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gutwrenching

emotional

if only




if only.......



i feel more on this coming later-stay tuned.


::moser

i'm changing my sn cuz this one's boring

so today...

i woke up bright and early to take the ACT. it wasnt too bad, except for the science part. ha, i could have done without that.

tonight i went to Slaughterhouse with some people. twas fun indeed, even though we got lost in nashville for an hour or so. haha, whatever.

thats all i've got for now.

KC's Party was AMAZING!!!!

The group was quite interesting....it consisted of Jill, Becca, Robert, Amy, Kim, Sean, Dana, Leigh, Craig, Emily, Rachel (Bowen), Rachel (Baldwin), Robin, Brittany, Haley, Chelsey, Emily Lupoli, KC of course, and Me!

The night was interesting, too! It consisted of: Four Square, Moulin Rouge, Band Videos, Truth or Dare (sock in the mouth!!! ewww), Embarassing Moments (kim...i thought you were leaving...i felt REALLY stupid after that!!! --one of my new embarassing moments...LOL!!!!), Rachel Bowen being a PERFECT 8 (inside thing), Me confessing something....we won't go into that one...and just lots of laughter....i loved it!

Man...tonight was one of the best times i've ever had!!!

today was eventful...

ACT...whatever...

dance pictures...hope they turn out good...

dinner at sarah's....always something...

the MALL with sarah and jarred...then, we sat at starbuck's for forever...sarah is fun...jarred is fun...luckily, sarah went with so i didnt have to hang out with a boy all by my lonesome

i've decided im attracted to tall people...even though im short

_rebekah

shoo, what a W E E K E N D <3

t'was nice.

ste's party was pretty dang fun.
we played suck and blow.
Germani and i accidentally dropped the card like.. 5 times and kissed >_<
it was pretty funny.
i got a robot keychain at target.
his name is "Zed"
went to Carly's and slept for about 12 hours. (amazing)
then we met Ryan [from myspace] and his friend who looked like timmy hendrix at starbucks.
had some yummy coffee.
we all went to Marshal's(sp?) and saw the skuzziest man ALIVE!
he was wearing spandex-y booty-shorts. and he had a dirty sanchez. we took pictures of him. and named him
R E X THE S E X. larlar
ste got an ipod nano. ::jealous x12::
carly and i went to Mary's part-ay. it was fun times. even thought not too many people were there.
i think i'm going to AQUA NET my hair every day.
i like having my hair bigger than my shoulders =]

i'm in need of coffee-tis-ation
but alas....

shall post pictures some time... later <33

lub.

.abbled a b b l e s.

Today was a day of memories.
Good, but upsetting none the less.
I can't stand the way reality hits in sometimes.
The way you hear a song and it kills you inside.
The thoughts of someone engulfs your mind.
Though all is good, your life is bland.
Without the one to hold your hand.
I hate the lonely feeling I have.

I need to get out.
have some fun.
You know the teenager stuff.
Someone come pick me up
and we'll go to the mall or something.

I feel as if I don't have many "friends"
In Spanish she said that it's a
huge compliment to call someone an Amigo.
(which incase you didn't know, means friend)
and i relized, I have all these people I call friends,
but I never hang out with them,
I only see them on certain occasions
(school,birthdays,etc)

Well, anyhoo. I guess that's all that's goin on.
I think my sister has strep throat(ick)
so I think i'm gonna stay away from her,
I don't need  anymore shots.
uhh..orthodontist monday,
I have to ask how much longer
i'll have these frikkin braces.
Probably like 2 more months.

Well if you wanna hang out,
let me know, i should be
pretty much free for a while.

--Miss Sarah&hearts;


I was in love with that french fry.
Devin ate it.
'Twas upsetting.

--bloc party--

i really <3 that song.

but yes, tonight was fun. "the myth of the woods". getting beat up by a he/she. and a ten year old saying blood tasted like cancer.

i was thinking on my way home how in elementary school i thought grace hated me and visa versa. so we never talked in middle school, and did a little bit in 9th grade. and now, i love her  5865968098....that much times a trillion. and last year i never said 3 words to mady, and now she hugs me and wont let go until i hug her back. i hang out with courtney and carlton a LOT more. and i see brittany more than my own family.

ahhh....i LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE these people. i really couldn't ask for better friends.

you know, on....thursday grace gave me this note. and, it kind of reminded me of the friend i wish/hope/want to be. just this amazing person who makes people feel better. i mean honestly, i can say, no one has ever said anything nice like that to me. even if it wasnt some huge monumental thing, it was still the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me. but shes just frickin awesome like that.

i had a level 2 meltdown today, but thats alright because it's all better and i didnt get into too much trouble.

best quote of all time (which i still cant get over):
"aida burrito." ~lil med. (mr medford)

stay cool kids,
sara.

...likewhoa...

...i broke my promise to myself...

...i'm in a band again...

...www.purevolume.com/twosecondspast...

...we have a song...

Wow, what a crazy night. There are so many different things going through my head right now...I can't even explain.

"Jane Says" by Jane's Addiction

Jane says
I'm done with Sergio
He treats me like a ragdoll
She hides
The television
Says I don't owe him nothing,
But if he comes back again
Tell him to wait right here for me
Or just
Try again tomorrow
I'm gonna kick tomorrow
Gonna kick tomorrow

Jane says
Have you seen my wig around?
I feel naked without it
She knows
They all want her to go
But that's O.K. man
She dont like them anyway
Jane says
She's goin away to spain
When she gets my money saved
I'm gonna start tomorrow
I'm gonna kick tomorrow
Gonna kick tomorrow

She gets mad
Starts to cry
She takes a swing but
She cant hit
She don't mean no harm
She just don't know
What else to do about it

Jane goes
To the store at 8:00
She walk up on St. Andrews
She waits
And gets her dinner there
She pulls her dinner
From her pocket
Jane says
I've never been in love
I don't know what it is
Only knows if someone wants her
I want them if they want me
I only know they want me

She gets mad
And she starts to cry
She takes a swing man
She cant hit!
She don't mean no harm
She just dont know
What else to do about it

Jane says
Jane says

See how much I love my LizBeth! 

