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Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen..

January 31 2006

He's so cool.

Okay so I'm an angry little girl.
and I'll just vent on here,
so take note this is not to offend anyone;;

So Ms. Gregory posted the list...
&& I didn't make stage manager.
I wasn't too highly positive I would make it.
but she put me as a dresser again, and
that was perfectly fine..
till I read who made stage manager(s)
Okay, so the main stage manager
was the dress mistress last year,
she skipped out to go to Jazz fest
and left me to do her job.
How frikkin reliable.
&& THEN there's the fact
that there are 2 freshman assistants,
first off-Is it not one of ms. Gregory's big statements
that Freshman don't get stuff like that,
but there are 2.
second-yes I am jealous of that,
seeing as how i've worked my butt off to
get this, and last year I put in
SO much, and I get to be a dresser again?
I was thinking she'd take something into consideration.
It just makes me so mad she'd do that.

but that's my ranting,
the rest of the day was alright,
I came home, ate pizza,
fell asleep at 5
and was woken up by a phone call at
uhh 10:30 =)
haha, It was nice to sleep.
I went back to sleep at 12:34ish
and woke up at 6:00 this morning.
so yeah...lots of sleeping.

I'm babysitting this weekend,
then Keith Urban the next next Tuesday,
and the following Sunday,
yay I get to get out of town =)

but that's about it.

To fall for you is like stepping on rusty nails ♥

January 26 2006

I can rock the lip rings?
i have no life.

nothings been going on.
Hairspray last weekend was awesome.
school sucks,
i've been sick the past week,
but i got a few things done,
but for everything done 2 things aren't?

I got signed up for early day.
hell yes.

that's about it.

I know your intentions&& I'm probably that kind of girl ♥....

January 16 2006

I swear I did not drug him.

Hey guys,
It's been a little while.
Thought i'd stop by and update.
Nothings been going on.
School is becoming extremely icky.
Friday was a pretty good day though.
I babysat Saturday night
so my Family could take mi Fadre out to dinner
for his birfday.(which is today)

Birfday shoutouts:
14th-Shane (my cousin)
15th-Jared (my buddy)&& MLK Jr.
16th-Mi Fadre && Nicholas Hawkins

I'm still searching for a soliloquy for Speech.
I'm gonna fail this..oiy.
I hate the stressful assignments.

Well that's all I have to say.
Have fun on the day off!

Just like me, they long to be, close to you ♥...

January 11 2006

{I took that at Kroger}

"Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions.
Small people always do
but the really great make you feel that you,
too, can become great."

Mark Twain

I'm so hypnotized, everytime I look into your eyes ♥..

January 09 2006

Hey kids.
How are you all?
Pretty alright here.
nothing big going on.
I wanna start dancing again,
I really really miss it.
I watched Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights,
and it was flippin awesome.
I mean i need to flippin learn dangit.
Well loves,
leave some loving.

I know your intentions,
and i'm probably that kinda girl.

Come on babe, why don’t we paint the town && all the jazz..

January 05 2006

♥ ♥ ♥
So nothings been going on.
I'm trying to get a job for West Side Story,
I signed up for Stage Manager
*crosses fingers*
but there are alot of
Older choir members
she might pick..
If I can't do that
I'll be a dresser again, or something.
You know what sucks,
when you have crushes.
Oiy. But it's fun.
I have about 2 1/2
&& none of them seem likely.
but it happens.

haha well yep, i've said what I had to say.

Let's make a scene
then blame it on our parents.

So you say you want a revolution? Well yah know....

January 02 2006

Runaway with me...

School tomorrow.

Oh boy....bahhhhhh
New Years went well.
Hung out with Amber, had
BEAUTIFUL weather.
yeah...so that was nice.
I got to go walking and such,
and I've exercised every day
for the past week=)
I was excited.

Nothing big is happening.
so I guess that's about it.

Rain Drops on Roses and girls in white dresses and sleeping with roaches...

December 30 2005

It's back...

I dyed my hair the other day.
i'll put pics up later.
Nothings been going on,
Christmas was fine,
New Years Eve Tomorrow.
Anybody got any plans?
I don't.
O well i'll party like it's 1999
Okay, well that's
all I have to say I guess.
Have a great rest of
Break kids, peace holla.
Keep it real, Kick it old school


Why do men have nipples?

