hmm...

October 06 2005
i feel so loved.

[becca]

...so....

October 04 2005
just had to do this...i have nothing else to write...

love you all, but i love amanda more than grass!! even the dead stuff!! haha...
[becca]



1. Who are you, what's our relationship:
2. How long have you known me:
3. Tell me one good thing about myself:
4. When you first saw me, what was your impression:
5. Have you ever had a crush on me:
6. describe me in 3 words:
7. do you think i'm good looking:
8. how would you describe me to someone:
9. would you ever date me..if u have would u do it again:
10: what do you like most about me:
11: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
12: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
13. What do you think my weakness is:
14. What makes me happy:
15. What makes me sad:
16. What reminds you of me:
17. When's the last time you saw me:
18. Are you going to expect me to reamrk on your phusebox answering the same questions:
19. Do I cross your mind at least once a day:

so....

October 02 2005
yeah...today was...amazing in its normalness...

went to church, had a pretty good service...umm...came home and ate lunch, then went to the MTSU rec center to swim and such...i've been running a lot and trying to shape up...which is exactly what i need to do...lol...and i convinced nathanael to go down the slide...once he started, he didn't want to stop....

i have like nothing to do this week...monday, wednesday, and friday, my mom's at school while nathanael is at pre-school on campus thing...so i'll be at home with these crazy kids...help me god...lol....

call me if you get bored...
love you all!!
but i love amanda more than grass!!
[becca]

man....

September 30 2005
i'm extremely bored
i want to go bowling.

...okay...

September 26 2005
leave me a remark and tell me 5 things that you like/love about me.....

then tell me 5 think that you don't like/hate about me....

...so yeah...

September 25 2005
mom's on her way home...not too excited about that, but it's all good...

my life just pretty much sucks right now...people all on me for crap i didn't do...dealing with my own issues...dealing with my parents (which is bad enough in itself)...dealing with my brothers and sister...school...bowling team...choir...and on top of all of that, dealing with losing two of my best friends...

sometimes, i just want to sit on the beach...by myself...doing nothing...listening to the ocean's waves...having PEACE for once in my life...

all i want to be is loved...that's it...i didn't ask for all of the crap that i got stuck with...

[me]

....

September 24 2005
i need a life...other than *insert amazing guy's name here*


i am so pathetic...he doesn't even talk to me...anymore...it hurts to see him with her...

he doesn't even know i love him...i want to tell him, but he's never around...i wish i could tell him, but it'd ruin my life...i already know it would...

what should i do? i love him......he loves someone else.....

*sighs* why me? why now? he's older...he wouldn't go for me anyways... but he's perfect...he's amazing...

...wow...

September 24 2005
well, my mom's out of town for the weekend **SCORE!!!** lol...i really shouldn't be happy about that, but trust me...I AM...

today went to work with my dad so i could watch the kids (it was a lot easier than watching them here)...lucky for me they were having the firefighting olympics...so that kept the kids, matt, and definately me occupied...haha...hot firefighters in their uniforms and such = heaven...courtney seemed somewhat jealous when i texted her earlier...haha...

anyways, so yeah...that's about all that's going on...have a better picture up now...the only reason it has the resolution under the picture is because of the hosting service i used...

talk to you all later...
love you all...
[becca]


...how could someone i love so much hurt me so much more...

...umm....

September 19 2005
today sucked...major boringness...

get to go to my mom's piano teacher's recital...fun fun...you know it...

i'm getting sick of this house...LET ME OUT...i want to do something this fall break to get me away from all the madness...

well, i love you all and i'll be back when i can..

[[becca]]

okay...

September 16 2005
wow...i need more updated pictures of me...that one's from fine arts in texas...one of my "fat" pictures...

be back when i can...
[becca]