Elizabethtown was awesome again!!  Lovin' Life...Lovin' You...24/7!!  Chuck and Cindy "The Wedding"

Tonight was a good night...next weekend is gonna suck though...I have to work Thursday - Sunday...yeah I know that sucks alot!

That's all I really have to say!

eliz

...jiggidy jig.

or something.

to correct my previous entry, "zwei" is two. so sorry, all of you germanspeaking people who might have been offended...lol

im bored.

What a long day! I was on campus from 10:50 until the football game ended. Tailgating was a blast. The Shaws had their own tent, we got food from the BRAA tent, and we hung out at the AO tent. Fun times. I'm too lazy to write a decent post, so I'll leave you with a picture.

I just got back from the MTSU homecoming game and it was pretty fun even though i had no idea what was going on. I'm really tired and nothing seems to be coming out quite right whenever i say something...so i guess that's all...our yard sale went pretty well today.(in case anyone was interested.) I'm still trying to think of places i could move so if anyone has any ideas please tell me...i was thinking maybe England cause i've always wanted to go there but it's kinda far away...

yeah so today i hed to get up at like 8 in the morning to go watch my little brother play baseball and that was cool they won but it was soo cold then we went home and i had to clean alot then lj came and got me and we went to tailgate and to the MTSU game and omg it was soo much fun! i had a blast even though they lost 10 to 13 but oh well it was kinda cold there too and Lj is amazing i love that chick!!

HELLO TO ALL!!!! I hope everyone is having a great weekend! I am having a good weekend.... very restful and because of that very good! Anyhoo i was bored so i thought I would drop a hello but thats it peace out homies.

In Him,
Jonathan
1Thes 5:16-18

It's been a whole seven days since I posted + I have no pics to upload... I do, however, have the need to curse out the Apple people on account of my iPod's total lack of working-ness.  Argh!  The battery doesn't work + at this point it isn't even turning on... now I am left to dream of lost Here, in Arms + Deathray Davies songs...

*oh, + Mallrats is the second-best movie, behind Pulp Fiction, weinches!!!*

cXh

Last couple days have been pretty fun, though slightly sad too.

I like fun! :-)

   So, after another amazing evening spent in Athens last night with my lady I'm back at my real home in atlanta. I just got done eating dinner with my grandpa and what an awesome guy he is. He's like me in 50 years, or atleast I hope to be something like him in 50 years. He's pretty tough and pretty funny, and he has no idea what's going on in today's world and pretty much doesn't care. Just living you know...

  So, here I am back downstairs on my old computer waiting on Jeremy to get here so we can go see some crap at the theatre (somewhere I haven't been since June). We used to go to movies all the time, what happened? Oh yeah, I'm freakin' broke that's what. Plus, nothing good has come out in like a year or so, what happened to all the good movies? I mean all my favorite directors have went to crap: Terantino, Spielburg (War of the Worlds? Come on...), and the writing for these have been worse. When is Shamalyan going to do another film, please save us from this repeatitive crap. And just another side note on the movies today....quit making them 3 hours long. That's really freakin' annoying, if you can't get the story in under two hours, you're doing something wrong....

   Well, what else....hmmm. Well the camping trip is getting pretty close and I'm really excited and dissapointed with myself at the same time. This weather is absolutely perfect for coaster riding and I haven't been doing any lately. So, I'm going to make up for it this weekend hardcore. I'm cashing in my change at Kroger Friday morning and buying my park ticket with that and I'm just going to ride. Heck, I'm going to ride just to ride. Already rode it that day, doesn't matter. Kids coaster that lasts about 13 seconds, I'm going to ride it 3 times. I need to remember why I'm going through this hell known as the Engineering Program. This weekend is needed and well deserved. So here's a big thanks to Garreth and the guys for talking me into going all the way to Branson this weekend.

I'm not gonna lie- this week has been extremely stressful...especially this weekend.

I hate it when my mom just won't let me go and make my own decisions. She treats me like she wants to control my every move. I would rather her just let me go so i could make my own mistakes and learn from them. Needless to say i am grounded and cant do anything this weekend...which stinks because i really wanted to see Lauren, Andrea, and Lisa. gaaahhhhhhhh.

Last night, my cousin Rob and his family threw a fall family/friend get-to-gether, and I had a complete blast. There was a moon bounce and a huge bouncy slide ((they'd ordered it for the night)), and of course I was jumping like, half the night. My 87 year old grandfather even went down the slide; it was amazing. I had so much fun just being around my cousins. The hilight of the night was when me, Karen, Marla Stephen, Nathan, Marty, and about four toddlers ((the rest of us range in age from 12-35)) were bouncing in the moon bounce, and it started deflating! So I start grabbing the kiddies so they didnn't like, suffocate and this thing is coming down all around us, lol. It was great.

Onto a little less lighter note, one of my aunts is in the hospital. The doctors aren't sure what's wrong with her, but her white blood count is down, and that can ((under certain other circumstances)) be some pretty serious stuff. Prayers for her and her family are appreciated.

Ah yes. I got some new scrapbooking material. Excellent.

tennessee lost.

someone fire randy.

now!

