So, you know what has been giving me the most grief?

I can not decide the colors for my wedding.

Seriously... it's impossible!

Although I'm thinking light green and pink..

*sigh*

Bridesmaid dress shopping this weekend!

i seem to have a thing for celebs. haha

omg. this guy was AMAZING last night. not even kidding. best concert ever. it was so worth the money.

it went by so fast tho. it was midnight like before anything.

and also pink was good. love love love loved the show.

happy st pattys day

Suppp???? peoples.... okay well i am really bored due to......well...... being really bored.... well my sister and i slept upstairs in the bonus room last night... we were supposed to be staying up all night.... but.....krista stayed up till 2 watching lion king 1 and 1/2 and Finding Nemo and some other stuff..... and i....welll..... i fell asleep in the middle of lion king 1 and 1/2.

krista kept saying "Emily dont fall asleep" and i would say "i'm Not"..... but i guess i did.....

Well The trilogy is going to be starting soon... i am so EXCITED!!....even though i am not in it.... but this time will be the 2nd time 3rd time i have watched it.... and almost 3 years since we started coming to the church.... okay well i will see ya later.....

please comment me or message me or both....  i love you all and i will see you tommorrow!!!.

im 18!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So sitting here listening to In Love With the 80's by
Relient K on my iPod and thinking, I know odd and terrible things
happen when I start that thinking stuff. Anyway I was thinking about
all the things that so far in two years college has done to and for me
and decided to comprise a list. Its not everything, but it will do for
now. The college girl speaks once again.

• I am now addicted to Facebook,
  which is fun. I swear I couldn’t remember half my friends’ birthdays or
  know about most of the parties I’ve been to if it weren’t for that
  site. I go on the damn thing at least three times a day, usually more.


• Since starting college I have finally downloaded AIM,
  and constantly invent away messages and chat with friends. It’s open
  while I do almost everything, compose emails, write papers, do mock
  trial work, just about everything. It’s probably not a good thing
  except I really enjoy it.


• I’m addicted to my iPod and refuse to leave home without it, which
  is something I never did before I started college. It is a pleasant
  distraction that gets through the day. It was actually college that
  convinced me I needed it for walking to classes, hanging out, studying,
  taking trips, and working at the computer lab, which is where I am now.


• When on capmus and not in class, I know practically live in the
  computer lab, writing papers, waiting for class to begin, updating the
  blog, visiting facebook. It’s actually kind of ridiculous.


• I’ve forgotten what sleep is, since I do it so very rarely. I just
  don’t and it’s not healthy. I manage to get through the day on less
  sleep, though my caffiene intake is much higher now. I learned over the
  years that I can go on three hours of sleep provided that I spent the
  time before partying and such and I get a coke and some food.


• The above brings me to my caffiene addiction. As a senior in high
  school who was in theatre and on student council and taking AP classes,
  I was seriously addicted to caffiene, and I got headaches if I didn’t
  have any caffiene in my system. The summer before college, I broke the
  habit pretty well. However college has made the addiction rear it’s
  ugly head once more, and it’s grown in strength.


• College has taught me that guys don’t change, and the college guys
  high school girls drool over are just high school guys in college. They
  are just the same for the most part, unless you get lucky and find a
  mature one, and those are rare.


• The problem in college is that you get separated from your friends
  and sometimes you get forgotten and left behind. College has taught me
  that your true friends are the ones who don’t forget and leave you
  behind.

finally. i'm on spring break.

and what better way to start it than ... GOING TO THE SYMPHONY?!

that's right folks. my mom's boss gave her two tickets, and she let me have them. so... Ms Kelsey Shearron and i are going to see Peter Serkin and the Navshille Symphony Orchestra perform Brahm's Piano Concerto No.2.

=D

aren't you jealous?

Yeah Chris is gonna get egged or something... I have to be
creative. Maybe I’ll make him listen to rap music for 6 hours straight, no I’m
not that mean… or am I?

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vacations are over, and the teacher's not the student's.
Winter is coming also to an end, and the spring is at hand.
something is changing, and something is not. something is may not be what you want. something is not may be,although, life is going on its own way,not being stopped by anyone.

walking on the path, something like music feeling around. something lost, and something gained. it's a kind like ... , o, Lord, your hand. YEAH!HOLD YOUR HAND, I WON'T FEAR TOMORROW, HERE I STAND, I WILL NOT BE ALONE.

we can give up everything, or we can forget everything, however, Lord, you are the meaning of my life.

i was not a kind to do anything great, but i just need to be myself. but could i? life sometimes will play a joke on you that you just could control something. ok. if i could, i also pray for day that the weapon becomes plough, and under the trees all the people will be hand in hand. but, God, could that really satisfy human's desire? could that really be the end of sadness? could that really stop the evil desire?

sometimes the sunshine is high on the smiling faces, however, still hides the lonely hearts somewhere; sometimes cheers are all around the crowds, still strugging the certain weeping, maybe even could not have the strengh to weep. o, God, i do pray that the world will be peaceful and colourful, but why something still exists to make one cry? i do pray that one day, there will be not flood, earthquake, war, but who could stop the fear of the lonely hearts?


YOU HOLD MY HAND, AND I WONT FEAR TOMORROW, LORD. yeah, only your hand, not anyone else.

 

1.) i have the BEST husband EVER!!!

2.) i am tired. i am currently going to class for 8 hours a day to train to be a CNA. it is entertaining but long. (imagine sitting on an uncomfortable chair listening to the same instructor all day) the residents are pretty entertaining as well.

3.) i knew george and izzie would get together sometime. am i pathetic? maybe.

4.) i really do have the best husband ever. seriously. for example: he made me a site for my photography stuff today. isn't he great?!

5.) i forgot my purse at moe's tonight. i felt like a total idiot. i never do that. seriously.

6.) i kinda wanted to play in the rain today.

7.) you should tell me how you are. so, how are you?

..... 

destinnnnnnnnnn i love u =)!

    After 9 months of training in the US Army I'm finally back home. I got to report to my reserve unit the weekend I got back. It's great to be home. Eventually I'm going to add one or two entries about my experiences at BCT and AIT. I'm tpying to find a job right now. If anyone knows of anyone that's hiring, let me know. My dream job, which I probably won't get, is being a stage lighting consultant for churches. So if anybody knows of any churches that are looking into buying some new lights, give them my E-mail.

so i am bulding a webpage give me some feed back

http://appointed.thematthicks.com/

So yeah ALL my friends are in Hawaii... well there are like 3 friends still here in TN!! So i guess it's not THAT bad.... but still, their in HAWAII!!!!
LOL well anyway... just thought i would tell you people!! :P
Oh, and my braces don't hurt anymore!! YES!! lol well it makes me happy so thought i would tell you people!! :P

But he didn't so he wound up being turned into swiss cheese by the Senate and then a few hundres years later Willy Shakespeare make a play out of it.

