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The names ♥ Elaine ♥ My friends call me Lainypoo ... Kis ... Lainykins ... Lainy ... Liz ... Helen ... and a bunch of other names I have blonde hair with black and red highlights underneath and on top ... but I'm kinda getting tired of it and prolly gonna go back ALL THE WAY blonde again!!! blueish greenish eyes, I'm 17 almost 18I'm 5'1 ya I know short! People tell me I look like Hilary Duff! But dont hate me for that! I wear a lot of eye make up ... but I like it like that ... so dont ask why I do!!! I'm from Texas! HOWDY YALL!!! I love music ... and I dont juz say that to sound cool ... you'd be suprised how much I know about music ... some of my favorites are ... ♥ THE SCENE AESTHETIC ♥ ... Senses Fail, Something Corporate, Stutterfly, The Starting Line, The Click 5, Fall Out Boy, Motion City Soundtrack, Taking Back Sunday, From First to Last ... Thrice, The Audition, ♥ MAYDAE ♥ June, The Junior Varsity, The Used, Minimal Fall ... My Chemical Romance, FLYLEAF ... and tons of others ... I cant think of em all right now ... I love GOD!!!Theres alot of things people dont know about me ... example ... i'm a farm girl who loves NASCAR and is very interested in MythologyI love to sing, act, dance, play sports, hang out wit friends, and all that other good stuff! I L♥VE goin to shows!!! I'm learnin to play guitar and drums! I love to do make up and hair I love to tan I'm very sarcasticWhen I get ready in the morning I like to turn my radio on really loud and shake my bootay!!!I have a brother hes 19 and I have a sister shes 15 so that means I'm the middle child! And no its not middle child syndrom! I have THE BEST friends in the WORLD!!! They ARE my everything!!! I dont get embarrassed ... so take your best shot!!! ♥ I want a LOVE like June Carter and Johnny Cash ♥I think brown M&M's taste better than the othersI'm scared of clowns, lightning, sharks, and drowning ... anything else ... bring it on ♥ Band-aids make EVERYTHING betterMy favorite candy is sour patch kids My favorite thing to eat is rice crispy treats!!! When I'm nervous I either bite my lip or my finger nails ... or play with my rings I love to lay in bed with friends and take random stupid pictures for hours ... I have to fall asleep with the TV on ... cant sleep with the radio cuz I start singing the songs and cant go to sleepI drive an '06 black 2-door chevy cobalt I work at sonic ... for now ... but when I go to college I'm gonna work at MAC makeup in North East Mall ... I CANT WAIT!!!♥ Kissings like my FAVORITE thing to do ♥ I'm a cuddle monster!!! *roar*I love my little sister!!! I love to laugh so hard that youre crying you cant breath your stomach hurts you have to pee and then when youre done laughing ... cant remember what you were laughing about!!!I'm LOUD ... I know ... deal with it and DONT tell me to *shhh*My favorite color is black ... no I'm not gothic ... black juz goes with everything ... cept brown!!!My room is ALWAYS a mess!!! I love meeting new people I l♥ve ice cream ... Good Heavens to be exact!!! A striaght way to my heart is good heavens ice cream or a chocolate moon pie ... yummy junk food strawberry banana smoothies are my obsession My favorite animal is a white tigerIf you play guitar I'm yours!!! I ♥L♥O♥V♥E♥ boys with shaggy brown hair and blue eyes they have to be taller than me ... which obviously isnt very hard to doI like the smell of bleach, hand sanitizer, and chlorine ... but HATE the smell of gas ... and NO I'm NOT a crack-head!!!I love to lay on the ground and have somDONOTBLOCKOURADSebody draw ALL OVER my back till theres nothing left to cover ... its relaxing!!!I love BIG sunglasses!!!I like eyesI'm not a phone person ... I dont like to talk on it very much ... I hate the awkward silences ... but I can text like crazy!!!The only phone calls I like are the ones from that special someone!!! I'm currently single right now, and have been for the past 2 and a half years so its nothing new ... But I'm gonna marry Eric Dill so dont get attatched!! I wear my heart on my sleeve and fall too easily ... getting hurt seems to be the thing I do most often!!! I cant go a day without talking to or seeing my friends ... their my security!!! I constantly get in trouble for stupid little things!!! I am forgiving ... but dont take it for gratned ... if you keep doing the same shit over and over ... chances are I'm not gonna keep forgiving you!!! I'm very weird ... I already know!!!I love being original and hate being copied!!! I absolutly L♥VE the acoustic guitar!!! Dont calle me EMO ... its a type of music not a style!!! I'm NOT shy AT ALL ... I'm very outgoing ... I'll do anything ... and try everything at least once!!! I like random things and I am VERY random ... dont think I'm joking when I say that!!! I like to sing really loud ... in my car ... in the shower ... in Wal-Mart ... LOL If you dont like me ... dont tell me cuz I dont care what anyone thinks me of ... I'm juz me and you can juz piss off!!! I'm not a jelous person ... unless you give me a reason to be jelous!!!Sad songs make too much sense to me I cant stand fake people ... mostly fake girls ... people who are too scene or juz too "hardcore" for their own damn good bug the crap out of me!!! If you go to shows to see people who you think are cool and you only go juz to LOOK cool ... please dont talk to me!!! If you write me and I dont write back right away ... that doesnt mean I hate you ... and it doesnt mean start writing me more so that I WILL write you back ... I do have a life and its not revolving around my computer ... if you keep writing me you'll prolly get on my nerves and I'll prolly end up blocking or deleting you!!! I AM a blonde ... but I'm NOT stupid!!! I dont think I'm pretty I AM awesome ... so shut up!!! I can be a bitch ... it juz depends on what side you get on of me ... you might wanna be on my good side!!!♥ FAVORITES ♥Movie - The Goonies TV show - Laguna Beach Day of the year - my birthday ... durr Color - black season - summer I HATE cold weather coffee from starbucks - white chocolate mocha Band - dont really have one ... too many good ones ... but I can say that I love all the boys in Maydae and The Last Transition!!! Song - Best Deceptions by Dashboard Confessionals Superhero - Wonderwoman Actress - well shes not really an actress ... Nicole Richie ... but if you wanna be specific ... Rachel McAdams Actor - Mmmm ... Brad Pitt ... yummy!!! I'm gonna be graduating this year and I cant wait to get outta this place and live with my two loves ♥ Trey ♥ and ♥ Stephanie ♥!!! I wanna go to UNT ... go mean grean *caca caca* LOL I know this is long ... and most people wont even read all the way down ... but if you do actually take the time to read it all ... leave me a comment!!!Ummm ya I'm so exciting I know!! No I'm totally kidding! But seriously Remember this face!! I'm gonna be famous!!!