If I don't get remarks with this one....

"It must be impossible to live
without hurting anyone.

If you think you're such a victim,
then you should act out until the end
this pretense of not caring about losing everything."

-Ayu

Okay so today was really funny...ask me for the CD.  Amanda, Ash, and I went karaoke-ing.  We sang "wannabe".  Want proof?  There's a CD...lol

Tailgating was cool.  We hung out with the DSS crwe and then the BCM crew.  Saw a few people from AO.  This semester, as far as friends go, life is getting so great.  And it only took me a year to get involved.  :)

Still not sure what I want to do next year, as far as housing goes...RA or apartment?  Hmm...decisions decisions.

I want to tell people something...I've not been myself lately...I've stated that previously in here, but I feel like I must say it again.  If I have offended or hurt your feelings in the past month, I apologize.  Forgive me. 

This semester is definitely drawing me closer to God...I need that.  I need Him.

We went to a corn maze with our New Orleans neighbors and no I didnt get lost.   The little ones got to ride a miniature horse.   It was good fun.   I bet it would be really fun to go at night so you could scare other people...   hehe..   Hope everyone is having a good weekend.

Here is a pic of my little brother and his friend on top of the hay bales there.  I think it turned out pretty good.

Take Care and Keep Smiling

Danny

i hate when your eating popcorn and you throw a kernal in your mouth and it's only half popped and it feels like your about to crack a tooth trying to eat it.

it's kinda like the UT football team, they go out on the field half way ready to play the game.

last i saw, vandy wasnt doing to bad. they were tied with south carolina.

piece

just when i thought i had it all figured out, life takes a huge turn. but you know that isnt for me to decide. it's all part of God's plan.. friends go different directions and things go differently but it all works out for the best in the end.

God is incredible and one that i can completely rely on to be there when i am in dire need..

the variety show was amazing :] it was such a blast! i wouldnt be complete without the stage! performing is one of my passions. <3 its incredible how God works in such odd ways...

I will never leave you nor forsake you...

I like sleeping late.

Hey everyone!!!

Thanks to all that were able to come to the wedding!!! It was perfect and Josh and I had a wonderful time. Our wedding photos from our photographer are up on the web now so if you're interested in taking a look, go to www.pictage.com - the event code is "harrell" if it asks for one. Thanks again and I'll post more later.

Stephanie

nathan is so much better than tom.

figure it out...
_kt

NATHAN AND RACHAEL GOT ENGAGED.
NEVER SAW THAT ONE COMING.lol
CONGRATULATIONS.
su madre and good night.
_kt

The NEW Phusebox Rocks!!!

    yay...you can change the COLOR!!
 

This is going to be the year I finally break down...

I believe it will happen.

 

Everyone have a FANtastic weekend!! LovE yOu!

<33MyaboO

I was singing to my blood brothers cd <3

Todayyyyy.
I will be going to a family reunion.
eww.
and dennn.
A show at the Sportscom
It starts at 6:00

Kgo.

I like these colors.
yay.

last night was fun.
ilu ste.
that was a great party :D

love, love, love, love, love, loveeee,.
Ashuhlee

Fall Break Pictures are now posted. Andrew's hike, Kati's lake, and our dorm lofting fiasco. Woohoo! Check them out for sure!!!

Wow...last night was so rough but at the same time so great. It's funny how God can take care of it all. He's definately amazing to me! :o)

I am so proud of my football boys I cant even tell you. Last night we went into two overtimes with Lavergne...these boys fought it the whole way through. We may not have won but thats ok because they won to me. The passion, enthusiasm, and teamwork was incredible. Ive never seen this team work so hard. They wanted it BAD. Im so incredibly proud! Now we are going to step it up and keep things goin and beat Siegel next week and im pumped about that! Our final game is going to be our best. These guys are awesome!

Too many things were crazy last night but it turned out to be a great night. I love my Lauren!

This week was crazy too...Ive felt sick every day just off and on..not fun stuff. Voice lessons is going awesome! I love it! School's goin well. Jesus is absolutely amazing just like always! So yeah life is pretty sweet right now (haha Paul)...missing people a ton but hey Im dealing with it. I know God's going to take care of it so Im trying not to worry. So anyways you guys have a great weekend! Make Jesus your passion!!

Andrea

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."- James 1:1-4

Today is absolutely Autumn. As have been the past few days. And I'm looking at the leaves no longer young and green and...y'know...I just don't remember seeing them change. When did the trees put on their fall hues, and why did I not notice? November is almost here, and I'm still stuck in summer. Too oblivious. Or perhaps too acutely aware.

And I'm looking at the people here, and I realize they're the worst kind of strangers - the kind of strangers who were friends in another life. When did they...we, I guess...learn to drive? When did we learn to work and party and fill out the applications that really matter? When did life become not just a run-through, but the real thing? Why is the future all of a sudden so close? And why am I the only one who seems to notice? I feel like Charlie from The Perks...the wallflower aspect of him, the part that observes. Y'know?

I've noticed that things seem to be so much easier for everyone not me. Granted, this is probably an unfair judgement. It's just...I keep tripping. Over the tiny details that are in no way consequential. But I trip over them and I stumble and I fall and I'm down for a while until you pick me back up and brush me off. But it keeps happening. I guess that's the problem with me...I get too hung up on all the details.

So when did Autumn get here? Why is it almost November? And why is this the first time I've noticed? 

-L.

