Procrastinating

December 04 2005

01. Sleep with or without clothes on? Depends on what mood I'm in.


02. Prefer black or blue pens? Black
03. Dress up on Halloween? Yes
04. Like to travel? Yes, but I don't get to do it often
05. Like someone? I always have a thing for someone.
06. Do they know? I dont think so, but I want them to.
07. Who sleeps with you every night?My pillow and my kitty cat.
08. Think you're attractive? Yea, sometimes. But I'm not conceited.
09. Want to get married? Meh, I'm not sure. Maybe not married, but committed?? I dunno. Yes, married. Hah.
10. To? Whoever I fall in love with...?
11. Are you a good student? I am when I want to be. I have a 3.8555 or whatever. But, lately its dying, because I've become so lazy and I don't do any work. Meh...
12. Are you currently happy?  I'm always content
13. Have you ever cheated on someone? Never


14. Birthplace? Murfreesboro
15. Christmas or Halloween? Christmas.
16. Colored or black-and-white photos? Black and White.
17. Do long distance relationships work? I wish...
18. Do you believe in astrology? Not at all.
19. Do you believe in love at first sight? Nope.


20. Favorite CD? BAH.  I love music way to much to have only one favorite.
21. Do you consider yourself the life of the party? Occaisionally
22. Do you drink? Yes
23. Do you make fun of people? *sigh* I do, and I'm working on quitting.
24. Do you think dreams eventually come true? Dreams while you sleep; no. Dreams as in personal goals; if you make it.
25. Favorite fictional character? Sally no no.
26. Go to the movies or rent? Go.
27. Have you ever moved in your entire life? I've moved homes many times, but I've never left M'boro.


28. Have you ever stolen anything? Nope.
29. How's the weather right now? Cold. Very cold.
30. Hug or kiss? Kiss.
31. Last person you talked to on the phone? Maegan


32. Last person who told you they love you? My mother.
33. Loud or Soft Music? Depends on my mood.
34. McDonalds or Burger King? Burger King. I am anti-McDonalds
35. Night or day? Night.
36. Number of Pillows? Three.
37. Piano or guitar? Piano.
38. Future job? Who the hell knows. Something in business? Something in fashion? bleh, I have no idea yet.
39. Current job? EEEERRRRRR!!!!
40. Current love? Egg nog.
41. Current longing? A lover.
42. Current disappointment? Lonliness and Procrastination.


43. Current annoyance? People who talk too much and judge too much and are stupidddddd.
44. Last thing you ate? A peppermint.
45. Last thing you bought? A pair of argyle socks.
46. Most recent thing you are looking forward to? CHRISTMAS BREAK!!!
47. What are you wearing right now? Pajama pants and a white t-shirt.
48. Plans for this weekend? The weekend is over, and next weekend = schoolwork and the play
49. What did you do today? Ate lunch with my father and step-family. Drove to all of my Dad's old homes and was nostalgic. Ate queso with Marie. Went to the mall and starbucks
50. Pick a song lyric:


I don't mind the weather, I've got scarves and caps and sweaters...

Whoa

December 04 2005

I've been so busy lately. With schoolwork (that I'm falling incredibly behind on) and with the play, Which opens Friday!!!! Oh my, that's insane. But yeah, my stress level is only going to get worse. I need a break. Already, *sigh*


My grades are plummiting down, and my stress level is sky rocketing...


I want high school to be over.

Prepare for it...

November 30 2005

Hm.....


January = My Birthday


My Birthday = Dance Party....????


We'll see, and we'll hope...its in the works....

A lesson before dying because you procrastinated...

November 30 2005

So yea, pretty sure I have to read 194 pages in "A Lesson Before Dying"....tonight


And...


...watch America's Next Top Model. Hey, at least my priorites are in order. heh.




And on a side note, my computer is being extra screwed up right now, so I'll be on my moms computer mostly, on my old screen name, which is punknoodle68

Make believe is much to fun...

