Juilliard (I HOPE!)
God, music, drama, writing, dance, photography, art, reading, Steele, mime, horses, computers, being hilarious, watching movies, looking at the stars, horseback riding, clothes, germ-x, anti-algebra clubs, piano, emailing people, hanging w/ friends, talking to my friends, tennis, golf, athletes (mainly baseball players), singing, playing volleyball, talking, smiling, laughing, (lol)
My mom, WAVORLY, Beethoven, Craig Morgan, Faith Hill, Brad Paisley, Taylor Swift, Carrie Underwood, Nickleback, U2, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Skillet, Chris Tomlin, Everlife, BarlowGirl, Superchic[k], Enrique Iglesias (lol), Alan Jackson, bluegrass, Alison Krauss, Loretta Lynn, LeAnn Rimes, Broken Heart (my parents), Lonestar, Jackson 5, James Brown, Aretha Franklin, Green Day, Hinder, All-American Rejects, Shania Twain, Lloyd, Will Smith, The Isaacs, Claire Lynch, Dolly Parton, Tim McGraw, Kenny Chesney, Jimmy Buffet, The Beatles, Rolling Stones, Vanessa Carlton, Evanescence, Mountain Heart, Steven Curtis Chapman, Phillips Craig and Dean, Rascal Flatts, Rhonda Vincent, Brad Russell, MercyMe, Casting Crowns, The Fray, Mat Kearney, Rebecca St. James, The Darins, Panic! At the Disco, Patsy Cline, Rascal Flatts, Shania Twain, Bon Jovi, Eric Clapton, Diamond Rio, Leeland, Kristian Stanfill, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Terri Clark, FM Static, Linkin Park, Fall Out Boy, Boys Like Girls, Fleetwood Mac
MOULIN ROUGE, Princess Bride, Benny and Joon, Benchwarmers, Napoleon Dynamite, RV, Back to The Future, Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, Flicka, Facing the Giants, Sahara, Stick it, John Tucker Must Die, The Wizard of Oz, The Cat in the Hat, The Spongebob Squarepants movie, Bring it On, Bring it On All or Nothing, The Three Musketeers, Chasing Liberty, Forrest Gump, Drumline, Remember the Titans, Kingdom of Heaven, Pirates of the Carribean, Cars, Meet the Robinsons, Day after Tomorrow, War of the Worlds, Forrest Gump, Center Stage, The Ghost in the Darkness (thanks Amber!), Delta Farce, Spiderman 1 2 and 3, Ice Princess, Uptown Girls, Miracle Run Myspace Graphics- At Myspacejunks.com
Bible, Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, Loser, WHEN HITLER STOLE PINK RABBIT, Lord of the Rings, Junie B. Jones (lol), and so many more...i just have a lot of "random reads", To Kill a Mockingbird, Bridge to Teribithia, Dragon Rider, Chicken Soup books, Don't You Know There's a War on?, Boy at War, The BFG, George's Marvelous Medicine, The Witches, pretty much anything by roald dahl, The Horseshoe Trilogy
be a man.
February 25 2009
you would do it all over...we all know that. Whether "it" is good or bad, who knows? Doesn't look like we'll ever have the chance to know, either. You're just gonna leave us wondering. Leave me, in particular. The mistakes you're making are not clear to you, but are a slap in the face to me. If you could just give me one more chance to say what I think, it would work. All you have to do is poke one hole and it will grow larger with time until its fabric eventually rips in two. But then again, my words have always been words to you. Never anything more, no matter how hard I try. Maybe I'll just give up and run away...just like you.
January 25 2009
Richard Fleeshman. (amazing.)
December 31 2008
on a light note...
November 04 2008
the passing face.....
October 20 2008
what if...we had never met. an idea that for the past years, i have pushed out of my head. a thought i never wanted to think about. but what if. if i had never met you......so we "fast forward." i don't know you. you don't know me. on a busy street, we're both walking...opposite directions. we lock eyes...what runs through my head? what through yours? would you have fallen in love with me....would i have returned the favor? who would you be in that life? would i be different? knowing who we both are now...what would i have thought of you? would you be just like you are...or different....or would you even cross my mind a second time. maybe you would have been just another face on a busy street...just trying to get to wherever your life was taking you. without me....so then...in that regard...would you then be the one chasing? or maybe we would both move on. just a second on a street. say we meet again. would you talk to me...not knowing anything? how would i respond...i wonder.
i can tell you what i would be. i would be just another person. i would see you, really see you. i would be much different, this i know for a fact. you changed my life, how could i be the same without you? i would listen, just as i always have. you would cross my mind...every day, constantly. your face would have still stood out in my mind from millions. i wouldn't move on...i would walk on...but not move on. i would tell you, when we met again, that it wouldn't be the last time. at least i would hope. but if you were the same person you are now....would it be?
