you not find a yellow crayon?" i was like its not Tyler. then my sister courtney walks up,"Hey Erin! thats a great picture you drew of yourself except you dont have bangs like the picture!" i was like its not me its....then my mom walks in the room.. "oh Elizabeth this is a wonderful picture of Abe!!! you are so talented!"."AH its not Abe its Mckenna!" a few days later then Erin comes over hey Elizabeth is that Levi?or Austin??omg.yeah, i was in bedrest for like 2 weeks after that....lol. just goes to show that its all in the eye of the beholder...
photo from  

 guys Please stop this drama!

If someone does something you dont like , im not trying to be all perfect, but JUST PRAY FOR THEM!!!!!!!!!!! thats all you really need to anyways! :( im sorry guys this will happen many times in life!please stop it! stop yelling at each other we're  on the SAME TEAM!! its making me sad, & i dont like sad!

 well if anyone forgot.. my name is Corey Bryant May... lol The reason i wrote that is because noone talks to me on here.. lol i mean i have alotttttttttttttttttt of friends but this site is dead.. so i thought i would pep it up.. lol

                       

                        I REMEMBER MOMMA

                             THIS FRIDAY AT

                                  7:00pm

                               Creek wood    

   

        I am in it.. and its funny next week is the Christmas carol im also in it as well!! im bob cratchit.. yay.. but im at the schol practicing for i remeber momma b/c the school is coming to see parts of it during school tomarrow and we are building and fixing some of the set... soo i will be here till 8.. blahhhh

                 Life is to good! i want to thank god for everything he has done in my life and all my gooooood friendsss...  and family.. amen..

 

                   IDC WHAT PEOPLE THINK..... LIVE LIFE-- 

                          AND HAVE FUN WHILE DOING IT!

 

                             'GOD BLESS US EVERYONE'       

 

   

 

 

 

               To Elizabeth-- cant wait till you come to school.. lol

 

    Hope every had a great THANKSGIVING!!!!!

 I'M 30% SHY!!!

[] You don't like public speaking.
[] You find it hard to talk to strangers.
[x] You don't like to look people in the eye.
[] being introduced to new people makes you nervous.
[x] you hate to go shopping alone.

TOTAL SO FAR:2

[] When you're in a group of people, its difficult to think of what to say.
[] You have trouble talking to the opposite gender.
[] You hate to be teased.
[] You hate answering the door.

TOTAL SO FAR:2

[x] You don't like to ask people for help.
[] You can't stand people watching you.
[] One on one conversations make you nervous.
[] You hate to read out loud....
[] You don't like answering questions.

TOTAL SO FAR:3

[x] You dread ordering food at restaurants.
[x] You are uncomfortable at parties, unless you know everyone well...
[] You don't like to talk, because you're afraid of being embarrassed by what you say.
[] You wish you were more outgoing.
[] You hate being in the center of any room.

TOTAL SO FAR:5

[] You don't know how to react to compliments.
[] You prefer reading, writing, or listening to music than being around too many people.
[x] You blush easily.
[] you don't like singing in front of a lot of people

TOTAL SO FAR:6

Multiply it by 5

Repost with the title
im __% shy

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 Its another one :P
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2007 IS COMING TO AN END

1. Have you had any relationships this year? no

2. Have you had your birthday yet? Yes

3. Cried yet? yes

4. Been on a diet? cut down on stuff

5. Pulled an all nighter? yeah

6. Drank Starbucks? OH YEAH!!!

7. Went Camping? yes i have very fun...very fun indeed

8. Bought something(s)? uh huh

9. Met someone special? yeah...my stanley!!!  no and hallie too

10. Been out of state? a few times

12. What are you thinking about? too many things ___________________________________________
1.) Hugged someone? why of course

2.) Slept in someone elses bed? yes

3.) Got a job? no not really

4.) Loaned out money? maybe like a dollar

5.) Gotten in a car accident? thank the lord, no

6.) Gone over your mobile phone bill? i don't think...eeesh.

7.) Been called a slut? a hoe.  tyler!

8.) Done something you regret? a few things

LAST:
_________________________________________________________
Last Person you hugged? mrs. shawn

Last Person to call you? mommy

When was the last time you felt stupid? oh i lose track.. it happens so much!  lol

Who did you last yell at? Neely...:(

What did you do today? i...did school

TEN FACTS:
___________________________________________________________
01. Name? cArMeN

02. Natural hair color? blondey browney little bit of reddy

03. Initials? CCF

04. Hair style? cute

05. Eye color? AZUL

06.Height? 5'5.5"

07. Pets? 3 dogs....1 hermit crab...1 rabbit.

08. Mood? crazy

09. Where would you rather be?
houseblend or piano

10. What was the last thing you drank? water

____________________________________________________

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE:

01. Have you ever been in love?
i don't know

02. Do you believe in love? most of the time

03. Why did your LAST relationship fail? um...i don't have relationships

04. Have you ever been heartbroken? ...yeah...

05. Have you ever broken someone’s heart? no.  no one's ever liked me

06. Have you ever fallen for your best friend? sure why not

07. Have you ever liked someone but never told them? yes

08. Are you afraid of commitment? not afraid.

 

10. Have you had more than 5 different serious relationships in your life?
UH no

EMOTIONS
___________________________________________________________
01. Are you missing someone right now? yeah

02. Are you happy? no

03. Are you eating anything? not at the moment.  which is odd.  lol

04. Do you like someone right now? like hate whatever 

so...here goes.

1. Is someone in love with you?
i don't think so...but you might just have to be that person to know!

2. Do you know anyone named Dave?
sadly....

3. What color is your couch?
um...greenish/blackish

4. Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?
not really

5. Have you ever tried Propel Water?
yeah

6. What color are the walls of your bedroom?
lime green

7. Do you think that hair extensions look skanky?
it depends

8. Are you named after a grandparent?
no i don't think...hmmm

9. What did u do yesterday?
went to school and mime and deven-chandler's house

10. What is your greatest fear?
i'm not so sure anymore

11. Are you taller than 5'6"?
AAAAAAAH!  i'm so close!  dang it.

12. Do you know anyone in jail/prison?
no i don't think...but that would explain why i haven't seen her in a while....hmmmm...lol

13. Ever seen a dead body?
yeah

14. Do you like the color green?
most shades.  some i don't like.

15. One of your favorite things?
playing and singing

16. How old are you?
13.  i mean, 14.  sorry.  it was just my birthday

17. Who was the last person to send you a text message??
hallie

18. Ever drove into the ghetto to buy drugs?
HECK YES!  um.  no.

19. Last restaurant you went to?
dunkin donuts!  :) lol 

20. Whats the weather like today?
cold and cold

21. Last voice mail you received?
???  megan calling me to tell me happy bday!

22. What did you do today?
school because i don't skip to go shopping!  lol j/k

23. What's the first thing you would do with five million pounds?
i would convert it to dollars so i could actually do something with it.

24. How much did you sleep last night?
i don't know!

25. Any upcoming concerts you want to attend?
winter wonderslam

26. Who's the last person that you felt was stalking you?
um...i don't have stalkers.  well tyler springer

27. Have you ever been on your school's track team?
no but cross country

28. What jewelry are you wearing?
2 rings

29. What's your middle name?
you will never know.

30. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you?
sure why not

31. Whats your favorite drink?
i like coffee much.  and water is a pretty cool liquid as well.

32. Do you swear at your parents?
heck no.

33. Is your phone right beside you?
it's in front of me...

34. Ever been in a car wreck, while you were driving?

i'm a little kid and i don't drive

35. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
it could happen.  but yes i do

36. Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
no that's annoying

37. Whats the color of your bedsheets?
they are some funky pattern

38. Have you ever crawled through a window?
no.

39. Are you photogenic?
outside!  i know, that's wierd, but my pictures always look better outside.  strange.

41. Where do you spend most of your money?
i dunno.  i don't shop all that much

42. What was the last thing you did?
typed this word.

43. Do you have a tattoo?
no dearie.

44. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
occasionally.

45. Is there a secret you've never told any of your friends?
OH YEAH.

46. Have you ever told someone you loved them, but didn't mean it?
i'm not sure.

47. Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle?
haha yeah

48. What are you doing in 2008?
probably the same old same old

49. What is your ringtone?
i have 3 or four.  like 5 actually

50. What were you doing at 2am last night?
SLEEP like a normal person

When Pigs Fly: The Death of Oink, the Birth of Dissent, and a Brief History of Record Industry Suicide.

 

For quite a long time I've been intending to post some sort of commentary on the music industry - piracy, distribution, morality, those types of things. I've thought about it many times, but never gone through with it, because the issue is such a broad, messy one - such a difficult thing to address fairly and compactly. I knew it would result in a rambly, unfocused commentary, and my exact opinion has teetered back and forth quite a bit over the years anyway. But on Monday, when I woke up to the news that Oink, the world famous torrent site and mecca for music-lovers everywhere, had been shut down by international police and various anti-piracy groups, I knew it was finally time to try and organize my thoughts on this huge, sticky, important issue.

For the past eight years, I've worked on and off with major record labels as a designer ("Major" is an important distinction here, because major labels are an entirely different beast than many indie labels - they're the ones with the power, and they are the ones driving the industry-wide push against piracy). It was 1999 when I got my first taste of the inner-workings of a major record label - I was a young college student, and the inside of a New York label office seemed so vast and exciting. Dozens of worker bees hummed away at their desks on phones and computers. Music posters and stacks of CDs littered every surface. Everyone seemed to have an assistant, and the assistants had assistants, and you couldn't help but wonder "what the hell do all these people do?" I tagged along on $1500 artist dinners paid for by the labels. Massive bar tabs were regularly signed away by record label employees with company cards. You got used to people billing as many expenses back to the record company as they could. I met the type of jive, middle-aged, blazer-wearing, coke-snorting, cartoon character label bigwigs who you'd think were too cliche to exist outside the confines of Spinal Tap. It was all strange and exciting, but one thing that always resonated with me was the sheer volume of money that seemed to be spent without any great deal of concern. Whether it was excessive production budgets or "business lunches" that had nothing to do with business, one of my first reactions to it all was, "so this is why CDs cost $18..." An industry of excess. But that's kind of what you expected from the music business, right? It's where rock stars are made. It's where you get stretch limos with hot tubs in the back, where you get private jets and cocaine parties. Growing up in the '80's, with pop royalty and hair metal bands, you were kind of led to think, of course record labels blow money left and right - there's just so much of it to go around! Well, you know what they say: The bigger they are...

In those days, "piracy" was barely even a word in the music world. My friends and I traded MP3s in college over the local network, but they were scattered and low-quality. It felt like a novelty - like a digital version of duping a cassette tape - hardly a replacement for CDs. CDs sounded good and you could bring them with you in your DiscMan, and the only digital music you could get was as good as your friends' CD collections, anyway. It never occurred to any of us that digital files were the future. But as it turned out, lots of kids, in lots of colleges around the world, had the same idea of sharing MP3 files over their local networks, and eventually, someone paid attention to that idea and made Napster. Suddenly, it was like all those college networks were tied together, and you could find all this cool stuff online. It was easier and more efficient than record stores, it was powered by music fans, and, well, it was free. Suddenly you didn't have to pay 15 to 18 bucks for an album and hope it was good, you could download some tracks off the internet and check it out first. But you still always bought the CD if you liked it - I mean, who wants all their music to be on the computer? I sure didn't. But increasingly, more and more people did. For college kids, Napster was a Godsend, because you can all but guarantee two things about most college kids: They love music, and they're dirt poor. So it grew, and it grew, and it started to grow into the mainstream, and that's when the labels woke up and realized something important was happening. At that point they could have seen it as either a threat or an opportunity, and they, without hesitation, determined it to be a threat. It was a threat because essentially someone had come up with a better, free distribution method for the labels' product. To be fair, you can imagine how confusing this must have been for them - is there even a historical precedent for an industry's products suddenly being able to replicate and distribute on their own, without cost?