November 28 2005

So today some girl said to me "I'm the weirdest person in the world" and I sat there...thought...and replied"No you're not". Did she really think that she was the weirdest person in the world. I mean come on, she must do some freaky shit to gain that title.




As you can tell from above, today was one of those random days. It was good though. I couldn't sleep and stayed up until 2:45 tossing and turning, literally. Then I woke up at six. And guess what...I went running. Yeah, running, me, asthma kid. and I didn't have to stop once to catch a breath or stop a side cramp. And I ran a whole mile in five minutes and fifty six seconds. Hell yes. I physically felt really good the rest of the day. I felt refreshed. and I brought oatmeal to school in my Sylvester the cat coffee cup. It looked like goop, but I love it. So its those simple pleasures that make life good.




"Its a Charlie Brown Christmas" is coming up. I'm excited. We have one more regular rehearsal until we start dress rehearsals. I can't wait to dress as Snoopy, haha. I am expecting everyone to come and see me. And not mock my creepy laugh.







^^Merry Christmas to me....Yeah, its a Dell XPS M170. Haha, I sound like I know what I'm talking about. I dont. I just know that I'm pretty sure this is my main Christmas present. No more shitty computer!!! Yeah, and its a laptop, and its amazing.




I also sent my mom a wishlist off of UrbanOutfitters.com. Gah, I cannot wait until Christmas...




"I shall never grow up, make believe is much to fun. This place is so lovely, it kind of makes me very happy. Lets go far away to the humming meadow."

I am so bored, and I don't want to go to school tomorrow...

November 27 2005

So yea, its one of those long survey things that no one will read that I'm doing out of boredom...

{side note} I feel like theres a drought on my "love life". I mean really. Its been a year. And with the holidays coming up...it looks likes it might just be me, christmas, and coffee.





1) Last thing you burned while attempting to cook?
An omlet.

2) Describe yourself in 3 words?
Laffy, Rambunctious, and Unique.

3) How long does it take you to get ready for your day?
An hour and fifteen minutes.

4) Favorite place to blow $50?
Urban Outfitters.

5) How many people have you thought were "the one"?
Zero.

6) What is something that turns you off from the opposite sex?
Being extremely annoying.





7) What kind of car do you drive?
99 Honda Accord.





8) What's in your CD player right now?
Rilo Kiley, Coldplay, Missy Elliot, Eisley, and A Rap mix.

9) What celebrity would you have coffee with?
Natalie Portman/Uma Thurman.





10) What celebrity would you NOT have coffee with?
Toby Keith.

11) What kind of toothpaste do you use?
Crest Sensations Vanilla Mint.

12) What time do you go to bed?
Around 12 on school nights, hah.





13) Last movie you saw?
"Yours, Mine, and Ours" hahahaha.

14) Last TV show you watched?
Survivor





15) Who is your best friend?
My Girls know who they are...





16) Who in your family do you best get along with?
My Brother...

17) Who do you lust after?
Touching... ;)

18]) What time is it?
11:42 p.m.

19) Are you planning a vacation/travel?
I'm going to Hawaii with Drama during Spring Break.

20) When/Where was the last time you traveled?
Summer '04.

21) How many times have you been in love?
Zero.

22) How old will you be in 10 years?
26

23) Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
Somewhere that I'm myself and happy.

24) Sinful snacking weakness?
Gah...just about everything. But currently...Danish Wedding Cookies.

25) Rollercoasters?
Hell Yeah!

26) Ever run out of gas?
Not yet...But i'm the kind of person who will go for days with the empty light on...

27) Ever been on a train?
Nope.

28) Ever been on a blind date?
Nope.

29) Ever been to Europe?
Nope.

30) What would you do if you could be the opposite sex for one day?
Cook...just like a woman should...BAHAHAHA [kidding]. I would sit around and talk with my "girlfriends" about sexxx.

31) Would you tell anyone it was you?
I would brag....???

32) Ever been arrested?
No.
33) Have a crush on anyone you work with?
Hah, not where I worked.

34) What is something you believe in?
The power of music.