Strawberry Fields forever♥

December 15 2005

Lareisa&&I {she makes me giggle}

Photograph: action action
Pretty darling, stop
Running down my street
The tears are dropping
Like a nuclear meltdown
I never meant to
Let it come to this
Can we blame it on
Timing, not chemistry
All night long,
I'll sing the
Same somber song
Attack my decisions
And the horse they road on
Everything seems to be
Less that zero
A mascara hero
With a heart of zinc

I never should have (kissed)
I never should have

And I never should have
Kissed those lips before
I never should've
Let you out my door
But now I'm stuck here
With your photograph

The words you chant
I never thought they'd
Be so true
Dancing in my head
So pause this moment
'Til we meet in our next life
A black tabby housecat
A bottle of xanax
All night long is
One repeated love song
When have I
Become this tree
'Til we meet in our
Brand new world
I'll count the rings
If you tie a string

I never should have (kissed)
I never should have

And I never should have
Kissed those lips before
I never should've
Let you out my door
But now I'm stuck here
With your photograph

And I never should have
Kissed those lips before
I never should've
Let you out my door
But now I'm stuck here
With your photograph

And I never should have
Kissed those lips before
I never should've
Let you out my door
But now I'm stuck here
With your photograph

Oh, and I never should have
Kissed those lips before
I never should've
Let you out my door
But now I'm stuck here
with your photograph.

Why do I have one shoe on?

Build god, then we'll talk: Panic! at the disco

It's these substandard motels on the (lalalalala) corner of 4th and Freemont Street.
Appealing, only because they are just that un-appealing
Any practiced catholic would cross themselves upon entering.
The rooms have a hint of asbestos and maybe a just dash of formaldehyde,
And the habit of decomposing right before your very (lalalala) eyes.

Along with the people inside
What a wonderful caricature of intimacy
Inside, what a wonderful caricature of intimacy

Tonight tenants range from: a lawyer and a virgin
Accessorizing with a rosary tucked inside her lingerie
She's getting a job at the firm come Monday.
The Mrs. will stay with the cheating attorney
moonlighting aside, she really needs his money.
Oh. What a wonderful caricature of intimacy.

Yeah (Yeah)

And not to mention, the constable, and his proposition, for that "virgin"
Yes, the one the lawyer met with on "strictly business"
as he said to the Mrs. only hours before.
Well after he had left, as she was fixing her face in a compact.
There was a terrible crash (There was a terrible crash)
Between her and the badge
She spilled her purse and her bag, and held a "purse" of a different kind.

Along with the people inside
What a wonderful caricature of intimacy
Inside, what a wonderful caricature of intimacy

There are no raindrops on roses or girls in white dresses.
It's sleeping with roaches and taking the shits off the sheets
before all the stains can not be more of your least favorite thing.

Raindrops on roses and girls in white dresses
And sleeping with roaches and taking best guesses
At the shade of the sheets before all the stains
And a few more of your least favorite things.

Inside, what a wonderful caricature of intimacy
Inside, what a wonderful caricature of intimacy

Raindrops on roses and girls in white dresses
And sleeping with roaches and taking best guesses
At the shade of the sheets before all the stains
And a few more of your least favorite things.

Raindrops on roses and girls in white dresses
And sleeping with roaches and taking best guesses
At the shade of the sheets before all the stains
And a few more of your least favorite things.

We got bored in the bathroom.

Walking with a ghost: Tegan&Sara
No matter which way you go
No matter which way you stay,
You're out of my mind
Out of my mind.
Out of my mind,
Out of my mind.

I was walking with a ghost,
I said please, please don't insist.
I was walking with a ghost,
I said please, please dont insist.

No matter which way you go
No matter which way you stay,
You're out of my mind
Out of my mind.
Out of my mind,
Out of my mind

I was walking with a ghost,
I said please, please don't insist.
I was walking with a ghost,
I said please, please dont insist.

No matter which way you go
No matter which way you stay,
You're out of my mind
Out of my mind.
Out of my mind,
Out of my mind

I was walking with a ghost,
I was walking with a ghost,
out of my mind
Out of my mind.
Out of my mind,
Out of my mind

You're out of my mind,
Out of my mind
You're out of my mind,
Out of my mind
Out of my mind,
Out of my mind.
Out of my mind,
Out of my mind.

I was walking with a ghost.
I was walking with a ghost.
I was walking with a ghost.
I was walking with a ghost.
I was walking with a ghost.
I was walking with a ghost.


Steal my kisses:Ben Harper

I put into Nashville, Tennessee
But you wouldn't even come around to see me
And since your headin' up to Carolina
You know I gonna be right there behind you
'Cause I always have to steal my kisses from you
Always have to steal my kisses from you
Always have to steal my kisses from you
Always have to steal my kisses from you
Now I love to feel that warm southern rain
Just to hear it fall is the sweetest sounding thing
And to see it fall on your simple country dress
It's like heaven to me I must confess
'Cause I always have to steal my kisses from you
Always have to steal my kisses from you
Always have to steal my kisses from you
Always have to steal my kisses from you
Now I've been hangin around you for days
But when I lean in you just turn your head away
I know you didn't mean that
She said I love the way you think but I hate the way you act
'Cause I always have to steal my kisses from you
Always have to steal my kisses from you
Always have to steal my kisses from you

I don't know what is on my head.
but these ladies are awesome.