For quite a while - long after most tech-savvy music lovers - I resisted the idea of stealing music. Of course I would download MP3s - I downloaded a lot of stuff - but I would always make sure to buy the physical CD if it was something I liked. I knew a lot of musicians, a lot of them bewildered at what was happening to the industry they used to understand. People were downloading their music en masse, gorging on this new frontier like pigs at a troff - and worst of all, they felt entitled to do so. It was like it was okay simply because the technology existed that made it possible. But it wasn't okay - I mean, let's face it, no matter how you rationalized it, it was stealing, and because the technology existed to hotwire a car didn't make that okay, either. The artists lost control of distribution: They couldn't present albums the way they wanted to, in a package with nice artwork. They couldn't reveal it the way they wanted to, because music pirates got the albums online well before the actual release date. Control had been taken away from everyone who used to have it. It was a scary time in unfamiliar territory, where suddenly music fans became enemies to the artists and companies they had supported for years. It led to laughable hyperbole from bands like Metallica, instantly the poster-children of cry-baby rich rock stars, and the beginning of the image problem the industry has faced in its handling of the piracy issue. But still, at the time, I understood where they were coming from. Most musicians weren't rich like Metallica, and needed all the album sales they could get for both income and label support. Plus, it was their art, and they had created it - why shouldn't they be able to control how it's distributed, just because some snotty, acne-faced internet kids had found a way to cheat the system? And these entitled little internet brats, don't they realize that albums cost money to create, and to produce, and to promote? How is there going to be any new music if no one's paying for it?

On top of that, I couldn't get into the idea of an invisible music library that lives on my computer. Where's the artwork? Where's my collection? I want the booklet, the packaging... I want shelves and shelves of albums that I've spent years collecting, that I can pore over and impress my friends with... I want to flip through the pages, and hold the CD in my hand... Being a kid who got into music well past the days of vinyl, CDs were all I had, and they still felt important to me.

It's all changed.

In a few short years, the aggressive push of technology combined with the arrogant response from the record industry has rapidly worn away all of my noble intentions of clinging to the old system, and has now pushed me into full-on dissent. I find myself fully immersed in digital music, almost never buying CDs, and fully against the methods of the major record labels and the RIAA. And I think it would do the music industry a lot of good to pay attention to why - because I'm just one of millions, and there will be millions more in the years to come. And it could have happened very, very differently.

As the years have passed, and technology has made digital files the most convenient, efficient, and attractive method of listening to music for many people, the rules and cultural perceptions regarding music have changed drastically. We live in the iPod generation - where a "collection" of clunky CDs feels archaic - where the uniqueness of your music collection is limited only by how eclectic your taste is. Where it's embraced and expected that if you like an album, you send it to your friend to listen to. Whether this guy likes it or not, iPods have become synonymous with music - and if I filled my shiny new 160gb iPod up legally, buying each track online at the 99 cents price that the industry has determined, it would cost me about $32,226. How does that make sense? It's the ugly truth the record industry wants to ignore as they struggle to find ways to get people to pay for music in a culture that has already embraced the idea of music being something you collect in large volumes, and trade freely with your friends.

Already is the key word, because it didn't have to be this way, and that's become the main source of my utter lack of sympathy for the dying record industry: They had a chance to move forward, to evolve with technology and address the changing needs of consumers - and they didn't. Instead, they panicked - they showed their hand as power-hungry dinosaurs, and they started to demonize their own customers, the people whose love of music had given them massive profits for decades. They used their unfair record contracts - the ones that allowed them to own all the music - and went after children, grandparents, single moms, even deceased great grandmothers - alongside many other common people who did nothing more than download some songs and leave them in a shared folder - something that has become the cultural norm to the iPod generation. Joining together in what has been referred to as an illegal cartel and using the RIAA as their attack dogs, the record labels have spent billions of dollars attempting to scare people away from downloading music. And it's simply not working. The pirating community continues to out-smart and out-innovate the dated methods of the record companies, and CD sales continue to plummet while exchange of digital music on the internet continues to skyrocket. Why? Because freely-available music in large quantities is the new cultural norm, and the industry has given consumers no fair alternative. They didn't jump in when the new technologies were emerging and think, "how can we capitalize on this to ensure that we're able to stay afloat while providing the customer what they've come to expect?" They didn't band together and create a flat monthly fee for downloading all the music you want. They didn't respond by drastically lowering the prices of CDs (which have been ludicrously overpriced since day one, and actually increased in price during the '90's), or by offering low-cost DRM-free legal MP3 purchases. Their entry into the digital marketplace was too little too late - a precedent of free, high-quality, DRM-free music had already been set.

There seem to be a lot of reasons why the record companies blew it. One is that they're really not very smart. They know how to do one thing, which is sell records in a traditional retail environment. From personal experience I can tell you that the big labels are beyond clueless in the digital world - their ideas are out-dated, their methods make no sense, and every decision is hampered by miles and miles of legal tape, copyright restrictions, and corporate interests. Trying to innovate with a major label is like trying to teach your Grandmother how to play Halo 3: frustrating and ultimately futile. The easiest example of this is how much of a fight it's been to get record companies to sell MP3s DRM-free. You're trying to explain a new technology to an old guy who made his fortune in the hair metal days. You're trying to tell him that when someone buys a CD, it has no DRM - people can encode it into their computer as DRM-free MP3s within seconds, and send it to all their friends. So why insult the consumer by making them pay the same price for copy-protected MP3s? It doesn't make any sense! It just frustrates people and drives them to piracy! They don't get it: "It's an MP3, you have to protect it or they'll copy it." But they can do the same thing with the CDs you already sell!! Legal tape and lots of corporate bullshit. If these people weren't the ones who owned the music, it'd all be over already, and we'd be enjoying the real future of music. Because like with any new industry, it's not the people from the previous generation who are going to step in and be the innovators. It's a new batch.

Newspapers are a good example: It used to be that people read newspapers to get the news. That was the distribution method, and newspaper companies controlled it. You paid for a newspaper, and you got your news, that's how it worked. Until the internet came along, and a new generation of innovative people created websites, and suddenly anyone could distribute information, and they could distribute it faster, better, more efficiently, and for free. Obviously this hurt the newspaper industry, but there was nothing they could do about it, because they didn't own the information itself - only the distribution method. Their only choice was to innovate and find ways to compete in a new marketplace. And you know what? Now I can get live, up-to-the-minute news for free, on thousands of different sources across the internet - and The New York Times still exists. Free market capitalism at its finest. It's not a perfect example, but it is a part of how the internet is changing every form of traditional media. It happened with newspapers, it's happening now with music, and TV and cell phones are next on the chopping block. In all cases technology demands that change will happen, it's just a matter of who will find ways to take advantage of it, and who won't.

Unlike newspapers, record companies own the distribution and the product being distributed, so you can't just start your own website where you give out music that they own - and that's what this is all about: distribution. Lots of pro-piracy types argue that music can be free because people will always love music, and they'll pay for concert tickets, and merchandise, and the marketplace will shift and artists will survive. Well, yes, that might be an option for some artists, but that does nothing to help the record labels, because they don't make any money off of merchandise, or concert tickets. Distribution and ownership are what they control, and those are the two things piracy threatens. The few major labels left are parts of giant media conglomerations - owned by huge parent companies for whom artists and albums are just numbers on a piece of paper. It's why record companies shove disposable pop crap down your throat instead of nurturing career artists: because they have CEOs and shareholders to answer to, and those people don't give a shit if a really great band has the potential to get really successful, if given the right support over the next decade. They see that Gwen Stefani's latest musical turd sold millions, because parents of twelve year old girls still buy music for their kids, and the parent company demands more easy-money pop garbage that will be forgotten about next month. The only thing that matters to these corporations is profit - period. Music isn't thought of as an art form, as it was in the earlier days of the industry where labels were started by music-lovers - it's a product, pure and simple. And many of these corporations also own the manufacturing plants that create the CDs, so they make money on all sides - and lose money even from legal MP3s.

At the top of all this is the rigged, outdated, and unfair structure of current intellectual property laws, all of them in need of massive reform in the wake of the digital era. These laws allow the labels to maintain their stranglehold on music copyrights, and they allow the RIAA to sue the pants off of any file-sharing grandmother they please. Since the labels are owned by giant corporations with a great deal of money, power, and political influence, the RIAA is able to lobby politicians and government agencies to manipulate copyright laws for their benefit. The result is absurdly disproportionate fines, and laws that in some cases make file sharing a heftier charge than armed robbery. This is yet another case of private, corporate interests using political influence to turn laws in the opposite direction of the changing values of the people. Or, as this very smart assessment from a record executive described it: "a clear case of a multinational conglomerate using its political muscle to the disadvantage of everyone but itself." But shady political maneuvers and scare tactics are all the RIAA and other anti-piracy groups have left, because people who download music illegally now number in the hundreds of millions, and they can't sue everyone. At this point they're just trying to hold up what's left of the dam before it bursts open. Their latest victim is Oink, a popular torrent site specializing in music.

If you're not familiar with Oink, here's a quick summary: Oink was was a free members-only site - to join it you had to be invited by a member. Members had access to an unprecedented community-driven database of music. Every album you could ever imagine was just one click away. Oink's extremely strict quality standards ensured that everything on the site was at pristine quality - 192kbps MP3 was their bare minimum, and they championed much higher quality MP3s as well as FLAC lossless downloads. They encouraged logs to verify that the music had been ripped from the CD without any errors. Transcodes - files encoded from other encoded files, resulting in lower quality - were strictly forbidden. You were always guaranteed higher quality music than iTunes or any other legal MP3 store. Oink's strict download/share ratio ensured that every album in their vast database was always well-seeded, resulting in downloads faster than anywhere else on the internet. A 100mb album would download in mere seconds on even an average broadband connection. Oink was known for getting pre-release albums before anyone else on the internet, often months before they hit retail - but they also had an extensive catalogue of music dating back decades, fueled by music lovers who took pride in uploading rare gems from their collection that other users were seeking out. If there was an album you couldn't find on Oink, you only had to post a request for it, and wait for someone who had it to fill your request. Even if the request was extremely rare, Oink's vast network of hundreds of thousands of music-lovers eager to contribute to the site usually ensured you wouldn't have to wait long.

In this sense, Oink was not only an absolute paradise for music fans, but it was unquestionably the most complete and most efficient music distribution model the world has ever known. I say that safely without exaggeration. It was like the world's largest music store, whose vastly superior selection and distribution was entirely stocked, supplied, organized, and expanded upon by its own consumers. If the music industry had found a way to capitalize on the power, devotion, and innovation of its own fans the way Oink did, it would be thriving right now instead of withering. If intellectual property laws didn't make Oink illegal, the site's creator would be the new Steve Jobs right now. He would have revolutionized music distribution. Instead, he's a criminal, simply for finding the best way to fill rising consumer demand. I would have gladly paid a large monthly fee for a legal service as good as Oink - but none existed, because the music industry could never set aside their own greed and corporate bullshit to make it happen.

