waiting, waiting...

February 28 2007

Why do all the good things seem so far away? I know I shouldn't be wishing away the last few months of my senior year, but I can't help feeling like there's this huge expanse of nothing seperating me from the rest of my life.

I turn 18 in the beginning of April.  The state JCL convention, one of the few remaining high school events that is even worth thinking about, is in the end of April.  Prom is a week into May.  Graduation is a week later.

What's March?  March is useless.  March is ACI and more time for me to sit around spazzing out over my future.  I think I would worry about it less if it were just here.

At the same time, I know I'm not quite ready yet.  Emotionally, I'm bored and I'm ready to move on and do something new and exciting.  But I know that practically I am in no place to be itching for the starting pistol to send me off to college.  I don't have any money.  I don't know what I want to do.  I don't even know if I'm going to be able to stay as excited as I am till August.