Ok guys,  I figured i should update this thing again.  I don't really check it much, i just have it because i can.  Im going to a predators game tonight and am extremley thrilled about it! They play the san jose sharks and have a chance to up their record to 7-0.  How amazing would that be if they pulled it off?  I think pretty dang amazing.  On  another note, it's the weekend.... I got to sleep in for the first time in weeks.   Oh yea, we are getting a high school roller hockey team and our team is gunna win it all! lol. Alright guys, im out of here.

Alex 

YAY!!! it is finally the weekend!!!!!

Hey everyone!  This is my 1st entry on phusebox! 

My mommy is doing really well...I've told most of u about it already...but 4 those of u who haven't heard nething...

She had her surgery on Tuesday, which went AMAZINGLY well, and the doctors said that she did WONDERFUL!  She still has some pain, but that's expected, and she's feeling better everyday!  She's doing so good and I'm soooooooo proud of her!

So pretty sure I have just about the SWEETEST AND BEST FRIENDS EVER! 

Kathryn-Claire left me pics in my locker...it was a good surprise when I went 2 school yesterday 2 pick up my books to do homework!  So here they are!

Me and the LOVELY Miss Kathryn-Claire!

Me and Kathryn-Claire snuggling up with a much-needed, very warm blanket!  We were soooooo cold!  So KC was a good sharer cause I 4got my jacket!

GO SOPHOMORES!  (or OPHOMORES!?)  LOL!

Me and KC trying to b gangster...pretty sure she was better than I was tho...    WHAT!?  I was laughing 2 hard 2 make a funny face!

Ur smiles make me smile!  And Jesus loves u and so do I!

-Christina Ruth

today was OK. I LOVE espresso Jo's, but no one was there with me

It made me frown a little bit, but then I bought Takk by Sigur Ros and that made it all better, for the moment.

Sigur Ros is my favorite Icelandic band ever!

Todays my bday. :)




Im finally 16.

Aha. Iloveit.










My brother left to go to a friends house. On my bday. And we're about to open presents. Whatta douche.

Intelligence or talent?

last night was the best.
Ste had his party. &it was SO much fun.
Thnx Stee <3

So.  this is the new phusebox, huh?  i haven't really even had a chance ot check it out... very nice!
my life is absolutely insane right now.  but i love it!  awesome awesome things happening!  here's the rundown...

• YoungLife is great this year - i am lovin it!  God has really given me a peace and stregth for it!  My talk this week went well - thanks for your prayers!  it keeps me really busy tho - i'm gonna try to keep going to campaigners on monday, then there's leader meetings on tuesdays, and club on wednesdays.  not to mention that the past few fridays have been spent up there as well (we do younglife 30 miles away)  it's a lot!  but it's gooood!
  


• darin was hired at our church to run the sr high youth group!  so i am his sidekick!  i teach sunday school every week and help him out on sunday nights... it's a blast!  and a great opportunity!  it came out of nowhere but i absolutely love it!  they've never really had a youth group before, so we just made everything up!  it's crazy for me to think that we're doing all that as seniors in college!  definitely a God-thing!
  


• i'm pretty far into my practicum at Bradley Bourbonnais Community High School.  it was scary to actually teach the other day - i just can't believe that this class of juniors was completely in my hands!  and i'm teaching the sophomores on monday!  it's so fun!  my teacher is great - he has 2 reg eng classes but then he also has journalism, creative writing, and broadcasting!  so i'm learning a lot about putting together a newspaper and how they run their school tv program!  when on earth did i become this adult in the real world??

so that's my crazy life.  that takes up 5 nights a week for sure, sometimes more.  not to mention 18 hours of classes and 10 hours of regular work!  thursdays are reserved for planning the upcoming weekend at church - so that pretty much leaves saturdays!  IF nothing else has overflowed onto them!  the past couple saturdays i went to chicago with darin - my absolute favorite thing to do!  so there's still a little time for careless fun! 
all this to really say that i'm really sorry if i'm not keeping up with you!  i can't even keep up with my friends here on campus!  so don't be afraid to send me an email or call me yourself!  i miss you all!  and love you very much!  i'm coming home *i think* november 11, but it'll just be a short trip!  catch me then!

**4 weeks till ARUBA!!**

 Check out my myspace! -  www.myspace.com/powellsweetie09

          <3 cassie <3

                                ^ ^ the twins                       ^ the slutty ho

lol the twins are the coolest people in whole entire world!

and the slutty ho....well shes just the sluttiest haha jk

yay its anthony!!! the wonderful pillow man!! gah *runs after anthony* I NEEDS A HUG hahahaha

its my twin and the gay boy colton wolton. that gay loser lol.

MARIA AND LISAAAAA woot people so wanna be us lol we are so cool y wouldnt they. haha

Hello Loves!

Well lest see This week has been pretty good!

Dance is good,friends are good, Cody is good,Family is good,Church is goodand God is AMAZINGLY great! School is ok.. loL! but besides that everything has been great!!!!

Alexanna did leave us.. shes now at Smyrna.. so thats sad... But i still get to see her a little....

Last night was realy fun... We suprised alexanna.... lol! Tyler did come!But Over all the night was GREAT! we lost... really bad .. to Smyrna but its cooll.. we always loose! loL!

Now i just got ready for dance and i have 2 go to my brothers Soccer game first then dance then a party...

Well I think im going to go but i love you All!!

<33 La La La Laura

wow i Love this new Phusebox! yesss!

hey guyz!

well i'm like new to this thing so yeah. leave me some remarks or whatever they r called.

Madison

^^^^pretty house^^^^

well my room is down.........nothing new..... might be going to a party later today!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!! well i am out sooooo later

                     meg

she's electric, she's in a family full of excentrics.  she's done things i've never expected and i need more time.......