Here's an interesting aside: The RIAA loves to complain about music pirates leaking albums onto the internet before they're released in stores - painting the leakers as vicious pirates dead set on attacking their enemy, the music industry. But you know where music leaks from? From the fucking source, of course - the labels! At this point, most bands know that once their finished album is sent off to the label, the risk of it turning up online begins, because the labels are full of low-level workers who happen to be music fans who can't wait to share the band's new album with their friends. If the album manages to not leak directly from the label, it is guaranteed to leak once it heads off to manufacturing. Someone at the manufacturing plant is always happy to sneak off with a copy, and before long, it turns up online. Why? Because people love music, and they can't wait to hear their favorite band's new album! It's not about profit, and it's not about maliciousness. So record industry, maybe if you could protect your own assets a little better, shit wouldn't leak - don't blame the fans who flock to the leaked material online, blame the people who leak it out of your manufacturing plants in the first place! But assuming that's a hole too difficult to plug, it begs the question, "why don't labels adapt to the changing nature of distribution by selling new albums online as soon as they're finished, before they have a chance to leak, and release the physical CDs a couple months later?" Well, for one, labels are still obsessed with Billboard chart numbers - they're obsessed with determining the market value of their product by how well it fares in its opening week. Selling it online before the big retail debut, before they've had months to properly market the product to ensure success, would mess up those numbers (nevermind that those numbers mean absolutely nothing anymore). Additionally, selling an album online before it hits stores makes retail outlets (who are also suffering in all this) angry, and retail outlets have far more power than they should. For example, if a record company releases an album online but Wal-Mart won't have the CD in their stores for another two months (because it needs to be manufactured), Wal-Mart gets mad. Who cares if Wal-Mart gets mad, you ask? Well, record companies do, because Wal-Mart is, both mysteriously and tragically, the largest music retailer in the world. That means they have power, and they can say "if you sell Britney Spears' album online before we can sell it in our stores, we lose money. So if you do that, we're not going to stock her album at all, and then you'll lose a LOT of money." That kind of greedy business bullshit happens all the time in the record industry, and the consistent result is a worse experience for consumers and music lovers.

Which is why Oink was so great - take away all the rules and legal ties, all the ownership and profit margins, and naturally, the result is something purely for, by, and in service of the music fan. And it actually helps musicians - file-sharing is "the greatest marketing tool ever to come along for the music industry." One of Oink's best features was how it allowed users to connect similar artists, and to see what people who liked a certain band also liked. Similar to Amazon's recommendation system, it was possible to spend hours discovering new bands on Oink, and that's what many of its users did. Through sites like Oink, the amount and variety of music I listen to has skyrocketed, opening me up to hundreds of artists I never would have experienced otherwise. I'm now fans of their music, and I may not have bought their CDs, but I would have never bought their CD anyway, because I would have never heard of them! And now that I have heard of them, I go to their concerts, and I talk them up to my friends, and give my friends the music to listen to for themselves, so they can go to the concerts, and tell their friends, and so on. Oink was a network of music lovers sharing and discovering music. And yes, it was all technically illegal, and destined to get shut down, I suppose. But it's not so much that they shut Oink down that boils my blood, it's the fucking bullshit propaganda they put out there. If the industry tried to have some kind of compassion - if they said, "we understand that these are just music fans trying to listen to as much music as they can, but we have to protect our assets, and we're working on an industry-wide solution to accommodate the changing needs of music fans"... Well, it's too late for that, but it would be encouraging. Instead, they make it sound like they busted a Columbian drug cartel or something. They describe it as a highly-organized piracy ring. Like Oink users were distributing kiddie porn or some shit. The press release says: "This was not a case of friends sharing music for pleasure." Wh - what?? That's EXACTLY what it was! No one made any money on that site - there were no ads, no registration fees. The only currency was ratio - the amount you shared with other users - a brilliant way of turning "free" into a sort of booming mini-economy. The anti-piracy groups have tried to spin the notion that you had to pay a fee to join Oink, which is NOT true - donations were voluntary, and went to support the hosting and maintenance of the site. If the donations spilled into profit for the guy who ran the site, well he damn well deserved it - he created something truly remarkable.

So the next question is, what now?

For the major labels, it's over. It's fucking over. You're going to burn to the fucking ground, and we're all going to dance around the fire. And it's your own fault. Surely, somewhere deep inside, you had to know this day was coming, right? Your very industry is founded on an unfair business model of owning art you didn't create in exchange for the services you provide. It's rigged so that you win every time - even if the artist does well, you do ten times better. It was able to exist because you controlled the distribution, but now that's back in the hands of the people, and you let the ball drop when you could have evolved.

None of this is to say that there's no way for artists to make money anymore, or even that it's the end of record labels. It's just the end of record labels as we know them. A lot of people point to the Radiohead model as the future, but Radiohead is only dipping its toe into the future to test the waters. What at first seemed like a rainbow-colored revolution has now been openly revealed as a marketing gimmick: Radiohead was "experimenting," releasing a low-quality MP3 version of an album only to punish the fans who paid for it by later releasing a full-quality CD version with extra tracks. According to Radiohead's manager: "If we didn't believe that when people hear the music they will want to buy the CD then we wouldn't do what we are doing." Ouch. Radiohead was moving in the right direction, but if they really want to start a revolution, they need to place the "pay-what-you-want" digital album on the same content and quality level as the "pay-what-we-want" physical album.

Ultimately, I don't know what the future model is going to be - I think all the current pieces of the puzzle will still be there, but they need to be re-ordered, and the rules need to be changed. Maybe record labels of the future exist to help front recording costs and promote artists, but they don't own the music. Maybe music is free, and musicians make their money from touring and merchandise, and if they need a label, the label takes a percentage of their tour and merch profits. Maybe all-digital record companies give bands all the tools they need to sell their music directly to their fans, taking a small percentage for their services. In any case, the artists own their own music.

I used to reject the wishy-washy "music should be free!" mantra of online music thieves. I knew too much about the intricacies and economics of it, of the rock-and-a-hard-place situation many artists were in with their labels. I thought there were plenty of new ways to sell music that would be fair to all parties involved. But I no longer believe that, because the squabbling, backwards, greedy, ownership-obsessed major labels will never let it happen, and that's more clear to me now than ever. So maybe music has to be free. Maybe taking the money out of music is the only way to get money back into it. Maybe it's time to abandon the notion of the rock star - of music as a route to fame and fortune. The best music was always made by people who weren't in it for the money, anyway. Maybe smart, talented musicians will find ways to make a good living with or without CD sales. Maybe the record industry execs who made their fortunes off of unfair contracts and distribution monopolies should just walk away, confident that they milked a limited opportunity for all it was worth, and that it's time to find fortune somewhere else. Maybe in the hands of consumers, the music marketplace will expand in new and lucrative ways no one can even dream of yet. We won't know until music is free, and eventually it's going to be. Technological innovation destroys old industries, but it creates new ones. You can't fight it forever.

Until the walls finally come down, we're in what will inevitably be looked back on as a very awkward, chaotic period in music history - fans are being arrested for sharing the music they love, and many artists are left helpless, unable to experiment with new business models because they're locked into record contracts with backwards-thinking labels.

So what can you and I do to help usher in the brave new world? The beauty of Oink was how fans willingly and hyper-efficiently took on distribution roles that traditionally have cost labels millions of dollars. Music lovers have shown that they're much more willing to put time and effort into music than they are money. It's time to show artists that there's no limit to what an energized online fanbase can accomplish, and all they'll ever ask for in return is more music. And it's time to show the labels that they missed a huge opportunity by not embracing these opportunities when they had the chance.

1. Stop buying music from major labels. Period. The only way to force change is to hit the labels where it hurts - their profits. The major labels are like Terry Schiavo right now - they're on life support, drooling in a coma, while white-haired guys in suits try and change the laws to keep them alive. But any rational person can see that it's too late, and it's time to pull out the feeding tube. In this case, the feeding tube is your money. Find out which labels are members/supporters of the RIAA and similar copyright enforcement groups, and don't support them in any way. The RIAA Radar is a great tool to help you with this. Don't buy CDs, don't buy iTunes downloads, don't buy from Amazon, etc. Steal the music you want that's on the major labels. It's easy, and despite the RIAA's scare tactics, it can be done safely - especially if more and more people are doing it. Send letters to those labels, and to the RIAA, explaining very calmly and professionally that you will no longer be supporting their business, because of their bullish scare tactics towards music fans, and their inability to present a forward-thinking digital distribution solution. Tell them you believe their business model is outdated and the days of companies owning artists' music are over. Make it very clear that you will continue to support the artists directly in other ways, and make it VERY clear that your decision has come about as a direct result of the record company's actions and inactions regarding digital music.

2. Support artists directly. If a band you like is stuck on a major label, there are tons of ways you can support them without actually buying their CD. Tell everyone you know about them - start a fansite if you're really passionate. Go to their shows when they're in town, and buy t-shirts and other merchandise. Here's a little secret: Anything a band sells that does not have music on it is outside the reach of the record label, and monetarily supports the artist more than buying a CD ever would. T-shirts, posters, hats, keychains, stickers, etc. Send the band a letter telling them that you're no longer going to be purchasing their music, but you will be listening to it, and you will be spreading the word and supporting them in other ways. Tell them you've made this decision because you're trying to force change within the industry, and you no longer support record labels with RIAA affiliations who own the music of their artists.

If you like bands who are releasing music on open, non-RIAA indie labels, buy their albums! You'll support the band you like, and you'll support hard-working, passionate people at small, forward-thinking music labels. If you like bands who are completely independent and are releasing music on their own, support them as much as possible! Pay for their music, buy their merchandise, tell all your friends about them and help promote them online - prove that a network of passionate fans is the best promotion a band can ask for.

3. Get the message out. Get this message out to as many people as you can - spread the word on your blog or your MySpace, and more importantly, tell your friends at work, or your family members, people who might not be as tuned into the internet as you are. Teach them how to use torrents, show them where to go to get music for free. Show them how to support artists while starving the labels, and who they should and shouldn't be supporting.

4. Get political. The fast-track to ending all this nonsense is changing intellectual property laws. The RIAA lobbies politicians to manipulate copyright laws for their own interests, so voters need to lobby politicians for the peoples' interests. Contact your local representatives and senators. Tell them politely and articulately that you believe copyright laws no longer reflect the interests of the people, and you will not vote for them if they support the interests of the RIAA. Encourage them to draft legislation that helps change the outdated laws and disproportionate penalties the RIAA champions. Contact information for state representatives can be found here, and contact information for senators can be found here. You can email them, but calling on the phone or writing them actual letters is always more effective.


Tonight, with Oink gone, I find myself wondering where I'll go now to discover new music. All the other options - particularly the legal ones - seem depressing by comparison. I wonder how long it will be before everyone can legally experience the type of music nirvana Oink users became accustomed to? I'm not too worried - something even better will rise out of Oink's ashes, and the RIAA will respond with more lawsuits, and the cycle will repeat itself over and over until the industry has finally bled itself to death. And then everything will be able to change, and it will be in the hands of musicians and fans and a new generation of entrepreneurs to decide how the new record business is going to work. Whether you agree with it or not, it's fact. It's inevitable - because the determination of fans to share music is much, much stronger than the determination of corporations to stop it.

If I were you would pretend like I didn't even see this blog. (just ignore it)

    Ok so I am going to start saying with my hate for the world is complete, I can now say whole....not heartedly, I deny having one. Ok...I can now say with everything in me that I hate the world. For all of those who still admire the world I am attracted to your ignorance. There are no good people. Only people who do mostly bad and some good. What is good anyways. What is the point in it?

    Now on to my next ramble. I hate those little survey things. gosh they are annoying, especially when everyone is doing them dang post something meaningful. I am guilty of posting one or two myself. But gosh do you really think anyone cares what you were doing 30 min ago? Heck I don't care what you are doing now or tomorrow. Yes I know YOU don't care what I think, then let me ask you one question if you don't care what I think, then why are you reading this? Maybe more of a question for yourself and not me.

