January 01 2006

Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? nope
How old were you? 14
What was your outlook on the world? it was horrible
How were you doing at school/your job? horribly
What did you most look forward to? Wednesday nights
Did you make New Year's Resolutions? yes
What was your biggest worry? that i would screw up my life
Who was your best friend? Chris Morgan
What did you do with your spare time? got online
What did you do for fun? nothing


Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? no
Had your outlook on the world changed? no
What things happened during summer? bad
Did you get a tan? nope
Who'd you hang out with? uhh...not many people...just the close ones...
Did you go visit anywhere? Denver, CO
What was your biggest worry? that i was going to lose one of my best friends
What was the most fun event that happened? going to denver


How old are you? 15
What major changes have happened since the year began? changing churches
Is your life any different from when it started this year? heck yes
What thing that happened stands out in your mind? losing a friend
Did You Fall in Love? no
How have you changed? in too many ways
Are you happy with how the year went? not really

FOR 2006...

Do you think it'll be better or worse than this year? who knows
What do you plan to do next year? i don't know
What are your New Year's resolutions? didn't make any, and i won't
Who are you spending New Year's Eve with? i spent it with gabi, my family, and stephen slate (well, part of it)


What one thing would you like to say as the year is almost done?
 i just want 2005 to be in the past...i hated that year in so many ways...


December 29 2005

met a boy today...

had a great christmas...

phusebox is back up and running...

so, therefore, life is good...

i don't know...

December 17 2005
life is...well, chaotic at the moment..

too many people hate me for reasons unknown to me. probably something they made up in their tiny little brain...



December 16 2005
...this sucks...


December 14 2005
my days have been so normal lately...it's kind of like i've memorized my lines and i'm going through the day just doing what i've memorized...not a real life...a scripted one...i keep waiting for someone to yell, "cut! now let's take it back and try this scene over..." but it's not happening...

maybe church will help a little...


December 13 2005
just found out i was mentioned in the dnj on thursday for bowling. go me!!

i am so proud of myself...haha...

mucho love!!


December 12 2005
i want my camera back. i took it to denver, and now i can't find it.

maybe i can get my dad to let me borrow his for a while..

i'm in a picture-taking mood...
i take that back...i'm always in a picture-taking mood...


December 11 2005
i have an announcement to make:

randy rodden is my new best friend.


December 08 2005
this time it happened, it's the worst so far.

pray harder than you ever have...

even though so many bad things have happened today with me and my brother, while i was waiting for my mom to pick me up at the school after lunch, i saw none other than, nathan moore...yeah, the guy who started all of this...i was upset and all (still crying at this point), and he was there to see his sister, so i kept quiet...but it was still amazing...

that was the only thing positive that happened today...the ONLY thing...


December 07 2005
pretty sure bowling rocks my face off!! yeah, we won today...again...haha...my bowling girls mean the world to me, and i wouldn't have been able to accomplish any of this without josh...bowling is basically my life...haha...those of you who know me know that's the truth!

well, i think i'm gonna go...thanks meag and jess for your comments, hopefully i will see you tonight at church...

mucho love!!