35) What is something you fear?
Death.

36) Big or small?
Whoa now...do you know who you're talking to?





37) What is the worst pain you have ever experienced?
I had surgery this summer, and when I woke up from it....talk about paaaaiiiin.

38) What is your favorite television show?
Big Brother.

39) Ever photoshopped yourself to look better in a picture?
If I knew how...I would.

40) Tell us something about your childhood.
I got stuck in a tree...literally.

41) What would it cost for you to flash the person next to you?
A drink.

42) Best time to catch you in a good mood?
You can't plan it...I'm a headcase.

43) If you could be anything for one day, what would it be?
A bird.





44) Most prized possesion(s)?
Freedom!!! Bahahaha

45) Would you ever sell it/how much?
Suck it!

46) What is one of your pet peeves?
When people are wrong, and won't admit it.

47) Favorite kind of ice cream?
Starbuck's Coffee Almond Fudge.

48) Coolest thing that happened today?
Ashley Marshall had a cabage patch doll that moved its mouth.

56) What do you usually order from starbucks?
Yay!!! Grande Chi Egg Nog Latte.... :)





57) What is/was your biggest mistake?
Being an immature kid and aiding in the decline of My dad and I's relationship.

58) Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
Looooooooooooooong time ago.  Like I said, immature kid.

59) Say something totally random about you:
I like to dance...a lot.

60) Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
Not that I can recall.

61) Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
No, they put me in a creepy mood.

62) Did you have braces?
No, but I am being told I need to. Pssh.





63) Are you comfortable with your height?
Very much so.





64) What is the most romantic thing done by someone of the opposite sex?
Bahahaha. If only you knew my past with women.

65) When do you know it's love?
When you know who you are completely, and they are part of it.

66. Do you speak other languages?
Espanol!!





67) Have you ever been to a tanning salon?
No, but part of me wants to try it out.





68) What magazines do you read?
GQ

69) Have you ever ridden in a limo?
Yeah, for my 16th Birthday.

70) Has anyone you were really close with passed away?
Yes, my grandfather.

71)Have you ever watched MTV?
Um....yeah.

72) What's something that really annoys you?
Fights with my mother.

73) What's something you really like?
Touching. ;)

74) Do you like michael jackson?
No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No.

75) Can you dance?
Aha! Yes I can.

76) What's the latest you've ever stayed up?
I've gone well over 24 hours with no sleep.

77) Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die?
I think about that a lot, you never know.

78) Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?
No.

79) Do you actually read these when other people fill them out?
Honestly...not at all. Unless I like them

80) Who did you take this from?
Lexie.

81) Whats your full name?
Nicholas Ray Hawkins.





82) If you had to pick another city to live in... but it was in the same state what city would you choose?
Cool Springs? Is that a city?

83) Favortie place in the world?
What kind of question is that?

84) Best feeling you ever had?
Hahaha...I will not be vulgar or obscene.





85) Life goal or dream?
Find acceptance with myself.

Kill me now please...

November 27 2005


Oh my spiritual figure!!! Tegan and Sara are coming to the Exit In in Nashville...Tuesday...aslkjfsdiut;iolusadrtu!!!!!


That sucks, because its a school night, and I have drama practice from 3:30 til 6:00. BLAH!!!


So there is no way my mom will let me go. It doesn't start until 8, and there are other people playing, so it would be over until laaaaaaaate.


They are one of my top five favorite bands of all time. And i'm going to miss their show. I saw them at Dancing in the District. I was Front and Center. And this time, I wont be there at all...  :(


Someone...comfort...me....

There's no better time than right now...

November 26 2005

So Friday was bleh. I didn't get to hang out with Sarah Gearhart...So that sucked. I ended up going around town with Maegan to stores and such...




^^ It looks like that pole is stuck up the [manakin's] butt...


The only thing I bought was the new DDR game for Xbox...




Today, I listened to my iPod...



Then, I called Marylane...



