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May 23 2006

watched The Ringer today....i can't believe i would actually suggest it to all of you. it was pretty darn good! not heartless and cruel like i thought it would be.


nayways, main point of this entry..


Yeah, so i think Martin Luther is my new hero. i've been furiously studying for my History Final, and i came across Martin Luther again, the founder of Protestantism! he was sooooooo cool! he totally stayed true to what he knew was right, and was obedient to God, even though it meant being excommunicated from the church he had devoted most of his life to, plus other persecution. through studying the Bible, he realized that the current Catholic Church of the time had it all wrong, what with indulgences and such...see, many priests and other were trying to convice people that they could attain salvation by buying indulgences, which was of course completely wrong. Luther challenged this, and taught the idea of "justification by grace, through faith", which is what i believe....how cool...it's so neat to see how Satan has tried throughout history to squelch advances in the faith, and how God always intervenes. neato bandito. nayways, just some thoughts...it's not good deeds or ceremony that gets you into heaven, it's God grace alone, and your decision of whether or not to accept it. how cool is that? --much love to you all...by the way, i made a 69 on my Algebra II final...i'm smart. ha. ---Cari 

Funky Jungle-Mama

May 20 2006

to begin, a few lyrics:


I am not skilled to understand


What God has willed, what God has planned


I only know at His right hand


Stands one who is my Savior


My God, He loves, my God, He lives


My God is always there for me


My God, He was, my God, He is,


My God is always gonna be...



g-reat song. so. news? not much to speak of. graduation was kinda boring. not too sad, at least not for me. i find it sad that i get attached to new friends right at the end of the year. pretty sure i won't be hanging out with them over the summer. oh well. school is almost out baby! woot! can't wait. but i do need a job...OH! that reminds me, tonight i went to Hastings. WOW! they did a great job remodeling, and their new little coffee shop inside is great! i am officially replacing Starbucks! and is Cocomocha not the best word ever? so, have you ever just wondered if anyone in the entire world has ever had a crush on you? not dwelling, just a thought that crossed my mind earlier today...i guess i wouldn't mind an ego boost...ha.,but it could end up being an ego killer too....hardy har. nayways, i will leave you with one last question: What the heck kinda question is "Have you ever seen me without pants on?" ...(????????) i wouldn't wanna know the answer to that one...much love to all of you! ---Cari

4 hours of my life that i can never have back...

May 19 2006
so tonight was DBS voting. i guess i can't say much about it, but it was kinda annoying. people are mega-petty sometimes. i had to speak up about some folks, but i felt that what i said was valid. neeways, gradjiation is tomorrow, and i'm gonna be pretty sad to see some of my homies go. but i'm also gonna be a junior next year! woot! anyways, this whole not dwelling on guys thing has really been great for me. it's really cool how when you ask God to help you He always comes through! i can't believe that i don't like any guys right now...it's like someone flipped a switch. so yeah. cool. much love to allaya. ---Cari 

Mr. Negative-Negativity-Minus-Antarctica

May 18 2006

the above is one my father's many amazing quotes, such as "that almost gave me the shrivels" and "you're bruisin!" ---i love my dad.


nayways, first order of business:


does anyone have a TI-82 (maybe 83) calculator that they don't need anymore, and would like to sell me? i really need one for next year, but i can't afford $100...so, uh...lemme know.


next order of business: SCHOOL IS SO UNBELIEVEABLY CLOSE TO ENDING!!!!


no more algebra II, no more history....de-ang. i gots that summer fever...yearbooks came out yesterday...muy cute...ish. on another note, i love my friends. they are too much fun. nayways, random thoughts, just for you. i find it sad that i only get an average of 3 comments on a good day...i'm just gonna hafta be more interesting...much love to you all! ---Cari

you ain't as fresh as i'm is...