Poor, stupid Julius Caesar. There's a reason that guy rode behind you in your chariot sayin "Remember Caesar thou art mortal."

Anyway, I've woke up at about 9:30 for the past two days and that's only not good because I have school. Which after this week won't be an issue, Spring Break baby!! I still have nothing planned, so if someone has any suggestions, let me know!

spring break starts tomorrow afternoon.... sadly i am not going to be at my house that long...i'll be kay's..i'll be back home around i dont know when....lol..then i'll be home the rest of the week><

oh well... i have to go cuz it's 6:12 in the morning and it's a school day

-meegan

In other words, why can't things just stop being so crazy and inconvenient for once in a while.

I can't sleep for various reasons, the first of which is a bloody sore throat I've had for a week and the stuffed up nose that is an on and off thing. It started last Saturday with just a sort of can't breathe, must blow nose scenario that happens to me a lot this time of year as the weather gets warm, but by that night I was coughing and my throat started to get sore. And the sore throat started before I was coughing. I've been taking over the counter medicine and popping Halls Fruit Breezers till my tongue feels sort of numb, not to mention the hot tea, which didn't help, and the gargling of salt water, which so far provides brief temporary relief that lasts maybe thirty minutes or an hour. So I can't sleep, can't really talk, and sometimes can't eat or breathe. Fun! Please note the sarcasm in that statement. I don't have time to be sick, not at all. I'm going to the walk in clinic in town today after my government test, and I shall be praying it's not serious. The other reason I can't sleep is because I'm worried about Kenny, who is miserable in VA from what I can tell. You see, I love him, regardless of the distance, the inability to communicate, and the various other flaws in our ordeal, and I can't stand to know he's unhappy. Apparently he is by himself and constantly working, which bothers me cause he works way too much and way too hard. He's like me in that he has a serious caffeine addiction, except that his is much worse, and this will lead to him drinking more coffee. He already was told to switch to decaf and not drink so much, but you know... Any way I miss him and don't like him to be miserable. Therefore I intend to somehow rescue him for that. Not sure how or when, but I will.

Like I said earlier, I don't have time to be sick, at all. I've got tests to study for, papers to write, books to read, projects to complete, and preparing for a tourney in one month. Clyde assigned Colonel Chabert Monday with the essay that goes with it, and I had to get my notes from Sarah because I was sick Monday and my car was still at the shop. I ordered my copy of the book from Amazon and it should be here Friday. Bradley has assigned lots of reading and an essay for her class, plus I have to meet with her Friday at 1:30 to go over my last paper because the grades over all were apparently really bad. Not that I mind, but I need to see my freaking paper already to see what I need to ask her about, and she won't give it to me until we meet. Besides that the woman is treating a basically Junior English class as if it were full of high school freshman or sophomores, and it's not at all. And she acts as though her class should be treated as if it were the only class we have, and I can't think that way. I'm taking thirteen hours this semester. I've got a government test today, which I haven't studied for, a geology lecture exam next Thursday, and a geology lab test next Wednesday. Not to mention that I have less than a month before I fly to Chicago for the John Marshall Law School Diversity Mock Trial Tournament. I haven't seen the case yet and my partner has never done mock trial before.

Someone please come hold the world up and keep it from collapsing on me.

well its about 450 am right now and we leave for chicago in around an hour and 10 min. i think this trip would probably go better if my mom had decided to come at the last min. lol last night my dad said to me right before i went to sleep was " try to have fun on your trip even that your mom is going." FINALLY someone who knows a) your parents going on a trip = not fun at all ( like when we went to NY). and b) if your in your parents group you are going to really regret it. ( we couldnt hardly do anything in NY because everyone was so scared of the posibillity of someone getting kidnapped. well i guess i am going to start to get ready to go.

Andrew

is halfway over.........

Today was a rough day...

"Heaven & Hell"

A
man spoke with the Lord about heaven and hell. The Lord said to the man
"come, I will show you hell". They entered a room where a group of
famished people sat around a huge pot of cooking stew. Everyone in the
room was starving and desperate. Each person held a spoon that reached
the pot but each spoon had a handle so much longer than their own arms
that it could not be used to get the stew into their own mouths. The
suffering was terrible. "Come now, I will show you heaven" the Lord
said.

They entered another room identical to the first,
the big pot of stew, the group of people and the same long-handled
spoons. But here everyone was happy and well nourished. "I don't
understand" said the man.

"Why is everyone happy here and miserable in the other room? Everything is the same."

"Here," said the Lord "they have learned to feed each other."

going to see anberlin in orlando on the 30th with a really good friend

: ]

he is a really good friend, and he doesnt get back what he deserves for it.

im sorry.

and it will probably never change either.

but u will get that $15 bak!! i refuse to let u pay me back!!! : P

So I'm hitting what I call a funk, what others call a period of mild-to-serious clinical depression (the level depends on what's going on in my life at the time).  It occurs every so often, but rather sporadically.  Anyway, today I was feeling a bit under the weather, so that + my newfound funk puts me into ultra-pensive mode.

Naturally, being in such a mode encourages me to reevaluate, you know, everything in my life...
What makes me different from anyone else?  Why do I think that I deserve a chance to do something, but that others do not?  Who is it I want to be, and how does that relate with who I'm working to be?  Bleh...I hate self-examination, because I know the questions that are going to come, and I know several answers I could give, but I'm never sure which one is the one I mean.

Oh, well...at least the Tigers will be playing soon.  :D

TGIT ... I am very thankful it is Thursday.  I am going to take Friday off and Monday is a holiday.  I am looking forward to the 4-day weekend.  Hopefully I can enjoy it more than the last one.  I think (moment of hesitation) I may finally be at the end of my stomach issues .... just in the last day or two (won't know for sure for a few more days).  Unfortunately, however, this issue took so much of my energy and stamina to fight I am now fighting off a cold.  Ugh !!

As for the special event .... Club 30 (Tiga Puluh) is having "emergency room" tonight.  Not sure what all they are planning ... but Decy and I are going tonight dressed as a Doctor and Nurse. he he he.

Chely's working on her SAT preps ... and not getting to have too much fun ... although she did get to spend some time last weekend with a girl friend.  This Saturday there is a College Fair where a bunch of US colleges will be hosting a "get acquainted event".  We will go to that.

Thasya is recovering from all her band and play activities.

Our "spring break" is the week of 26-30 March.  I'll take some days off (probably 29 & 30) but we won't go very far.  There have been a lot of accidents lately (planes, trains, and ferries) so ... there is a bit of nervousness around.

Oh - I go to the 2nd fitting on my tux today or tomorrow.

... going to log off now ... need to try to do some more work on sitesbygeeks.com

ciao ciao

i hate being sick.

i've been sick since late sunday night.
which freakin sucks.
i've missed a LOT of school...which means becca gets a LOT of work to do over spring break. yay. =[

but yeah.
i think it might be the flu.
which is just great.