And we ate at O'Charley's. It was good. Then we attempted to hang out with Maegan and John. But plans didn't go through. And everyone else was busy or not home. Soooo. Marylane and I  sat at my house...BORED LIKE NO TOMORROW!! But, I enjoyed it, because I missed her and its nice to be around her...We played perfection and guess who. We ended up just going back to hastings later on...where I saw Sean Donnovan. He is my all time favorite person ever. I miss hanging out with him and everyone else [Molly, Amanda, James] Hanging out with those people...I felt like I could be myself and have no worries. Just thinking about what we used to do brings back a rush of emotions that came along with it. A part of my life will forever be dedicated to the four of you...hahaha. But seriously. Completely amazing times. We should hang out again, and I mean it, and I will actually call some of you...hah...Yeah. Speaking of the past, I'm found my anti-Bush shirt...



So yea, I hate my yearbook picture...a whole lot...like seriously... {Claire, hahaha}...



So yeah...I used to have long hair...





...and I'm so glad its gone...





"Can we get together? I really, I really wanna be with you. Can you work it out with me? I hope you, I hope you feel the same way too. Do you believe that we can change the future? Its just an illusion, I don't care. Do you believe I can make you feel better? There's too much confusion, come on over here."

M.I.A

November 26 2005


Yes...M.I.A...Everyone go listen...now...

*yawn*

November 25 2005

Nicholas is tired...So he's going to go get some sleep before his school schedule is completely lost like it usually is during breaks...


He's off to dream...about certain { people }, places, and things...


And cuddle with his pillow and pretend that it's a warm body keeping him company...

!Thanksgiving Happy

November 24 2005


Yes....Happy Thanksgiving Everyone...


My day was good, then a little bad, and then good again....


My mom was on edge all day. Anyways, I went to my dads house around 1...



^ My stepsisters..



^Stepsisters with my cousin...


I haven't seen my dad, stepmom, or stepsisters lately. Actually, any of my dads side of the family. So it was nice to see them again, and have no confrontations about anything. I enjoyed it. A bunch of relatives from Florida came down, and my dads cousin from Michigan and her boyfriend. it was kinda the first time meeting her. I really liked her and her boyfriend. They were northern, businiess oriented,  and they were moving to San Francisco. They were fun. So we all ate, and then played DDR...Hah...



My brother playing DDR was downright hilarious...


The highlight of the day,was getting to see my nephew!





And my brother....



And his wife, who had to leave early to be a nurse...


Then I lost track of time and I was supposed to be at my stepdads house at 5, and it was 5. And I was at my dads house, and I still had to go back to my moms to pick up some pies and potatoes. So I was 45 mintues late, and they were already done eating, and My mom was crazy pissed off, and I was really upset because I felt bad...But then I just ate some more,



And my mother and I got along...


So this Thanksgiving was completely different. It was the first one with my "stepfamily" It just didn't feel the same like it used to, but I guess nothing does anymore. And i'm sure everyone cares about my family doings, hah....


Well I have no plans for tomorrow. Except put up the Christmas tree in the morning. So call me...anyone...please...



I hope everyone had a very gangsta Thanksgiving....

"If u like someone, den go out wit dem...stoopid"

November 23 2005

And that my friends, is the quote of the night....lmao



I was supposed to pick up Marie around 2:30, but I was a tad bit late, So I picked her up at 4:00, heh.  We went browsing. At Sugarees, I had a very good conversation with the lady who I think owns it. About how safe sex should be taught in schools instead of abstinence. and how her store used to carry car fresheners and the scent was gay. lol, how that's a scent, i'm not sure I want to know...



Anastasia's is now Anastasia's and Seans. Too bad the guys clothes aren't that good. Then to hastings. Now that was fun. We sat and laughed at books. mostly books on dating from the christian section.


I saw "Rent" With Marie, Andrea, Jesse, Jeff, Britney, Lindsey, and Christina. At first I was annoyed and hated it. But now I like it, It grew on me, and I kinda want to see it again without being so cynical at the start, heh. "Merry Christmas Bitches!!!!!!!!" my favorite line of the movie. So...in the previews, I saw a girl who looked just like Alanis Morisette, and I was excited to see her in the movie. Turns out that it was a transvestite. lmao, Wow, definately not Alanis Morisette...