May 12 2006

yeah, i know i'm black. that's how i roll.



so....on a less retarded note, SCHOOL'S OUT FO SUMMA! (almost)...i think i'mma have to take my algebra dos final...which means i'm gonna have to kill myself. ha. nah. i'll be fine. but i'm gonna miss mrs. simmons next year...movin on to Mrs. "You- gotta-change-your-running-shoes-every-4-months" Carr....she's a hoot. nayways, it's really funny how much you can grow to just love someone to death, (in a non-romantic way) in a rather short amount of time. like, i really love being around this kid. but he worries me a lot. and makes me really sad a lot of the time, but not cause he's mean, but because he seems so sad....gahlee. cheer up emo kid...knit yourself a sweater and buck up. oh well. went back to the ol' alma mater (ha), McFadden...had to get a little choked up when i saw the loft in ms. conatser's room. i miss those days. wow. things really change quickly.


ok...so. rant of the day (i'm trying to refrain from these lately, but i just can't resist, and it's been on my mind like a mug lately):


PEOPLE WHO DON'T HAVE ANY ORIGINAL THOUGHTS OR OPINIONS ABOUT ANYTHING! drives me c-razy...geez...it really stirs my apples ( props to holly) when people grow up  and somehow decide that they are so much more enlightened because of what their professors or friends or whoever spoon feed them. GAHLEE! (i deal with this kind of crap @ school everyday) and then, because they're so "open-minded" and "tolerant" they decide that they should force their opinions on everyone else...granted, some tension in political matters is a good thing, because absolute unquestioned power on either side is not a good thing, but i think it's rather stupid to decide that everyone else who doesn't agree with you is wrong...especially when one is sooooooo open-minded...enlightenment is not forsaking everything you were raised on just because you were raised on it...and just because you grew up believing something doesn't mean it's wrong either....and ppl seem to think for some reason that it is. on the other hand, another thing that bothers me is fundamentalists that try to "convert" me...I AM A CHRISTIAN! a Bible believing, Jesus-worshiping, conservative Christian. i am not a harlot because i wear a little bit of mascara every once in a while, or because i cut my hair and don't always wear skirts. and Belle Aire Baptist is far from a "liberal" church. i am so done with all of this legalistic crap that i am fed on a daily basis. GOD DOES NOT CARE WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE ON THE OUTSIDE! granted, you should be modest, and you should act like a Christian and remember that you are a representative of Jesus Christ, but He does not care whether or not i wear a skirt. i am not going to Hell for wearing eyeliner. Man looks at the outside, but God looks at the heart. so many different Christians seem to miss the whole point, because they are so wrapped up in these man made laws regulations. i am for the 10 Commandments and such,  but you CANNOT take one scripture/ passage out of context and call it a rule. also, the whole speaking in tongues thing. (?) people trying to convince me that i'm not saved because i don't speak in tongues. what about this verse : "If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing...But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away..." --- 1 Corinthians 13:1-2, 8


i don't think that it's wrong, but i hardly think that it is the definitive mark of the Christian..."There are different kinds of gifts, but the same spirit. there are different kinds of service, but the same Lord. There are different kinds of working, but the same God works all of them in all men." ---I Cor. 12:4-6


also, these "Christians" who say to me things like, "AIDS is God's punishment for gay people, " or, "God hates fags..." or "that's what they get for being sinners" or anything along those lines...that is hardly a Christ-like attitude. now don't get me wrong, i DO NOT believe that homosexuality is acceptable, right, anything....or that certain other things are acceptable...but i believe that i deserve to get AIDS just as much as any gay person...and you certainly can't tell me that children and ppl who get it without from things other than sex/drugs deserve it for any reason...if we really want to talk about what we deserve, we (including myself) all deserve hell. it's only by God's grace that we are or can be forgiven and spared from that.and in case some of us have forgotten, Jesus didn't hang out with the Pharisees. He hung out with the tax collectors and the prostitutes, not because he was "low-class" or going for good PR...He came to heal the sick. anyways, just some thoughts. and i am by no means trying to come across all "holier-than-thou" or pretend that i am some amazing Christ-like example for everyone else. these are just some thoughts that have been nagging me lately. so. yeah. i still love you all, and i hope that you love me despite my many, many shortcomings. much love to all of you!---Cari

you ain't as fresh as i'm is...