October 16 2008
so i've experienced something this week that has been really wierd for me...painful...but still strange. it was definitely a learning experience. you can give trust to people who haven't earned it and don't deserve it, but the same thing will happen every time. they will take your words and turn them into something they aren't and if you aren't careful, it will turn you into something you aren't. you'll want revenge. but i realized that no matter how much said person hurt me or made me angry...i couldn't deliver rightful punishment. sure, i could ruin their life...but it wouldn't be my responsibility. of course there's a part of me that thinks they should get what they deserve, but i can't do squat about it...so i let it go. that's really hard to do...especially for me, being as stubborn and headstrong as i am. i know none of you know really what's going on...and i don't really plan on telling you because it's partially my fault. (another thing that's hard for me to admit.) so...just know i learned something...and i haven't posted a thought in a while so i thought i'd catch ya up! :) have a wonderful life.
(p.s.....i made mid-state choir. that's a good thing :] lol)
...you should know...
October 03 2008
You'll never know how much pain you cause me.
That is, unless I tell you.
So here I go.
You cause me more pain that you can imagine.
You'll never know how much I love you.
That is, unless I tell you.
So here I go.
I love you more than you'll ever realize.
You'll never understand how it feels.
That is, unless I tell you.
So here I go.
It feels worse than anything I've ever felt.
But most of all you'll never know what I think.
That is, unless I tell you.
So here I go...
I think that if you would open up your eyes a little more, you would see what has been in front of you for years. I think if you let yourself, you could understand. You would know all these things. You would know how I feel, you would know how it hurts, and most of all, you would know how much I love you. Maybe you do. If you would only let yourself, you could feel it too. But I can't try anymore. I have nothing left to give to you. I want you to know that you changed my life...and you still are. I can't stand to be without you. I need you to hear me.
September 21 2008
i haven't ever realized until the past 2 weeks what regret really feels like. Not regretting doing something, but not doing it. Not saying what you really mean, while you have the time. Because before you know it, time is taken away. Not taking chances while you have the chance...not really feeling while you have the opportunity. Not loving while love is staring you in the face. Then it gets taken away, snatched rather, and you have no more time. You'll never get the chance again. Never get the chance to tell someone how much they mean to you or what an impact they've made in your life. How much you loved them, or how you never wanted to let them go. You never say anything. They tell you time and again how much you mean to them, that they never want to let you go, and you remain silent. Knowing in your heart you want to say the same, because you feel the same, but you're afraid of being hurt. You don't have fun because you figure you have all the time in the world to ride that one rollercoaster...to watch that one show...to have that one kiss. But the truth is, you don't know. You hope. Another chance will never be given, so you must take it. Say what you want while you still have the time. Even though they are not dead, they are gone. Go back...find them, tell them what you really feel for them. Hurry, before it's too late. Make them listen, understand....
EVEN THOUGH I DON'T. Why...how? Those are my only questions now. I love you. I want you to know that. But you never will.
...there are no words to title this thought.
September 04 2008
it's for you!!!!!
July 30 2008
July 24 2008
as many of you know, i hate being wrong. so, i did some research on the subject of 'one particular person that God has for you'. I was, indeed, wrong in part. No where in God's Word does it say that God has a particular person for you. Yes, there are many people you could choose, but God has a plan for everyone one of our lives and i believe that we can choose to follow it or not. if we pray for God to give us the desire to do His will, he will. I believe also that that concept applies to marriage and dating. You should pray and ask God if this person is in His plan for you.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. you will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."
This is the verse that makes me think that there is someone in God's plan specifically made for you. Just like God specifically made Eve for Adam, I think that God might have made a special person for most of us. I think that we should pray that if He has a specific person in mind for your life, they will love you as much as God does.
And another thing I want to say is that another person, no matter who they are cannot complete you. If you are whole in Christ, you will not need anyone else to fill a void in your heart. If you are not, you pour yourself unnecessarily into someone else, and you become needy and still incomplete. So don't put your whole life into someone else just yet. First you should be complete in Christ and know that he makes you whole, not someone else.