{One day down, 2 to go}
I had a good day.
Basically once midterms were over,
and between classes.
I love this
crush sort of thing.

*10 Firsts:
first best friend (that you can remember):Berger
first screename: Babyblues409
first kiss: Michael
first pet: Charley&&Shawna
first piercing: my ears
first crush: Kolbe in 2nd grade..lol
first CD: Destiny's Child
first car: no idea
first date: How to deal with Michael
first love: I don't think i've had one.

*9 Lasts:
last cigarette: 3 or 4months ago
last alchoholic drink: a week ago
last car ride: like an hour ago
last real kiss: 3 or 4months ago
Last movie seen (in theaters):Just Friends
last phone call: Padre
last CD played:Keith Urban
last bubble bath: months ago
last time you cried:  A few weeks atleast

*8 Have You Evers:
have you ever been arrested: nope
have you ever dated one your best friends: sort of
have you ever skinny dipped: haha yes
have you ever been on TV: yep
have you ever kissed someone & then regretted it: yeah
have you ever had a sex dream about someone you knew?:haha no

have you ever snuck out:quite a few times
have you ever been in a fight: yep

*7 Things You're Wearing:
Jacket,Pink shirt,Undershirt,pants,panties,bra,earrings

*6 Things You've Done Today:

Watched the beatles musical.

*5 Favorite Things In No Particular Order:

*4 People You Can Tell Anything To:


*3 Choices:
black or white: Black
hot or cold: warm
chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla

*2 things you would change about your appearance:
not sure.

*1 thing you regret: 
Everything has a purpose.

Stab my back it's better when i bleed for you ♥...

December 14 2005

Tomorrow we begin

what we call, midterms.

1st && 2nd period

then we are out.

So that is wicked awesome.

Then 3rd && 4th

Friday followed by Charlie Brown.

Then the weekend!!!

Monday is going to go by quickly,

easy classes.

Choir Concert too.

So i'll be at school from about 1-2pm.

Then the concert is at about 7:00-:30

and it should last about an hour.

So come see me.

That look.

Those eyes.

I can't help but fall.

One word from you sends me spinning.

I'm on cloud nine,

and for once.

I'm happy I'm stuck.


"You're a terrible singer, but I like this song"

...Your mom is rated E, for everyone.♥

December 11 2005

So I went Christmas shopping.

I'm not finished.

I got the family gifts.

I wanted to get this

Cookie Monster Lamp.

When you push the button it goes


and lights up.

I think I played with that for

about uhh 20minutes



3half days.


I'm ready.

doesn't feel like Christmas though.

Hasn't for quite a while.

It needs to snow.

or something.


Monday-RTA play

Tuesday-Exorcising maybe

Wednesday-not sure

Thursday-Midterms {half day}

Friday-Midterms{half day},

Charlie Brown Christmas.


...Tonight, TOnight, it all began tonight I saw you and the world went away ♥

December 08 2005

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.

Life is beauty, admire it.

Life is bliss, taste it.

Life is a dream, realize it.

Life is a challenge, meet it.

Life is a duty, complete it.

Life is a game, play it.

Life is a promise, fulfill it.

Life is sorrow, overcome it.

Life is a song, sing it.

Life is a struggle, accept it.

Life is a tragedy, confront it.

Life is an adventure, dare it.

Life is luck, make it.

Life is too precious, do not destroy it.

Life is life, fight for it.

4days till midterms.
1week till Christmas Break.
17 days till Christmas.
23 days till New Years.
What's the time?
Well it's gotta be close to midnight
My body's talking to me
It says, "Time for danger"
It says "I wanna commit a crime
Wanna be the cause of a fight
Wanna put on a tight skirt and flirt
With a stranger"
I've had a knack from way back
At breaking the rules once I learn the games
Get up - life's too quick
I know someplace sick
Where this chick'll dance in the flames
We don't need any money
I always get in for free
You can get in too
If you get in with me

After awhile you learn

the subtle difference between

holding a hand and chaining a soul

and you learn that love doesn't mean possession

and company doesn't mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts

and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept

your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead

with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build your roads today

because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans

and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight.

After awhile you learn that even sunshine

burns if you get too much so you plant your

own garden and decorate your own soul

instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure

that you really are strong

and you really do have worth

and you learn

and you learn...

