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Who am I?

How quickly I've forgotten,
I'm lost and alone,
Who's this intruder, left fallen?

Since when did I lose myself?
Since when did I drift here?
My friends don't talk to me...
But rather I sit and I fear...

I wonder what's wrong with them,
Yet, they're mad at me for caring to ask,
It's hard for me to understand this,
On the opposite side of the looking glass...

Some think I'm annoying...
I wonder what I have to offer....
Constantly depressed... I wonder
Do I make THEM suffer?

I just wanted to see a smile,
And that would make my day,
But so often I find, that
Laughter can quickly fade away...

How much I miss the wonderful times,
When nothing seemed to matter,
And life was not full of all this
Confusing bits of "blibber-blabber"..

I'm sorry...
But are those the words to say?
Please God, help me find something from it all....
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photo from *Significance*
I found this photo on a friends xanga.... and I don't know... I really like it.. I love black and white pictures, they just rock!

Will my bad day ever come to a close?..

It seems with everyday, there's only one fate,

And so that way my life goes..



If I said,"I'm lost without You", I know how true it'd be...

I just realize, when it comes down to it,

How clueless I really seem to be...



I just wonder why that's how it is,

When I try hard, and do my best,

To get through a life like this...



Why is it I seem to always be left behind?..

Left so far back with nothing but sorrows,

To constantly fill my broken mind...



Tell me there will finally come

A better day...

I don't think anyone reads my phusebox..... maybe it's just me..... well, i know one person does.... because she's just cool like that... surely there are more cool people out there...

What do you want from me,
A poor lost soul, left in reality
Facing the past and the future,
In my room all alone,
What a tragedy..
Just wake me up,
When all ceases to matter..

Just wake me up,
Wake me up,
When nothing really matters
Anymore..

What do you call me for,
With weakened heart calling for you,
A face-off of myself and you too,
In this life all alone,
What a tragedy..
Just wake me up,
When all is well again

Just wake me up,
Wake me up,
When all is well and right,
Once more..

Drifting out to wonderland,
With a .45 by my side..
Just went by the waste land,
Where poor souls go to die

With the growing stench of failure,
Reeking through my nostrils,
It's hard to breathe myself,
Staring out at the growing pyre hills.

With an excuse to persevere,
I'll push past that ship wreck,
Towards the goal kept in my mind,
Keeping myself in check.

Though I may look back,
Checking on the souls left so far behind,
I'm simply moving onward,
But leaving space for them here in my mind.

Perhaps one day,
Should I lay in the shower long enough..
The shower head will rain answers down upon me...

Perhaps one day,
I will no longer stare at my ceiling at night...
I shall only sleep, and do so in peace....

Perhaps one day,
My face will no longer wear such agony...
And the tears will cease to stand upon it...

Perhaps one day,
The pillow to which I hold so tight...
Will become you instead, and I can smile...

Perhaps one day,
My TV will not be an attempted distraction..
But rather entertainment...

Perhaps one day,
I won't have to wonder where your heart lies..
Because I'll know without a doubt...

But right now, you're still just a dream that
Perhaps, one day, will come true...
I just hope you know how much I really care about
you...

I'm so bored, I'm going crazy,
Sight once clear, now so hazy,

If I could I'd run away,
Seek the light,
For a brand new day.

Hoping all will then soon grow interest,
To the long lost sight,
To simply just living within in this...

Life, of which, we have no control,
Just losing sight of our only goal...

photo from oosnake45

Now you guys know whether or not I'm crazy, right?

So I'm seventeen,
It's just a number to me,
Still growing, Still living,
And still just as confusing.

Though I've been here,
For a long time - it may seem,
I've still spent most my time,
Just simply learning to Breathe..

It's almost sad..
I've just barely begun to live.

photo from oosnake45

Well, I think I see your star light,
Shining at me, deep from in the darkness..
It makes me smile, I feel so bright,
But it'll only see me through til' morning..

I'll never forget the peace I felt this moment,
Seconds before I ran out my door..
When I awoke standing with such ailment,
Looking in your eyes, so early in the morning..

And now I ask myself...
What words should I say?

photo from oosnake45
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I stand alone on a mountaintop,

It stands overlooking the sea..

As I peer downward, upon the rocks..

I know You are watching me..



Although I wonder why...

There is no doubt in this feeling,

I sense Your presence with me..

And I stood there, simply waiting..



You were there..

Like always..

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Guys I just want to say that God is with you always.. Never doubt it, for only then can Satan really hurt you. Doubts only open the way for you to not believe anymore.. and once there.. It's harder to get back the further you get away. We all stuggle with life.. Unfortunately, that is just how Life is.. But through your struggles He is always there. He's the only thing perfect out there, so why not trust Him?

photo from oosnake45

didn't really know what to say.. just thought I'd post something...

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Howdie.... What's up homieG-dawg-skillet-tetrahedron................yes...... Hope you guyses weekends was awesome... peace out!