Catfish is good. I actually got full! That doesn't happen often. Justin invited me to a bonfire at his mom's house out in the boonies.

The weather was cool. Sitting around a fire on bales of straw, I roasted marshmallows. A little later on, Canaan played the guitar and sang. It's amazing how therapuatic simple things can be. The raw energy of the fire, no contact to the outside world with cell service and street lights, friends bonding, not a worry in the world. That environment is very conducive to reflection. The struggles of life seem to become so clear when all you do is watch the sparks fly into the air. The Voice that is stifled by the constant noise of life rings in my ears saying, "There's no need to worry. Just as I guide the dancing flames, I can guide you. Let Me. You have desires; You have pain; You have questions. I am the answer. Just like with roasting the perfect marshmallow, patience is the key. This fire may warm you on the outside, but My love can warm you on the inside. All you have to do is let Me."

Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done. Sweat drops mingled with blood falling to the ground. 'Why are you sleeping?' Why are the people I love the most asleep when I need them to be there for me? My close friend, Judas, in an act of love, betrays me the Savior of the Earth. I still love him; he had to do it to let me fully be who I claimed to be. Finally, one of my friends, Peter, does something but it is violence, don't cut off someone's ear. I perform my last miracle, still they all doubt me. I go peacefully; I don't speak against any of them. The men who are supposed to know me best have no clue of who I am. They are the ones that want me to die. It may have something to do with that I told them they were hypocrites and that they would be humbled. But the healthy are not the ones who need a doctor. I spend the entire night on trial; first in Jewish court with a man who was the father of the man who wanted to spill the blood of one man to save the rest, man he was on to something. Then I went to his son, the high priest. On the way to Pilate I saw Peter deny me and then the rooster crowed. Then I was sent to Herod then back to Pilate. I am only in Roman court since the Jews can not order anyone executed. The governor of the province and his wife found no reason to kill me, so he tried to have me freed by letting the people choose between a murderer and I. However, the leaders of the church wanted me dead, the just couldn't handle the truth, so they chose the murderer and despised him. Once again trying to spare my life he had me flogged to near death. The flesh was ripped off my back and when they had their fun with my back they rolled me over and started with my stomach. Then the guards placed a crown of thorns on my head so that the thorns were in my scalp. Then they beat me again and asked which one of them hit me. Then I got to carry my cross.

In the gospels we are called to pick up our crosses and follow Him daily. We have to prove ourselves worthy to make it to the cross. We can't die in the beatings or give up during the trials. We have to have Jesus' mind set, not my will but yours. Are we going to be there for our friends when they need us the most or will we be sleeping because they don't mean enough to us and we are too tired to worry about them? We have to beat the flesh out of us, those evil desires, and master our body and let it glorify our Father in Heaven. The disciples were ordinary men, full of sin, none were scholars, and most were from the same area except Judas the traitor. But they all had faith that Jesus was the Messiah. He spent three years teaching them one on one and at the end of it all they acted like He hadn't taught them anything.  If the men that walked and talked with Jesus could fail, how much easier is it for us to? The point is that we are not perfect; we all have qualities that are not pleasing to God. It is those imperfections, our weakness, that He can show His strength. So lean on Him when you're not strong, with Him you can overcome anything. Doubts, ask me, I can tell you stuff that only He could pull me through. Hasta la victoria siempre.

So I have this deep dark secret that I've never told anyone before. And honestly, it's eating me alive. The reason that it is eating at me is because I realized how much that it totally can affect the rest of my life depending on what I do with it. I think that the secret explains alot of what has been going on in my life lately when it comes to school and work. But it has made me question whether I should let it out and let it determine the course of the rest of my life or if I should just keep keeping it a secret and live life the way it is, in questioning confusion forever, not knowing what could have happened if I had told the secret. Hmm...I think I just answered my own question. I really think that I am ready to share my secret. It's just freaking scary because it's a really big life-changing deal! But first I want to discuss it with a close friend (you know who you are) and make sure I'm cool with saying it out loud (!!!) before I tell the world. So everyone stand by...something big is coming.

P.S....it's a God-secret....

It seems like for the last two weeks I have been really preoccupied with progression. Right now I kind of feel stagnant as far as responsibilites and relationships are concerned. It's like God has been giving me a big stop/wait sign with a few of my big personal concerns now, and being obedient in this way is not as easy as it sounds. Having a fairly time consuming class load keeps me distracted enough most of the time, but I've had quite a bit of introspection time lately. Allowing God to just scour and reveal all the dirty feelings I've harbored toward people I really like. Though they're not pretty, I really feel much better now that I know what they are and have given them to God. In addition to this, I just got back from the Belle Aire Men's Conference w/ Vance Pittman, and I've had a similar smack in the face/relief type of experience. In reference to John 15:16 he said that God's purpose is being accomplished in my life as I'm living it now, and he later asked "When was the last time we thanked God for putting us were we are?" At this time I honestly thought that the only way that the message could be more personal was for Vance to insert my name somewhere in it. I guess I'm just really thankful right now that I serve a God who is able to be so intimate with me.

On a lighter note, I sadly won't be participating in the costume contest at the post-homecoming party tomorrow (unless someone can magically supply me with a trip to Party City . . . J/K). I wasn't able to find what I needed at the Wal-Mart to become the Phantom.

But no worries! We're playing Lousiana-Lafayette tomorrow, who apparently is significantly worse (rankings wise) at football than we are. So GO RAIDERS!!!!!!