01. Sleep with or without clothes on? on...duh
02. Prefer black or blue pens? black
03. Dress up on Halloween? no
04. Like to travel? of course
05. Like someone? definately
06. Do they know? most likely...
07. Who sleeps with you every night? my teddy bear that i made in denver!
08. Think you're attractive? definately not.
09. Want to get married? heck yeah!
10. To? a boy...
11. Are you a good student? depends on what class you're talking about! lol...
12. Are you currently happy? extremely
13. Have you ever cheated on someone? never had anyone to cheat on...
14. Birthplace? Nashville, TN
15. Christmas or Halloween? definately christmas
16. Colored or black-and-white photos? black-and-white
17. Do long distance relationships work? nope
18. Do you believe in astrology? not really
19. Do you believe in love at first sight? nope
20. Favorite CD? Voices of Lee
21. Do you consider yourself the life of the party? not really
22. Do you drink? nope
23. Do you make fun of people? uhh...lol...
24. Do you think dreams eventually come true? some of them
25. Favorite fictional character? don't know
26. Go to the movies or rent? movies, definately
27. Have you ever moved in your entire life? yeah, like 8 times
Have you ever stolen anything? yeah...
29. How's the weather right now? cool, but awesome
30. Hug or kiss? hugs
31. Last person you talked to on the phone? my mommy
32. Last person who told you they love you? uhh...candace
33. Loud or Soft Music? depends on the mood i'm in
34. McDonalds or Burger King? DEFINATELY mcdonalds
35. Night or day? night
36. Number of Pillows? as many as possible...lol...
37. Piano or guitar? guitar
38. Future job? photographer/teacher/missionary...don't know yet
39. Current job? i need one...
40. Current love? god
41. Current longing? feeling loved
42. Current disappointment? my grade in science (failing!! ahh!)
43. Current annoyance? my brother yelling in my ear
44. Last thing you ate? peanut butter sandwhich
45. Last thing you bought? 2 mountain dews
46. Most recent thing you are looking forward to? christmas
47. What are you wearing right now? jeans, bowling shirt, socks, shoes...the normal...
48. Plans for this weekend? uhh...nothing?
49. What did you do today? went to school, then bowling
50. Pick a song lyric: "Listen to your heart, before you tell him goodbye.."

i'm a failure

December 05 2005
why do i always feel like a failure?

no matter what i do, i always seem to fail in some way....


December 03 2005
he wasn't at bowling this morning...i wish i could have seen him to straighten all of this out...

the last thing i want to end up happening is losing another valuable person in my life....gah...

today sucked...
that's it for now...
mucho love!

maybe going to see the messiah with my mom at mtsu might help me a little...depends on how much it is to get in...hmm...


December 02 2005
a friend told him that i was obsessed with him...

dang this sucks.


December 01 2005
i guess i should tell him soon how i feel about him...
how he makes me laugh when i'm having the worst day.
how i can only be happy around him.
how my life wouldn't be as great as it is without him.
how i wouldn't be me if it weren't for him.

but i can't...
i can't take the risk of losing another amazing friendship...unlike so many i've already ruined..


November 30 2005
i think that battle of the bands is tonight...hahaha...it's going to be amazing...

i need something to cheer me up...something's been bogging down my mind lately...i'm so out of order...

pretty sure...

November 28 2005
pretty sure my brother wants to keep this dead mouse we caught in the mouse trap for a pet...and pretty sure my mom said no...hahaha...thank goodness....

my family is crazy...but i'd go crazy without them...

but that's about all that's been going on in my life lately...some other deep stuff too, but since it's about another person i'm worried about, i won't say anything...just pray for me and them as well...i need to talk to them on wednesday night at youth...but i don't know how to word everything...

but yeah...
mucho love!


November 26 2005
so...haven't updated for a few days...nothing much has really happened...

i've been thinking a LOT lately about a certain persoj and how i'm going to be able to manage without them here...i don't know...i hate to see them go...even though it won't be for a while...

ah well...it's all good...

well, i think i'm gonna go...
mucho love!


November 23 2005
pretty sure i hung out with the most amazing people tonight...

jonathan z., russell, randy, michal, and jeremy...yep...a pretty interesting group we make...

won't go into the details...hahahaha....

anyways, we went to see chicken little...it was an alright
movie...great for the little ones, but could never compare to finding
nemo or the incredibles...haha...i love those movies...

yeah, tomorrow is thanksgiving...FOOD...yeah...that's all i have to say...

mucho love!



November 22 2005
life is sooooooo good to me right now...
don't have time to post...i might later...

mucho love!!


November 21 2005
i love life...

even though it sucks sometimes...

i wonder what would have happened if i would have gone ahead with my plans two years ago...i wouldn't be here to get my permit, i wouldn't have seen my 15th birthday, to meet everyone at turning point, to be on a praise team, to meet the most amazing guy ever, to meet meagan, david, and michelle, to go to high school, to meet tons of new people there, to be in women's chorale, to be on the girls' bowling team, and so much more...  i wouldn't have known that it all got better...