So there were some cool people at the movie theatre tonight, I didn't get to talk to all of them, [haha, isn't that right Andrea] And i kept dropping everything. I"m becoming more clumsy by the second. I completely destroyed Andrea's chapstick when I went to get some.  I swear it just flew out of the stick and disappeared into the black hole...



Yeah, then a pretty heavy talk with Marie. I realized that I am who I am, and its best for me to come to terms with that and if I have to make some changes, then I need to. But as of now, i am very happy. especially because of recent events, things are looking up.... finally, hah.



So Marie and I took these pictures like a week ago, its when we decided that we weren't photogenic. I always look like a big stupid....Hah.













Meh, we are crazy kids....

I'm just a coin-operated boy, sitting on the shelf, I am just a toy...

November 22 2005

I've decided to make a landmark decision in school....start a tribal dancing club. Once a week, at night, we'll meet in a field dressed in loin cloths. We'll play bongos, dance in blood, and scream and chant songs in tribal languages. Its cultural, come on... okay, I just like making tribal noises...*shrugs*




So this girl in my geometry class, Janelle, is completely insane. The other day she sat on me and molested me. Big time. Rubbing her ass all  over me. She even licked my hands. She was trying to "eat my armpit hair" so she says, lmao. Like, does she smoke before every class or something? Who does that?!?! But yeah, then she kissed me on the face, and tried to do it some more. Phew. I tried to get Sarah Gearheart to save me, but she merely laughed. And the other day I watched her take out her weave. Its entertaining.  It ain't yo momma's geometry class...




Nine more days until my glasses are gone. For good this time. I am getting contacts. Yes. I am sooo excited. They will be so much easier. But...I will miss it. I'll look better though, heh, maybe?




Don't worry, when I go to Northwestern College in Chicago. I'll be sure to come back and visit my peeps...




So i'm pretty convinced that a black hole exists in the universe. Seriously. I lose things all the friggin time. And I can never find it. And really, things just cant comepletely disappear. There is no other explanation.




Today was sooo easy...We had a spanish fiesta in first. It was really just a big breakfast thing. I brought a skillet. And eggs. And yes, I made scrambled eggs in class, on the spot, and the were amazing. Yessss. Then I just talked through second and went to do the SACS thing for the rest of the day. Which no joke, consisted of my and Chloe, Sonia, Jimmy, and Kelvin, sitting in an empty conference room from 12 to 3, doing absolutely nothing. We played cards. We helped the committee members in no way because they did nothing. So yea, it was good to get out of class, but I was bored out of my mind.




And I had the bright idea to go bowling tonight, but when I got home after practice I just wasn't in the mood. And I heard that Maegan and Anna were skating. So Andrea and I decided to go with them. Well when we got there, there was a total of like eight cars there, and through the windows we only saw little kids. Like tiny kids. So we finally swallowed our egos and went up there. And they said it was "Flashlight Night" where the turn off the lights and you skate with flashlights, and they wouldn't let us in without a flashlight, so we ran away. We wasted the night away basically. We went to the Underground. Man did that bring back memories. I remember spending day after day after day there. Thats where I met sooo many of my friends and where I made lasting bonds with people. And now its like non-existent. It was nice to go there again. Then we had trouble meeting up with Maegan and Anna, we went to espresso joes (where they were) but at the same time, they went to the underground (where we were) so we basically jsut switched, But espresso joes was closed, hah. So we went to starbucks (who would have guessed?!?!) [and I saw Lexie there, haha, happy?]then to Hastings, where we saw Casey, I love that girl soo much!!!! Damn, I want your number, we will hang out. You don't read phusebox...so yea...




Hopefully this break will become more eventful....







All is fair in love and war and love...

