Something Extraordinary

January 07 2008

I feel like I waste a lot of time.

 

I just sit around the house.

 

Doing absoluetly nothing that adds value to anyone's life.

 

But what am I supposed to be doing exactly?

 

I honestly don't know. 

 

Now I complain I have free time that I don't know what to do with, and soon I won't have any free time at all and be complaining about that.  

 

Today I have been admring the great photography of professionals.

 

Today I also thought back to what ol' MJ said about striving for a professional look when it came to creating videos, and not a prosumer.

 

But I feel like I will never achieve it.

 

I don't have any inspiration.

 

Or equipment.

 

Or any idea.

 

And college doesn't seem to be helping me much.

 

I don't know.

 

I guess I'll just get a job in marketing or something.

 

Or maybe just be a housewife and mother.

 

There's nothing wrong with that.

 

It's noble and great.

 

I want to be a great wife and mother.

 

But...

 

I don't know.

 

I suppose... 

 

I guess I've just always hoped that I was made for something quite extraordinary... 

Patrick

January 08 2008
you were made for something extraordinary. dont worry amy!