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

MYSLICEOFPI.COM

Come to Family Worship Center to see The Easter Trilogy. It is FREE!!! Trilogy one begins march 25. you don't want to miss it. There will be live acting, music,and things like that.Family Worship Center is located on 1503 Sulpher Springs Rd. right off of W. Northfield Blvd. and Memorial Blvd. The showing times for Trilogy one will be on Sunday at 8:30am, 11:00am, and 6:00pm. so if you can not make it to the 8:30am showing, come to one of the other times. you don't want to miss it. Did I mention that this event is FREE?

GLINDA

(spoken) Elphaba - why couldn't you have stayed calm for

once, instead of flying off the handle!

(sung) I hope you're happy!

I hope you're happy now

I hope you're happy how you

Hurt your cause forever

I hope you think you're clever!


ELPHABA

I hope you're happy

I hope you're happy, too

I hope you're proud how you

Would grovel in submission

To feed your own ambition


BOTH

So though I can't imagine how

I hope you're happy right now


GLINDA

(spoken) Elphie, listen to me. Just say you're sorry:

(sung) You can still be with the Wizard

What you've worked and waited for

You can have all you ever wanted:


ELPHABA

(spoken) I know:

(sung) But I don't want it -

No - I can't want it

Anymore:


Something has changed within me

Something is not the same

I'm through with playing by the rules

Of someone else's game

Too late for second-guessing

Too late to go back to sleep

It's time to trust my instincts

Close my eyes: and leap!


It's time to try

Defying gravity

I think I'll try

Defying gravity

And you can't pull me down!


GLINDA

Can't I make you understand?

You're having delusions of grandeur:


ELPHABA

I'm through accepting limits

'Cuz someone says they're so

Some things I cannot change

But till I try, I'll never know!

Too long I've been afraid of

Losing love I guess I've lost

Well, if that's love

It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner buy

Defying gravity

Kiss me goodbye

I'm defying gravity

And you can't pull me down:

(spoken) Glinda - come with me. Think of what we could

do: together.


(sung) Unlimited

Together we're unlimited

Together we'll be the greatest team

There's ever been

Glinda -

Dreams, the way we planned 'em


GLINDA

If we work in tandem:


BOTH

There's no fight we cannot win

Just you and I

Defying gravity

With you and I

Defying gravity


ELPHABA

They'll never bring us down!

(spoken) Well? Are you coming?


GLINDA

I hope you're happy

Now that you're choosing this


ELPHABA

(spoken) You too

(sung) I hope it brings you bliss


BOTH

I really hope you get it

And you don't live to regret it

I hope you're happy in the end

I hope you're happy, my friend:


ELPHABASo if you care to find me

Look to the western sky!

As someone told me lately:

"Ev'ryone deserves the chance to fly!"

And if I'm flying solo

At least I'm flying free

To those who'd ground me

Take a message back from me

Tell them how I am

Defying gravity

I'm flying high

Defying gravity

And soon I'll match them in renown

And nobody in all of Oz

No Wizard that there is or was

Is ever gonna bring me down!


GLINDA

I hope you're happy!


CITIZENS OF OZ

Look at her, she's wicked!

Get her!


ELPHABA

:Bring me down!


CITIZENS OF OZ

No one mourns the wicked

So we've got to bring her


ELPHABA

Ahhh!


CITIZENS OF OZ

Down!

well nothing much has been going on lately. i leave in 2 days for chicago. i think it will be fun ( but better if my mom wasnt going) oh well i knew it was too good to be true. i have been at work mostly and lets see sunday i got off at 1:30 so i took Holly over to the green way. that was really fun. i cant believe in a couple of days i'll be freezing again when its so warm here. well i g2g

Andrew

we did ok
but it's over
and that feels amazing!!!!
so now i get to go to europA
and see everything there is to see
(well not everything)
paris, versailles, london, and windsor!!!!!
i can't wait
plane leaves 5pm tommorow!!!

So tonight i was going through some of my past entries attempting to avoid studying for my midterm tomorrow, and i realized how incredibly stupid i sound most of the time. Once i realized this, I had an overwhelming burden to apologize to any of you who have ever read any of my entries. So, sorry for putting you through that.

On another note, I haven't made an entry in forever and Nathan keeps getting onto me for not using Phusebox even though I do so here i am. I hope all of you are doing well!

For 6 months I have ridden back and forth to work with Pak Yono (the tortoise) and Pak Mustafa (the hare). Each driver is very different in driving styles and personalities.  As you can tell from my "labelling" in the first sentence.

At times I get very frustrated with Pak Yono because it seems that it takes him "forever" to get anywhere. On the other hand, I feel like I have been on a roller coaster after a ride with Pak Mustafa.

I normally do not eat lunch ... so when I get in the car (on the way home from work) I try to eat a quick snack ... which is usually finger food with some "dipping sauce" which has the consistency of water, but has some chilies in it.  What I have learned is that with Pak Yono this is not an issue - I merely put the bowl of food and sauce on my lap - and eat away while he drives.  For Pak Mustafa, however, I have to keep the lid on the sauce (so it doesn't slosh all over the place) ... and I often either miss my mouth or give myself a bath as he starts/stops, turns, swings, etc.  Yesterday after only 5 bites ... I was already wearing 3 splashes of sauce.

Oh and by the way, the actual travel time between the two drivers is pretty much the same .... Pak Yono goes slower but takes a shorter route (using short cuts and back roads) while Pak Mustafa takes longer route but travels faster (when there isn't traffic).

And so ... the winner is ... the Tortoise ...

ciao ciao

So here's my thought at the moment.......yep.......just one.  You can't expect more than one at 4:41 a.m.  Anyway.....here it is:


Papers are poo and I don't like them
Especially when there are more than one
All sort of due on the same day
It's very sad
But coke icee things are happy
and cold
and now I'm going to bed.

That was a longer thought that I thought it was going to be.  I thought it was just going to be papers are poo.  Here's a fun Erin picture!!

so along with the fact that everyone else in my life is having a crisis at the moment, whether it be pet, school or family related, i got a call from my mother shortly after 9 tonight.....

my little cousin Parker (who doesn't like me because i'm a girl), had a bike accident today. he was life flighted to Nashville, but they think he only has a crack in his skull right behind the ear.

the details are sketch because he doesn't remember much and neither does his younger brother, micah. what we think happened is that they were riding at the road and a car came around the corner. micah pulled over and stopped, but parker didn't have time and kinda rearended him. the collision resulted in him hitting his head on the concrete pretty hard.

i was worried at first about my grandparents because i can't see them handling this too well. apparently mom had to go tell them because this all happened away from the farm at the boy's mother's house or something like that. crazyness.



that's micah.... i don't have a picture of parker.....
i know it's going to be okay..... it's just.... wow
i kinda takes the breath out of you to get that phone call

I took this quiz to see what diseny movie i was and my highest score was Cool Runnings!! lol
i used to L-O-V-E that movie!! I haven't seen it in so long now... maybe i should go rent it!!
So yeah.... lol just thought you people would want to know!! :P

... spent too much time working on college finances and now it is time to go to work.  Nevertheless, we are all fine and moving forward here in Jakarta.