...I wanna put on a tight skirt and flirt with a stranger ♥

December 07 2005

Woke up late.
Dropped my phone in the toilet.
Vending Machine gave me the wrong drink.
Had to go to Biology.
then I had a complete turn around.
{Freaking amazing afteroon}
I love days like this.
So I hear we are doing West Side Story.
&&I am excited.
I'm in love with Rent.

"Take me Out TOnight<3"

the sparkle in her eyes
 when you smile at her
would shame the stars.

What do you want for Christmas?

I always have to steal my kisses from you&hearts;...

December 05 2005
So I left school early today.
I keep having these cold sweats.
it's uncomfortable.
The school seemed unusually hot.
O well, I came home.
took some medicine,
I feel a bit better now.
Nobody will be home for another 2hours.
So i'm going to do some things bored people do.
here are some surveys:

Stole this from Nick:

01. Sleep with or without clothes on?usually
02. Prefer black or blue pens? Blue
03. Dress up on Halloween? Yayuh
04. Like to travel? Definately.
05. Like someone? yeahhh
06. Do they know? Probably not
07. Who sleeps with you every night?Oh you know, wait, nobody..lol
08. Think you're attractive? I have my days.
09. Want to get married? Yep.
10. To? a nice person.
Are you a good student? at times.
12. Are you currently happy? sure.
13. Have you ever cheated on someone? I don't believe so.
14. Birthplace? Murfreesboro
15. Christmas or Halloween? Christmas.
16. Colored or black-and-white photos? Black and White.
17. Do long distance relationships work? nope
18. Do you believe in astrology? nope
19. Do you believe in love at first sight? Sometimes
20. Favorite CD? Nat King Cole's Greatest Hits
21. Do you consider yourself the life of the party?Sometimes
22. Do you drink? not really.
23. Do you make fun of people?Just when they have bad hair,that they did themselves, you see, I'd be perfectly fine with someone making fun of my hair cause I jacked it up myself, does that make sense?
24. Do you think dreams eventually come true? Depends if you make them come true,
Take for instance a dream that you meet a famous person,
stalk them for a couple of years and they're bound to notice you!
25. Favorite fictional character?The Pillsbury Dough BOy
26. Go to the movies or rent? Go.
27. Have you ever moved in your entire life? Quite a few times, but Stayed in the same general area
28. Have you ever stolen anything? a button.
29. How's the weather right now?Frigid
30. Hug or kiss? Kiss.
31. Last person you talked to on the phone? Mom
32. Last person who told you they love you? Ellen
33. Loud or Soft Music? Depends on my mood.
34. McDonalds or Burger King? Neither, I mean, BK-brown cheese Mikeyd's-Heartattack on a bun
35. Night or day? Night.
36. Number of Pillows? dos.
37. Piano or guitar? Piano.
38. Future job? Cosmotologist
39. Current job?School
40. Current love? Hair color
41. Current longing? relationship, that's atleast halfway decent
42. Current disappointment? CiCi's Pizza
43. Current annoyance? People who don't give me a chance to talk, i just wanna slap them!
44. Last thing you ate?chicken
45. Last thing you bought? Butterfly pants//Green shirt thing
46. Most recent thing you are looking forward to? No School
47. What are you wearing right now? pants,converse,shirt
48. Plans for this weekend? none
What did you do today? went to school
50. Pick a song lyric:
I always have to steal my kisses from you...

>>Whats your real name? Sarah Elizabeth Gearhart
>>What do your friends call you? Sarah,Say,Sandy,Boomama
>>What does your family call you? Say,Sarah
>>Where do you live? Tennessee
>>How old are you? 15
>>When is your birhtday? June 11th
>>Male or Female? female
>>Single or Taken? Single
>> Boyfriend/Girlfriends name? ...
>>What is your sn? Wastedinthesoup

>> Have you ever .. <<

>> Been in Jail? no
>>Thrown up in public? yeah
>>Gotten a F on a report card? once
>>Been to a concert? yeah
>>Been in a fist fight?haha yah
>>Had a crush on someone? duh
>>Had a boyfriend/girlfriend? yep
>>Dated someone of the same sex? no
>>Been attracted to someone of the same sex? no
>>Slipped on a banana peel? no
>>Stolen somehting? a button

>>What would you do if..<<

>>Someone caught you having sex? Laugh
>>You caught someone having sex? vomit
>>Got really sick and threw up in public? happened before.
>>Someone threatend you? laugh at them
>>Someone totaled yuor car? beat them with the bumper? haha i dunno.
>>You met the president? punch him.
>>Went on a blind date and it turned out to be you faveorite actor/actoress?Ask them what drugs they're on.
>>Burped while singing a solo in front of the whole school? act like it's part of the song.
>>You could have anything you wanted? who knows
>>You had a geniue? make a wish

