January 16 2006

I am so sick of trying

I just want to quit

I'm exhausted from worry

and faking and acting like everything is ok.

I need to be real and show you who I am there's stuff you need to know in order to fully understand why I am the way I am...

For the first time in my life I am feeling shy and ashamed afraid to let you see who I am. Some people won't understand

just like the song Iris says "i don't want the world to see me cause i don't think that they'd understand"