Yes, I am at school and yes, I am bored.

Just waiting for something eventful to happen, we're watching a video on mutual funds in B.M. and I'm not really paying attention. I probably should be...

My friend Spencer and I got to talking about all the folks over in Ireland (including Adam, who had better be taking pictures!!!!!!) for St. Patrick's day. Our scenario managed somehow to change from a round of drinking songs to an attack of the IRA. And somehow another girl in our class wound up in it and it didn't bode well for her. She drank all the Guinnes in Ireland and managed to tick off the IRA, poor her.

hey everyone! guess what?  i'm in ireland!!

yeah, be jealous, it's okay.  i would be too ;)

things are pretty amazing here, i've already seen my share of breath taking scenery, and i've only been here two days.  still nine more to go!

don't worry, you'll be able to see all my pictures and video i'm sure, that is, if you know me that well.

So, off to a park in a few minutes, and moving on to a different city: been in west port the past two.

If you have love in your life it can make up for a great many things
you lack. If you don't have it, no matter what else there is, it's not
enough.

Ann Landers

This will be my last entry for a while. So long phusebox.....

Survived the hash ... barely.  Or at least that is the way I felt when I finished.  After being ill for nearly 2 weeks and weight dropping off of me ... and stomach cramps yadi yadi yadi ... it was probably suicidal to think I could run a hash.  But, no one has ever accused me of being overally intelligent.  So ... off I went.  Did pretty well the first 35 minutes ... then all of a sudden ... I was running on fumes ... so I quickly geared down to a very fast walk ... lots of puffing and panting and aches and pains (thought I would lose my stomach at one point).  After about 1 hour ... I was dieing ... but didn't stop. Finally made it in after an hour and a half.  Surprisingly, I had beat over half the folks in .... not quite sure how that happened.  The true (and healthy) runners candidly beat me ... but I seem to have beat most everbody else ... guess it was that first 35 minutes that gave me a head start.  All evening Saturday and all day Sunday I paid for my sins .... had to go get a massage to work out all the aches and pains.  Oh well ....

Really not much to write about other the above ... working on vacation planning and reservations for June.  This vacation is a road trip .... which is always very hard to plan.  In total over 30 reservations to make ... I think I have about 15 done so far.

Also, "in my spare time" trying to get some pics loaded at sitesbygeeks.com .. if I can get that up and running (with Chris's help) then I should have something for folks to look at ... I've given up on phusebox RE pic-loading ... wasted no less then 6 hours trying to load xmas 2006 vacation pics.

Gotta run ... and work on other things.

Ciao ciao.   

I got back from Berlin last night.  Rather than bore everyone with an extended travelogue, I will simply say that I return from Germany feeling happy, productive, obligatorily irritated, bemused, and with pseudo-better German (I at least know the words for getting on and off the metro system).  Check out Facebook for pictures.

i never really get on here anymore.

its honestly...kinda lame

i myspace more so you can catch me on there.

sooooolong phusebox...

DUDE!!! I've been grounded for so long it's not even funny. All ya'll need to give me a call so we can hang some time soon.

i don't understand why being gay has to be all about sex. like... why does it have to be such a prominant part of relationships?

i don't get it.

i'd like to meet a guy that doesn't have to have sex to have a boyfreind. if that makes sense.

is that too much to ask?

Yesterday, Jonathan and I returned from Memphis.  It was a really fun, but busy trip.  I had a blast.  It was so much fun to meet all of his family and friends.  I'm so tired.  I'm going to need a vacation from my vacation.  A week of non-stop activity will do that to you.

Sadly, school starts back tomorrow.  I still have so much to do for classes.  It seems as if there just isn't enough time.  AHH!

Well, I got back from spring break last night at around 10. It was a great week but very hard and challenging. I know, spring break was challenging? I finally realized that Satan was trying tso hard to get to me and it was working until I realized. Things are a lot better now, other than the fact that I must go back to school tomorrow. Just looking at what is coming up is a SCARY thing, but I guess I'll survive.

Anyway, we went down to Clearwater Beach, Florida for a week. Monday and Wednesday we did outreach at USF and Clearwater. After USF on Monday Gray and I went to Busch Gardens and we went back on Thursday. It was amazing. That place was super fast without the long lines. Off season rocks!

So yes, it was a lot of fun, and I didn't get sunburned!

Now I must go back to the normal life, especially at 8am tomorrow with a desk shift. I guess I'll survive. School has been kicking my butt, but we'll see what happens. One week at a time, right?

I'm really going to have to get my butt going on support raising though. So MANY letters to send out in such a short time. But with God, anything is possible!

people don't fear their own desires, they fear the hardship and consequences of attaining them.  life is but a fleeting moment, much too short to live in fear.

I did it! What do you think? (P.S. It looks better in person)

Memphis won the C-USA tourney today.  Big surprise.  Now they're just gonna have to win the NCAA tourney.  Woohoo!

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I just got back from Memphis where I met up with a few of my high school friends and introduced them to Brittany.  Now, I'm usually not one to balk at another person's spiritual experiences because I have no clue what's going on in their spiritual lives.  Usually.  One thing was said, though, that got me thinking again...

"I've just been so broken by God lately.  I've never felt more humble than I do now; it's like all I can do is praise God all of the time.  I feel so great!"

Sounds nifty, honestly enough.  Except for the referring to the self more than referring to God, that is.  Even that wouldn't be so bad, except that the actions are done by the self.  Rather than "I've just been so broken by God lately," wouldn't it make more sense as "God broke me."?  As I said, I can't judge what others are going through, but I do notice things like that that make me wonder.

Anyway, we had an interesting discussion at the dinner table last night.  A teacher at the Baptist school where I attended for 13 years was reprimanded for referring to Mormons as a cult in a class in which there was a Mormon student.  During my 13 years there, I spent several years being told that my denomination was a cult and my grandparents' denomination was a cult, as well as my aunts, uncles, cousins, and many friends.  We dealt with it.

Anyway, that's not the thing I'm actually a little irritated by.  Mom stated that they (the Mormon family) should not be offended because, by definition, they are a cult.  She then told us that the definition of a cult is a group that doesn't believe in Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior.  I knew better than to try to explain that Mormons believe in Jesus (she got pissed at me last time I mentioned something even close to that), but I corrected her definition of a cult, using the Merriam-Webster dictionary defnition.  She told me in so many words that I was wrong, forgetting the conversation from about 20 minutes before when I had talked about having just given a presentation in a class about cults.  I think I have a little bit of an idea about the topic, you know?

