this is only a LITTLE of the most amaZZZZZing movie EVER!!!!!

Who Am I?  Yeah thats the question i want answered..and i know you people never comment on PhuseBox anymore but i feel the need to write and just spill how i feel and what the heck is going on in my life.First off, i'm lucky to have the life i have...and i know that! Its just sometimes, i wonder why everyone says Good-Bye to me. LoL its like once things are going good they take a turn and start to suck. I'm not slowly dieing anymore..i'm just trying to find where i fit, who my friends are, where God wants me, what i should be doing. Some many doors are slamming in my face and so many are swinging open, but i'm scared to go through them..i'm scared once i get one foot in its gona slam on me and i'm gona end up hurting again! Ha life is so funny. If you step back and look at whats going on in the middle of all the craZyness...its rather funny to see how crappy life is! Ha i laugh rather then cry....i find it better and more joyful.   I'm so lucky to be where i am and to have gone through what i've gone through! It may seem like hell to me but its not all that bad when you get to thinkin about it!Well i'm done boring you people.

hey my people

uhmm yeah just thought i would say hey and i need some prayers! i'm not gona say way b/c its a little much for me at the moment..but its got to do with V-Day and not having a dad and tyler..and just a lot of stuff so yeah please just keep me in your prayers!!!
I love you guys and hope you have an amaZing V-day!

1. How many people have you held hands with within the past month?
sad to say..none

2. What's your middle name?
You know it..but i'll tell you again in case you have forgotten :) Its Chico...lol naaa its Grace

4. Will you have a valentine this year?
Who knows...no one has asked me yet :( so sad (lol)

5. Is it easy for others to make you feel intimidated?
yeah

6. Do you have unlimited texting?
gosh i'm out at the moment..which means no i dont have unlimited texting :( :( i want it though

7. Wheres your girlfriend/boyfriend at?
in Hawaii..so not cool

8. Are you on a desktop or laptop?
desktop

9. Do you have fast reflexes?
lol no ha

10. Can you make yourself cry?
ha yeah i can lol its kinda fun :P

11. What are you planning to do today?:
well seeing that the day is over... but i still have some algebra and reading to do..bad me :P lol

12. Do you have a crush on someone?
Why no i dont

13. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
nope, i've learned something from everything that has happened in my past..so i'll leave it as is

14. What are your favorite colors?:
i like Green, Gray, Blue, and Brown

15. Have you ever had your nails done?
why no i haven't...i dont see the need to

16. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing right now?
Youth Group

17. Have you ever kissed someone who's named starts with an M?
nope

18. Have you ever passed out?
yeah when i was like 3

20. Are you easily confused?:
ha do you know who your talking to :P lol

21. Do you think you would make a good wife/husband?:
how would i know

22. What's your favorite kind of ice cream?
i really like death by chocolate

23. Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
that would be a big NO 

24. Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
100% babe :P lol

25. What color are your socks?
they are white

26. Has anyone ever borrowed something from you and never returned it?
lol yeah

27. Do you fall for people easily?
nope...you have to work for me :P lol j.k

28. Everything happens for a reason?
yeah i believe so

29. Have you ever dated someone more than once?:
i guess you could say that...but i'm not sure

30. Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
not in the last 24 hours :(

32. In your last relationship did you break up or were you broken up with?
lol i'm not quite sure how it all went down..

33. When is the last time you talked to number 1 on your top friends?
seeing that he is my brother..like everyday

34. What are you listening to right now?:
Remeber The Name

35. What does your last incoming text say?
i dont remember.....it was forever ago

36. What stands out about the person you like?:
just who he is. The way he treats me and...just him altogether :) lol

37. Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?
not really

38. What is your biggest turn off?
lack of respect

40. Who was the last person to stay in your bed?
ME! :)

41. Do you prefer being single or taken?
i like being taken :)

42. Do you love anyone?
Why yes i do

43. Last person of the opposite sex you said I love you to?

Tyler

44. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?:
seeing i haven't kissed anyone..that would have to be a no

45. What is it you truly want right now?
to be held

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

1. Do you like blue cheese?
no!

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
ha ...... no

3. Do you own a gun?
no, ha they dont trust me with a gun lol i dont know why :P

4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
anything i feel like gosh!

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
every time.