Bittersweet endings ♥

May 22 2006

Well ... its been a while!!!

Lets see whats happened ...

I am now 18 ... woohoo legal baby!!!
I met a boy ... a new boy ... and I like him ... A LOT!!! But ... of course things are complicated ... why would this time be any different???
Things with some friends have gone downhill ...
Home life is ok ... cant complain but cant get over excited

Well ... I'm sitting in debate class right now ... for the last time EVER!!!
Its kinda sad ... but not ... I mean I'm so ready to get out of high school ... I'm done with all the drama I'm tired and ready for bigger and better things ... but I'm scared ... scared that I wont ever see some of these people ever again ... these people that I've grown up with for the past 8 years ... even though I dont talk to everyone that I used to ... it was still nice to see their face everyday ... now that we dont have to come to school everday ... never in this school again ... I wont see them all the time!!! And its sad!!!

Tomorrow is my last day of high school!!! Its soooo weird!!! I'm graduating in a week!!! Wow ...

I dont know what else to say other than keep repeating myself so ... enough of that!!!

Now ... about this boy ...
his name is cody hes sooo sweet!!! He's a good christian which is hard to find these days, but it does make somethings harder ... which brings us to the complications ... he says he's so in love with his future wife *whoever she is* that he doesnt want to even think about cheating on her and by dating other girls ... he would be cheating on her ... holding hands and kissing and all those emotions are made for your husband or wife is what he says ... but what I say is how do you know who youre gonna marry without dating??? You cant juz look at someone and be like I'm gonna marry them!!! But I totally respect his views ... so right now we're best friends ... who knows maybe he'll change his mind and let his true feelings for me out ...

Autum's Monologue

Oh why cant I be what you need
a new improved version of me
but i'm nothing so good
no i'm nothing
just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence of love and of sorrow
i beg for just one more tomorrow
where you hold me down fold me in
deep deep deep in the heart of your sins

I break in two over you
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you dont see me, you dont...

here i'm in between darkness and light
bleached and blinded by these nights
where im tossing and tortured til dawn
by you, visions of you then youre gone
the shock lifts the red from my face
when i hear someone's taking my place
how could love be so thoughtless, so cruel
when all, all that i did was for you

i break in two over you
i break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life
but you dont see me you dont..

i break in two over you
i break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life
but you dont see me you don't...

i break in two over you
i break in two over you, over you
i break in two
i would break in two for you
now you see me
now you don't
now you need me
now you don't

The Fiction We Live

You might be just what I need
No I would not change a thing
Been dreaming of this so long
But we only exist in this song
The thing is, I'm not worth the sorrow
And if you come and meet me tomorrow
I will hold you down, fold you in
Deep, deep, deep in the fiction we live
I break in two over you
I break in two
And if a piece of you dies
Autumn, I will bring you back to life
Of course I see you
I do.