November 21 2005

My phusebox never says I'm online. I am always online, lol. Seriously. IM me...its doovhies. Anyone...hah...



asldkjsldkjs.... i love my iPod...





Pretty sure that effing huge for a mini, heh....



Bleh, it sucks when you like people,....but they have no idea. I don't have enough confidence to confront people about it. So it stays where its at...which is merely a silly crush...*sighs*...Maybe one of these days....





^^Yeah, speaking about love thangs, I've been confused about my sexuality lately...I'm attracted to a deer...And I dont know what to do?!!?!? Haha. Yeah, That deer and I have a special connection. No, in reality i hate hunting. But, i'm too much of a hypocrite to become a vegetarian. I really wish I could, but I lack will power. But I do lash out about it often, especially hunting for sport...BLEH!!!





^^ Look!!! Thats me on her shirt!!! Heh. Yea, I'm snoopy in our school play. Double cast, but whatever, lol. So everyone that I know better come out and see me. I'll post dates later. And makes dates later, *nudge nudge wink wink* Um...no...

I've got no idea where my head is at, but if my heart says "I'm Sorry" can we leave it at that?

November 20 2005

I love those lyrics...




So I cleaned my room today, without the help of Lareisa, hah. Then we put up christmas wreaths, oh boy did that get me in the spirirt. I freaking love christmas. I may not be very religious, but christmas is still absolutely amazing...Gah!!! I am sooo excited.




I went to hastings and bought a christmas cd. A fantastic christmas cd. Oh yea, And I listened to it all day long, and I can't stop smiling when I listen to it. And I went to starbucks and it was all christmas-ized. I saw my history teacher from last year, Coach Shelton, he's great. I think the people at Starbucks are starting to remember my face because one of them recognized me and had a conversation with me. Yes...recognition for when I'm 18 and apply there....




I also bought the new Madonna cd, yea I said Madonna. And guess what? I like it...a lot.







Mr. Bowman!!!! Ahh!!! lol, He is my favorite teacher of all time...







*groans* *moans* *sighs* I...love...Rilo Kiley...




Two days of school until the break. I cannot wait...Gah!!! I want to hang out with people that I never get to this week. *cough sarah  cough* And all of my other newly aquainted friends and my regular ones...




I love phusebox. It really is this little community. Especially since most people on it are from M'boro. Its amazing. I've met so many new people who live near me that I might of never met. And I have grown closer to others. Its nifty...




So yea, what's with those can/tub things of chapstick. They freaking suck. You have to get your finger sticky, and you dont get as much as the stick. The stick of chapstick is the only way to go. I mean, its called chapstick for a reason....




Please, everyone who has HBO, watch the movie "Yesterday" It comes on monday, november 28th. It looks completely amazing. Like maybe one of the best movies ever. Watch it!!!






Yes. I love this picture. It was normal, but then I screwed it up on my computer on accident, and I looked at it downstairs on another computer, and this is what happened to it. It could be like...modern art, lol. I printed it off as a flyer, and had to take a picture of the flyer to get it on here. If I knew how, I'm blow it up, and put it in an art show. lol. I'm obsessed.

You

November 19 2005

Friday was soo tiring. I stayed up until 1:30 doing a project on Thursday night.  I've been like that a lot lately. They say you need eight hours of sleep everynight. So before this morning, I should have had 48 hours of sleep for six nights. Instead, I was living off of 30 hours. Thats 18 hours that I lost. I was so tired I couldn't function friday. But I made up for it by Bawls. I love that stuff. So Friday was a big mess where we didn't do much work. We tye dyed [sp] T-shirts in chemistry...









