November 12 2005
so now that guard is over, swimming is my life........ but i love swim season!!!!! so its all good!!!!!! i wish i could go back to alabama competition and change what happened........ it sucks that like i barely talk to those girls anymore!!!!!! i mean we will be good friends sometime....... but i hope by thanksgiving break so i can have stuff to do!! but my other friends are amazing!!!! if not for this 1 boy i would be in washington living with my cousins 2 weeks ago!!!!! but he has helped me get through all this!!!!! its great i have him as a friend!!!! and thanks to some of my other friends that helped me get through all this crap!!!!!!! i dont regret a thing i said or did except for ignoring everyone except the "possy"!!! im sorry for that........ thanks for making me realize that i was being a jerk.... i mean all that stuff was crap....... yea we had a blast during fall break......... but i completely ditched the rest of my friends that i promiced i would hang out with them!!! so yeah i guess i wish i could go back and change stuff........ but i cant........ i just feel that ive lost 3 of my closest friends...... were still friends but like were just not close anymore....... and it sucks!!!!! but this is where im blabbing b/c like no one really has phusebox........ so yea i guess thats it........