sometimes I wish i could help others realize stuff.

vague huh?

well I just had a wonderful weekend. I hope this week is that good.

still vague....

hmm...i love practicing my instruments a lot lately.

now that's just random...

I feel like a gap in my life has been filled. but not completely filled. like it's been covered with saran wrap. it could easily break if it goes wrong, but if it's what I hope for, it could be filled for the rest of my life. that just came to me. sorry, it's still kinda vague. I'm obviously in a vague mood. now I'm going to shower. I said "vague" 4 times. that one makes 5. again with the randomness. God Bless.

had good times with 2 of my best friends last night.
and i got starbucks.
made me happy.

I also found this quote on my email this morning and it kinda coincides with what I was talking about in my prayers last night. I thought it was ironic.

"To succeed you have to believe in something with such a passion that it becomes a reality."

Anita Roddick

yeah....God really is special to listen to my ramblings at night. And that quote that I know he left me completely cleared up a lot of stuff. I actually feel kinda secure about a gut feeling I have. and that never happens because I'm so indecisive always think about the what ifs...maybe this is different? I hope.
God Bless.

totally just watched the movie Beyond the Sea just now and it was really good. Bobby Darin was such a cool guy. had no idea he married Sandra Dee. hah. Kate Bosworth is so pretty as her. but he did such good music.

I love these biography movies they've been doing lately of all the good music people that have passed on. but it's sad, because you get to know the person's life, and then they die in the movie, even though you know they are already dead. it's still sad.

I wish that music now a days was that good. i mean, he was as big as all these crappy people "singing" today then. I totally want to live back then. when jazz was the cool music and big band and such. ugh. that makes me sick how people have completely left it in the dust and have moved on.

I believe that is now one of my accomplishments i want to do before I die. bring back good music. like, jazz. I may listen to some of today's music sometimes, but i wish for the times when jazz was the big music at all the clubs and coffee houses. i wish today was like that. and i will make it like that if I have to die doing so. I want good music to be back on all the radio stations. to be played at all the restaurants. to be blasting from people's huge stereo systems. please help me with this. I really want to see it done. listen to something good. expand your horizons. learn an instrument for pete's sakes! it's summer. you've got loads of free time. and you can appreciate music more than ever before. ugh. I'm rambling. so that means I feel strongly about this. which i do.

so go with me on it. God Bless

well, thinking i'm going to have to go to a doctor today. yeah, the spider bite isn't going away.

{that bites. heh. silly kid}

and jazmin has an awful spider bite so i read. it sounds pretty bad. so remember her in your prayers.

hoping i get to go to 6 flags thursday. that would rock my face.

how about....Spamalot won 3 Tonys last night including best musical of the year!! and they did an act from it!! that was the best show ever. ugh, it was awesome. made me happy. whoop.

but it made me miss new york. what doesnt?

The Ring is on TV tonight!! yay!
have a great day. God Bless.

I had the strangest dream last night. I won't go into what and who all was in it....but i do know that Aladdin and Jasmine were in it and I thought about the weird dream when I got up and about jasmine. i don't know why, but i thought about how lucky she is. I mean it's not human how lucky she is. okay, check it out. She's a princess, has a tiger for a pet, a pretty fountain in her castle court yard, and is married to Aladdin who is a really cute guy. And she has cool clothes and she's pretty. ugh. it's like....she makes people feel horrible because they can never have all of that. I want a life like Jasmine's. I don't have to be princess....a tiger would be cool, but maybe i could find a cat and spraypaint it. but I want to fall in love with a guy who rides on a carpet to the balcony to talk. that would make me happy. carpet rides are awesome. so i hear....
God Bless.

I guess when I actually have something to write about and such then i shall put it into words but i'm still fascinated by decorating it all.

hmm, here's some lyrics that i like though....

I worry
I throw my fear around
But this morning
There's a calm I cant explain
The rock candy's melted, only diamonds now remain

By the time I recognize this moment
This moment will be gone
But I will bend the light pretending
That it somehow lingered on

So much wasted in the afternoon
So much sacred in the month of June
How 'bout you?

God Bless