so i'm moving on.. i mean there is nothing i can do to fix it.. at least nothing that would help me.. it was a choice that was made and i'm just going to deal with the outcome and move on from it...we had some great times but this is really becoming too much and i'm sick of picking up the pieces... so i'm just going to move on with my life...i just really can't wait to go back to knoxville now....

till next time...

so i dont think i have ever been so hurt by someone so close to me... who knows i might just be blowing this was up but i'm just so hurt right now and extremely stressed....

the main thing is... i want to know what happened to my best friend.... things were fine 2 weeks ago and now its up in flames....

why do people doubt each other....

is it just in our nature as humans to doubt, to question...

or is it just because of a persons actions and habits that make us question or doubt their intentions...or being....

or do doubts and questions arouse just because of others doubts of the person... 

-do we doubt each other only because others have doubted them as well????

Well I'm moving kind of slow
Down that same old path
Wasting time inside this hour glass
She's coming up ahead now
And I feel, yes I feel
My head turning like a race car wheel
Maybe I'll try to say hi another time
I've gotta find a way to get inside your mind
I'll talk smoothe and walk one step closer
Be real cool, dang real cool

say what you want, say what you mean
question yourself, are you really what you seem?
say what you want, say what you mean
question yourself, are you really what you dream?

now here I come one more time
but she slides on by
not even a second look
she took the bait right off that hook
I've got my blinders on tight
I pull my cap a little lower
I can't hide away

you might think that this is easy for me
but there's a lot of things you don't know
you don't care, you don't want to see
long while since I've got myself across
but maybe there's a reason for that
even if I caught you I'd throw you back.

hey... hey...

I really don't want to fall back
because you don't seem like you care
and if I would fall back
you don't seem like you care
and if I would fall back
you don't seem like you care

fall down your back, fall down your back
fall down your back, fall down your back

I will not, I will not hold, hold you back
you don't seem like you care

Fall back... you don't
Fall back... you don't
Fall back... you don't