My surgery is tomorrow at 8 AM, and I am absolutely terrified. Everyone keeps telling me that it's a routine procedure and nothing ever goes wrong, but still, what if something does go horribly wrong?? For goodness sake, they are cutting me open in only 18 hours! I've never been more scared in my entire life. And there's only one person that has ever been able to calm my fears, and they are no longer by my side because they didn't want to do it anymore. I wish with everything I have and more that that person was here. I want him to hold me and tell me that everything is going to be okay. But he's not here, and I'm in this terrifying place without him.

"God blesses the people who patiently endure testing. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him." - James 1:12