    For those of you who know or have anything to do with the mime team then maybe you will understand my next ramble. It is turning into, for lack of a better word, crap. The parents think that they can control everything and that it matters who is doing what and who with. That only matters if they are doing it at mime. Let parents be parents at home that is why they are here not to tell everyone elses kids that they are doing something wrong. My mom may have not been the best example to say that she is guiding me in the right direction but Amber and Aaron are doing a heck of a job. What I do with that is up to me and my personal convictions. So maybe you should read this verse Matthew 7:3  please follow this link to the biblegateway NASB version of the verse. Now not that the students aren't doing a great job, because they are, they are doing better than I could have ever imagened me doing. Great job team, I give no recoginition to the parents, although there are some good ones. Some that I respect, there aren't many of them, there aren't many worth respect.

     With all of that said, or typed, I wish a good day to all.   

EIGHT Last's:

1. Last drink: orange juice

3. Last phone call: megan

4. Last text message: megan

5. Last CD played: christmas CD in mom's car

6. Last bubble bath: when i was little 

7. Last time you cried: I'm always crying

8. Last meal: like an hour ago

 

Have You’s:

1. Have you ever dated someone twice? no

2. Have you ever been cheated on? i hope not

4. Have you ever kissed someone & regretted it? i've never kissed anyone

5. Have you ever lost someone? yes, forever and ever

6. Have you ever been depressed? am currently

7. Have you ever been drunk and thrown up? ask me no questions i'll tell you no lies.

 

Name SIX things you did in the past three days:

1. washed my feet

2. danced the fairy dance

3. blew a bubble-gum bubble

4. yelled at my sister

5. watched a baptism

6. breathed (is that a word??)

 

List FIVE people you can tell pretty much anything to

1. God

2. Megan

3. Batey

4. Carmen

5. Myself

(the key words are "pretty much")

 

List THREE favorite colors

1. Yellow

2. Purple

3. Pink/Green

 

List TWO things you want to do before you die

1. be the best Christian i can be

2. let it all go and not have to worry at all about anything; perferably while dancing in the rain with my one true love on  vacation to some wonderful places all aroung the world.

 

SO FAR IN 07…

1.Been to school - sadly, yes 

2.Made a new friend - indeed

3.Fallen out of love - pshaw, i dont know what love is.

4.Done something you swore never to do- now that's an interesting question........ya, i suppose so

5.Laughed until you cried - ha! i did within the past week!

6.Went behind your friends back - oh yeah, definatly. regreting every second of it.

7.Met someone who changed your life - I'll never be the same.

8.Gotten close to someone - yeah, i did. life would be so sad if you were not close to people.

9.Found out who your true friends are- kinda a hard thing to come to terms with, isn't it? yes, i did.

 

1. Do you have a crush? i have a boyfriend

2. Who is the best hugger that you know? Mom

3. Do you believe in love at first sight? it could happen...

4. Is there something you want to tell someone? if i know a person at all, i want to tell them something.

5. What brand of shirt are you wearing? something from macy's

6. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends? maybe ;)

7. Do you have “A thing” for anyone on your top friends? yes, a relationship

8. How many people on your top friends? sorry, can't remember!!!

9. How many kids do you want to have? 3 or more

10.Do you have a good relationship with your parents? They know what i want them to know. 

11.Do you wanna change your name? No

12. What did you do for your last birthday? sleepover

13. What time did you wake up today? 6:30ish

14.What were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping, surprisingly

15. Name something you CANNOT wait to do: get out of geometry

16. Last time you saw your dad? like 2 hours ago

17. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself? be more smart

 18. Which hand do you like better? right

 19. What are you listening to right now? the TV/radio/little voices

 20. Have you ever talked to Tom? O_o* Tom? Who what?

21. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? yes

22. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? yes

23. Least favorite month?January/Febuary

24. What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? tank top 

25. Who’s getting on your nerves right now? Mr. T

26. Most visited webpage?  phusebox

27. Would you help one of your best friends fight if he/she was losing?  I would help them if they were winning.

 28. Coke or Pepsi? neither

 29. What’s the worst day of your life? when my great-grandmother died. She is still the closest person to me.

 30. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world? No, let the murder and hate continue.

 31. Do you think there’s some models/people out there, that should lose a few pounds? some people's lives are in serious danger because of weight issues. So, ya.

1. Is someone in love with you?
I don't know, but i highly dought it. 

2. Do you know anyone named Dave?
Alas, no

3. What color is your couch?
it's a swirly-like pattern with lots of browns and tans

4. Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?
prolly at some point, but i cant remember any specifics.

5. Have you ever tried Propel Water?
yes and it is nasty
6. What color are the walls of your bedroom?
lime green

7. Do you think that hair extensions look skanky?
Skanky is a funny word.

8. Are you named after a grandparent?
nope

9. What did u do yesterday?
I went to Church, hang out around the house... yeah thats about it

10. What is your greatest fear?
going to hell

11. Are you taller than 5'6"?
i think i am 5'6..........or taller

12. Do you know anyone in jail/prison?
well,not personaly but i see all those peeps on the news and stuff. I know of people in jail.

13. Ever seen a dead body?
Unfortunaly

14. Do you like the color green?
course i do

15. One of your favorite things?
brown paper packages tied up with string

16. How old are you?
 14. Woop diddy

17. Who was the last person to send you a text message??
beautiful, wongerful Megan

18. Ever drove into the ghetto to buy drugs?
who dosn't??!?!?!?!?? (lol j/k)

19. Last restaurant you went to?
Chili's 

20. Whats the weather like today?
Cold and rainy.

21. Last voice mail you received?
prolly Megan but idk for sure

22. What did you do today?
school. it was as spectacular as reciving a basket of kittens.

dead kittens.

23. What's the first thing you would do with five million pounds?
move to England to spend them

24. How much did you sleep last night?
sleep @ ten-thirty awake @ six-thirty

25. Any upcoming concerts you want to attend?
not that i know of.

26. Who's the last person that you felt was stalking you?
some mexican who kept callin my phone.

27. Have you ever been on your school's track team?
hahahoheha. that's funny, good one.

28. What jewelry are you wearing?
a ring and thats it

29. What's your middle name?
like i would tell you.

30. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you?
pshaw, what else would i do? Stay home? Hahahe, you really are funny.

31. Whats your favorite drink?
orange soda

32. Do you swear at your parents?
every day!! what's a sentence without a curse word????? ;)

33. Is your phone right beside you?
i wish.........i really need to find it................

34. Ever been in a car wreck, while you were driving? 

I cant drive. the Lord is blessing the good people of dickson.

35. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Well, if someone is reading this and learning all this personal info about me, then prolly.

36. Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
i dont wear shoes with laces.

37. Whats the color of your bedsheets?
they are striped with lots of colors

38. Have you ever crawled through a window?
i dont think so..........

39. Are you photogenic?
absolutly not

41. Where do you spend most of your money?
trip to Europe

42. What was the last thing you did?
typed "trip to Europe"

43. Do you have a tattoo?
ya. it's right in the center of my back and it says "tattoos are gay."

44. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
no, i watch cartoons all the time.

45. Is there a secret you've never told any of your friends?
Yes.

46. Have you ever told someone you loved them, but didn't mean it?
I say "i love you" to people i've barley even met. bad habit, really. But i love everyone with the love of the Lord.

47. Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle?
haha, good times.

48. What are you doing in 2008?
sorry, i cant predict the future. (actually, i can, but yall dont know that) 

49. What is your ringtone?
my fone is always on vibrate

50. What were you doing at 2am last night?
partyin like a rockstar *coughsleepingcough*

 

[x] You don't like public speaking.
[] You find it hard to talk to strangers.
[] You don't like to look people in the eye.
[] being introduced to new people makes you nervous.
[] you hate to go shopping alone.

TOTAL SO FAR:1

[] When you're in a group of people, its difficult to think of what to say.
[] You have trouble talking to the opposite gender.
[] You hate to be teased.
[] You hate answering the door.

TOTAL SO FAR:1

[x] You don't like to ask people for help.
[x] You can't stand people watching you.
[] One on one conversations make you nervous.
[x] You hate to read out loud....
[x] You don't like answering questions.

TOTAL SO FAR:5

[] You dread ordering food at restaurants.
[] You are uncomfortable at parties, unless you know everyone well...
[] You don't like to talk, because you're afraid of being embarrassed by what you say.
[] You wish you were more outgoing.
[] You hate being in the center of any room.

TOTAL SO FAR:5

[] You don't know how to react to compliments.
[x] You prefer reading, writing, or listening to music than being around too many people.
[] You blush easily.
[x] you don't like singing in front of a lot of people

TOTAL SO FAR:7

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2007 IS COMING TO AN END

1. Have you had any relationships this year? Yeah i suppose you would say that 

2. Have you had your birthday yet? Yes

3. Cried yet?Yeah

4. Been on a diet? Have you met me..lol that would be a BIG NO!

5. Pulled an all nighter? i like my sleep :)

6. Drank Starbucks? Nope

7. Went Camping? YES

8. Bought something(s)? Probably but i dont know what

9. Met someone special? Sure

10. Been out of state? Yeah

12. What are you thinking about? a lot of stuff
___________________________________________
1.) Hugged someone? Yeah

2.) Slept in someone elses bed? no but i slept on someone elses couch.

3.) Got a job? nope

4.) Loaned out money? yeah not much though

5.) Gotten in a car accident? no thank goodness

6.) Gone over your mobile phone bill? no

7.) Been called a slut? haha not that i know of

8.) Done something you regret? no

LAST:
_________________________________________________________
Last Person you hugged? Sarah

Last Person to call you? My mom

When was the last time you felt stupid? That would be EVERY day :P

Who did you last yell at? i think it was Sam

What did you do today? went shopping with my sister and the Twins (they are so cute) :P

TEN FACTS:
___________________________________________________________
01. Name? GRACE

02. Natural hair color? Brown

03. Initials? SGB

04. Hair style? ... uhmmm i dont know :P

05. Eye color? blueish - greenish

06.Height? i dont know... lol but short :)

07. Pets? 1 dog, 2 cats, 1 horse

08. Mood? Tired

09. Where would you rather be?
... uhmm hanging out with friends would be nice :)

10. What was the last thing you drank? COFFEE

____________________________________________________

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE:

01. Have you ever been in love?
yeah.

02. Do you believe in love? yes

03. Why did your LAST relationship fail? not so much fail

04. Have you ever been heartbroken? Yes many times

05. Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Not quite sure...i dont think so

06. Have you ever fallen for your best friend? No

07. Have you ever liked someone but never told them? yeah

08. Are you afraid of commitment? nope, although i hardly ever get them :P lol

10. Have you had more than 5 different serious relationships in your life?
nope

EMOTIONS
___________________________________________________________
01. Are you missing someone right now? yes

02. Are you happy? yeah

03. Are you eating anything? nope

04. Do you like someone right now? i'm trying just to get through life at the moment...adding a guy isn't going to help me all that much.