>>Finish he sentences..<<

>>I just got...a poptart
>>There are a million ...things going on in my mind.
>>Can Somebody please...give me a break, give me a break, break me off a peice of that kitkat bar!?
>>Its  REALLY hot i should...swim
>>There are a million spiders on my...sister
>>I'm only racist towards...napkins
>>I only love...you
>>I really hate...them
>>I hate this annoying...itch

>>Can you finish this<<>>If you can finish it<<

>> If im 555 your ....666
>>Its getting hot in here so take off all your ...clothes.
>>I tear my heart open i sew ....myself shut
>>Drop it like its.. HOTTT
>>People can take everything away from you nut they can never take away your ...pants
>>To the window To the ...walllllllllllll
>>We were meant to live for...so much more
>>Tell e that reality is better than a dream but i found out the hard way nothing is what .....it seems to be
>>Were all to ...drunk
>>It take my pain ...away

>>This or that<<

>>Gay or Bisexual? uhh gay i guess.
>>Basketball or baseball? baseball
>>Hockey or Lacross? hockey
>>Cheerleading or Football? football
>>Patriots or Eagles?Eagles
>>Pink or Purple? Pink
>>Blue or Green? Blue
>>Red or Orange? Orange
>>Pass or Fail? pass
>>Blonde or Brunette? brunette
>>Pop or Rock? rock
>>Guitar or Drums? drums


>>Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? nope
>>Do you have a crush? si
>>Are you i love? no
>>Hae you ever been in love? i thought I was.
>>Have you ever had a crush on a teacher? no
>>Do you smoke? no
>>Are you a virgin? yes


1) Current Mood: blah
2) Current Taste: orange juice
3) Current Clothes: maroon shirt&&Jeans
4) Current Desktop: Guitarrrrrr
5) Current Toenail Color: Pink
6) Current Time: 1:56
7) Current Surroundings: my room?
8) Current Thoughts: ick

(um there's only 8 things.)


1) First Best Friend: Berger
2) First Kiss: Michael
3) First Screen Name: babyblues409
4) First Pet: Shawna
5) First Piercing: Ears when i was little
6) First Crush:Colby
7) First Music: no idea

(there's only 7.)


1) Last Cigarette: 4 or 5months ago
2) Last Drink: a few months ago
3) Last Car Ride: today
4) Last Kiss: September
5) Last Movie Seen: Harry Potter 4
6) Last Phone Call: 10minutes ago
7) Last CD Played: Keith Urban


1) Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Guy/Girl Friends: yeah
2) Have You Ever Been Dumped: yep
3) Have You Ever Been Arrested: nope
4) Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: yeah
5) Have You Ever Been on TV: yeah
6) Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: nope


1) 1 Thing You're Wearing: jeans
2) 1 Thing You've Done Today: went to school
3) 1 Thing Your Listening To Right Now: my computer
4) 1 Thing You Can't Live Without: air?
5) 1 Thing You Do When You're Bored: videogames




1. Amber
2. Berger
3. Chels


1. black or white: green
2. hot or cold: Cold


1. Dance

We all lead, such elaborate lives...

December 03 2005

Instant Jell-O pudding is amazing.
I mean, the way it goes
from milk and powder,
too the gooie goodness of pudding.
It's brilliant.

I went to Jackson Heights
with Brittany and Tiffany
last night, we saw Just Friends
It was so flippin funny.
Then we walked to China Buffet,
it was empty, and we didn't know what they were saying.
So we just sat down and ate buffet.
haha. It was gooood.
Super fun.
Then today I saw
Rent with my Padre
[That was odd]
But the movie was super.
Then I bought some pants
[woot woot]
and came home.
That's about it.

Better Life:
Friday night and the moon is high
I'm wide awake just watching you sleep

And I promise you you're gonna have

More than just the things that you need

We ain't got much now, we're just starting out

But I know somehow paradise is comin'.

Someday baby, you and I are gonna be the ones

Good luck's gonna shine

Someday baby, you and I are gonna be the ones

So hold on

We're headed for a better life.

Oh, now there's a place for you and me

Where we can dream as big as the sky

I know it's hard to see it now

But baby someday we're gonna fly

This road we're on, you know it might be long

But my faith is strong

It's all that really matters.

Someday baby,
you and I are gonna be the ones

Good luck's gonna shine

Someday baby, you and I are gonna be the ones

So hold on

We're headed for a better life.