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
they are okay

7. Favorite Christmas song?
who has a 'favorite' Christmas song! lol come on you got to like them all

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
COFFEE...but i never get it :( so sad

9. Can you do push ups?
hahahahaha

10. Can you do a chin up?
hahahahaha

11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
my ring 

12. Favorite hobby?
TALKING :)

13. Ever been in a car wreck?
nope, and i would like to keep it that way

14. Do you have A.D.D.?
ha who knows :) probably

15. What's one trait that you hate about yourself?
ha to many to list

16. Middle name?
GRACE

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment..
1. i NEED texts.
2. Why do guys have to be so weird sometimes.
3. But its cool he cares

18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
1. nothing
2. nothing.
3. nothing.

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
1.) water.
2.) water
3.) coffee

20. Current worry?
WOW uhmmm to many things to say

21. Current hate right now?
nothing really

22. Favorite place to be?
church

23. How did you ring in the New Year?
hung out with friends

24. Where would you like to go?
Hawaii.

25. Name three people who will complete this?
no one :P

26. Do you own slippers?
nope

27. What shirt are you wearing?
LD shirt

28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
haven't ever done that.

29. Can you whistle?
not a big fan of it so no

30. Favorite color?
Green, gray, blue, and brown

31. Would you be a pirate?
SURE

32. What songs do you sing in the shower?
anything i feel like gosh 

33. Favorite girl's name?
i like a few

34. Favorite boy's name?
Seth Cohen

35. What's in your pocket right now?
nothing

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
it would be a person, Charlie

37. Best bed sheets as a child?
i dont know

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
broken heart.

39. Do you love where you live?
dickson's okay.

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
like 5 i think

41. Who is your loudest friend?
.... i guess Carmen...

42. How many dogs do you have?
1

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
i'm not sure

45. What is your favorite book?
i like the Bible and some others

46. What is your favorite candy?
sweet-tarts and chocolate

47. Favorite Sports Team?
ugh. don't care.

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
who thinks about that kinda stuff!

49. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
sleeping.

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
oh crap i'm late

1.What are 6 emotions you are feeling right now?

Andrew

1~giggly

2~energetic

3~nervous

Chico

1~Giggly

2~Tired

3~Hungry

2. What time did you wake up this morning?
Andrew - well i was kinda up and then i fell asleep again...so when i woke up it was like 9:30 ish

Chico - Same as Andrew but i woke up at 7:30 but got out of bed at 9:30ish

3. How many hours of sleep did you get?
Andrew And Chico - do not know

4. What are you currently doing?
Andrew - thinking and being nervous and doing this survey with Chico, who is a man

Chico - i'm doing this stupid quiz and talking to Mr. Flint (lol)

5. Have you kissed someone within the past week?
Andrew - well ya know.......there was that one time...that i kissed no one.

Chico - never kisses and tells :P

6.Have you told anyone you loved them today?
Andrew - no (Well lastnight.  lol inside joke)

Chico - No not TODAY but yesterday yes

7. Have you ever been in love?
Andrew - i have no earthly idea

Chico - man....yeah :P

8. Do you like anybody?

Andrew - yes siree

Chico - not just anybody :P lol but yes

9. Do you miss anybody?

Andrew - that's a stupid question.  duh

Chico - chico is a man...he doesn't miss people :P

naaa yeah i miss someone

10. Do you have plans for tomorrow?
Andrew - probably...sure why not.

Chico - I go to church tomorrow :)

11. What is the last thing you ate?
Andrew - ice cube...and a waffle.

Chico - WAFFLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mmmmm

12. Is there a member of the opposite sex in your life who means the world to you?

Andrew - sure why not.  yeah i guess so

Chico - Chico is a man!!! (lol) yes i would have to say so

13. What are you listening to right now?
Andrew - my fingers hitting the keys...and Chico

Chico - Same as Andrew :)

14. Are you a generally clean or messy person?
Andrew - i am messy

Chico - I am man..i am messy man!

15.Have you kissed 3 people on your top ?
Andrew - on my top what???????  ewwww.

Chico - I am a man! i dont kiss tops! lol

16.Have you ever liked anyone on your top ?
Andrew - um....if i had a top, and i knew who was on my top....and i knew what i top was.................i'd say yes

Chico - WHAT IS A TOP! gosh i am man..i know not what 'top' is

17. Would you currently start a thing with your top ?

Andrew - i do not start affairs with clothing items.