1. Is someone in love with you?
I dont know, you would have to ask them

2. Do you know anyone named Dave?
Yeah

3. What color is your couch?
its got a lot of colors... its got Greens, Blues, Reds... lots of color :)

4. Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?
LoL Seth calls me Sam all the time

5. Have you ever tried Propel Water?
Nope

6. What color are the walls of your bedroom?
Tan

7. Do you think that hair extensions look skanky?
Sometimes.

8. Are you named after a grandparent?
I dont think so....

9. What did u do yesterday?
I went to Church, hang out around the house... yeah thats about it

10. What is your greatest fear?
being forgotten

11. Are you taller than 5'6"?
no :( i like being short though :)

12. Do you know anyone in jail/prison?
Nope...well not at the moment that is

13. Ever seen a dead body?
Yeah.

14. Do you like the color green?
Sure do.

15. One of your favorite things?
riding horses :)

16. How old are you?
the fun age of 14

17. Who was the last person to send you a text message??
i think it was my mom..its been a while though

18. Ever drove into the ghetto to buy drugs?
haha....no :P haha

19. Last restaurant you went to?
IDK...

20. Whats the weather like today?
Cold and rainy.

21. Last voice mail you received?
it was from Carmen i know that...but i dont remeber what it was about...

22. What did you do today?
went Christmas shopping with my sister and the Twins

23. What's the first thing you would do with five million pounds?
What is that, 10 million dollars? Wow.

24. How much did you sleep last night?
Um...fell asleep around 1is and woke up at like 8ish, you do the math

25. Any upcoming concerts you want to attend?
WANT is the key word

26. Who's the last person that you felt was stalking you?
lol idk

27. Have you ever been on your school's track team?
ha that would be a BIG no

28. What jewelry are you wearing?
a ring and thats it

29. What's your middle name?
Grace

30. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you?
HECK YES

31. Whats your favorite drink?
Coffee, Water

32. Do you swear at your parents?
NO

33. Is your phone right beside you?
no, i dont know where it is..lol i should find that :P

34. Ever been in a car wreck, while you were driving? i cant drive yet..so that would be a no

35. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Well there are billions of people on the planet, so its possible.

36. Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
No.

37. Whats the color of your bedsheets?
they are BLUE

38. Have you ever crawled through a window?
ha no

39. Are you photogenic?
Sometimes.

41. Where do you spend most of your money?
i try not to spend money...

42. What was the last thing you did?
watched Twins

43. Do you have a tattoo?
Nope.

44. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
Nope.

45. Is there a secret you've never told any of your friends?
Yes.

46. Have you ever told someone you loved them, but didn't mean it?
no

47. Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle?
Its been a while, but yes i have

48. What are you doing in 2008?
i'm living life

49. What is your ringtone?
some random sound :P

50. What were you doing at 2am last night?
sleeping :)

Psalm 139:15-16 "My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."

Thats my favorite Bible verse , & i know that this a little elementary, But there is no other Me! & thats COOL.same goes for you!

 I like it ,  & i love it! :)

 

have you ever met someone who seems to...for lack of a better word...complete you?  someone who is exactly like you in some ways, yet totally and completely different in others.  the things you aren't good at, they are.  and the things you are good at, they aren't always.  you are envious of what they have, the things they can do on a whim.  it's not a greedy envy or a selfish one, it's more of a looking-up-to kind of want.  it's almost like...they are made for you.  you find things getting more and more complicated while they are one of the few things that remain the same.  unchanging and steady.  you feel calm and...at rest when you are with them.  you will do anything just to make them happy.  and they the same?  i feel like this right about now.  it's like i've only known this person for a little season, but it feels like a lifetime.  i'm not crazy over them.  i'm not in 'like'.  i don't have a crush.  i just feel like they are supposed to be in my life in this season for a reason.  i don't know what that reason is yet, but i hope to soon find out. 

========sorry.  i feel that way========

so yeah.  i was at dunkin donuts lastnight with the pastor and fam, my fam, and angelina.  me, chandler, deven, and ross and angelina were all sitting at a table and all the sudden deven walks away.  i figured i probably made him mad.  and so i said, "Angelina, i think he hates me."  she looked at me with this crazy surprised look on her face like WHAT?  She said, "REALLY?  He says you're his best friend."  i felt so happy right about then.  so i went and i talked to him.  i asked him,"What's wrong???  Do you hate me...you act like it."   "Right now...right now?" he said.  "Well yeah," i said, "Why did you just get up and leave like that?"  Deven said,"Well, you were too busy talking and i was trying to tell you something and you weren't listening to me!"  i felt like a mean and horrible monster.  not really, but oh well.  so yeah...we fixed it all.  i really only put that up here to say...

it's funny when you find out that someone thinks so highly of you and you never even thought that at all.  just the opposite my friend, just the opposite.

well this is pretty random.  but i'm just letting it all out.  i have lots more to say, but most of you didn't even finish reading this.  if you did, kudos to you.  if you didn't, whatever.

Almost sisters, best of friends
we shared the same hopes and dreams.
Nearly twins, they used to say,
might as well be joined at the hip.

 

What happened to change it all?
How did things go so wrong?
Why was there a split between us?
When did we grow apart?

 

We made so many promises,
and we made so many plans.
I intended to keep them all,
but you suddenly changed your mind.

 

Where did my almost sister vanish to?
Who are you, standing in her place?
What did you do with my best friend?
Why did she leave me behind?

 

I've lost my other half,
and I need her back so terribly.
I seem to have misplaced a sister,
and all I want is to find her again.

 

Will you ever open your eyes?
Can you ever see what you have done?
Do you ever feel the loss that I feel?
Have you ever wanted to make it undone?

 

Almost sisters, we used to say,
best friends forever more.
The future was so clear then
now it becomes a painful blur.

 

Do you miss me, my friend?
Do you know how much I miss you?
Are you aware of the hurt you caused?

Can you feel it too?

 

Come back to me
my sister, my friend.
Return things to the way they were
and let's make it right again.

 

Inseparable friends,
pinky swears, and wishes
that was so very long ago.
And everyday I want it back.

 

This poem is written about some things that are going on in my family, and it centers, obviously, on someone who used to be very, very close to me. I'm so angry with her right now, and I have been for a long time. But I still miss her a great deal, and would do anything to get things back to the way they were.

all there is to it.

 

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So Saturday night Kenny and I went to see Beowulf. Yes the crazy Nicole went to see yet another guy flick with her boyfriend, but I guess that means that I’ll get to go see a chick flick later. It was fun, even if the movie wasn’t the best I’ve seen in a while. So I suppose I can give you a brief review of the movie and then talk about the rest of the night.

 

Would I recommend that you see Beowulf? Well, maybe. It depends on what you like in movies. The 3D was OK; there were a few really great scenes and effects. Like the monsters and stuff. This is definitely not a movie to take your little kids to, though. Parts of it were a bit graphic, especially Grendel’s attacks. There was also some nudity and lewd comments that were definitely adult oriented. They actually didn’t screw up the story as bad as I thought they would. It was the original epic with a twist, that sort of gave the old story a new kick. But it’s not a great movie. I sort of laughed at the people who were screaming, while I did jump occasionally, nothing was especially scary to me.

 

At the theatre we sat for an hour and a half because we were too late for the showing we were going to catch and too early for the next one. So we people watched, and Kenny and I chatted with an older couple. There were a lot of high schoolers there and it made me feel old. I’m only 20, but all these kids looked like they were 12. And some of them were dressed in ways that made me want to smack them. Why would anyone do some of the things they did to their bodies. As Kenny pointed out, they all look the same, even the guys look just like the girls, and the funny thing is, they were trying to stand out I guess. And you could tell who was there for a date and who was there with just a group of friends. It was sort of funny to listen to Kenny analyse all the people. He’d point out couples on their first date and this one group that were either double dating or the guys were sort of ‘marking their territory’ for later. All in all it was a good night of lots of fun and distractions.

Creative title I know. If you could ask anyone in this world one thing who and what would you ask?

EIGHT Last's:
1. Last drink: Sweet tea

3. Last phone call: Dalton

4. Last text message: 5. Iz (A Hwaiian CD)

6. Last bubble bath: i dont even remember

7. Last time you cried: idk

8. Last meal: like an hour and a half ago

SEVEN Have You’s:
1. Have you ever dated someone twice? No sir

2. Have you ever been cheated on? no and to grace no
4. Have you ever kissed someone & regretted it? nope

5. Have you ever lost someone? uhm I have lost grandparents and family but not friends, well exept for the friends i might not ever see again

6. Have you ever been depressed? Yeah
7. Have you ever been drunk and thrown up? nope

Name SIX things you did in the past three days:
1. Sleep

2. Ate food

3. got on the computer

5. Went to the mall

6. Talked on the phone

List FIVE people you can tell pretty much anything to
1. Grace

2. Austin

3. My brother

4. Amber

5. Caitlin

 

List THREE favorite colors
1. Blue.
2. Black

3. Orange

 

List TWO things you want to do before you die
1. idk

2. idk

 

SO FAR IN 07…
Been to school - yeah

Made a new friend - sure have

Fallen out of love - no sir

Done something you swore never to do- probably

Laughed until you cried - yeah

Went behind your friends back - i dont think so

Met someone who changed your life - yeah

Gotten close to someone - no not really

Found out who your true friends are- nope

 

5. Do you have a crush? no

6. Who is the best hugger that you know? idk

7. Do you believe in love at first sight? nope, i have to look at least twice ;)

 

8. Is there something you want to tell someone? yeah, Carmen your a hoe

9. What brand of shirt are you wearing? Quicksilver

10. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends?number 4 and thats it

11. Do you have “A thing” for anyone on your top friends? lol

12. How many people on your top friends? 8

 

13. How many kids do you want to have? idk.

14. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? uhm sometimes

 

15. Do you wanna change your name? I want to start to go by james

16. What did you do for your last birthday? nothing

17. What time did you wake up today? idk

18. What were you doing at midnight last night? watching tv

 

19. Name something you CANNOT wait to do: come back to TN, only 3 and a half weeks

 

20. Last time you saw your dad? hour ago

21. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself? the way i live

 

22. Which hand do you like better? i dont care

23. What are you listening to right now? nothing

24. Have you ever talked to Tom? No i tryed but he doesnt talk back

 

25. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? yeah

 

26. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back?  yes

27. Least favorite month? I don't know.

28. What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? idk probably something from Austin

 

29. Who’s getting on your nerves right now? no one really

30. Most visited webpage? myspace

31. Would you help one of your best friends fight if he/she was losing? yeah who do you think i am someone who doenst help a friend if he/she is in a fight, idiots lol

32. Coke or Pepsi? Neither.

33. What’s the worst day of your life? the day i lost you.  lol not really

34. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week? ch no who do you think i am, someone who gets kissed by someone in the past week. no because no one loves me like that.

35. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world? somethings

36. Do you think there’s some models/people out there, that should lose a few pounds? I don't care.

so how do you delete this stupid thing????

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EIGHT Last's:

1. Last drink: water

3. Last phone call: keri

4. Last text message: keri

5. Last CD played: somtething of my mom's

6. Last bubble bath: when i was sick.

7. Last time you cried: the other day

8. Last meal: like 5 minutes ago

Have You’s:

1. Have you ever dated someone twice? nome

2. Have you ever been cheated on?no considering i've never had a boyfriend

4. Have you ever kissed someone & regretted it? i've never kissed anyone

5. Have you ever lost someone? yeah

6. Have you ever been depressed? yes

7. Have you ever been drunk and thrown up? um, no, can't say i have

Name SIX things you did in the past three days:

1. ate

2. went shopping

3. danced

4. watched TV

5. went to the parade

6. Homework

List FIVE people you can tell pretty much anything to

1. Keri

2. Carmen 

3. My mom (eventually) 

4. Tiffany

5. Blaize

List THREE favorite colors

1. Green

2. Blue

3. Purple

List TWO things you want to do before you die

1. find love

2. be in a broadway show

SO FAR IN 07…

Been to school - sadly, yes 

Made a new friend - tons

Fallen out of love - i guess, sorta. it wasn't really love, more like lust.

Done something you swore never to do- yes

Laughed until you cried - Totally

Went behind your friends back - sadly, yes.

Met someone who changed your life - yes

Gotten close to someone - Oh, yes!

 Found out who your true friends are- yeah, i guess

Do you have a crush? no sounds so...