Anyway, that's enough for now.  Going to sleep.

amber and i went to centennial park today. it was a lot of fun! i have uploaded some pictures, mainly the fun ones. see:




amber looks like a scared little kid


and she wants to kill me here

she's definitely extra special :)



but there are MANY more! and i have uploaded them to my flickr page check 'em out! and enjoy :)

i hope everyone else had a fabulous day! and i hope you have a GREAT night!

here are some of my favorite quotes by Friedrich von Schiller ...

"The will of man is his happiness."

"The world is ruled only by consideration of advantages."

"The voice of the majority is no proof of justice."

"Mankind is made great or little by its own will."

"Lose not yourself in a far off time, seize the moment that is thine."

"It is difficult to discriminate the voice of truth from amid the clamor raised by heated partisans."

"It is criminal to steal a purse, daring to steal a fortune, a mark of greatness to steal a crown. The blame diminishes as the guilt increases."

"I am better than my reputation."

"He who considers too much will perform little."

"Every true genius is bound to be naive."

... just to list a few.

well since the hurting of the knee, it's been alright(i guess)... yesterday my cat died cuz of a fucking dog... the night before we went to the hockey game... so nothing real new other then that.... i am kinda lost with out my cat here cuz he's not look in from the back door... it's was hard yesterday to face it... but today i am tring to look on the brighter side of it....it's hard to do but it's going have to be.....

other then that... i have nothing else to say

-meegan

r.i.p. monkey

I've recently that the human race is going to die out quiker than I had anticipated, merely because of stupidity.  This was the conclusion of a rather spur of the moment thought involving the point in life.  Most folks agree that the point in life is to reproduce and ensure the advancement of the species.  This would be where everyone finds the desire to have sex.  Makes sense, right?  Well, then comes the whole idea of having the pleasure of sex without those nasty little yard apes running around pestering you for money: birth control.  now I am by no means saying that birth control is a bad concept, because it's not.  But when the majority of the newborn population is being concieved in the backseats of broken down cars by people too stupid to use a condom, them we have a major problem.  If the intelligent advancement-of-the-species type people aren't having kids because they enjoy sex without responsibilities and the birth-rate continues to increase, then we will eventually die out.  I think it is quite deserved.

"Against stupidity, the very gods themselves contend in vain." ~ Friedrich von Schiller

Just a quickie ... going hashing today ... we shall see how I do ... the treadmill workouts should help ... but I haven't done much (any) of that the last two weeks since I had the food poisoning.

For the avoidance of doubt ... had inches and inches of rain yesterday.  So much for the religious advisors .... maybe they need to sub contract to CNN.  Current weather forecast is that the rain should end on Tuesday.

Got the first "fitting" on my tux (the jacket part). Good progress is being made ... second fitting for the jacket and first fitting for the pants next weekend.  Decy and the girls go to their tailor today.

ciao ciao

Surgery;
A week from today.
no Spring break, I've had bigger losses..

so, i have been meaning to post this for forever...i wrote this at the beginning of the year for English class, and though there are some rough spots, i really liked it. i hope you all will read it, though it is a bit long. let me know your opinions! thanks  and much love to you all!!!--Cari

                               One Nation Under Whom?

       Throughout the ages, religion has been an essential part of the human race. It gives us hope and a sense of purpose. Even if one does not identify with any sort of conventional religion, in the United States, he or she is not penalized for or prevented from practicing (or not practicing) it. In this country especially, religion is an integral part of our history. To exclude it from our lives and culture would truly be a tragedy.

               Most people, excepting sociopaths, have a conscience. This conscience tells one what is right and what is not, and also helps to define those situations which are not so black and white. Was this conscience created only to be left alone to its own devices? I think not. This instinctive moral code is found in almost every religion, especially Christianity, which was the impetus that compelled the English separatists to settle this nation, and the foundation from which it drew its ideas and system of government.

               The tenets of almost every religion emphasize doing right, i.e. the Ten Commandments and the Jewish Talmud, therefore it is ridiculous to say that including and/or incorporating religion into schools, government, or anywhere else is dangerous. Granted, there will always be those who use their religion as an excuse to hate, and even to enact violence on others who do not agree with their beliefs. But those actions of small sects of radicals do not justify the complete removal of a pillar of our society.

                In response to a critic, Thomas Jefferson once said, "Among the most inestimable of our blessings, also, is that…of liberty to worship our Creator in the way we think most agreeable to His will; a liberty deemed by other countries incompatible with good government and yet proved by our experience to be its best support." This statement was reflected in the First Amendment of the U.S. Constitution, which provides citizens with freedom of religion, among other freedoms. This country was formed on the foundation of Christianity, a religion highly compatible with the ideals of democratic government, as it values sacrifice, selflessness, peace, and high moral character, among other such noble qualities. Christianity also respects free will, and, while it doesn't accept other religions as absolute truth, does not advocate the persecution, coercing, or killing of those who do not agree with its theology. How does one consider a religion which urges one to "turn the other cheek" to be violent and threatening?

                If anything, incorporating religion into schools and government strengthens tolerance. It is when one is shut off from learning about other beliefs that intolerance is bred. By telling our nation's children that they are not free to practice their beliefs, people are creating within their highly impressionable minds confusion and eventually contempt, which in turn could result in a downward spiral, leading to the downfall of this country. I am by no means advocating a theocracy, because many leaders have used theocracy as a weapon. As the saying goes, absolute power corrupts absolutely. But a line must be drawn somewhere. The American government, as well as the American people, seems to have developed a phobia of offending others. If the Whigs had not "offended" King George III and Parliament, there would not be a United States of America as we know it. It also seems as though it is acceptable to offend certain groups, while tip-toeing around others, an example being Christians. People complain that they are offended by the inclusion of the words "under God" in the Pledge of Allegiance, and millions speak out in agreement and angrily protest. And yet, last week, when I was called "ignorant and small-minded" because of some of my beliefs, I heard no rallying cry of support. No one stood up and came to my defense. This person was considered "brave" for calling me out on my intolerance, while, in truth, only showing their own. When did such hypocrisy become an admired quality? The day that we become what we claim to hate most is the day when we lose our souls. America has truly become the prodigal son.

                Some have also complained that they have had religion shoved down their throats and argue, therefore, that an absence of religion would be the best solution for America. But this idea itself is backward and utterly hypocritical. For one thing, a complete and total absence of religious belief/the belief that there is no God is a religion called atheism. Secondly, imposing this religion on those who are otherwise affiliated would be equally as unjust. Thirdly, the opinions of the loudest mouths are not necessarily the consensus view. We should not allow ourselves to be bullied by a whiny minority. In a time where the fool speaks loudest, it is utterly wrong to not stand up and fight for what is right. Some of the main problems with this nation are the lack of accountability and the lack of bold men and women who will stand up and speak out against what they know to be incorrect. What is going to have to happen before we realize how far we have fallen? The people of our nation are actually listening to quixotic babblers who have nothing aside from their own interests in mind. How is that people have become so milquetoast in their pursuit for truth and justice? In the words of William Butler Yeats, "The best lack all conviction, while the worst are full of passionate intensity."