Chico - chico wears top no start thing with top!

 

18. Do you Love your ex?

Andrew - I have no preferences of letters.

Chico - Chico love pedro

19. Do you find members of the opposite sex confusing?
Andrew - sometimes...but Chico understands me

Chico - Chico is a man!!! nothing confusing for Chico


20. What was the reason behind the last time you cried?
Andrew - Chico hit me with a Calculator

Chico - Andrew slap me with cold hand

21. Is there anybody you wish you could be with right now?
Andrew - no i have every thing i need in Chico

Chico - Chico man! no need anybody...but Andrew :)

22. Are you going to be alone tonight?
Andrew - no i'll be with lots of people

Chico - Chico is man! thats all that needs to be said

23. When is the last time you saw a movie in theaters?
Andrew - uh...a few weeks ago.  I see chick flick.  nasty.

Chico - Chico see movie with andrew..nasty!

26. Is there something you wish you could tell someone, but can’t?
Andrew - no the only person i need to tell anything to is Chico.  but he's already all-knowing.  :)

Chico- Chico no tell nobody nothing! EVER!

27. What're you doing tonight?
Andrew - I dance and singing on stage.

Chico - Laugh at Andrew!

 

28. What is one thing you can't wait for?
Andrew - when I talk to my metallic friend.

Chico - Chico no wait! get now!

29. How has the week been?
Andrew - rather fantabulous.  I am talking to my metallic friend.

chico - Chico no remeber yesterday...

 

30. Do you have a best friend?
Andrew - Chico is the shiz

Chico - Chico MAN no need friends..other then Andrew!

I'm Tired! YEAH you heard me i'm tired....not only the kinda tired that has to do with lack of sleep but the tired when everything is going black and white and nothing has meaning anymore.

Laughter has lost its touch, b/c i know 10 minutes after that sip of happiness, it will be washed away with a gulp of unhappiness ontop of every horrible feeling ever known to man.

The smiles of the ones i love has lost its glimmer, b/c i know that small piece of light will be blown away with a wind of sad and hurt.

I'm slowly seeing everything white and black, cold and hot, nothing has color, wormth....

At the moment i'm longing for wormth, color, laughter,smiles..anything to wake me from this so called sleep!

 

You know something i have been wishing for the past few days....is someone i can lean on, someone i can run to and have them hold me, someone i can yell at (not in anger but hurt) and have them look me in the eye and tell me its going to be okay, someone i can tell my problems to instead of me always helping them,someone to help me push through.

yeah i understand this sounds so selfish its sad. But i've gone so many years with this in my head, i cant take it anymore i guess. And you guys are all so amaZing and i know some of you will be all like You can talk to me anytime...and i know that!

its just....i'm wishing for something more...maybe to get the picture across to someone who doesn't want to see or hear it....

 

Its like no matter how hard i try to stay strong for someone, i end up wishing for once i could be weak, so as to be held for once.

 

-goodbye-

is such a strong word

Okay so most of you know that i'm sick and if you didn't know...you do now! But tomorrow i have a lot that i NEED to do and at the moment it doesn't look like i'm gona be better for a WHILE! So i was kinda hoping you guys could pray that i get better ASAP!!!
Thanks

The most amaZing song ever! Carmen sings it WAY WAY WAY better but its a good song.

Gender? female

Age? 14
Where do you live? Dickerson (aka Dickson)
Only child? No
Have any sisters? Yes, i would have 2
What about brothers? Yes, i would have 2
Do you like your name? pretty much yes
Are your parents in love? No, that would be why they are divorce

Who is your favorite family member? They're all cool.
Do you live in a house or trailer? House
Are you straight,gay,or bi? i'm Straight up STRAIGHT baby! lol i'm so tired :P
Who are 3 of your best friends? Tyler,Carmen,....yeah thats it lol

Yes or No

Are you in love? Yes
Do you want to get married? Yes
Do you want to have children? Yes, and i call them Kids not 'Children' Children is so...harsh lol

Do you have any pets? Yes
Do you drive? not yet
Can you drive a stick? seeing that i cant drive yet how could i drive a stick..you need to think more
Can you swim? Yes
Ever been drunk? nope, i'm a good kid :)
Have you been arrested? no, again i say i'm a good kid :P

Ever had detention? No, i'm homeschooled
Ever been Suspended? How can you be suspened from your house? seeing that i do school in my house, manily my room..that would suck being sespended from my room!!!