"For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."
So i think that if you believe in your heart that God has a person designed for you and you seek after Him fervently, he will give you what you desire-a special person made specifically for you.
"Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart."
July 14 2008
wonderful movie (wedding crashers), wonderful quote:
"True love is your soul's recognition of it's counterpoint in another."
:) :) :) :)
July 10 2008
i just went shopping for my dress for the fairest of the fair pageant....and i found the PERFECT DRESS!!!!! i didn't have my camera, so i didn't get a pic. but take my word for it, it's beautiful!!!!! everyone has to come see me in the pageant. that's an order.
...i don't understand
July 10 2008
to tyler and austin
July 08 2008
to tyler and austin:
this is a bit late, i know, but i wanted to inform the two of you that my dog, sadie, had to be put down a few weeks ago.
:( please don't cry.
July 02 2008
June 20 2008
June 19 2008
. WHO WERE YOU NAMED AFTER?
??? no one
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
it's been a while since i cried over a person. i cried at youth camp last week.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING
yes i LOVE it
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?t-totally. no duh
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
no and i'm being honest which is sad.
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT?
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS
yeah and i'm not sure what they are for.
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
no. i don't like to sometimes i have to
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
yes....wait, in which ways?
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
mint chocolate chip...or something with a lot of chocolate
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
guys: eyes, smile, and hands
girls: amount of makeup they wear
15. RED OR PINK?
red. pink is disgusting
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOU?
why so negative??
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU?
i really don't give a rip :)
19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
pj pants with winnie the pooh all over them...and i'm barefoot, like it should be all the time.
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATEa grape with some fruit dip on it. yummm
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
hockey, soccer, baseball. i like watching football, but i don't understand it. lol
27. HAIR COLOR?
blonde with some red and dark brown. lol
28. EYE COLOR?
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
30. FAVORITE FOOD?
this pasta that tamara made me. it was SO good....mmm
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
the bucket list
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
35. HUGS OR KISSES?
36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND
once again, i don't care
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
watership down, eclipse (for the third time), the bible, anne of green gables (for the second time) :)
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
a mouse. duh!
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
nothing i don't like tv. it's for losers.
42. FAVORITE SOUND?
the sound of the angels singing when that one person smiles. lol j/k my mother's singing
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
in a hospital
47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
a homeschool family
June 02 2008
June 01 2008
Talent is God-given; be humble.
Fame is man-given; be thankful.
Pride is self-given; be careful.
May 30 2008
[ ]I had an asthma attack
[ ]Smoked A Cigarette
[ ]Smoked A Cigar
[ ]Smoked Weed
[ ] Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
[ ]Drank Alcohol
[X]Been In Love
[ ]Been Dumped
[ ]Been Fired
[ ]Been In A Fist Fight
[ ]Snuck Out Of A Parent's House
Total: 1Level 2:
[X]Had Feelings For Someone Who Didn't Have Them Back
[ ]Been Arrested/Seen Someone You Know Get Arrested
[ ]Made Out With A Stranger
[ ]Gone Out On A Blind Date
[x]Had A Crush On An Older Person
[ ]Skipped School
[ ]Slept With A Co-worker
[ ]Seen Someone/Something Die
Total: 3Level 3:
[x] Been On A Plane
[ ] Thrown Up From Drinking
[X] Eaten Sushi
[ ] Been Snowboarding
[ ] Met Someone BECAUSE Of Myspace
[ ] Been Mosh Pitting
[x] Taken Pain Killers
[X] Love(d) Someone Who You Can't Have
[ ] Been in a BAD relationship
Total: 7Level 4:
[x]Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
[x]Made A Snow Angel
[ ]Had A Tea Party
[ ]Flown A Kite
[ ]Built A Sand Castle
[x]Gone Puddle Jumping
[x]Played Dress Up
[x]Made A Pile Of Leaves
[x]Jumped Into A pile of leaves
[x]Cheated While Playing A Game