              I do not fear, because I believe that this world, this nation belongs to the One who is omniscient, omnipresent, and omnipotent. However, I will not insult people's intelligence with some Panglossian fluff. History is cyclical, and if we do not learn from it, it is destined to repeat itself. There are those who are slowly but surely trying to expel God from every facet of this nation, and the day that they succeed is not a day that I will want to see. Nowhere is it written that America is invincible or that our present way of life is permanent. Our nation is frighteningly comparable with ancient Rome, with our increasing appetite for violence, the overwhelming sensuality and perversity, and the pervasive materialism. I hope that this nation will learn from Rome's rejection of God and never forget, "For heathen heart that puts her trust in reeking tube and iron shard--- All valiant dust that builds on dust, And guarding calls not Thee to guard. For frantic boast and foolish word, Thy Mercy on Thy People, Lord!" (Rudyard Kipling).

              In conclusion, I do believe that all of this was well summarized by Ralph Waldo Emerson when he said, "A person will worship something, have no doubt about that. We may think our tribute is paid in secret in the dark recesses of our hearts, but it will out. That which dominates our imaginations and our thoughts will determine our lives, and our character. Therefore, it behooves us to be careful what we worship, for what we are worshipping we are becoming."  

So, I'm not really sure what I'm doing. Grace and Lane have made me get one of these... So if anyone feels the need to help me, please HELP!!

so guys. how ya'll is? life is good as usual! i am currently babysitting my favorite kids in all the world! the thompson 4 are so unbelieveably amazing!

tomorrow is formal!!!!!!! woohoo! i can't wait.. michael and i are going to look so cute!

lemme tell ya...some times people make it hard for me not to like them. but that's ok. i'll never tell him again because i don't want our friendship to go the way that it did last time. i know it sounds funny, but it's like i love him too much to tell him so. but man....if he decided to be Baptist, ooh girl....we would be gettin married!!! ha. j/k. well, Clayton's screaming at me, so i guess i better go! much love--Cari

bassoon. makes me happy. =]
flute?
*scratches head*
i forgot how to.
school?
=/
ehh.
good.
but i still miss last year.
6 days until chicago!
woo ^_^

I got back from salsa practice about 20 minutes ago…we’re
all a bit insane if I may say. Spencer can’t keep his shirt on, and that’s a
little weird if you’re his partner. Even weirder is when he starts doing
something to your hair. It was kinda funny when I turned around and landed him
one in the chest.

   I can’t wait for
Cinco De Mayo…

 

I think we’re having a movie night at my house tonight, not
to sure but I know mom said something about Underworld 2, oh wait that was me.
Yeah, then tomorrow I have this stupid English project on Walt freakin’ Whitman.
Egh. I liked him before, but now I’m ready to kill him. Thing is he’s already
dead.

 

Spring Break is in less than a week, and I still have nothing
planned. Somebody please give me something entertaining to do!!?!

    Okay so I might
just be trying out for High School Musical at Patterson Park
soon…

I'm going to Ohio State.

A novel about my New York experience... there's so much to tell...

bye, if you want to talk to me,

go here

i am making a list of my favorite songs:P You can tell i have nothing to do :P lol

1~ My Little Girl (By - Tim McGraw)
2~ Work (By - Jars Of Clay)
3~ From Sunrise To Sunset (By- Paul Wright)
4~ Tears Of The Saints (By- Leeland)
5~ Watching You (By - Rodney Atkins)
6~ Wild Horses (By - Natasha Bedingfield)
7~ Just Breath (By - Anna Nalick)
8~ Should Have Said No (By - Taylor Swift)
9~ Tim McGraw (By - Taylor Swift)
10~ Teardrops On My Guitar (By-Taylor Swift)
11~ Does Anybody Hear Her (By - Casting Crowns)
12~ The Last Night (By - Skillet)
13~ Dreamer (By - Bethany Dillon)
14~ Let It Rain (By - Jo Jo)
15~ Jealous Kind (By - Jars of Clay)
16~ Our Song (By - Taylor Swift)
17~ Wreck Of The Day (By- Anna Nalick)
18~ Anything But Ordinary (By- Avril Lavigne)

So, i haven't done to much different.
I got to go to my best friends church wednesday night! It was good, i stoped going wednesday night to my church b/c i wasn't learning anything! I haven't learned anything on a wednesday night in a LONG time! So, yeah, that was fantastic. I baby-sat a bunch this week, but that happens like every week :)
Yesterday i got to go riding. It was so much fun. I rode my third favorite horse... lol
We ran like craZy and it was THE best thing i have done in a long time. It was FANTASTIC to be up in the saddle, since we moved, i haven't got to ride or play around with horses everyday :( But at lest once a week is better then nothing.... right....
I am getting used to my braces!!
They don't hurt as bad. What else is there.... School, is the same for me, i am doing pretty good with all my subject. I think thats about it.
So, i'll up-date when something else fantastic happens :)

... with or without friends.

... with or without a signifigant other.

... with or without restrictions, promises, attachements, or obligations.

... with no regret.

and in no particular order.

- st. petersburg - moscow - paris - rome - prague - new york city - london - ireland - bangkok - oahu - new zealand - sydney - las vegas - la - baltimore - boston - international waters - milan - athens - sicily - glasgow - strasbourg - germany -

Spring Break in less than 24 hours!

Woke up this wonderful Friday morning to the sound of pouring rain.  How could that possibly be?  The religious advisors had said the rain would stop by 8-March ... and now it is 9 March .... hm, perhaps it was based on the US time zones.

I am very frustrated about not being able to post pics on Phusebox.  I guess the connection is just not good enough from Indonesia - I think it isn't so much as speed (as the speed from Angola was lower) but more "consistency of signal/connectivity" and .... I think the Phusebox server times out.  Anyway, Chris is helping me build / test a site at sitesbygeeks.com ....  I just posted 5 pics and am posting some more ... then I will try a blog.  If it all works well, then Chris will "flesh out" the design while I am adding content .... stay tuned.

BTW ... TGIF !!!!!  I need this weekend SO MUCH !!!!

ciao ciao 

i bought blue like jazz today, i cant wait to start reading it. i'll start on it after i finish treasure island

piece

I'm back in action.And let me just say how much I've missed the internet. You really don't know what you've got until you're stuck watching fishing shows all day.

Pa looks great, he's bruised as all get out, but he's still doing good.He shaved his head, which makes me sad. But it beats getting blood and such in your hair so I'll deal with it.

Nana is making healthier food, don't get me wrong it's still artery clogging goodness, but there's less grease involved. I never thought I'd see the day, but I'm glad I did. They're getting older and they needed to cut back on the Crisco.

