Urban ministries and air soft guns

November 04 2005
I haven't written much with meaning in a while. So I thought I would catch you guys up a bit.
My back is getting better. It is nice to be back working instead of just laying around. I mean, naturally I would love to just lay around for the rest of my life. Who wouldn't? But I hated thinking about all the things that I needed to get done and couldn't do. So it's nice to only take a rest break every once in a while from work instead of taking a work break from resting.
Next week is the urban ministry retreat. We are setting aside 3 days to pray and fast for God's direction for the urban ministry. It's so exciting to think that we are beginning this ministry, almost from the ground up. Most of the previous urban ministry has disappeared, so we are creating. But God is being very specific about us seeking Him during this time. It is incredible to co-create with God like this.
The guys on the base has bought air soft guns. There are little neon green pellets all over the base from their wars, and I think everyone has at least one red mark on their body from being shot. Tonight we had a shoot out in the dining room. At one point, I was literally crawling on the floor on my stomach under the tables picking up pellets to reload the guns. I don't know if any of you guys are into these air soft guns, but they are highly addictive. Now they are looking online to buy faster, better guns. I don't think they are going to get over these any time soon.
God and I have had some hard times this week. There is a lot that I don't want to go into details about, but I have gone back and forth with being highly disappointed in Him. Sometimes I feel like He is wanting me to go so much deeper with Him but my flesh is really kicking up against that. And then sometimes I just want to pack up, take my life back, and move back to TN because I'm just so frustrated. It will work out I'm sure, but it's just tough for now.
Oh, and 19 days until Rent!!!! Yeah!!!!

Rachael Moore

November 04 2005
uh i am so excited about rent! woo hoo!