6. Who is the best hugger that you know? Milby

7. Do you believe in love at first sight? no

8. Is there something you want to tell someone? Oh, yes!

9. What brand of shirt are you wearing? don't know

10. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends? no

11. Do you have “A thing” for anyone on your top friends? no

12. How many people on your top friends? don't know

13. How many kids do you want to have? 2

Do you have a good relationship with your parents? my mom 15. Do you wanna change your name? i guess

16. What did you do for your last birthday? sleepover

17. What time did you wake up today? 9:00

What were you doing at midnight last night? reading

19. Name something you CANNOT wait to do: go to Europe

20. Last time you saw your dad? like 5 minutes ago

21. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself? not care what people think

 22. Which hand do you like better? right

 23. What are you listening to right now? the TV

 24. Have you ever talked to Tom? nome

25. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? yes

26. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? yes

27. Least favorite month? August

28. What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? tank top

29. Who’s getting on your nerves right now? don't know

30. Most visited webpage?  phusebox

31. Would you help one of your best friends fight if he/she was losing? YES.  

 32. Coke or Pepsi? neither

 33. What’s the worst day of your life? when my house blew up  34. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week? no

 35. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world? yeah

 36. Do you think there’s some models/people out there, that should lose a few pounds? i don't think it's nice to tell people that they need to lose weight.

EIGHT Last's:
1. Last drink: wata

3. Last phone call: tyler

4. Last text message: hallie

 5. Last CD played: ???  i don't know

6. Last bubble bath: it's been a few good years...wow.

7. Last time you cried: about 4 weeks ago..maybe?

8. Last meal: at like, 1:30 ish

SEVEN Have You’s:
1. Have you ever dated someone twice? no siree
2. Have you ever been cheated on?no siree

4. Have you ever kissed someone & regretted it? never kissed nobody

5. Have you ever lost someone? uh huh

6. Have you ever been depressed? oh yes

7. Have you ever been drunk and thrown up? OH no

Name SIX things you did in the past three days:
1. went to grace's
2. went to church

3. sung

4. played the piano 

5. ate pizza

6. smiled really big and laughed

List FIVE people you can tell pretty much anything to
1. Grace
2. Hallie

3. Tyler (sometimes)
4. Keri

5. Megan
List THREE favorite colors
1. Orange

2. Green.
3. Black


List TWO things you want to do before you die
1. get married

2. go skydiving
SO FAR IN 07…
Been to school - duh.

Made a new friend - uh huh
Fallen out of love - well sorta but if i fell out of it, it wasn't love, was it?

Done something you swore never to do- yes

Laughed until you cried - HECK YES

Went behind your friends back - probably i just don't live in the past.
Met someone who changed your life - sure why not

Gotten close to someone - yes

Found out who your true friends are- OH YES!!!

5. Do you have a crush? i guess you could call it that.  but i don't like that word.  sounds so...3rd gradeish

6. Who is the best hugger that you know? i don't judge hugs.
7. Do you believe in love at first sight? no i do not
8. Is there something you want to tell someone? yes very much so...very much 

9. What brand of shirt are you wearing? wet seal 

10. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends? oh buddy...if i had a myspace and i knew who my top friends would be...heck yes i would

11. Do you have “A thing” for anyone on your top friends? sure....

12. How many people on your top friends? 46
13. How many kids do you want to have? i don't know...

14. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? not really.  no
15. Do you wanna change your name? sure

16. What did you do for your last birthday? had a partay
17. What time did you wake up today? i dunno

18. What were you doing at midnight last night? i would have been...uh...sleeping

19. Name something you CANNOT wait to do: see tyler
20. Last time you saw your dad? like 2 seconds ago

21. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself? oh there's a lot of stuff.

22. Which hand do you like better? left hand

23. What are you listening to right now? silence

24. Have you ever talked to Tom? no siree

25. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? uh huh

26. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? yes
27. Least favorite month? probably july...it's hot

28. What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? a shirt

29. Who’s getting on your nerves right now? quite a few folks
30. Most visited webpage? bored.com or phusebox
31. Would you help one of your best friends fight if he/she was losing? YES.  but i don't know how much help i would be considering my best friend's...a guy!

32. Coke or Pepsi? i don't really like them.

33. What’s the worst day of your life? that is none of your business.

34. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week? no ma'am.

35. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world? uh ya

36. Do you think there’s some models/people out there, that should lose a few pounds?  uh not models they are too skinny.  but people, i suppose so

EIGHT Last's:
1. Last drink: Water

3. Last phone call: I think it was my mom
4. Last text message: I'm pretty sure it was Tyler..but that was a LONG time ago
5. Last CD played: A mix.
6. Last bubble bath: A LONG time ago

7. Last time you cried: a few weeks ago

8. Last meal: 2 minutes ago

SEVEN Have You’s:
1. Have you ever dated someone twice? Nope
2. Have you ever been cheated on? I Dont THINK So
4. Have you ever kissed someone & regretted it? Nope
5. Have you ever lost someone? You could say that
6. Have you ever been depressed? Yeah
7. Have you ever been drunk and thrown up? lol NO

Name SIX things you did in the past three days:
1. Rode Kate
2. Got On MySpace

3. Talked To Friends 

5. Went To Church
6. Laughed

List FIVE people you can tell pretty much anything to
1. Tyler
2. Carmen

3. Lilly
4. Seth
5. Tamara

List THREE favorite colors
1. Blue.
2. Green.
3. Gray.


List TWO things you want to do before you die
1. Backpack europe.
2. Ride horses for 24 hours

SO FAR IN 07…
Been to school - Yes :(
Made a new friend - Yeah
Fallen out of love - Kinda...in a way

Done something you swore never to do- no

Laughed until you cried - no

Went behind your friends back - I hope not.
Met someone who changed your life - Yeah.
Gotten close to someone - Sure
Found out who your true friends are- Yes.

5. Do you have a crush? i dont like curches!

6. Who is the best hugger that you know? I'm not sure

7. Do you believe in love at first sight? Nope

8. Is there something you want to tell someone? Not really 

9. What brand of shirt are you wearing? I have not a clue..and i dont care

10. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends? yeah

11. Do you have “A thing” for anyone on your top friends? haha

12. How many people on your top friends? 12

13. How many kids do you want to have? We'll see.

14. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? no

15. Do you wanna change your name? lol naa its an ok name

16. What did you do for your last birthday? went Ice-Skating

17. What time did you wake up today? 8:00

18. What were you doing at midnight last night? watching a movie

19. Name something you CANNOT wait to do: DRIVE

20. Last time you saw your dad?...Months and months ago

21. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself? nothing, i'm cool with myself

22. Which hand do you like better? haha i've never really thought about it

23. What are you listening to right now? an Odyssey

24. Have you ever talked to Tom? Nope

25. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? Yeah

26. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? Sadly yes

27. Least favorite month? I don't know.

28. What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? i have not a clue

29. Who’s getting on your nerves right now? ... i'm not gona say names...

30. Most visited webpage? myspace

31. Would you help one of your best friends fight if he/she was losing? heck yes

32. Coke or Pepsi? Neither.

33. What’s the worst day of your life? Ha, I'm not telling you.

34. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week? Nope.

35. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world? i suppose

36. Do you think there’s some models/people out there, that should lose a few pounds? I don't care.

thanksgiving was great. i wish i could of seen my friends some more over the break.

 

as i was sitting in church this morning i was thinking, that i dont really wanna leave. i was really bored last night and wanted to head back to knoxville. but, while i was sitting there, i was like, i miss all these people back here in murfreesboro. all my friends. i mean. ya, it would be alot different if i moved back. and it wouldnt be like i imagine it to be. or how it was during high school where i was really clost to all my friends. but, at the same time.... i dont even know what i wish it was like. i could transfer back. it would be no problem.

 

i dont knwo what to do. i dont think i should. but then again. maybe i should. who knows. blah. i hate growing up. but i'm about to hit the road to knoxville. i'll be home in 2 1/2 weeks. so, i'm just ready for this next week to be over. finals wont be too bad. just the week heading up to it.

 

-piece

1. What is in the back seat of your car right now? The Lord only knows. Prolly a living cheeta or small pox or something.

2. When was the last time you threw up? When I was sick a couple of months ago. This is a gross question.

3. What's your favorite curse word? Are you seriously asking me this? 

4. Name 3 people who made you smile today? My brother, my sister, and the British guy in my sunday school class. 

5. What were you doing at 8AM this morning? Getting ready for church, of course!! *coughsleepingcough*

6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? same thing im doing right now. cant get me away from the computer!!

8. Have you ever been to a strip club? pshaw, hundreds of times. You know, sence I'm over 21 and a pervert and everything.

9. What is the last thing you said out loud? "thanks for the grilled cheese mom. it was delicious."

10. What is the best ice cream flavor? chocolate

11. What was the last thing you had to drink? cran-grape juice

12. What are you wearing right now? clothes. No, I do not need to put some pants on, thank you very much!! 

13. What was the last thing you ate? grilled cheese

14. Have you bought any new clothing items this week? no but ma mom did. I get them for Christmas.

15. When was the last time you ran? I don't feel the need to exert myself in this way.

16. What's the last sporting event you watched? football on TV

18. Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on myspace? don't have one, but on phusebox, Carmen

19. Ever go camping? no

24. Do you drink your soda from a straw? in restaurants. 

25. What did your last text message say? good morning from Jacob

26. Are you someone's best friend? I would like to think so, but it's really up tho the other person, isn't it?

27. What are you doing tomorrow? school

28. Where is your mom right now? in the livingroom

29. Look to your left, what do you see? a wall

30. What color is your watch? i dont wear watches

31. What do you think of when you think of Australia? Megan and Europe.

32. Ever ridden on a roller coaster? hecks yes, fool!

33. What is your birthstone? emerald

34. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive through? which ever my mom feels like 

35. What is your favorite number? 121

36. Do you have a dog? yes

37. who was the last person that you talked to on the phone? Megan

38. Have you met anyone famous? I've met several people who will be.

39. Any plans today? freezing my butt off in the parade.

40. How many states have you lived in? 1

41. Ever go to college? plan to

42. Where are you right now? computer room

43. Biggest annoyance in your life right now? school and homework

44. Last song listened to? cant hear radio

46. Are you allergic to anything? dust and lies

47. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time? rocket dogs, the official shoe of heaven. 

49. Are you jealous of anyone? certain persons at certain times.

50. Is anyone jealous of you? yes, I know for a fact of one person. 

51. Do you love anyone? of course.

52. Do any of your friends have children? Do they?

53. Do you eat healthy?pshaw, no

54. What do you usually do during the day? sleep

55. Do you hate anyone right now? debatable. I'm not to fond of that devil guy.

56. Do you use the word 'hello' daily? prolly

58. How old will you be turning on your next birthday? 15.

59. Have you ever been to Six Flags? yes, I have never zipped up my pants sence then (lol j/k)

60. How did you get one of your scars? jamming a pencil into the roof of my mouth.

Click here to create your own painting.Well, this is my personality in paint. Interesting.

Click here to create your own painting.Why the heck are there butterflies on mine? That is kinda gay.      

 ha grace i will repost this

 

Girls - pick the first guy on your top friends.
Unless their family than pick the next one.
Guys - do the same, but the first girl .
- Don't change it
- Enter their name
- Be honest


1. Who is it?
it'd be Grace

 

2. How did you meet?
At BHSE

3. If you were crying would this person cheer you up?
chea :)

4. Where is this person?
Dickson i guess

 

5. Have you ever spent the night with this person?
nah, but i remember one time i was supposed to spend the night with her brother, but i couldnt because i had a game or somehtign  like that

 

6. Will this person repost this?

probably not because i reposted it anyway so why would she re-repost it  

 

7. Is this person family?
not yet, she'll be mine mine one day, or not

8. Do you trust this person?
yep

9. If you could change something about this person would you?
nope i dont think so

10. How much does this person know about you?

everything i have told her about duh 

11. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with this person?
well, i would just talk and have fun...