I'm sitting here in Business Management, I like this class. I'm good at this kind of thing I've discovered.

So what's everybody doing for Spring Break?

I am currently taking requests for things from Hawaii. If you want a grass skirt please tell me...Although you will probably not get any of it....I am cheap so don't get your hopes up....I am kidding. 

A problem came to me quite clearly when I was thinking.  How I arrived at the problem is actually kinda funny because I don't remember how my train of thought got to this place.

It goes like this.  You can't impose a human sense of justice onto God for some circumstances and then retract that sense for others.  Actually, most Calvinists circumvent this issue quite efficiently, for no human understanding of God's justice is required as a result of their conception of God's sovereignty.  Most Arminians would agree that God does have the right, but would argue that God does not act unjustly (in the human sense) the majority of the time (i.e. God does not condemn people who can do nothing to avoid their fate).  This problem is not a Arminianism vs. Calvinism problem, though.


Most Christians rebutt the question "Why would God condemn small children?" with the age-old Age of Accountability.  Funny how this concept is almost universally accepted yet biblically unfounded, where biblically unfounded means that no verse in the Bible says that small children will automatically go to Heaven.  In this case, we would all have to agree that some human sense of justice is imposed on God's actions, in that God would not condemn the innocent based on what we believe about God in general; but no specific Scriptural basis can be used for this belief.

Suffice to say, some of the same people who adhere to the "Age of Accountability" will straight-facedly tell you that God will condemn those who have never heard the Gospel eternally with same measure of punishment as Satan himself.  So I have to wonder where is the justice in that?  If you look at Revelation, nothing says that those thrown into the Lake of Fire will burn eternally except Satan.  So, I'm going to assume that the Second Death is just that--the end to those souls.  You cannot impose a sense of justice (the age of accountability) and then retract it (the condemnation and equal punishment of everyone who dies without being saved).  It's flawed reasoning.

Read. Believe.

DiaryOfDaniel at Wordpress

Ah the joys of language translation .... so ... a few days ago I find a gift on the counter and ask Decy about it .... she says she is going to a Baby Shower (a first time for her) and that it is a gift.  Last night Decy told me how she was visiting with some of the ladies about the Baby Shower - yes, it is a baby shower ... but Decy was thinking it was a baptism where they "shower the baby".  Unfortunately (or fortunately depending on your point of view), this baby is not yet born.  I LOVE MY WIFE !!!  She makes me smile and makes life more enjoyable.

Nothing to write about RE work .... going to close so I can work on some more vacation planning.

ciao ciao

so i felt like playing......
one of my friends got a really fun necklace from her boy for ...er i don't even remember why, but anyway... (focus).... pretty necklace.
it has two linked hearts.
now i have one similar to this one
that my parents gave me after a true love wait weekend at church.... and that was about the only type of linked necklaces that i was finding in my search for a necklace similar to hers..... .ger
i did find several pretty ones but everyone has something similar to this one from tiffany co


 
and this one is really fun


but ta da! i finally found it!!!
er.... kinda...... i really like this one!!!!! except not gold....


it's fun because the hears are linked but not in the same side by side way as everything else..... and it's really simply...... incredibly pretty!!

turns out stuffed teddies are easier to cope with than the flesh and bone kind.

i hate being grounded.

i cant do anything but just lie there on my bed.

bleah

The Grand essentials of happiness are:
something to do,
something to love,

and something to hope for.
Allan K. Chalmers

english.....romeo and juliet

theatre.....roxanne

gym....ran 2 miles

science.....ate

history....worked with a partner....special someone

math.....review stuff

got home and played outside for 1 hour.....deleted my myspace....that felt great....seriously......so yeah it has just been a great day!!!.....

praise jesus

Thanks to all your helpful advice meet my new Camera

Man she is a beauty

SPRING BREAK IN 3 DAYS!!

The literal translation of the above saying in Bahasa Indonesia is "chicken sleep" ... the meaning is "cat nap" .... go figure.

Uggh, what a strange day yesterday (Tuesday) was ... started out with a continuation of the stomach problems from last week's food poisoning - muddled through that ... and work.  Then had to rush to the school for a group meeting about Thasya moving to the 8th grade next year - got through that then came all the way back downtown for a get together with Nathan, a friend that was visiting from Singapore.  Finally made it home at 1145pm ...and up at 330am.

** For the avoidance of doubt, we asked our driver when he picked us up to take us home last night if he slept and his response was "tidur ayam" ... at which time I broke out laughing ... and Decy and he did too ... because I understood what he said.

Really not much to talk about - RE the weather, the religious guru's finally extended their "end of rain" forecast from 18-Feb to 5-Mar ... but it kept raining ... so yesterday they extended it until 8-Mar ... I guess sooner or later they will get it right ... either through luck or through "divine guidance".

Speaking of "divine" I'm trying to work on vacation plans for June ... there's much to work through ... most frustrating, however, was the fact that there is a key regional meeting with a VP right after I return ... thus, technically, I should come back early to prepare ... not sure how I can possibly do that ... but if I don't ... the first two days in the office will be pure hell !!!

Regarding the latest furniture saga, after having the dinette chairs for about 6 weeks ... the craftsman STILL hasn't returned them after trying to "touch up" the finishing.  Also, this is the same guy/family that is doing our entry way furniture.  In early November we ordered a couch and two chairs for the entry way ... and paid 25% down ... it was supposed to be delivered in early January.  We have heard nothing but excuses as to the delays.  Finally, last Wednesday we received a message the furniture and chairs would be delivered on Saturday.  Then on Friday we received a message they would be delivered on Tuesday.  Tuesday came and went ... no message ... no information.  Woe be unto these guys when they finally deliver the furniture ... no doubt Decy will find every flaw and scratch in the furniture ... then she will refuse to pay ... then she will delay paying ... and then she will probably even try negotiating the payment.  Said another way - if these guys can't fulfill their commitments on quality, service, and delivery ... why should we on paying .... stay tuned.

ciao ciao

am i crazy because i want to touch your skin?
is it ludicrous that i've got nothing to believe in that
was built by human hands or controlled by demand?
so if love is true, let's burn the factory,
take off your shoes it's time for dancin'

i never leave the house without a pocket of pills,
operator, operator i've got no solitude
from the digging hands (no way)
i think i'm losing it and i can't keep up
operator, operator it's nothing personal
but i'm choking tears, I'm thinking bout giving in
it's no better than before, it's just never mentioned

we keep running this race that can't be won,
i keep coming up empty
doctor doctor you know they try to sell my trust
and they call me crazy
box to box you know it never stops,
we're playing boomerang highways
in an endless search for meaning
i pray for something real
one kiss for all the world, a taste for all that's precious

take it away release all your tension

all their paper never feels like my lovers kiss
or the warmth of her touch while we dream
so if I'm insane so be it, i'll trade in everything
one kiss for all the world, one more for all that's precious

are we going nowhere?
we need disaster to love until we're blinded
indeed we are caught, what if we get free?

take it away and it's all your strife
take it away release all your tension

'...and the battle begun' by Rx Bandits

nothing much has been going on lately. i have been really busy with school and work and with hanging out with Holly. right now everything is going pretty good except that at work i have to work late. lets see oh Sunday Donald and i made a video for our english class presintation. it was really funny. you wouldnt believe the looks you get from people at night inside of resturants when your standing outside taking pics of it. lol they are pretty funny and make you feel like you need to get out of there asap. lol well i g2g. :]  

Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side.
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain.
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change, He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul: thy best, thy heavenly Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

Be still, my soul: thy God doth undertake
To guide the future, as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.