I wanna love somebody like you&#9829;

December 01 2005

Laughter is medicine.
Aye me,I laughed so hard today.
In choir I drew a picture.
What of you ask?
Mrs. Gregory.
It was so like her,
roots and all.
I think I had about half the class laughing.
It's hard to sing in French that way.
I'm going to see Keith Urban
Twice in a week.
Not till Valentines day though.
Oiy, I'm uber excited!!
So I was thinkin'[here she goes again]
Why do people lie so much.
I mean, come on,
Why hide something for years,
that in the end isn't a big deal?
I hate when people do that.
haha. random.
So..I just walked outside,
got on my bike,
rode down my drive way,
around the ct.
and then decided it was too cold,
and came back in,
I hate days like this.
My family is aggrivating me.
So call me and come get me,
save me from them..hah

Let's Cuddle

Adults are like a combination of sadness and phobias. ..

November 28 2005

So sometimes I just have these days,
days where I think about things way deeply.
I love the rain.
I hate over-thinking,
which I do quite often.
I want to rant about stuff,
or just let everything out.
I wanna write a movie, or a play, or something.
I just have all these things going through my mind &&
It's crazy how I can't just explain it.
I have a talent.
This is in no way to be taken as me be conceded,
but I write expressions down really well.
I have a writing ability beyond most peoples thoughts.
My dreams have become a false reality.
I mean, I can't concentrate anymore.
I end up somewhere else.
I can't control my thoughts.
Scary sometimes,
but then again, it helps me realize that
I can make my life how I want it.
Sometimes it just feels like the world is ending,
when I'm scared or angry or even sad,
but I always seem to get myself back up again,
usually just an emotional mask,
caused by a blow up or something,
then back to thinking.
I was thinking about my last relationship,
and just everything.
It didn't work out,
and in the long run it was a good thing.
I'm over it after a month of confusion on both parts.
I just think now that I want is to move on,
Get away from the familiar,
and find something new,
something non-habit forming.
Awe well.

How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot!  The world forgetting, by the
world forgot  Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each pray'r
accepted, and each wish resign'd.

-Alexander Pope

Why don't people ask "how are you" anymore.
all I get is "What's up"
Really now, what is up?
How are you, now there's a question.
oiy, I need medication.
I think I have a bipoler cold.
One minute I feel great,
the next I feel like I'm having a major
hangover, Where EVERYTHING is really loud.
I hate that.
So I only get an hour on the computer a day,
So now you guys can call me.

Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straitjacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing

-All American Rejects
[StraightJacket feeling]

You turn my legs to Jell-O&hearts;

November 26 2005

Under the circumstances
that nobody can come kidnapp me
at midnight, I've changed it to
10 in the pm.
haha That's before curfew,
and all that jazz.
haha, I'm free tomorow,
Someone call me and we'll hang out.


November 25 2005
Today was pretty boring.
I had plans, but they didn't work out.
I ended up watchin 45minutes of problem Child.
haha. O well....I think somebody needs to call me at like
midnight thirty, pick me up from my place of residence,
and take me to Mcdonalds or something...lol
Not much else to say..
Let's Make a Scene

Incredibly interesting covos...