May 12 2006

yeah, i know i'm black. that's how i roll.



so....on a less retarded note, SCHOOL'S OUT FO SUMMA! (almost)...i think i'mma have to take my algebra dos final...which means i'm gonna have to kill myself. ha. nah. i'll be fine. but i'm gonna miss mrs. simmons next year...movin on to Mrs. "You- gotta-change-your-running-shoes-every-4-months" Carr....she's a hoot. nayways, it's really funny how much you can grow to just love someone to death, (in a non-romantic way) in a rather short amount of time. like, i really love being around this kid. but he worries me a lot. and makes me really sad a lot of the time, but not cause he's mean, but because he seems so sad....gahlee. cheer up emo kid...knit yourself a sweater and buck up. oh well. went back to the ol' alma mater (ha), McFadden...had to get a little choked up when i saw the loft in ms. conatser's room. i miss those days. wow. things really change quickly.


ok...so. rant of the day (i'm trying to refrain from these lately, but i just can't resist, and it's been on my mind like a mug lately):


PEOPLE WHO DON'T HAVE ANY ORIGINAL THOUGHTS OR OPINIONS ABOUT ANYTHING! drives me c-razy...geez...it really stirs my apples ( props to holly) when people grow up  and somehow decide that they are so much more enlightened because of what their professors or friends or whoever spoon feed them. GAHLEE! (i deal with this kind of crap @ school everyday) and then, because they're so "open-minded" and "tolerant" they decide that they should force their opinions on everyone else...granted, some tension in political matters is a good thing, because absolute unquestioned power on either side is not a good thing, but i think it's rather stupid to decide that everyone else who doesn't agree with you is wrong...especially when one is sooooooo open-minded...enlightenment is not forsaking everything you were raised on just because you were raised on it...and just because you grew up believing something doesn't mean it's wrong either....and ppl seem to think for some reason that it is. on the other hand, another thing that bothers me is fundamentalists that try to "convert" me...I AM A CHRISTIAN! a Bible believing, Jesus-worshiping, conservative Christian. i am not a harlot because i wear a little bit of mascara every once in a while, or because i cut my hair and don't always wear skirts. and Belle Aire Baptist is far from a "liberal" church. i am so done with all of this legalistic crap that i am fed on a daily basis. GOD DOES NOT CARE WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE ON THE OUTSIDE! granted, you should be modest, and you should act like a Christian and remember that you are a representative of Jesus Christ, but He does not care whether or not i wear a skirt. i am not going to Hell for wearing eyeliner. Man looks at the outside, but God looks at the heart. so many different Christians seem to miss the whole point, because they are so wrapped up in these man made laws regulations. i am for the 10 Commandments and such,  but you CANNOT take one scripture/ passage out of context and call it a rule. also, the whole speaking in tongues thing. (?) people trying to convince me that i'm not saved because i don't speak in tongues. what about this verse : "If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing...But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away..." --- 1 Corinthians 13:1-2, 8


i don't think that it's wrong, but i hardly think that it is the definitive mark of the Christian..."There are different kinds of gifts, but the same spirit. there are different kinds of service, but the same Lord. There are different kinds of working, but the same God works all of them in all men." ---I Cor. 12:4-6


also, these "Christians" who say to me things like, "AIDS is God's punishment for gay people, " or, "God hates fags..." or "that's what they get for being sinners" or anything along those lines...that is hardly a Christ-like attitude. now don't get me wrong, i DO NOT believe that homosexuality is acceptable, right, anything....or that certain other things are acceptable...but i believe that i deserve to get AIDS just as much as any gay person...and you certainly can't tell me that children and ppl who get it without from things other than sex/drugs deserve it for any reason...if we really want to talk about what we deserve, we (including myself) all deserve hell. it's only by God's grace that we are or can be forgiven and spared from that.and in case some of us have forgotten, Jesus didn't hang out with the Pharisees. He hung out with the tax collectors and the prostitutes, not because he was "low-class" or going for good PR...He came to heal the sick. anyways, just some thoughts. and i am by no means trying to come across all "holier-than-thou" or pretend that i am some amazing Christ-like example for everyone else. these are just some thoughts that have been nagging me lately. so. yeah. i still love you all, and i hope that you love me despite my many, many shortcomings. much love to all of you!---Cari

"When I was your age...."