Random

Do you use birth control? NO, get out of my life you creep. lol (thats for you Emma :P lol)
What color shirt are you wearing? Brown and it says "Sweet and Chocolatey" lol oh so true ha
What are you wearing? Jeans, shirt, sweat-shirt,
What color of underwear do you have on? Get Out Of My Life You Creep *lol*
Have you ever been punched? Yes
Ever been in a fight? not really

Do you smoke? No
Drink? Nope
Do you like to read? Yes very much so
Favorite book? I have many favorites
Favorite Movie? i like to many to have a 'favorite'

Favorite tv Show? Gilmore Girls
Favorite band/singer? again like the move, i like to many to have a 'favorite'

Favorite song? AGAIN I SAY! I LIKE TO MANY TO HAVE A 'FAVORITE'!!!!

Do you like cheese? Yes, lol sorry thats a little random
Have any nicknames? Yes many
Do you like broccoli? Yes
Fav alcoholic beverage? uhmmm i'm not a drinker like you might be!

Fav. non-alcoholic beverage? Water
What superhero would u be? is TinkerBell a suberhero lol

Dream Car? i dont really DREAM about cars but i like jeeps and some trucks
Have you ever stolen anything? chocolate when i was like 5.
Do you lie alot? No
When was the last time you lied? Who knows
Who did you kiss last? OH MY GOSH! i've never been kissed cant these stupid quizes get the picture!!!!!!

Who was the last person you called? ...Lilly..i think
Last person to call you? Lilly

the opposite/same sex

Hair color: Any
Eye Color: Any
How tall? I don't care
Redneck or Prep? neither lol
Whats the first thing you notice? hair
Do you make the first move? It depends
Money or love? Love
Looks or Personality? Personality
Would you kiss on the first date? It depends

Beyond Random

Where are your keys? seeing that i CAN'T drive i have NO keys.
Most overused phrase? 'pretty much' and 'sounds like a party'
Are you married? No
Name someone you love: Jesus
Who is your #1? Seth
Who is your #2? Sarah
Can you roll your tongue? no :( i've tired, trust me
Can you whistle? Yes
Can you blow bubbles? Yes, who cant thats the real question
Why did you do this survey? b/c i have no life :P

Did You enjoy it? sure why not
What did you do first thing this morning? looked at the celling
Do you like Bush? sure

Do you believe in God? why yes, do you?

What should you be doing right now? studying for spanish :) hee-hee but i'm not!

What do you wish you were doing right now? Riding horses

What time is it? 10:15ish pm

Are you glad this is over? Yes
What are your plans now? Talking to people on myspace :) fun i know

Okay so whats up my people.

Life has been... kinda crappy, i'm not gona lie but I've had my friends to help me. I would have to say last weekend was, in a word 'Odd' b/c i was with people that dont really like me for who i am so i was kinda scared to see how they would treat me. But it went okay so that was good.

Ha so most of you dont really know whats going on in my life, i'm not sure Carmen even knows all of it. Its kinda hitting me hard not having someone with me all the time....a sister someone to talk to no matter what. And you guys are amaZing but no one can really take the place of Lane, so yeah it pretty much sucks.

On a happy note i'm gona get to hang with my friends more this month seeing that i'm in the Vday show at my church. I have this stupid, boring, put you to sleep song but hey i'm sure it will be fun :)

Well now that this boring random post is over i hope you get back to your fun life :) lol Message me or something i never talk to people anymore and its kinda boring + sad.

:)

peace

This is a Valentine's truth survey. So dont lie:

1.Do you like anyone?
Yes

2. Are you a flirt?
i suppose..lol i dont know

3. Are you a player?
no.

4. Would you get back together with any of your exes?
I dont have any 'exes' as you would say

5. Have you ever kissed anyone on your top friends?
no

6. Do you want a valentine?
sure why not

7. Have you slept over at the opposite sex's house?
i have slept over at my friends house and he was a guy if that counts lol

8. Do you prefer group dates or single ones?
never been on either so i wouldn't know 

10.Small kisses or makeout sessions?
lol sorry thats just a funny question :P

11. Do you like watching movies?
yeah.

12. Any plans for valentines day?
Nope 

13.What's the best valentines day present for a girl?
i personally like chocolate :) haha

14. For a guy?
whatever they want :] i dont know

15. Are you single or taken?
i would say taken

!SMILE!