Marie didn't use gloves... But unfortunately I left mine and Katie's shirt in the drama room and I wont get it til monday to wash it. I hope it doesn't ruin, heh. Then I had practice. And then I went out to eat with Heather, Andrea, and Chris. It was the first time I hung out with Chris. Heather usually keeps him underwraps. He's a nice guy, and I'm glad he and Heather are doing so well in their relationship. It was so weird to see Heather again though, its been almost forever. Which makes me sad because we used to be soooo close, and then she got a job and a boyfriend...I guess I'd understand if I had someone.   :(





Then we saw Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire at 10:15. I have two completely different opinions of it. One part of me thinks it was compeltely amazing. ITs the best of the movies so far. The effects were spectacular, and it was very close to how I saw it. Everyone gave such a great performance and I was awstruck through most of it. Everyone should see it. I'll end up seeing it at least two more times. Wow, its so good. BUT, I was soo disappointed. They switched around TONS of things and details that made the book so good. And it seemed like the whole movie was a race to get the movie over with in a reasonable amount of time. It was just thing after thing and it never had time to slow down. They had no time to show Harry, Ron, and Hermoine just sitting around, having a good time, gossiping about teachers. Those parts are what makes it interesting and emotional. Oh well,  I still loved it, it just could have been better. But they did my favorite book of the series justice...





I didn't get home until 1:15, So I was exhausted, I slept until 1:45 this afternoon. Then I lounged around the house, home alone, singing loudly in the shower and throughout my house.





I wore my sweater vest today...







And I made up with Maegan. It feels soo nice. I hated the awkwardness and us just passing each other in the hallway without a word, and us going on with our lives not hanging out and hearing about her having fun and me not being there to have fun with her, Its just a big relief to be around her again. I hope the feeling is mutual.





Ate at Don Pablos with her, Then Carla and I went to see Rocky Horror at MTSU. My second time. This time we bought the audience participation packets, we missed just about every one of them, except for the bell and the newpaper. It was sooo different this time though because the first one I went to was a small show before it opened to the public, and at this one tons of people were there and people kept screaming out little sayings and such. It was entertaining. Brad's mic didn't work though, it was sad. I love that show though. I'm going to buy the movie and the soundtrack.





Then Marie and I went to starbucks and determined that we suck at life...lol...





My lips are chapped due to bad weather...









My mom was being oh so trendy...lol...





Two more days of easy school left. We wont do much, and we get a breakfast party in spanish. wooo!!





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"I want so badly to believe that there is truth that love is real..."



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*sigh* I'm a lonesome soul....

So my day centered around tape...

November 17 2005

Today was strangely good. Except for me having to skip lunch to get some homework done. Meh, I guess thats why they call it homework.


So I'm an escorts for the SACS (Southern Association of County Schools) committee on Tuesday from 11:30 til 3:00. I feel kinda honored in a way that Mrs. Nichols thinks I'm a good representative of the school. I'm a bit nervous though. I just don't know a lot of specific facts about our school. At least I'm an afternoon shift so all of the big questions are out of the way. But its supposedly a big deal, some teachers are freaking out. The funny thing is that since its the last day until Thanksgiving break, almost all of my teachers are either having a party or watching a movie. A great impression.


So I tend to talk a lot. And Today I kinda got in "trouble" if you call it that in drama class, but Salty was just playing around. First I lost my chair for talking and had to sit on the floor. And then I almost lost breathing priveleges, and then He had to duct tape my mouth, and I was a smartass and took it off with my tongue, so Salty duct taped it more...



Its the first time I was duct taped and couldn't get out of it. I couldn't talk though. But it sucked because it ripped out my hair and almost pulled off my ear when I took it off



It was most definately a highlight of my day. Lol! Andrea's pictures crack me up.


Mmhhmm, then english sucked ass. And in Chemistry, we pretty much did nothing but mess around and tape bags to the floor.





Carla is one of the best people that I know. She is freaking hilarious, and almost always has a positive attitude. She has been through so much, and out of all  of my friends, she inspires me the most. I'm going to see The Rocky Horror Picture Show  for the second time on Saturday Night with her!!



I got distracted from taping garbage bags, so I taped up Katie's boobies. I am so  glad Katie and I are friends again. I love her sooooo much!!! Damn!!



Lmao, Sierra. I'm going to start actually talking to her. As of now I just give her semi-creepy looks from across the room.