May 06 2006
it makes me laugh when people give me advice. not in a bad way. just in a, well, way. i wish that people could actually see the thought processes i have, so that they could see that my end result is not completely random or stupid. does anyone know what i mean? i usually take advice (with a grain of salt) from most people, mull it over, and maybe act on it, depending upon who it's from. but sometimes i just don't. and people get offended. oh well. i just wanna do what would bring God the most glory. So usually, when i try to give people advice, i try to make sure it's backed up with scripture and/or what God says, not necessarily just me...but it's also kinda funny to me because people seem to ask me about things that i have no experience with. anyways, just a thought. so i'm really ready for school to be out. i'm not really looking forward to not having much to do, but i am looking forward to not having homework everynight. i'm also looking forward to being done with Algebra II ---goodness...the bane of my existence. i think next year, i will most likely be hanging out with a different group of people. or at least i hope so. not that i want to "separate myself from all those sinners"...i just feel like i might be being too influenced, and even if i'm not, i find myself between a rock and a hard place as far as loving compassionately, and accepting/advocating lifestyles and behaviors that i, as a representative of Christ (even one so full of short-comings as me), should not be associated with. next year, i really want to live boldly for Christ, and i want that to be obvious. i want that to be the main characteristic i am recognized by. anyways, i think that next year is gonna be an awesome year. challenging, but awesome. i also think that i am gonna attempt to stop thinking so much about guys. i really need to fall more in love with God before i fall in love with anyone else. besides, high school dating, from what i've seen, is pretty pointless, and just kinda sets people up for drama, and/or heartbreak. i'm not saying it's wrong, i just think it's wrong for me. if i actually ever dated, i would give up dating for a year, but since i don't, i think i'm just gonna commit to letting things like crushes go, and focus more on other things. well, i gotta go, but i'll be back later! much love to you all---Cari

Jizzazzfizzest

May 06 2006

so, Jazzfest last night was muy divertido...but now i have a sneaking suspicion that someone is mad at me. but it actually solved one of my problems, so i guess that makes it ok. mostly hung out with Jared, but i saw about 1million people that i knew...i felt extra popular....ha! the clay cup is a really neat place. almost better than Starbucks! (gasp!) the OHS Jazz Band rocked the casbah....seriously, Josh martin and Chris Johnson were great....and Spencer Blake killed on that bass...congrats to all ya'll who did so well! 'twas super fun. so last night, i had a dream that i was married to a certain person, but we got the marriage annulled after a few days. 'twas very weird. and at some point in the dream, i was pregnant...weirdness. my subconcious kinda freaks me out sometimes...sometimes i wish i could see into the future, so that i could know who i'm gonna marry (if anyone) and if it will work out, so that i could just stop liking people. it gets old when nothing ever seems to come of it. but whatev. i guess there's some sort of purpose in all of it. well, i must go. tata for now, nuckahs...much love to you all! ----Cari

hardy har.