 

12. do you argue with this person?
yeah sometimes

14. Is this person nice to you?
yeah sometimes...

15. Has this person ever kissed you?
no...dang

16. Do you tell this person secrets?
uh yeah who do you think i am a non secret teller

17. Older or Younger?
younger :)

18. Does this person make you smile?
yeah caus it startsin my toes and i crinkle my noes where ever it goes i'll always no...there you go

19. Is this person your boyfriend or girlfriend?
no she is not my boyfriend. and no she is not my girlfriend either. dang

Girls - pick the first guy on your top friends.
Unless their family than pick the next one.
Guys - do the same, but the first girl .
- Don't change it
- Enter their name
- Be honest


1. Who is it?
Since there aren't "Top Friends" on here i'm gona go with..Tyler just b/c i know the most about him :P ha i'm so cool i know

2. How did you meet?
At BHSE

3. If you were crying would this person cheer you up?
haha he has many times

4. Where is this person?
i don't stalk him. lol

5. Have you ever spent the night with this person?
NO 

6. Will this person repost this?
lol i would have to say...i'm not thinkn so

7. Is this person family?
Nope 

8. Do you trust this person?
Yes

9. If you could change something about this person would you?
No, i dont like changing people!

10. How much does this person know about you?
I dont know ask him..gosh (lol) 

11. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with this person?
Say random things..thats always fun :P 

12. do you argue with this person?
SOMETIMES

14. Is this person nice to you?
pretty much yes

15. Has this person ever kissed you?
haha no

16. Do you tell this person secrets?
what you talkn about...i dont have "Secrets" lol yeah i have

17. Older or Younger?
Older..by a few months

18. Does this person make you smile?
YEP

19. Is this person your boyfriend or girlfriend?
haha funny you ask that.
But no

 

Click here to create your own painting.lol mine is a little random :P kinda happy though

Click here to create your own painting.um...my painting is depressing.  oh well.  it's kinda purty

Click here to create your own painting.So this painting is supposed to reflect my personality. I don't really know how, but whatever.

so here's how it goes:

Eventually, he will realize you're worth it......

 

 

or you'll realize he's not.

 

<3

Last night I went and saw Fred Claus.

Good Movie.

But I really had to much stuff on my mind to

Enjoy it.

I felt like I was in a paraelle unviverse.

(can't spell)

It was a movie you don't take little kids to.

But I might go see Dan in Real Life.

maybe that'll cheer me up?

I've been debating on calling this person?

Like I want to, but then again I'm

lost for words?

But enough of that!

I'm gonna go back to sleep.

 

*K-izzle*

well...i got this orange peel dark chocolate (YUM!) and not only was it DElicious....but it had a beautiful poem on the wrapper.  how sweet.

Love is Enough-

Love is enough: though the World be a-waning,

And the woods have no voice but the voice of complaining,

   Though the sky be too dark for dim eyes to discover

The gold-cups and daisies fair blooming thereunder,

Though the hills be held shadows, and the sea a dark wonder,

   And this day draw a veil over all deeds pass'd over,

Yet their hands shall not tremble, their feet shall not falter;

The void shall not weary, the fear shall not alter

   These lips and these eyes of the loved and the lover.

---William Morris

(That just made my day.)

I thought this was kind of cool. Me and my sis have had this stuck in our heads, and now whenever we see a hat it's like there is some compelling force making us do the dance. As you can tell, I watch an awful lot of Disney Channel. The words can be a little hard to understand sometimes. They are:

 

"What's that? A hat. Crazy, funky, junky hat. Overslept. Hair unsightly. Tryin' to look like Kiera Knightly. We've been there. We've done that. We see right through your funky hat!"

so...i'm at the WONDERFUL grace's house!!!!  we just watched a movie...August Rush.  (OMGOSH that was [one of the] best movies i have ever watched.  it was seriously amazing.)  I'm cold....my fingers are numb.  ow.  there's some mean guys over here.  like nasel head.  rawr.  he thinks i'm weird.  i'm not wierd and I DON'T HAVE PROBLEMS!!!!  booyah.  this is extremely random.  i'm tired.  aaaaaaaaah!  so yeah, i guess that's really all.  i had a wonderful birthday, by the way!  thanks to all of you that called me and whatnot.  (sorry megan, i was in the movie when you called and frankly, i hate talking on the phone.  so, no offense, but i don't want to call you back.  so thanks for the call!!!  lylas)

because i cant get this song out of my head

i put it up 

so today is my brothers birthday... happy birthday little charley

 

other than that. i found out that my dog (the one that we lost in TN)

showed up at my neighbors house. so he has been feeding her and maybe her new owner.

im exited about getting to see her :) 

Howdy Friends,

happy shopping day : )

hopefully you guys have a good

Holiday Season?

Okay so I don't have a way with words..

-lol- aNyWhO!

Last night I played Rock Band with

my b.f. Amy and it was so much fun.

Then I tried to dance, and that was

just plain silly!

-lol-

ily guys.

See some of you soon!

*K-izzle*

-lol-

1. What is in the back seat of your car right now? Seeing i dont have a CAR there would be no "back seat" which would mean there is nothing on my back seat!

 

2. When was the last time you threw up?  I dont know, why would i keep up with that kinda stuff

 

3. What's your favorite curse word? I prefer not to use them :)

 

4. Name 3 people who made you smile today? I would have to say no one (i'm not doing so hot....but i'm sure i'll smile sometime today!)

 

5. What were you doing at 8AM this morning? Sleeping (it was a long night :P)

 

6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Feeding my brothers dog (yeah i know i'm a nice sister :P)

 

8. Have you ever been to a strip club? NO

 

9. What is the last thing you said out loud? "There aren't any...i got them all yesterday for you"

 

10. What is the best ice cream flavor? Death by Chocolate :) Yumm so good

 

11. What was the last thing you had to drink? 1/2 Coffee 1/2 Hot Chocolate

 

12. What are you wearing right now?  my "Caution: Burning Substance" shirt and some comfy gray pants.

 

13. What was the last thing you ate? ThanksGiving Dinner YUMMMMMMM

 

14. Have you bought any new clothing items this week? I have this much money in my bank $0.00 do you think i bought anything :P lol

 

15. When was the last time you ran? Wednesday night! I was running through the rain! OH SO MUCH FUN! ... but i was trying to get to a car, not just playing in the rain :) haha

 

16. What's the last sporting event you watched?FOOTBALL! thats like all i watch that has to do with sports :)

 

18. Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on myspace? Jake

 

19. Ever go camping? YES!

 

24. Do you drink your soda from a straw? I personally dont like "Sodas" BUT when i do drink them i do not use a straw

 

25. What did your last text message say? its been a while..but i think it was from Tyler

 

26. Are you someone's best friend? I suppose

 

27. What are you doing tomorrow? Hanging out....maybe go riding

 

28. Where is your mom right now? cleaning the house

 

29. Look to your left, what do you see? a red wall

 

30. What color is your watch? i dont have a watch

 

31. What do you think of when you think of Australia? AMAZING

Accents

 

32. Ever ridden on a roller coaster? Yep, i didn't like it all the much though

 

33. What is your birthstone? polka dot...lol no i dont know how to say it :P but its the color of my fantastic ring :)

 

34. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive through? Whoever is driving always says what i do... :P

 

35. What is your favorite number? 45

 

36. Do you have a dog? Well my brother does but it take care of him most of the time so yeah

 

37. who was the last person that you talked to on the phone? my mom or Tyler i can't remember

 

38. Have you met anyone famous? Craig Morgan

 

39. Any plans today? to live

 

40. How many states have you lived in? 1

 

41. Ever go to college? I WILL BE :)

 

42. Where are you right now? In my Kitchen

 

43. Biggest annoyance in your life right now? i have become numb to all annoyances!

44. Last song listened to? Dont Worry Now

 

46. Are you allergic to anything? Nope

 

47. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time? they aren't Shoes they are BOOTS! Get it right..lol

 

49. Are you jealous of anyone? No

 

50. Is anyone jealous of you? Not that i know of no

 

51. Do you love anyone? Yeah

 

52. Do any of your friends have children? Lol i would hope not they are all under the age of 18 :P

 

53. Do you eat healthy? IS Cake called "healthy"?? If so YES!! haha no the answer to this question is, not as much as i should

 

54. What do you usually do during the day? school

 

55. Do you hate anyone right now? Not hate, a little upset yes but no not hate

 

56. Do you use the word 'hello' daily? No

 

58. How old will you be turning on your next birthday? 15!!! PARTY!! :P 

59. Have you ever been to Six Flags? Nope :(

 

60. How did you get one of your scars? most of them are from riding horses :P

My Rhapsody Playlist

and i do love someone....but no one knows.  :) 

.....not even him.....

but he can probably tell...because i'm crazy just talking to him.

i guess....that's what you do when you love someone!

"I just hung up the phone, you got a way of changing my day, you proved me wrong when i was convinced it wasn't love...yeah, that's what you do when you love someone....that's what you do when you love someone..." <3

1. What is in the back seat of your car right now? sand

2. When was the last time you threw up?  5 years ago

3. What's your favorite curse word? I dont have a favorite

4. Name 3 people who made you smile today? Carmen, Dalton, Dillon

5. What were you doing at 8AM this morning? Sleeping

6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? uhm idk

8. Have you ever been to a strip club?uh no

9. What is the last thing you said out loud? "thats when she's more than a memory"

10. What is the best ice cream flavor? idk my bff jill

11. What was the last thing you had to drink? Water

12. What are you wearing right now? Billabong shirt and blue jeans

13. What was the last thing you ate? idk uh popcorn

14. Have you bought any new clothing items this week? no

15. When was the last time you ran? today at church

16. What's the last sporting event you watched?Cowboys vs. Jets

18. Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on myspace? Elizabeth

19. Ever go camping? Yeah

24. Do you drink your soda from a straw? I dont drink soda

25. What did your last text message say? k tell me if you want anything else from my sister

26. Are you someone's best friend? yeah

27. What are you doing tomorrow? playing basketball with my friend

28. Where is your mom right now? yelling at me right beside me

29. Look to your left, what do you see? cereal

30. What color is your watch? i dont have a watch

31. What do you think of when you think of Australia? i dont think

32. Ever ridden on a roller coaster? yeah

33. What is your birthstone? who cares

34. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive through? i dont drive  

35. What is your favorite number? 10

36. Do you have a dog? yeah

37. who was the last person that you talked to on the phone? Carmen

38. Have you met anyone famous? Craig Morgan

39. Any plans today? gosh im about to go to bed its like 12:30

40. How many states have you lived in? 3

41. Ever go to college? im probably going to

42. Where are you right now? dining room

43. Biggest annoyance in your life right now? if i say anything someone is going to end up doing it so im gonna keep my mouth shut

44. Last song listened to? more than a memory

46. Are you allergic to anything? not that i know of

47. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time? i have three : Volcom slippers, Indoor addidas, and my pumas

49. Are you jealous of anyone? no

50. Is anyone jealous of you? No i am white

51. Do you love anyone? yeah

52. Do any of your friends have children? no

53. Do you eat healthy? not as much as i should

54. What do you usually do during the day?

55. Do you hate anyone right now? no

56. Do you use the word 'hello' daily? sure

58. How old will you be turning on your next birthday? 15 

59. Have you ever been to Six Flags? no

60. How did you get one of your scars? uh i had this disease

we're off! I'm completely tired and cold. I just want to get back under the covers, but it's gonna be fun. Wah!!!