Even if it is at my expanse...

 

So have you ever had one of those days were its good but bad at the same time. You want to be happy but something always brings you down. Well thats what today has been like.

Okay so now i have a question. Say something big happens to you and your life will never be the same, and this something that happened is not a good something. And say you have forgiven this person that made this bad something that happened and changed your life, but everytimes you think about them you get all down and upset. Its not like i can change what happened and you know me, i live life and things happen as they happen if i cant change it i dont worry about it, I pretty much just go with the flow when the time calls for it. But this one thing that i know i cant change bothers me, and even if i could change it i dont think i would b/c this person is no longer someone i want to ever speak to again...i know this sounds so stupid and there really isn't an answer to my stupid question that i still haven't gotten around to asking. Well i'm just gona ask it anyway and see what you smart people can come up with.

How do i let it go? How do i say "i dont care what you did to me and how you messed my life up its over i dont care what you do or say to me anymore!"?

?????????????

I LOVE YOU! Yes You!!!Just Thought You Might Want To Know That :)

Whats up my people. Today has been OKAY! i'm way tired and on over drive trying to get school started and caught back up. Things are kinda craZy with me, with trying to figure a lot out and walking out Christ infront of people i'm not such a big fan of, but i'm trying (but please keep me in your prayers, there are a bunch of girls that ask me questions about the Bible and dating at my youth and i'm trying to lead the right life for them to see, but its hard!)

 Anyway, message me or something :)

2008: In The Beginning

Where did you bring in the New Year?: Austins house
Who were you with? a bunch of people but manily Tyler, Carmen and Kalyen,

Did you kiss anyone at midnight?: lol no

Did you make any resolutions?: nope.

2007: Your Love Life

Did you break up with anyone?: sorta...kinda..its werid

Did you get anything for Valentines day?: i got chocolate :)

Did you meet anyone special?: not really "special" but i met some new friends.

Did you fall in love?: i was already in love

2007: Friends and Enemies

Did you meet any new friends last year?: yeah
Did any of your friendships end?: not really

Did you make any new enemies?: i'm not sure if we're enemies.
Did you resolve any fights?: i dont know...maybe..lol

Who was your closest friend?: i would have to say Tyler

Who did you grow apart from?: in a way, Tyler
Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?: a few, but i learned from them.

2007: Your BIRTHDAY!!!

How old did you turn?: 14
Did you have a cake?: heck yes...do you not know who i am :P
What did you do for your birthday?: went ice-skating

Did you get any presents?: yep.
Your favorite gift: the ring from Carmen Pooch E-A
2007: All about YOU

Did you change at all last year?: oh yes.
Did you dye your hair?: nope

Did you get your hair cut?: of course.
Did you change your style? probably a little.
Were you in school?: yeah.
Did you get good grades?: kinda :( but i hate getting a A- or B so i guess they were okay

Did you have a job?: other then babysitting no

Did you drive?: no :( but this yeah i can hahaha :P
Did you own a car?: well no if i couldn't drive why would i have a car? gosh..lol

Did anyone close to you give birth?: not that i can think of.
Did you move at all?: yeah.
Did you go on any vacations?: nope.
Did you leave the country at all?: i wish.
Would you change anything about yourself now?: maybe a few little things, but not much.

2007: Wrap Up.

was 2007 a good year?: um, yeah. it had its major downfalls but it was okay.
Did 2007 bring any new insights?: sure

Do you think 2008 will top 2007?: i hope so

Do you have any goals for 2008?: yeah

If you could relive any moment which would you choose?: i don't wanna look back. i'm ready for oh-eight.

YOU

 

 

(BEING WHOEVER MIGHT BE

READING THIS)

 

IS GOING TO PUT A SMILE ON

SOMEONES FACE TODAY

 

JUST BECAUSE OF WHO YOU ARE!!