May 05 2006

well, i'm not gonna finish my last entry. ya'll will just hafta watch the movie for yourselves. so. what's been goin on lately? gateway exams....always good. kinda like high-school TCAP...woot. ok. so i've had this on my mind for a long time, and i figured that this would be a good thing to get off my chest. this is a letter that i will probably never write to 2 people, whom i probably should write to. but w/e. maybe eventually they'll get it. and please, don't try to guess who you are, because i probably won't tell you.


to person numero uno:


wow. i wish i had the guts to tell you these things in person. i won't say i love you, because i don't think that i know you that well. but it comes pretty close. you have made me less cynical about people, because i now know that there are people like you in the world. it's really weird, because i love you like a brother, and yet for a while, i kinda liked you otherwise. i wish that you knew that. you are an amazing person, and as long as i live, i will not forget you. i can't wait to see what God does in your life, because i know it's gonna be great.


love, me.



to person numero dos:


ha. i can't believe i am writing about you on this blog. it seems like we have been friends for a million years. i love you to death. and yet, for so long i was, like, madly in love with you, and you never quite got it. i find the whole situation quite ironic, and yet i'm glad it turned out the way it did. though i'm sure we will eventually part ways after high school, you have made these past few years fun, and i thank you for that. you know that i would do anything for you, and i love ya.


love, me.



to person numero tres:


gahlee, do i miss you. for the longest, you were my everything. which was probably not a good thing, but oh well. you were the first person to show me what a real Christian looks like, which is kinda ironically funny, because you also taught me how to cuss and such. you gave me a standard, and a Godly one at that. it feels like i haven't seen you in forever, but i know that eventually, i will see you again. and i can't wait. i love you so much, and i miss you. love ya like a fat kid love cake---


love, 4-hed.



to person numero cuatro:


we have been friends for many years, sometime not as much as others. i'm pretty sure that we have the exact same brain, and that makes for some good times. i have a feeling that we also may part ways after high school, but that's ok, because you are a great friend in the present. just stay true to who you are, no matter what anyone else says or does. i know that sounds cheesy, but i just don't want you to lose your identity amidst all of the fakers out there. never forget the unholy three (lol).


love, me.



to person numero cinco:


wow. it's truly interesting how people can be the best of friends, the worst of enemies, and then just kinda forget about each other. we actually kinda have a history, which i'm sure i will never forget. you made me want to go into law, and then you made want to stay as far away from it as possible. (ha). i wish we could've stayed as good of friends as we once were, but i think it all has a purpose nonetheless. i miss you, and i'm sure great things are going to come about in your life. i love you!


love, me



there are a million more people i wish i could write out all my feelings to, but that would just take up waaaaayy to much time. but just know how much i love you all. i don't think that i say that enough. aside from God and my family, you guys all make my life a little bit happier. thanks for being the awesome people you are, even when i get mad at you or treat you like crap. much love to you all---Cari

so i guess it's settled.

May 02 2006

i am officially going to Africa.


i just finished watching the movie Hotel Rwanda. OMGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....


talk about your emotional rollercoasters. i was screaming at the tv, yelling for the rebels to kill the Hutus...


so....this is the story..(yeah, this is gonna be an extra long entry...)


in Rwanda, there are 2 types of Rwandans, Hutus, and Tutsis. There is no real difference between the two. The Belgian colonists that came there picked out the Rwandans with the fairest skin and the thinnest noses, and that sort of petty thing, and like, interbreeded and intermarried. they then made these more "desirable" people the rulers over the others. and some took on too much power or became tyrants. so eventually, the Hutus grew to hate them. so in 1994, unrest came to a head. the Hutus decided to form an army and begin a campaign of ethnic cleansing when the Rwandan president, (Hutu) Juvenal Habyarimana's plane was shot down over a Kigali airport. Almost immediately after, a newly formed militia, called the Interahamwe, were gathered to slaughter all Tutsis and those who tried to protect them. through the use of propaganda, many were coerced into following them, and were even given incentives such as food and land. Over 1,000,000 people were killed, for no reason. and the UN did not intervene. wow. what on earth? i can't imagine such a thing. there was a part in the movie where Paul Rusesabagina and one of his workers, Gregoire, were driving on of the hotel's van back to the hotel, and they began hitting all of these speed bumps. so Paul got out, and i'll finish this later because i gotta go. be back later.---

hmmm...

April 25 2006
one question: what was your first impression of me, honestly?

i think maybe relient K has a direct tap into my brain...

