In A Relationship
Theater, Politics, Astronomy, Diseases, Genetics, Greek Mythology, Soccer, Figure Skating, and Choir
Jimi Hendrix, Jack Johnson, The Beatles, Coldplay, Beck, Cake, Keane, Ben Harper, Ben Kweller, Brandnew, Sublime, The Killers, Led Zeppelin, Pink Floyd, Nora Jones, Red Hot Chili Peppers, The Strokes, U2, Weezer, and The Who
Lord of the Rings, Pi, Snatch, Titanic (because its just that cute), Gangs of New York, Bowling for Colombine, Momento, Blazing Saddles, and Spinal Tap
Lord of the Rings, Til We Have Faces, A Year of Wonder, Echo, Troy, The Odyessy, The Queen\'s Fool, The Dublin Princes, A Break with Charity, The Great Gastby, 1984, Hamlet, As You Like It, Midsummer Night\'s Dream, The Tempest, She\'s Come Undone, The Perks of Being A Wallflower, Saint Joan, Night, SHE: A History of Adventure and No More Pretty Pictures
April 01 2006
*sigh* I don't know what to do or how to feel, because everything is so different this time around. I just want to sit in a dark room and think, but that's not been working so well.
I'm fed up with high school and its superficialness. It's so redundant and pointless. All conflicts are entirely shallow. We are all trying so hard to find ourselves that we lose view of what we are really looking for. It's like we get so obbsessed with searching that discovering ourselves is irrelevant. Or maybe I'm just a pessimist.
I'm ready for summer. Who's with me?
March 11 2006
February 25 2006
Apolo Ohno WON THE GOLD MEDAL! I am so freaking happy!! EEK! The winter Oylmpics were completely sucking because Michelle Kwan had to opt out, but that just made it all better. Alright, and that's all of my Oylmpic talk now since I'm sure most of you are sick of it.
ACT's were today, and they were just about exciting as usual. I don't think I'll get the 34 I wanted, but hopefully at least a 30..sigh..although I honestly don't think that's happening.
So the other day I was thinking about my idealism that always gets in the way and somehow manages to screw everything up. At the same time it embodied everything I am or want to be. It's just so paradoxial in that frustrating kind of way.
I feel like I'm surrounded by people (if you think it's you then it's probably not) that hold me back. It seems like I have become the scapegoat for everything because people know if they blame me for something I'll get say sorry. It's a vivous circle that we've created, and it doesn't ever seem to get any better. Venting only does so much, but starting something is like self destructing yourself.
I don't know what I want any more.
January 04 2006
Whenever New Years comes I get all nostalgic. And I start to look back on the entire year, which isn't always a good thing. So here's a list of some of what I did or didn't do this past year.
*somehow managed to not die in school
*got carried away with the wrong guy
*got the first lead in a play
*realized that acting is what I love more than anything and finding out that I'm not entirely sucky at it
*being in AIDA, one of the most amazing shows ever
*trying my luck at singing solo, and it not going so well
*writing and directing a play with my friends- which was stressfully awesome
*going to Canada and seeing Modest Mouse in Toronto
*coming to terms with the loss of innocence
*failing into a bad situation with boy
*having an awesome time doing a Monty Python Show
*finding out that some people aren't worth it
*but also realizing how insanely cool all of your friends are
*kicking ass in soccer, but missing the school team, I regret quitting
*attempting to sing solo and not totally fucking it up
*understanding that some wishes aren't meant to come true, because even better ones are on their way
*finding out whats worth it
*realizing that I actually do fit in with my family
So my goal of this year is to stop sitting back and waiting for good things to come to me. And maybe actually stop being a pansy and suck it up and take a risk every now and then.
Happy New Years everyone!
December 04 2005
Yeah, so I got my license finally a couple weeks ago. Since then I've become my brother's full time driver, which is cool since my little brother is like freaking amazing. He always wants to go to Hastings, and then he always decides to buy me chocolate. Isn't that cute?
So I made mid-state, even though I totally fucked up my auditions, like total shit. But hey the choir gods were smiling on me for the first time ever.
Friday I went and attempted to play pool with Mark. It got so bad that he started knocking in the balls for me and there were times when I made the balls bounce..ick, that sounds so wrong. Yeah so I'm perverted so what? Anyways after that he dropped me off in front of Cathy's car and we went to go see this crazy mentalist. It was so amazingly awesome.
I went to Tech to see everyone, made me think about college. About how much I want to get out of high school and be independent, but at the same time, pretty freaked out by the responsibility and choices. It's probably because at times I can be so indecisive. But hey it was nice to see James and Jacob, who crack me up. Then I had a nice sleep on the way home.
Then me, Chaps, and Erin drove to Kroger at 1 in the morning because we wanted lemon juice for sugar shots. It was so empty and weird. The people you run into..
And so now I'm sitting, typing this while Erin is making me into a superhero, America's Next Top Model Style, which isn't exactly turning out quite as awesome. Because contrary to them, I can't look gorgeous with 5 pounds of crazy colored make up on my face.
Sounds like fun, eh?
November 13 2005
So everything is getting better. :-)
Except for school. Urgh, so much fucking pressure that I'm going to blow my face off.
I went to go see Rocky Horror Picture Show with Mark, mabye we're just stupid, but we understood like nothing. Maybe the movie is better? That's what the guy in front of us said. But it was pretty interesting and hilarous too see all the people bring props and act out the plot in the audience. This old man got up and started dancing. It was seriously the funniest thing I have seen in a long time.
Anyways. Thanksgiving soon! I love Turkey day! I get to go to Nashville and see all my crazy musically inclined family. So basically I spend the day listening to them all 'jam'. It cracks me up.
Yeah, so that's it.
November 02 2005
Yeah, well I got one of these to kind of branch out from all the regulars, I suppose. I mean everything has fallen into this same routine and it's so dull. Deadly dull. I just can't stand it anymore. And so I was like hey, change time. But I'm rolling my eyes at myself because this really isn't a big deal.
Anyways, the username is from this really cool Coldplay song. And it was the first thing that I saw laying around my computer. So, boom, it's a title. Heh..
School blows. I want to par-tay!
Fall is the bestest season ever. I mean it's like perfect weather, sometimes it's a bit nippy, but it's amazing for sports. :-)
I suppose that's all. Yeah, real exciting..