-James

Variety show was fun, but frankly I'm sick of talking about it. But the best part of the whole thing was in our night show. When Michael asked the audience "Are any of you out there in relationships?" and then 29!!!! (Allison Kennedy) raised her hand and yelled, "WITH JESUS!!!!" I miss that girl. She was trill. I also got to see Erika!!! Gosh, its just not the same without you guys. And ghetto dancing backstage with...well pretty much everyone was fun. And watching nuns...a lot. But I swear, if one more person comes up to me and says anything about peanut butter. I'll die.

So we had auditions dor "A Charlie Brown Christmas" tonight. It wasn't as stressful as I was making it out to be. I think I did really good. I want the role of snoopy. Gah, I really hope I get it. It's going to be such a good show, no matter who gets what roles. I can't wait.

I almost died though. We planned out rehearsal schedules, and there was practice on November 11th, the day of the LCD Soundsystem concert that I wont stop talking about. But yea, they changed it to an after school rehearsal, so I can still go.

Anyways, I didn't get out of auditions until about 8:50. So Andrea met me at Starbucks, where we talked and sat somewhat pointlessly. Tomorrow I'm shopping for my Halloween costume, and going to Mary's Halloween party. Other than that, I'm open...

Give me a call....anyone, lol.

Got some new cd's. A copy of Claire's Ani Difranco cd, "Knuckles Down". Bloc Party's "Silent Alarm Remixed" Which is extremely addicting. I love Bloc Party.They're just so damn catchy. And finally, Sufjan Steven's "Illinois". Not a burned version from Maegan that skips every two seconds.

My car is a black hole. I find Maegans hair ties and clips everywhere. I found Marylane's socks. Marie's doedorant ( ??? ), her polka casette, and her steak-n-shake coupons. And about 50,000 water bottles.

Okay...Humans are so lazy. I've noticed this thing that I do, where I'll be walking down the hallway and I'll see someone I know. But instead of waving or smiling or saying hi. I just make my eyeballs really big. What the hell is that? I've seen other people do it too. I mean are we that lazy that the only way we can greet our friends is by opening our eyes really big. Its sad, I'm resorting back to hugs.

Trust me...sometime soon I'll have something substantial to write about...

so i'm installing my new iPod software... and refecting on my awesome night. ^_^

i had a SUPER birthday rave. i'm so glad everyone that came could come. there were a few key people missing, but that didn't take away from the awesome fun we had. and there's just way to much coolness to write about.

i got awesme gifts.

and i have the best friends ever. LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

Ok Yall were awesome tonight, granted we didn't win, but double overtime against Lavergne is AWESOME and yall will totally beat Siegel next week, just play just as hard as you did this week and you got it in the bag!!! I'm so proud of you and so is everyone one else!!! WE GOT THIS!!!

Tomorrow night is HOMECOMING DANCE!!! YAY!!!

I got a spray tan... I looked orange... but not anymore, i got a shower and NO ORANGE!!! Im so siked about it... Eeee

lol

Wow, tonight was so unexpected. Nathan and I were asked to lead worship for the Men's Conference at Belle Aire, and we were not sure at all what to expect. I wasn't really looking forward to it...actually I was looking past it to the three weekends of retreats we have ahead of us, but the night blew me away. We played four songs before Dean and played Salvation is Here before Vance Pitman, who is a pastor from Hope Baptist in Las Vegas...and everything went well, but the cool stuff happened afterwards when Vance talked to Nathan and I about heading out to Vegas to hang out with them and to check out their church. He said something about always looking for young worship leaders to help plant churches and stuff. It's just all so crazy because I have really been praying about wanting to be a part of a church plant, and Vance seems to be an amazing pastor to be under. I don't know what will come of this, but it just seems so crazy. He said something to the effect that he normally doesn't like bands as much as the guys that play at his church, but we were up there. What? God is so Good.

I love how opportunities spring up on you!

I recently was able to do a photo shoot for some friends of mine for their promo poster. I really think that they turned out pretty well. And I might be working for a camp this summer as their photographer! Yay! I'll post a few pictures that I have shot recently...

keep in mind that I am still very ameteur!

so im going to Gracie's baby pageant tommorow morning.. i went to it the last time it was held... that was the day this picture was taken.. wow... i have changed QUITE abit... hm... so this is my first actual post... i never use thing.. i actually forgot i had it... but maybe not ill use it...

ttyl love you,meag

That's Cooper my dog.

Interesting day...

1 - Warrior Walk

2 - kinda boring hang-out

3 - Video Games

4 - Helping Out at church

6 - Hang out with Matt, Jason, and Jesse

- Turning Point -

7 - Missed ride with parents to Maggie's choir concert

8 - Was mad at myself and couldn't do anything

- Point of Return -

9 - Played Video Games

10 - Maggie gets home, not mad

11 - Phusebox

Point of Now

$ L 3 3 P   T ! |V| 3  !

well i havent wrote in this in a while because im pretty much bored with it .. but I am really happy lately because me and this guy are talking and he is so amazing everything i have been waiting for I finally got it and i wouldn`t have it any other way.. and im going to be in the Miss Patriot thing lol that will be interesting.. but im gunna go leave me sumthin!

Today was the last day of Fall Break and it was kind of depressing. I did get a new cd though...Anberlin. It's awesome! I highly recommend it.I really wish Fall Break was longer but i guess i can make it till Thanksgiving but that seems so far away. In other news...my parents have decided to have yet another yard sale and i have to get up and help. Oh what fun...

Hey ya'll! Well my friend told me to get one of these so I'm just kinda checkin it out. Leave me some comments!

Woah.

  Phusebox has changed and I like.

but I would like it more if I had a camera. But I dont so the likeing is the same.

  - Theres some things that make you want to just go somewhere far away from everyone. like riding at night while its raining listening to TOOL and or techno

  I dont know much but I do know that if I dont get away from things/people, Im gonna go crazy. 