April 24 2006
Am I at the point of no improvement?
What of the death I still dwell in?
I try to excel, but I feel no movement.
Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?

Never underestimate my Jesus.
You're telling me that there's no hope.
I'm telling you your wrong.

Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong

I throw up my hands
"Oh, the impossibilities"
Frustrated and tired
Where do I go from here?
Now I'm searching for the confidence I've lost so willingly
Overcoming these obstacles is overcoming my fear

I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
Gather my insufficiencies and
place them in your hands, place them in your hands, place them in your hands
He will be strong

ha...i'm lame

April 22 2006

1. On your current playlist, put it on shuffle and pick the first thirty songs that come up, no matter how embarrassing.
2. Write down the first one or two lines from each song.
3. Have your friends comment and see if they know any of the songs - no cheating!  No Google!
4. When someone guesses correctly, bold the line and add at the end of the name of the song.  Bold and indent when the artist has also been guessed and write it at the end of the line also.




1.) And here's to you, Mrs. Robinson/ Jesus loves you more than you will know... ("Mrs. Robinson---Simon and Garfunkel)




2.) It's not the pale moon, that excites me/ That thrills and delights me... ("The Nearness of You --Norah Jones)




3.)The moon is high and the sunset fades/ And all the lullabies have been sung...




4.)Morning by morning, I wake up to find/ The power and comfort, of God's hand in mine...




5.)The sea is foamin like a bottle of beer/ The wave is comin but i ain't got no fear...




6.) In times like these, in times like those/ What will be will be, and so it goes...




7.) Feelin' tired, by the fire/The long day is over...




8.) There's not much goin on today/ I'm really bored it's gettin late...




9.)Good day, sunlight, i'd like to say how truly bright you are/ You don't know me, but i know you, see you're my favorite star...




10.) The more i see you, the more i want you/ Somehow this feeling just grows and grows..




11.) In my eyes, indisposed/ In disguises no one knows...




12.)I will praise you, Lord, my God/ Even in my brokenness, I will praise you, Lord...




13.)You swing just like the sun/ But what happens when the sun doesn't stay...




14.)Mount up, move on, may you find your way back home/ Down and down we go, down into bright October...




15.)I had a big idea, had a crazy eye/ I broke the sacred seal, told a lazy lie... (Jars of Clay)




16.) I waited til i saw the sun/ Don't know why i didn't come...




17.)If it hurts kiss it better, you wear skirts i write nice letters/ Never said nothin with flowers, though we always talked for hours...(Jefferson Aeroplane ---Relient K)




18.)She's just waitin for the summertime, when the weather's fine/She could hitch a ride outta town and so far away from that low down, good for nothin, mistake-makin fool...




19.) Am i at the point of no improvement? What of the death i still drown in?/ I try to excel, but i feel no movement. Can i be free of this unreleaseable sin?




20.) Do me wrong, do me right. Tell me lies, but hold me tight/Save your goodbyes for the morning light, but don't let me be lonely tonight... ("Don't Let Me Be Lonely Tonight"---James Taylor)




21.) Hello again, your words they make me smile/ As i drift away in my little room upstairs...




22.) Twenty four oceans, twenty skies, twenty four failures, and twenty four tries/ Twenty four finds me in twenty fourth place, with twenty four drop-outs at the end of the day.... ("Twenty-Four----Switchfoot)




23.)If i were a painter, i would paint my reverie/If that's the only way for you to be with me...




24.) If i leave here tomorrow, would you still remember me?/ Well i must be travelin on now, there's just too many places i gotta see...




25.) You're a prison i can't escape, you're a decision that i never make/ Hardly laughin, you heard me weep and moan...




26.) You n' me, we come from different worlds/ You like to laugh at me when i look at other girls...




27.)  You come out at night, that's when the energy comes/ And the dark side light, and the vampires roar...




28.) She sits alone by a lamppost/Tryin to find a thought that's escaped her mind...