total: 15Level 5:
[ ]Fallen Asleep At Work/School
[ ]Used A Fake/Someone Else's ID
[x]Watched The Sun Set/sun rise
[X]Felt An Earthquake
[ ]Kissed A Snake
[ ]Been Robbed/Vandalized
[ ]Robbed Someone
total: 20Level 6:
[ ]Pet A Deer
[ ]Won A Contest
[ ]Been Suspended
[ ]Had Detention
[ ]Been In A Car/Motorcycle Accident
[ ]Had/Have Braces
[X]Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
[X]Had deja vu
[X]Danced in the moonlight
[x]Hate(d) The Way You Look
total: 24 Level 7:
[x]Witnessed A Crime
[x]Questioned Your Heart
[X]Been obsessed with post-it-notes
[x]Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
[ ]Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
[x]Swam In The Ocean
[ ]Felt Like You Were Dying
[x]Cried Yourself To Sleep
[X]Played Cops And Robbers
[x]Recently Colored With Crayons/Colored Pencils/Markers
[x]Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
[x]Made Prank Phone Calls
[ ]Laughed until some kind of beverage came out your nose
[ ]Kissed In The Rain
[x]Written A Letter To Santa Claus
[X]Been Kissed Under A Mistletoe total: 38Level 9: [ ]Watched the sunset w/ someone you care/cared about
[ ]Made A Bonfire On The Beach
[ ]Crashed A Party
[ ]Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
[x]Had A Wish Come True
[ ]Been Humped By A Monkey
[ ]Jumped Off A Bridge
total: 42Level 10:
[ ]Screamed 'Penis'
[ ]Swam With Dolphins
[x]Got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cube/Popsicle
[ ]Kissed A Fish
[x]Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
[ ]Sat On A Roof Top
[x]Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
[x]Done/ATTEMPTED A One-Handed Cartwheel
[ ]talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
[x]stayed Up All Night
total: 47Level 11:
[X]Picked & Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
[ ]Climbed A Tree
[X]Had/Been In A Tree House
[x]Have been/Are scared To Watch Scary Movies alone
[ ]Seen a Ghost
[x]Have/Had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes or Flip Flops
[ ]gone streaking
[ ]Been to/Visited Someone At Jail
[ ]Been Pushed Into A Pool With All Your Clothes On
Level 12: [x]Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
[ ]Broken A Bone
[x]Are/Been Easily Amused (very)
[x]Caught A Fish
[x]Caught A Butterfly
[x]Laughed So Hard You Cried
[x]Cried So Hard You Laughed
[ ]Mooned/Flashed Someone
[x]had someone Moon/Flash You
Level 13: [x]Cheated On A Test
[x]Forgotten Someone's Name
[ ]Slept Naked
[x]French braided someones hair
[ ]Gone Skinny dipping In A pool
[ ]Been Kicked Out Of Your House.
[x]Rode A Roller Coaster
[x]Had A Cavity
total: 64Level 14: [X]Been Used (horrible feeling)
[x]Fell Going Up The Stairs
[ ]Licked A Cat
[X]Been shot at with a paint ball/bee bee gun(OW!)
[ ]Had sex in a field/garden
[ ]Flattened someones tires
[ ]Drove in a car until it ran out of gas
[x]Had five dollars or less and bought something.
Final Total: 70 out of 140 (haha i got exactly half.)
May 27 2008
have you ever heard someone tell you something like: "if you love something, let it go. if it comes back then you know it's true"???? well...no matter how badly i don't want to do that, i think i have to. also, do not get upset because i'm not telling you every little detail. i just hope it does come back. at least for a while...
let me state that i do realize i must work for what i want. i am willing to. but there are some things in this life that no matter what you do as a person, you can not change them. you can not keep living a fairy tale thinking that you can fix every problem. you can't. sometimes you have to sit back and let "nature take its course." you can't change the way others feel. you can't change what others do. you can't keep pressing an issue that is not getting any better with your "help". if you back off, they wonder what's going on. if you press harder, they wonder why you won't drop it and let it go. so i'm letting it go.
May 23 2008
Two names you go by:
1.Poochea 2.flintTwo things you are wearing right now:
1.blue and white dress 2.my favorite necklacethings you want very badly at the moment:
1.wisdom in certain areas 2.a certain wish to come trueTwo people who will fill this out:
1.Grace maybe 2. Megan
Two things you did last night:
1. wrote a paper 2.went to krogerTwo things you ate Yesterday: 1. really good pie 2. spaghetti
Two people you last talked to: 1Ross 2Dad Two things you're doing today:
1. going to graduation 2. taking a shower
Two longest car rides:
1. Michigan 2.CanadaTwo favorite beverages:
1.Water 2. tie between sweet tea and root beer.
May 22 2008
May 21 2008
Am I the stubborn one? I think not. You only believe what you believe because you've told yourself that so many times, now you are convinced. I am not. Am I the wrong one? I think not.