       As usual I have nothing to really say.

          Bye

hey hey...just had the variety show so i posted some of the pics i took!!! the 70's costumes are so crazy cO0oO0oL!!!!

Homecoming!!!!!!!!! WHAT A WEEK.....i have been pompping paper for the Sigma Chi ZETA TKE and AKA float for the last two weeks. But last night was the highlight of the experience. After waking up yesturday morning at 8 AM, then  had my longest day in class, then straight to work... i ended up at the Sigma Chi house at 11:45 maybe 12am then pompped and glued til alomost 7 in the morning. NO SLEEP FOR ALMOST 24 HOURS. That is rough. So after my grandmother got on to me for not sleeping i took a 2 hour nap then got up and got ready for work. 11:30- 6:30, NOW i sit here waiting to go to another homecoming competiton, and still working off of 2hrs of sleep...... who needs it....college kids don't sleep!!!! Well i am kinda grouchy, and i am sure that when i get the chance to sleep i will sleep REALLY GOOD!!!!! Well i guess i will just have some more caffine til then!! I am out!! GOD Bless!!!!!

It's a perfectly good Friday night.

And I'm sitting at home, listening to classical piano music while doing my history homework and eating grapes.

 'Cause I'm just cool like that.

Gosh!!!! Why do boys have to be so grrrrr.......i don't know what to put there......I just want to find a guy that will actually like me back and shares the same interests and just isn't a jerk.....gosh...is it too much to ask????

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ummm can u change the layout so its pretty?? like can i use a xanga or myspace layout on phusebox to make it pretty??

how can i put a music video on here?? i tried.. but it didnt work.. humms... HELP PLEASE??? or can i somehow put a song on here??

Sometimes life can be like a treadmill. You travel the same ground over and over again, day in and day out, and the scenery never changes. The belt shuts down for barely a few hours of rest. You run for miles and miles, but at the end of the day, you are no farther along than when you started.

I feel like I'm on that treadmill and I'm stuck. I can't get off. I'm running as fast as I can, and its wearing me thin. It seems like everyone else around me is just zooming by in the opposite direction.... I'm stuck in the middle of a freeway in a lane that won't move while everyone else has gained free passes to the carpool lane.

So why, pray tell, do a bunch of thick-headed high school freshmen think they can catcall me?  How would they feel if a herd of skeezy guys did that to their little sisters, or their moms??  What makes them think that girls actually enjoy or respond to it???  I mean really, most people of the female persuasion think it's vile, offensive, and that the guys who do it are mentally-challenged pictures of desperation.  And to top it all off....

If there's one thing I despise, it's being relegated to a traditional role.
Especially if it's as though there were no question about it.
It makes me angry, caustic, and not very fun to be around.
Merde.  I guess today was female degredation day, or something.

Now all those unpleasantries are out of my system.... ^_^

Costume shindig tonight.  Most exciting.  Participation in a faire as one certain non-human creature (i.e. Elf) makes preparations very easy.  I only have one pointed ear, though, so it looks like I'm going as the Van Gogh Elf.  Fun, eh?  "Sauron!  Frodo!  Angst!  *Slice*"  Heh.

::EDIT:: Just when I think all is for naught.... :-)  ::/EDIT::

Wouldnt life be fun as a gypsy? MmMm....

I relized today that I have a talent.
I can make people go from
extremely sad, to extremely happy in
about 2minutes or less.
It makes me all giddy.

You know,
this is being said like all whinie,
but sometimes I just wish someone would call me
and be like
"Hey sarah, let'shang out"
or
"Hey Sarah, how are you"
haha. Yeah I'm a loser.




yeah. random I know. but owell.

I wrote this song,
I need some thoughts on it.
My parents didn't get it.


Imaginary Homoscide.
by:Sarah Gearhart

If Drama was a sport you'd be the mvp.
You walk up and think you know everything.
Nobody knows why, but you cause suicide.
You think it's cute, you think you're great.
When we all laugh cause you're nothin but  fake.
ooh yeah.
cause you don't know what i've been taught.
and this is one more loss for your thoughts....
take it between the eyes.
All that comes from you are lies,lies,lies,
I can see them in your eyes,
hypocritical blah blah blah's
and all of those just because-es
you think, you can take my life from me.
but in the end you will see that
i'm not who you want me to be.
Stronger than what you see.
...I'll take it between the eyes.
This Imaginary homoscide.
Everythings lost inside.
you can't hide anymore.
Nobody cares what you say,
cause it never mattered anyway.
You caused some pain,
 you caused some strife.
When karma comes back it'll be a suprise.
Just take the blow..
your one last show
you don't know what i've been taught.
and this is one more loss for your thoughts.
take it between the eyes.
All that comes from you are lies,lies,lies,
I can see them in your eyes,
hypocritical blah blah blah's
and all of those just because-es
you think, you can take my life from me.
but in the end you will see that
i'm not who you want me to be.
Stronger than what you see.
...take it between the eyes.
This Imaginary homoscide.


Exactly.

  Hey guys, whatcha doin' in the back?! lol Yeah so the variety show was grand.... yeah fun times!  I'm glad it's over though honestly, it was fun but I'm glad to be done, too. Some of us went to IHOP afterwords, very fun, intereting conversations, decent coffee, and premade cheesecake that took like an hour to come out of the kitchen. Fun stuff...

  Pretty sure there was a car on fire in the parking lot this morning, really stinks!! That's so sad....

  It's weird how highschool is.... it's weird how friends are too... I don't know, people are pretty strange... Ne who...