So now its time to work on a project for English. I would rather eat smushy apples.


My drama practice was cancelled for Saturday day/afternoon. That means I'm open...


I"M SO EXCITED!!! Tomorrow I am going to see Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire!!! Holy crap. I can't wait. I cannot comprehend it. It starts at 10:15. I'm going to practice, then out to eat with Andrea and Heather, then I'm making a mandantory stop at Starbucks, and then to movies or whatever. YES.



Hey...wanna go makeout???

Morals Shmorals...

November 16 2005

I pre-ordered a Metric CD from Hastings today. I can't wait.




So...all I can say is wow. They cut Lisa. I thought she was crazy, but I loved her. Now the show will be somewhat bland. Jayla should have been eliminated. Mmhhmm, I like reality shows.




So I've been thinking lately. The general public keeps saying that our country is in a state of moral decline. That the morals of Americans are non-existent. Well frankly I'm sick of hearing that constantly. The lack of morals isn't whats making America decline, its our unstable foreign policies and our focus on morals. The public is so ignorant that they dont bother informing theirselves about government so they take a stance against something thats easy to point a finger at. All of this talk about morals and decency is just a bunch of assholes who think that what they believe is more important then what others think. They make up this big deal about morals. Let people do what they want to do. Who cares if sex is becoming mainstream. A sex drive is a natural instinct that we are born with. Modern day rules of society frown upon sexuality because our puritan ancestors viewed sex as the devils work instead of nature. Who cares if two women or two women want to marry. How does that affect rich white republicans and middle aged soccer moms? All of this goes straight to present day religious discrimination. Everyone thinks their religion is better than the next. Well this is freaking America. We have freedom of religion for a reason. Lets not enforce nation wide laws that are based on one group"s opinions. [ This part is kinda random, but I'm also sick of how people display majiuana as a horrible, terrible epidemic thats attacking innocent teenagers. After all of these people get done saying whatever about it, they go home and have some drinks and go out to the bars when their kids aren't around. Alcohol results in more deaths, more injuries, more addictions, and more long term health problems than weed. Dont mis-interpret me, I'm not a stoner, I just think alcohol is something that the government allows to be legal so the public doesn't feel restricted and they can have an outlet. And cigarettes. They're horrible. And yet, its completely legal. Big companies are making millions off of killing people. If they can legalize so many things that harm so many people, then can't they legalize the things that are better for you, in whatever twisted way its better.] And the politicions who are speaking of this moral decline, are not even taking a stance on other important issues...Moral decline isn't whats disrupting American society, its arrogant fools.




Hmm....

November 15 2005

Psychiatrist? That would be a fun job...


Detective? Now thats just too much Law & Order <3

Storms excite me...

November 15 2005

I got a haircut today. I never really like my hair after a haircut. It takes a week or so. But some good news is that they're bringing back the stuff I used to put in my hair. I'm happy.


Today was a good day. All of my classes were entertaining. Had a big spanish test today. It consisted of drawing a picture of a woman with a flower for a head and a banana for a body, I was thouroughly amused.



Mr. Bowman put a map in the corner of the room, and Marylane sits in front of it. It cracks me up when I look at her because she looks like a weather girl.  Mr. Bowman was crazy today. He kept talking about the students who left his class and paraded to something for spectrum. And when he was talking about Martin Van Buren, he said that he looked like he got electrocuted, and then his eyes got huge and he made a really weird noise and shook violently. The best laugh of the day.


I got my report card today. I broke my straight A streak. I made an 88 in History, which I deserved because I slacked off, and a 90 in English, which I dont care about, I hate that class, I never pay attention. But I do enjoy the people in it. Katie..."GIT CHUR LIIIIICNSE!!!!"  I spent english class eating fruit and pudding. Tomorrow I'm advancing to spaghetti. I also told a story about the band Blackalicious, and how they're a new kind of music that sounds like emo meets hip-hop, and they sound just like The Monty Monts. Lmao, I'm so glad I got moved beside Katie.


Harry Potter on Friday...