Yep, leaving for Ireland in less than four days.

Don't ya hate it when you buy a new camera and you want to show people pics of it...but you can't take a picture of it becuase..well you just can't

Monday's are tough enough ... but after a 4 day weekend that didn't go as planned (due to illnesses) it was very frustrating to see all the emails waiting for my return.  However, I did manage to get through the day.

As for blogging, not much to blog about .... because I can't talk details about work ... and that was all I did yesterday.

Sorry ... ciao ciao ...

Here is a question that was raised during one of my seminary classes.

Do you have to be a Disciple to be a Christian?

If so, why?
If not, why not?

have you ever allowed your emotions take control of you...i have... i got involved with a girl who i felt, thought, deep down she was the one for me. just recently we broke it off. i am still remembering the time we spent together. though it is hard i must let go and give God my everything, I'm surrendering my all.  even through the hard times God is there to meet us in the good and the bad times.  by going through what i have, the circumstances made me stronger. i thank God for it all. just remember... there is a real God who cares about you so much that he gave is only begotten son to die on an old rugged cross for all mankind.

So today mandy and I were about to get out of my car and we saw an infestation of squirrels right behind the B.  Then two particular squirrels stood out because one was intently pursuing the other.  Mandy and I watched for just about 10 minutes.  The squirrel being pursued did not want to be pursued at all.  She (i think it was a she because I think it's mating season here in Morehead) did not want anything to do with him.  But at the same time, just like a female, she would get distracted and just stop.  Not wise.  While she wasn't paying attention, the other squirrel would come up and sniff her butt...or at least that's what it looked like.  And it happened several times.  Mandy and I decided that if a man were going to pursue us, we would not enjoy having out butt sniffed.  I think it's a logical claim. 

So that lasted at least 10 minutes.  Mandy and I concluded that squirrels during mating season is Nature's Soap Opera.

I don't have a full opinion on whether or not abstinence-only sex ed should be taught because my school had no sex ed.  What does irritate me is the following argument:

"They shouldn't teach abstinence only sex ed because kids will still have sex."

Excuse me?  Maybe we should stop telling men not to beat their wives because it still happens.  Or perhaps we should stop saying that murder is wrong because it still happens.  This is not an argument to help your case.  Good gracious.

-------------------------------------------

So Mom was fairly unhappy today to find out I had gotten off the meal plan at Tech without first consulting her and Dad because I shouldn't be making these decisions.  This re-raised a question I've been pondering for about a month now - When do I hit the magical barrier at which I am "old enough" to make certain decisions?  I'm going to sound a bit like a whiny teenager here (I am one; why shouldn't I embrace it?), but why is it that I'm too young to make decisions like this?  At lunch today, Mom was lamenting (and mentioned lamenting to various other bystanders at church this morning) about my not studying engineering anymore.  Apparently I'm too young to decide what to do with my life.  I mean, I'm only 19; I know I have tons to learn and tons of experience to gather, but let's face it: I can't learn and I can't experience if I let her live a life through me.  So I'm frustrated about the following:
a. Direct quote - "I keep saying you need to be an engineer."
b. Direct quote - "You can't make decisions like this.  You need us to do it."
c. Direct quote - "Are you really, really sure you don't want to come to Memphis for your degree?"

Is it too much to ask to let me make a few decisions and, likely, more than a few mistakes for myself?

The reason I'm putting this on Phusebox is that if I confronted her about this (as I tried to do before), she gets upset and starts crying, then Dad gets pissed at me, too.  That never turns out well.

This is dedicated to a dear friend who took own his life in December of 2006. This is for Nathan. It was inspired by a funeral procession that I stopped for as I was leaving campus the other day.

I hit the brakes and turned my head
as I caught sight of the line of cars.
They were passing by so very slowly,
and I paused and closed my eyes.

I said silent prayer for the dead
and those left behind I never met.
I asked the Lord to help them understand
and to help them to find a little strength.

Then I remembered not long ago
driving in a line like that.
And I remembered losing you
and wondering just how I would survive.

I could see it all so clearly,
the casket and the grave,
and thinking this cannot be real.
I had fallen back in time.

And I started to cry and pray,
"Lord please give me strength,
help me carry on somehow.
Lord give me hope to go on."

Then I found my way back
to the time that was now,
and I realized that He had
Given me strength and peace.

As I watched the cars go by
slowly moving down the road
I thought about the way it feels
to know that you are missing one you love.

Then I thought of you
and where you are
and how you're better now
and I smiled for you.

Because there are no more
funeral processions going by you
and someday we will find
ourselves together once again.

But until then I'll think of you
and wish that you were here
and evey funeral procession
will take me back to that day.

We laid you in the ground,
and we cried tears of pain.
Then we sent you off with prayer
promising we'd be together again.

Since the day you left us behind
I have thought of you so many times
and remembered the good things
the way I know want me to.

But I have not forgotten
and never will I try
death cannot stop friendship
like the one belonging to you and I.

Okay so my understanding of how gross guys can be when they are living with other guys has reached a whole new level tonight.

The youth went to DQ after church and we got into a conversation about the food that has left to mold in Hooper's kitchen sink, his dirty bathroom that doesn't get cleaned very often and how he thinks washing the kitchen floor is when he puts too much dishwashing soap in the dishwasher so that it spills out into the floor and Adam R's bathing rituals and sheet washing that only happens once a semester. Ewwwwww.

I think I wanted to throw up in my mouth.

Spring Break in 5 days!!!

I am closing my PhuseBox account in an effort to eliminate my excessive internet "sprawl."  PhuseBox happens to be one of about 7 servers that I operate on.  Many sites I also have numerous accounts to, so  am streamlining my outlets in an effort to better keep track of my life and limit my time on the internet.  I am limiting my exposure, meaning only one main blog site, so PhuseBox is (unfortunately) being cut.

I will leave my account active, but posts, pictures, etc. will slowly removed over the next couple days/weeks (aside from this).

I will update this entry with a website to contact me once I establish the site that will be.

Glad to have been here, if just for a little.
Best of luck to everyone!

all of this nasty suff on the blogs needs to stop
because it's gross and you need to keep your clothes on
so yea