October 30 2005
This week has been soooooooooooooooooooo hard!!! The word hard doesn't even begin to cover it!!! Everyone has been attacked so much this week, i just can't take it anymore...i was fine the first night or so and then, it got worse! I didn't let anyone no that I was having problems though...i wanted to be strong for everyone else. I mean even my closet friends couldn't tell there was something wrong, then finally I decided to talk to Brady and Meagan and that helped!! I know everything will be better after tommmorrow night...but it is really hard!! I don't want to even go do it again tommorrow!!Please just be praying for everyone on the cast!!!