29.) I'm just a waste of her energy, and she's just     a'wastin' my time/ So why don't we get together, and we could waste everything tonight?




30.)From the highest of heights, to depths of the sea/Creation's revealing Your majesty... ("Indescribable" -- Chris Tomlin)




Yeah...That's How i Roll...

April 15 2006

so hey guys! well, the debate was on Thursday. i think it went pretty well. it was kinda funny to me that most people were on the side of ID rather than evolution. it's also really cool to see that there are some matters of faith that you just can't argue. but one of the things i really learned was how not to go about discussing things with people. you can't jerk them up by the collar and tell them they're going to hell. you can't just throw scripture at them or take scripture out of context to convice someone of their folly. the one thing that no one can argue with is your testimony. no one can tell you that God hasn't done something amazing in your life. and He has really been reinforcing that to me. but He has also been teaching me that if i don't live my life to back up what i say, then it doesn't show anybody anything but a hypocrite. and the coolest thing, is that i can't even do it on my own. it's God who makes me not a hypocrite. He is one who changes me. how cool is that? anyways, just thought i'd share that with you guys. so, on another thought, have you ever had a dream in which you confessed everything to someone, only to wake and find that it's still all in your head? ha. my dreams are kinda funny. oh well. life goes on. w/e. i gotta go, but i'll all of ya on the flip-flop...much love to you all-------Cari






Be Thou my vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee, Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.


Riches I heed not, nor man's empty praise,
Thou mine inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of heaven, my Treasure Thou art.


 





High King of heaven, my victory won,
May I reach heaven's joys, O bright heav'ns Son!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my vision, O ruler of all.

Today is gonna be the day....

April 12 2006
yeah. so i'm feeling much better than the other day. thanks for the remarks guys. nayways, it took a good hard talk with my mom to figure some stuff out. i was just being really self-centered. big surprise. anyways. yeah. so tonight is a big night at church. i'm excited. Josh is speaking. it's been sooooo long. plus, i'm excited about the debate that we're about to do in biology. in fact, that's where i'm sitting right now. bio class. awwwww yeah. pretty dang gangsta. oh well. today is also elections for SC. i dunno if i win or not, but either way tis cool. so easter is quickly approaching. i don't think i've ever quite thought of it the way i have lately. how amazing. that a perfect man, who didn't really have to do it, laid down his life, for us that, on a regular basis, spit at him and slap him in the face with the way we live our lives. man. wow. so yeah. feelin good up in this mug. i'll see all you sucka MCs tonite @ church. all the resta you, should come. much love to you all ---- Cari

Sometimes i just don't get it.

April 09 2006
i dont want pity or anything like that. i want honesty. i want answers. if you didn't know me well, or didn't see me much, would you think i was a Christian? honestly? am i easy to anger? do i have a bad attitude? do i argue too much? what do you think my problem is? i would really like to know. thanks guys.---Cari

Into Something Beautiful...

April 06 2006

Trace the shape of my heart, til it becomes more familiar to Your eyes. I've been down without You, wrong without Your love. It's taken days and nights to make me realize....So rescue me from hangin on this line, i won't give up on givin You the chance to blow my mind, but the eleventh hour quickly passed me by...and i'll find You when i think i'm out of time.


You made me. Who am i? that i should company with something so divine? mercy waits, overjoyed. the prospects of finding are freeing, freeing me. ...mirrors spin wicked tales. here lies reflections of deceptions.


so close my eyes and hold my heart. cover me and make me something. change this something normal, into something beautiful. and i'm still fighting for the words to break these chains, and i still pray when i look in Your eyes You stare right back down into something beautiful...



man...no one says exactly what's on my mind quite like Jars of Clay. gahlee. i don't even know what to think anymore. i really dislike being so in love when i don't know if the feeling's mutual. i dunno if love is even the right word for it. but it's the first time i've ever liked a guy worthy of liking. but i just don't think we'll ever date. w/e. i don't think i'm called to date in high school. but that's ok. i need to fall deeper in love with God before i fall in love with anyone else. so i guess He's just protecting me. cause He's awesome like that. so, tonight for choir, i went to go see MTSU's performance of The Dialogue of the Carmelites w. Carla Price starring as Sister Blanche. wow. it was the most depressing thing i've ever seen. but it was pretty good. even for opera. carla and this other girl had the most amazing voices ever. they made me want to do that when i get to college. wodie. anyways, i need to hit the sack. i love you guys! g'nite---Cari


Yo te busco...