November 24 2005

riverdaleplaya08: wow....
riverdaleplaya08: i am thinkings.....
riverdaleplaya08: ks
riverdaleplaya08: .
riverdaleplaya08: of alot of things
riverdaleplaya08: like
riverdaleplaya08: ...
riverdaleplaya08: nvm
Wastedinthesoup: you know what you're like
Wastedinthesoup: a preview...you get so much into your story...and then i don't get and ending
Wastedinthesoup: you craka
riverdaleplaya08: lol
riverdaleplaya08: u called me a craca
riverdaleplaya08: =P
Wastedinthesoup: i know
riverdaleplaya08: u wanna know what im thinking??
riverdaleplaya08: i feel like albert einstien or somethin
Wastedinthesoup: that you love me more than anything and 2 plus 2 is four
riverdaleplaya08: i am always thinking that i love u
riverdaleplaya08: but im talking about the random stuff
Wastedinthesoup: hehe yeahhh:-)
riverdaleplaya08: and im thinking beyond the point of 2plus 2
riverdaleplaya08: pssh i love u more than my new icon thingy
riverdaleplaya08: !!
Wastedinthesoup: lol
riverdaleplaya08: sarah
riverdaleplaya08: how do do not walk on the grass signs get there if u cannot walk on the grass??
riverdaleplaya08: and why are circle pizzas served in square boxes
riverdaleplaya08: and if ur borne ear-less and ur sorta blind.. can u wear glasses?
Wastedinthesoup: yes
Wastedinthesoup: because it's easier to carry a box instead of a  circle
Wastedinthesoup: && U stand on the sidewalk to put the no walking on grass signs up
riverdaleplaya08: u have questions for my answers
riverdaleplaya08: i think ima blurt all them out to u
Wastedinthesoup: lol
riverdaleplaya08: because ur like... geniousX10
Wastedinthesoup: lol not really
Wastedinthesoup: i'm just a smart ass
riverdaleplaya08: hehe
riverdaleplaya08: do stairs go up or down?
Wastedinthesoup: up
Wastedinthesoup: cause you can't start at the top of them when building
riverdaleplaya08: if the sky is the "limit"....
riverdaleplaya08: what about outer space?
Wastedinthesoup: it's unlimited'
riverdaleplaya08: can your earwax be lit on fire like a candle?
Wastedinthesoup: probably
riverdaleplaya08: if u ding a pot on ur head, does the person next to u hear it or only you?
riverdaleplaya08: why are french fries no longer vegetables even though they are just potatoes cut up and friend?
Wastedinthesoup: they hear it and they really are, someone just lied to you
riverdaleplaya08: oooh...
riverdaleplaya08: arent the good things that come to those who wait just leftovers from people faster or more greedy than them who get there first?
Wastedinthesoup: no, not really
riverdaleplaya08: i was called cute as a button by my grandmother today... are buttons all that cute?? :-\
Wastedinthesoup: yes they are
Wastedinthesoup: the cute ones
riverdaleplaya08: why was yankee doodles hat named macaroni
Wastedinthesoup: cause beef stew would just sound silly
riverdaleplaya08: who thought of squeezing the dangly things under a cow to get milk?
Wastedinthesoup: mr. cow
riverdaleplaya08: who was the genious who thought of eating the things that came out of chickens butts but not ours?
riverdaleplaya08: LOL!!!!
Wastedinthesoup: a person on chicken island
riverdaleplaya08: whoa...


Wastedinthesoup: haha...hit me up wit dat email craka
doovhies: Bitch! What u playin at?
Wastedinthesoup: shooo yoo kno
Wastedinthesoup: don't make me take my earrings out
doovhies: mmhhhmm, u betta take dem out befo i go latina on yo white bitch ass self
Wastedinthesoup: shoooo no he didn't...don't make me break a nail on you
doovhies: Slut! I'ma bite yo nose off!!!
doovhies: Your burning nose
Wastedinthesoup: shooooooo do me a fava' then...
doovhies: lmao
doovhies: That one got me
Wastedinthesoup: haha you nearly had me there
Wastedinthesoup: I feel gross.
Wastedinthesoup: All that incorrect grammar
doovhies: Yeah, You should take a shower and wash the stupid off of you.

Wastedinthesoup: lol yeah...it's alot better saying it in person than on the internet...you get the feeling of it
Wastedinthesoup: haha
doovhies: Isn't everything like that Sarah
doovhies: Hah
Wastedinthesoup: Yeah.
Wastedinthesoup: LIke that type battle we just had would have been more fun in person
doovhies: lol, We could have acted it out...
Wastedinthesoup: and taped it...
Wastedinthesoup: we could have even made Jerry Springer
Wastedinthesoup: except you'd have to be my cousin/uncle/father/boyfriend
doovhies: Who says I'm not?
Wastedinthesoup: true..
Wastedinthesoup: now we need a DNA test to see if your the babies daddy
Wastedinthesoup: for my twin black children
doovhies: I aint got no bagies
doovhies: I aint got no babies niether
Wastedinthesoup: shooo they yours they yours
Wastedinthesoup: they got yo nose
Wastedinthesoup: and they got two eyes, juss like yoo
doovhies: Nah, dey got yo nose cuz I fed it to dem
Wastedinthesoup: ooo what bout skank ho barbie, you been seein her when you been sayin you workin'...i ani't a foo...i don't believe that mess
doovhies: I'd rather be with skank ho barbie then fettucine alfredo barbie!!!
Wastedinthesoup: scuse me, juss cause he is a dragqueen on weekends at Ocharley's don't mean you need to be talkin bout him, he brings in mo' money than yo broke azzzz
doovhies: yea, well.....I'm gonna eat yo driveway
Wastedinthesoup: go ahead, it'd be doin me a fava
doovhies: lol, we are straaaange

haha so yeah...very inetersing

I don't want the world to see me 'cause I don't think that they'd understand&hearts;

November 23 2005
I went to applebee's today with my girls.
We had fun...pretty much spent 20/30minutes in
Dillard's bathroom, and got kicked out of
American Eagle...but hey it was awesomely amazing.
I love those girls to the highest extent!

