Uncertainty is a harsh mistress.

January 22 2007

Why is it that we spend so much time second guessing ourselves?

It seems as though the entire world is saying, "This is it!  Now is the time that you will decide how the rest of your life will turn out."

I find myself uncertain of everything about the next few years of my life.  Am I going to the right school?  Where am I going to live?  How am I going to stay out of the financial gutter?  Am I making the right decisions?  More importantly, am I making them for the right reasons?

I'm afraid of making the wrong choice.

Even worse, I'm afraid of not making a choice at all and letting opportunity slip through my fingers.

That first big step into the unknown is always the scariest.  Or, so I hear.  I'm hoping that after the first plunge it will get easier, or that I will at least become braver or more confident.

Drink Dajen

January 22 2007
Sarah oh wise one, lead my down this dark and dreary path. It's always that first step that is the hardest, i know. But you have to take chances. So what if humiliation or failure are huge parts of the equations, (this is what mcclellan should be teaching) prosperity and great adventure are just an equal part as well. We only live once, so take that jump and do what you like, do what you want, and fuck the rest.

Maja Opacic

January 23 2007
"I know just what you mean, love " sorry but as I was reading your entry I suddenly thought of POTC :) I am really scared of starting college because I do not want to screw up, and I am afraid that I will.

Drink Dajen

February 01 2007
seeing you could never give me grief. you=crazy