April 02 2006

WOW. that's about all i can say. Mexico was amazing. over 4300 people made a decision to accept Christ. it's pretty funny how we go into something like that and give God a set of limitations. i think He finds it funny knowing that we do that, and knowing how He's gonna reveal Himself to us in such huge ways. ya know, i thought maybe i'd get to Mexico and i'd really feel God calling me there. but i didn't. so i can't wait to see where He is gonna call me. Africa anyone? man. i never completely appreciated America until i left it. i was so happy just to be able to flush the toilet and take a more-than-3-minute shower. man. also, i didn't eat any meat or milk while i was down there, so when i got home, mom made me fried chicken, mashed 'taters, peas, rolls, cranberry sauce (i love that stuff!) and i drank like, 3 glasses of milk. ha. but besides all that, i really felt like i grew on that trip. God really showed me what He is made of, and what it means to really have faith. I find it so cool that i've gotten to the point to where if i don't do my quiet time, it really affects my whole day. i'm really trying to learn how to completely depend on Him right now. so yeah. i'm really stupid and fickle sometimes. i really liked a guy for like, 3 days, and then stopped almost immediately. ha. gosh though. this trip really made me miss bruce. a lot. but that's ok. OH! I ALMOST FORGOT! like the second day in mexico, i got the chance to lead 2 mexican guys to Christ! WOW!!!!!!! it was amazing, and it was ALL GOD because i had no idea what to say to a couple of Mexican men. but it was amazing. wow. they both accepted Christ. ha! so cool. well i besta go. i'll see all you homies on the flip-flop. byekataters! ---Cari


I Wish I Were An Oscar Meyer Weiner...

March 24 2006

omgoodness...i'm leavin tomorrow. i'm so scared about the plane ride. i just don't trust planes. school was pretty great today. i had a sub in Algebra II, history, and Spanish...the spanish sub even baked us cookies! how cute. even ms. petrone was nice today! (?) weird. i think i'm in love guys. i know i say this alot, and i'm sure you think i'm stupid. but i am. but it is really stupid. because all i'm setting myself up for is getting upset, because i just don't know if the feeling's mutual. but he acts like it is. i don't even get him. but that's ok. well, i gotta go.! i guess it'll be a while before i post again! much love to you all! ---Cari 


Stew my foot and call me Brenda.

March 21 2006










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Armadillos and Old Lace (Kinky Friedman Novels (Paperback))
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"I Gotta Get Some Cheese" ---Jade


the above is my quote of the day. nayways. today was pretty good. yesterday kinda sucked. but that's ok. Mexico is soooooooo 3 days away! i'm a leavin on a jet plane...but i do know when i'll be back again. so pretty sure it's kinda weird whenever someone you barely know completely emotionally dumps on you. random. but it makes me feel good that people feel like they can talk to me about their problems and stuff. i think i should definitely be a psychologist when i grow up. so, pretty sure i really kinda like this one guy. but, as usual, i doubt anything will come of it. i don't even know if he likes me. but he's pretty dang cool. Ms. Tina is convinced that i should date Jared. ha! like that will ever happen...i've already made up my mind that i'm going to marry an African guy that i will meet while i'm doing mission work. so i guess that's settled. nayways. not much to say. i really can't wait to see what God's gonna do on the mission trip. tis gonna be awesome. happy trails to all you band kids going to NY tonight! have fun! nayways, gotta go! ---love to all---Cari


song of the day : "Pressin' On" --Relient K


    "You look down at me, but you don't look down on me at all..."