  Man I love performing! MY GOODNESS!!! I can't think of anywhere I rather be than on a stage! Sometimes I guess with people who don't know me very well I seem quiet but I'm REALLY not, I just don't have anything to say... and being on stage helps me express myself more than anything else. I'm still learning how to fully express myself with singing though... like now I have pretty decent stage presence when I play drumset, I really get into... but singing.... it's different, just like soloing on drumset or improv. it's like a little glimps into my soul.... I guess it just makes me feel really vulnerable right now, I hope to remedy that soon though.

  Gloria Patri,
     Nathan

well nothing really happened today..i went to kelps house and she carved a pumpkin then flung the inside gut crap at me...then we went to get pizza......im to bored to type.....and i prolly won't ever use this again.......lol......lisa wouldn't stop buggin me to get one so i got one to make her shut up.....lol
laters!

:/... :(

today the good things don't weigh out the bad...
nor do the bad things weigh out the good...
i'm stuck in... a blah mood.

gah i miss him so bad.
it's a shame he doesn't miss me.
but he is the past.
that i can't let go of.

i guess i was wrong... the bad does  out weigh the good.

HEY GUYS

my sister's home for the weekend. saweeeet.

things have been fabulous. i mean. really. great. i love it.

if you want to do something anytime..call me! 427.0290. i love getting phone calls.

preds won again! yeah we're just cool like that.

TrailBlaze was today. that was probably the dumbest thing ever. buuuuut we got out of school early. which is always fun.

have a good weekend!

tchau!

mum today was the warrior walk

i got to hang out w/ my friends

which was awesome!!!!!

got to see mr.bryant...

yep yep

left early came out did my room

got a new bed cover^_^ well i am out

                 meg

well i guess it wasnt very long before it came to and end like all good things do, i never felt a connection there and i see him more as a friend than i do my boyfriend so im callin it quits..and plus i dont want any drama when i hug all my guy friends.. i mean he gets really jealous when i do that and i just cant take that i mean i dont like any of them (except 2 of them think im hot and have told me) so yeah im going to call it quits monday..i just hope its not that big if a suprise for him..

remarks are always nice!

B.

I love you.

I've been listening to Subseven a lot here recently.

Check um out at www.subsevenmusic.com or  www.myspace.com/subseven  or you can just go to my phusebox page and listen to one of there songs playin in the background.

Awful, just awful. Sorry Timmy, we just hate you and your drawings.

              F!

 

I subconsciously try way to hard to impress, and therefore have managed to push away. I need to figure out how to stop that. . .

Hola mis amigos! How is everyone? I am  PEACHY KEEN! so pretty sure tomorrow is the ACT and i just don't want to take it. For all you people who made above a 25 on your ACT and  are complaining...... i just don't know what i am going to do with you. So i guess good luck to all of us and i hope we all survive it! anywho, hope everyone has a magnificent rest of the day!  <3 in Christ, Brittany

this was posted by a friend of mine, and i think it speaks the heart of most Christians of this generation:

I was hungry, and you formed a debate team and debated the pros and cons of world hunger.
I was imprisoned, and you crept away busily hoping someone would somehow find time to visit me.
I was poorly clothed, and in your mind you disapproved of my lack of style.
I was homeless, and you preached about the spiritual shelter of the church.
I was lonely, and you left me alone to pray for me.
You seem so content, so pleased with your Christianity, but I'm still hungry and lonely, and cold.
--Anonymous

Dad, make me into someone who fights for those who don't have a voice, or can't find it anymore, or don't have the strength to stand up with those who do. Change my heart to not be humiliated to share my heart with or for "the least of these", and help me see You in the least likely to find.

Hey everybody, I just got taking my final in Literature, I think that I may have done better than I thought I would have. The way that my proffessor done the test made it easier. She would give us a certain amount of questions to do and we got to choose which ones we wanted to do. For example we had to do 20 out of 35 of the indentification terms. The way she done this made it a whole lot easier than I expected it to be. Well I guess that is all for now. Later and God Bless.....

Pretty nifty this thing now. I've been doin ok I suppose. I hurt back really bad a few days ago. Doc put me on Ibuprofin and some pain killers. Treating it like a back sprain, atleast thats what the doc said. Anywho seeing how nobody comes here and leaves remarks, I'm outta here..later

I love my friends so much and i miss them really bad
But i'm glad that 2 of them are moveing here in 12 weeks
And the onther 3 already lived by me but i still miss them them really  bad too and then there is 1 who will not be moving and he lives far away which is sad=(
ANYWAY
i'm bored very bored i think i'm gunna go eat cause i didn't eat yesterday or today yet
and also i am yet STILL sick with this nasty cold/flu
i have used all Klenex and now i have to resort to Paper towel at least it's Brawny
Go to that site it's FUN

Later Days
Erica

My neice Lisa made this for me!!!

i'm going camping...fun stuff....

make sure you leave a lot of remarks to make me happy when i get home on sunday...

love you all!!
[be be]

oh yeah...variety show went awesomely well!! sarah, you and i make hot nuns...lol...

this is the face i make when i'm bored.

hmm... this weekend is going to me PACKED with events:

i'm going home with ste after school
we're going to straiten his hair
carly is going  to pick me up from his house
carly and i are going to go buy his BIRTHDAY GIFT <3
go to Ste's party
go to carly's and crash

saturday:
outing with ste
mary's halloween party
(carly and i are going to be 80s kids)

sunday:
church
skit
play practice (church)

:whew: abby's STRESSED.

next weekent i NEED to hang out with my main man, NELSON (heh)

abby-DEE

At the request of Sherri, I am trying this out to see if I like it.