November 20 2005
driving = need a LOT more practice...

phone = destroyed...i can still make calls, but my screen is gone... *insert sad face* (and i NEED to call courtney k.!!! ahh!!)

life = pretty good...

church = amazing...today god answered so many questions going on in my mind and gave me reasons why i was going through what i am going through...god is so amazing...

that's about it...
mucho love!!


November 19 2005
leave me remarks and make me happy...


mucho love

i wish i had blue eyes

wow...i really DO suck...

November 19 2005
today was embarrasing while bowling...
i can't believe i even made the girls bowling team at siegel...
this morning i was up against some guys who made the guys bowling team at siegel...yeah...i pretty much tryed to make myself see-through...it didn't work...

i want to go hide...

mucho love!


November 18 2005

 Survey #7:


+ 001. name: becca hicks

+ 002. nicknames: too many

+ 003. sex: female

+ 004. birthday: November 10th

+ 005. age: 15

+ 006. sign: scorpio

+ 007. place of birth: nashville

+ 008. current residence: murfreesboro

+ 009. hair color:  brown

+ 010. eye color: green

+ 011. height: 5’7” or so

+ 012. writing hand: right

Body Ills + Skills

+ 013. do you bite your nails? yes

+ 014. can you roll your tongue? yes

+ 015. do you have any habits? yes

+ 016. can you raise one eyebrow at a time? Yeah, but only one

+ 017. colored hair: nope

+ 018. tatoos and where: nope

+ 019. piercings and where: none

+ 020. do you make your bed daily? Heck no!

+ 021. which shoe goes on first? right

+ 022. speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at someone? Plently of times

+ 023. what jewelry do you where 24/7? None other than rubber bands

+ 024. how many cereals are in your cabinet? none

+ 025. what utensils do you use eating pizza? hands

+ 026. do you cook? yes

+ 027. how often do you do the dishes? Every day


+ 028. how often do you brush your teeth? 3 times a day

+ 029. how often do you shower or bathe? Every other day

+ 030. how long do these showers last? 30 min. or less

+ 031. hair drying method:  blow drying
if I want it somewhat straight, if I don’t care, air dry it is

+ 032. do you swear? Maybe…..

+ 033. do you mumble to yourself? ALL the time

+ 034. do you spit in public? I have

+ 035. person you talk most on the phone with? Michelle (every single night)

+ 036. what color is your bedroom? white

+ 037. do you use an alarm clock? nope

+ 038. name one thing and person you're obsessed with: internet; Jordan (lol)

+ 039. window seat or aisle: window seat

+ 040. whats your sleeping position: on my left side

+ 041. what kind of bed do you like? Firm, yet soft…

+ 042. in hot weather do you use a blanket? yeah

+ 043. do you snore? When I’m extremely tired

+ 044. do you sleep walk? I have

+ 045. do you talk in your sleep? I have

+ 046. do you sleep with a stuffed animal? Yes, my teddy bear that I got in denver

+ 047. how abut the light on? nope

+ 048. do you fall asleep with the tv or radio on? Sometimes both

When Was The Last Time You

+ 049. watched bambi? Like 4 years ago

+ 050. talked on the phone? Just now

+ 051. read a book? Uhh…a week ago

+ 052. punched someone? 4 months ago maybe…


+ 053. where do you see yourself ten years from now? Married possibly

+ 054. who are you gonna marry and where? Don’t know

+ 055. how many kids do you want to have: 2 at least


+ 056. who are your best friends? Michelle, Meagan, Andrew, Chris, and Ryan

+ 057. what friend do you hang out with the most?  None of them L

+ 058. what friend makes you smile the most? andrew

+ 056. friend that you fight with the most? Michelle…lol...

+ 060. one you talk to on the computer the most: ryan

+ 061. friend that you miss the most? andrew


November 17 2005
You are ____.
You are not _______.
If I spent a day with you we would________.
Worst thing about you is _______.
Best thing about you is_________.
You and I are_______.
You are my________.