Then I came home,
went to my aunts, babysat for 2.5 hours.
Then hung out with my family who critisize
every single word you say,
and everything about you.
Not to bad this time.
My Aunt is down,
She's more like a cousin it feels.
[She's 20] && She's pretty cool.

I'm not feeling too great, but
I am probably going on a trip this weekend,
to Myrtal beach [yesssss]
I feel like i'm planning over stuff,
but i can't remember.
I hate the feeling of "I think I forgot something".

Do you ever feel like you just wish somebody
would call, so you could simply just rant a little,
or talk about something sophisticated, or atleast
a little meaningful. Oiy, I rant on this bugger
pretty much all the time, non meaningful of course,
and it doesn't really give me feedback,
but yah know. See, I love hanging out with
my girls...they're wicked cool.
I just have this weird connection that
I hang out with my boys more.
Don't get me wrong,
The 6 or so girls I actually hang out with,
are amazingly cool...but I just get this
comfort from my guy friends,
I'm less confrontational with girls,
and I get along with guys better.
Sometimes I just feel like nobody cares.
I mean, my family has no feeling tward anything.
It's nice to hear encouraging words once in a while.
Take for instance this:
So my sister made honor roll.
They gave he 100fucking dollars.
WTF??? I've made honor roll
every year since the 1st grade.
It's not jealousy, it's just like,
what am I, chopped Liver?
I mean, they don't focus on me,
simply because i'm not a problem child.
They have no clue what I've gone through.
My problems. My friends.
They see me as the good kid,
who's every single mistake is critisized extensively.
It sucks.
I just want to feel,
wanted i guess.
Maybe that's why I date losers.
hah. Gotta stop that.
I don't know if it's cause I'm sick,
or just thinking that I feel like this,
but there it is..
ahhh well, i'll shuttup.

[This is Melly Melt...she's pretty cool]
Tomorrow's Turkey Day.
Don't eat to much.<3

Where'd all the good people go? &hearts;

November 22 2005
Anybody got any plans?
call me or something if you want to make some!

what can I say...

What happened today?
5th-Sang in front of
the whole flippin class,
let me just say,
I was shaking like a leaf.

So..i had a day of test and singing,
blehhh...I"m enjoying my break as of yet...

I love rock&&Roll, put another dime in the jukebox baby...

November 21 2005
Aye me.
Today was quite interesting.
here's the school day:

1st: Labs
2nd:Sub, we just did vocab.
3rd:Christmas music,
We're singing winter wonderland
right now, It kind of sucks.
4th: We got our test back,

there's a story behind this pic,
but I don't feel like typing it again.

Nick hit my ear and made me bleed.
haha. It was humorous,
then this girl like sat on him.
Now that was
humorous to the extreme.
5th:Mrs. O'steen was
out of the class
the whole time.
We just sat in there,
talked on the  phones,
and just chilled.
6th:Nothing really.

So that was highly boring.
but then I went to starbucks
with my Teresa!
It  was so friggin funny.
I love that kiddo.

other than that nothin really.
I saw harry Potter.
that leaves Rent && Just Friends
open for you all.
Wednesday is totally packed.
Thursday:Turkey Day.
If you wanna hang out,
call me or something.

[615] 513-5685
{my cellular}

I love these girls.

can you give yourself lipo
with a vacuum cleaner?

Maybe the absence of signs is a sign

November 20 2005
a fortunate accident. [Serendipity]♥

Me mum bought me
The Phantom of the Opera,
House of Wax, && Frank Sinatra's greatest hits.
All are simply exquiset.
I am singing in front of 30 some odd people tomorrow.
I'll probably pass out.
ahh well.
I'm no in love with the movie [Serendipity]
It's such a great movie.
Very interesting for the wandering mind.

I want to be a cosmotologist.
or a stylist for the stars.
[movie stars that is]
Aye me...if you need a stylist,
hire me..haha.

I can read...really.
haha I  love reflecting on the past,
just the good things.
aye me...wanna se wayyyyyy back in June...

o well...
I guess i'm gonna go.
I need something to do
this coming weekend,
anyone wanna make plans?
i need to see

-Harry Potter
-Just friends

so yeah, make plans make plans:-)

L-is for the way you look at me. O-is for the only one I see V-is very very, extra ordinary, E-is even more than anyone that you adore&hearts;

November 18 2005
Let's listen to some groovy tunes.
Talk all afternoon.
Make up stupid songs,
all day long.

haha i love how random my rhymns is [lmao]
Man I get to hang out with some groovy kids.
This week has been filled with awesome people.
Guess who has nothing to do tomorrowwwww...
Or sundayyyy..lol

If only Mrs. Gregory could see me posture.
hahaha...aye me, I am a choir nerd.
[&& Proud]