Ok so i wached the worse movie I have ever seen.  "Into the Wild"

it was pretty much how i guy wanted his freedom so he ran away and died in the wilderness. yeah pretty bad.

 

but i did manage to get one good quote out of the movie so here it is.

 

Happiness: only expierienced when shared 

 

so yeah it may not be that great but its ok :)

love you guys  

Happy Thanksgiving!

 

I spent today with my family and tomorrow with my future-in-laws. 

1. What is in the back seat of your car right now? my blankey

2. When was the last time you threw up? can't remember

3. What's your favorite curse word? i hate it when people curse. it's awful!

4. Name 3 people who made you smile today? my sister, mom, and cousing

5. What were you doing at 8AM this morning? getting ready to go somewhere

6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? watching Legally Blonde the Musical

8. Have you ever been to a strip club? no, and don't plan to

9. What is the last thing you said out loud? I know we are leaving at 4:00 in the morning, mother! Gosh, dang it!

10. What is the best ice cream flavor? chocolate

11. What was the last thing you had to drink? water

12. What are you wearing right now? pajamas

13. What was the last thing you ate? turkey

14. Have you bought any new clothing items this week? no but i am tomorrow. yay!

15. When was the last time you ran? earlier today

16. What's the last sporting event you watched? one of my sisters's games

18. Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on myspace? don't have one

19. Ever go camping? occasionaly

24. Do you drink your soda from a straw? in restaurants. 

25. What did your last text message say? r u there from keri

26. Are you someone's best friend? no. i have bad luck with best friends.

27. What are you doing tomorrow? shopping till i drop, and probably longer.

28. Where is your mom right now? in the livingroom

29. Look to your left, what do you see? a book shelf and a door.

30. What color is your watch? pink, black, white, green, blue, purple. i have tons.

31. What do you think of when you think of Australia? Oh my goodness! Loads and loads of the most awesome fun! I totally miss it. Whales, Habeeb, goats, friends, getting into tons of trouble, melting straightners, chaos, buses, so much more, and of course hotsinpillar. lol 

32. Ever ridden on a roller coaster? totally

33. What is your birthstone? aquamarine

34. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive through? which ever my mom feels like 

35. What is your favorite number? 17

36. Do you have a dog? yes

37. who was the last person that you talked to on the phone? Keri

38. Have you met anyone famous? don't guess so

39. Any plans today? sleeping in a few hours.

40. How many states have you lived in? 1

41. Ever go to college? plan to

42. Where are you right now? my room

43. Biggest annoyance in your life right now? school and homework

44. Last song listened to? don't know

46. Are you allergic to anything? yeah, but we can't figure out what

47. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time? clogs or flip-flops depending on season 

49. Are you jealous of anyone? not really

50. Is anyone jealous of you? probably not. who would be jealous of my fat, ugly self?

51. Do you love anyone? of course.

52. Do any of your friends have children? i would hope not.

53. Do you eat healthy? i try to.

54. What do you usually do during the day? gayfar homework

55. Do you hate anyone right now? no

56. Do you use the word 'hello' daily? yuh.

58. How old will you be turning on your next birthday? 15. yay i get my permit. only like 3 months!

59. Have you ever been to Six Flags? yes. whoo, that was fun. i miss eighth grade 

60. How did you get one of your scars? chicken pox

1. What is in the back seat of your car right now?
i don't know but i'm sure there's something
2. When was the last time you threw up?
thankfully, almost a year

3. What's your favorite curse word?
i don't choose favorites and duh, i don't curse
4. Name 3 people who made you smile today?
Deven, Grace, and Jarred

5. What were you doing at 8AM this morning?
sleeping
6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
playing uno!!!  yes!! (i lost....duh.)

8. Have you ever been to a strip club?
no siree i sure have not

9. What is the last thing you said out loud?
AAAAAAAAAAAH

10. What is the best ice cream flavor?
mint chocolate chip

11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
coke..bad carmen.

12. What are you wearing right now?
clothes duh.

13. What was the last thing you ate?
um....PUMPKIN PIE!!!!

14. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
does a purse count?

15. When was the last time you ran?
like yesterday

16. What's the last sporting event you watched?
PACKERS AT LIONS!!!  go lions!

18. Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on myspace?
don't have one...sorry.

19. Ever go camping?
HECK YES

24. Do you drink your soda from a straw?
no

25. What did your last text message say?
i don't text either

26. Are you someone's best friend?
DUH!!!  i was just thinking about that!  LYLAB tyler!

27. What are you doing tomorrow?
i am not sure...probably something like this
28. Where is your mom right now?
in the kitchen

29. Look to your left, what do you see?
a bunch of........stuff.   and a dog.

30. What color is your watch?
i have like 3...pink, pink, and silver

31. What do you think of when you think of Australia?
hotsenpillar.  (long story)
32. Ever ridden on a roller coaster?
OH YEAH

33. What is your birthstone?
Topaz or Citrine
34. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive through?
it depends.

35. What is your favorite number?
3.141592654.....i like pi

36. Do you have a dog?
YES!!!

37. who was the last person that you talked to on the phone?
Deven

38. Have you met anyone famous?
um yeah.  a few people

39. Any plans today?
yes, i'm about to go see MORE family
40. How many states have you lived in?
1

41. Ever go to college?
no i haven't been but i'm goin

42. Where are you right now?
in the office
43. Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
oh there's lots.  relationships.

44. Last song listened to?
some song by lincoln brewster

46. Are you allergic to anything?
you
47. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
BOOTS

49. Are you jealous of anyone?
no thanks.
50. Is anyone jealous of you?
probably

51. Do you love anyone?
oh yeah

52. Do any of your friends have children?
well some of my family is my friends too so yeah

53. Do you eat healthy?
most of the time, surprisingly

54. What do you usually do during the day?
SCHOOL.  blech.

55. Do you hate anyone right now?
not hate, per say.  dislike with the passion of 1 trillion burning suns is more like it.

56. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
DUH

58. How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
well...i guess 15 since today's my birthday!  lol

59. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
uh huh

60. How did you get one of your scars?
by having a wound

1. What is in the back seat of your car right now?
car seats?

2. When was the last time you threw up?
like yesterday?

3. What's your favorite curse word?
uhm no favorites

4. Name 3 people who made you smile today?
Caleb, Patricia, my Aunt

5. What were you doing at 8AM this morning?
cleaning

6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
my hair

8. Have you ever been to a strip club?
uhm no.

9. What is the last thing you said out loud?
"tird nugget!" -lol-

10. What is the best ice cream flavor?
Sherbert

11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
the best Sweet Tea in the whole galaxy

12. What are you wearing right now?
clothes? skin?

13. What was the last thing you ate?
turkey

14. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
yep!

15. When was the last time you ran?
like two days ago?

16. What's the last sporting event you watched?
todays football game! go green bay! ^_^

18. Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on myspace?
Jena

19. Ever go camping?
yes

24. Do you drink your soda from a straw?
yes when there's ice in it, I hate ice

25. What did your last text message say?
can't say.. ha ha ha!

26. Are you someone's best friend?
i would hope

27. What are you doing tomorrow?
going to see a movie, uhm shopping

28. Where is your mom right now?
n/a

29. Look to your left, what do you see?
a chair

30. What color is your watch?
i dont have one

31. What do you think of when you think of Australia?
a get away

32. Ever ridden on a roller coaster?
my yes

33. What is your birthstone?
Saphire

34. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive through?
both

35. What is your favorite number?
97686343856494....

36. Do you have a dog?
NO.

37. who was the last person that you talked to on the phone?
Tyler

38. Have you met anyone famous?
yeah

39. Any plans today?
going down to nashville tonight, gonna hit the mall in a while

40. How many states have you lived in?
idk? a few.

41. Ever go to college?
no, not yet. But the Navy calls for me

42. Where are you right now?
in the study?

43. Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
uhm I would have to say..... well I can't think of anything at the moment.
Just a little frustrated.

44. Last song listened to?
More than a Memory

46. Are you allergic to anything?
yep....

47. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
I wear a different pair of shoes everyday.

49. Are you jealous of anyone?
uh... no

50. Is anyone jealous of you?
not that I would know of? I'm sure not.

51. Do you love anyone?
yes

52. Do any of your friends have children?
yeah

53. Do you eat healthy?
ha ha ha! no.

54. What do you usually do during the day?
stress, space out, work?

55. Do you hate anyone right now?
it's a mix emotion really, hate what someones done. But not the person

56. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
uhm yes?

58. How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
15

59. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
yeah

60. How did you get one of your scars?
a beast, a chick? alot of things?

And so Nicole feels that it is time for her annual thankful post. This is going to be one of those warm and fuzzy posts about what is good in my life; so enjoy it because posts of this nature are really rare around here. I know I complain a lot, and I’ll admit I can be down right bitchy, but I really do have a great deal to be thankful for.

 

I’m thankful for my family. Even when my mother is being overbearing, my father is being a jerk, and my brother is being annoying, I love them very much. I’m lucky my mom cares and I’ll always be my daddy’s little girl. He may pick on me and seem mean, but that’s just his way of being affectionate. When it comes down to the the line, my dad will always look after me. My kid brother is an annoying little urchin, but he’s also the greatest kid sometimes. I will always have his back and he has mine. And then there is my totally crazy extended family. I have my Grandmother and Nanny, but I’ve lost my Papa and Pa. I’m so thankful to have those two wonderful women in my life. And I love all my aunts and uncles and cousins for their weird and wacky ways. And I’m very lucky to have my Grandmama, who survived a series of TIAs this summer. That was one of the scariest things I’d ever faced. I don’t know what I would’ve done if we had lost her. I’m so thankful that God was looking out and helped her survive.

 

There’s another person who should definitely not be forgotten. I’ve really been blessed because I found Kenny. He’s been my rock when things have been rough, when I’ve had troubles, and when I’ve needed someone to let me cry. He makes me laugh through my  He’s the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I want to be his forever if he’ll have me.  I’m hopeless in love with him, and I’m truly lucky that he loves me too. This guy is one of those once in a life time guys who few people are lucky to find.  And we are such an unlikely couple. The Southern Belle and the Yankee; the tomboy and the prince. But we work, and that’s all that matters.

 

And I’m thankful for all the opportunities I’ve been given. I’m a college student and I have the chance to go to law school. I can do mock trial and I can drive. I’m grateful that I live in a country where I’m not kept at home because I’m female. I may not come from a wealthy family, but we have what we need.  Our family survives and doesn’t really struggle.

 

I’m really lucky, and today I remind myself of that.

 

♥Happy Thanksgiving to everyone!♥

I officially announce (with all my power as an American citizen) this to be CARMEN’S DAY!

Yes November 22 is Carmen’s Day *and I know another holiday falls on this day but thats ok! There can be 2 holidays on one fantastic day :)*

ITS CARMEN POOCH E.A'S BIRTHDAY!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE YOU KID :)

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY CARMEN!!!! "IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY, SO SHOUT!!! EAT SOME CANDY AND SHOUT!! ICE CREAM, CAKE AND CHOCOLATE, SO SHOUT!!! : )   : )    : ) 

so happy Thanksgiving ya'll

be thankful because there's SO much to be thankful for.  you may not think you have much, but really, you have A LOT!  you have life and breath, don't you?

i do!  i was born on this day, 14 years ago!

it's my BIRTHDAY!

and thanksgiving.  yes.....i get to get fat on my birthday!!!!!!  lol

(p.s. check out this AWESOME band!  they are so good! 

www.rhapsody.com/wavorly

i love their song Praise and Adore.  they are REALLY AWESOME)

I just wanted to wish everyone a happy thanksgiving. Hope it is an enjoyable day for everyone to spend time with friends and family and reflect on the blessings which God has given us.