my voice teacher, Donna Shearron! i love her! she's my 2nd mother!

my brother, Bosly! he chose to pose like that lol he's awesome!

desktop of our home computer. my mom and dad Christmas morning

my buddy LaDonna-she's moving to Florida for 6 months >.<

West Side Story rehearsal went well last nite. but i realized during workouts that i am such a fat kid! lol i need to get in shape! lol

"I go my way
Humming a song
If it makes no difference whether I may cry or smile
I smile"
-Ayu (Humming 7/4)

Yesterday was awesome! ^^ i went to church, then La Siesta, and home and i napped and then went to Elissa's which was awesome!

Quotes of the day (yesterday):
"I was just threatened by a topless boy." -Chase, Zoey 101
"They throw rice and chicken at his head." -Elissa's Spanish worksheet

i'll post pictures later ^^

"Even if the mistakes are repeated again
Everything, included your heart, is devoured completely
Snuggled up to the outstretched arms
The pale eyes closed"
-Gackt (Dispar)

Bos and i rented Kronk's New Groove but didn't have time to watch it til this morning cuz we went to Scott's, which was a blast! ^^ I love the Russell family! >.< We ate pizza and cake and talked and played Pictionary. Girls team (me, Donnie, Elissa, Debi, Bos, and Kyler) won! w00t! Then I went home and showered and went to work. I came home this morning and Bos and I watched our movie which was pretty good... i'm going to Hastings later to take it back... and maybe buy a CD or sumthin...

"Everyone surely has darkness
Hidden somewhere in their heart
Sometimes it prevents them
From living as they wish
We can't imagine other people's pain
It's hard for us to share it
But if I meet someone
Whom I really want to face
I don't want to feel fear"
-Ayu (About you)

Raye and Bos Day!

We're gonna go hang out, maybe do some shopping, and rent Kronk's New Groove ^^

Goin to Scott's tonite! w00t! ya gotta love the Russell's! ^^

"I don't want to hear nor speak
The fine words any longer
The pain will be getting worse
So I just accept it"
-Ayu [(miss)understood]

some pics from LaDonna's Going Away Party:

Rae stuffin her face lol

Donnie (i surprised her)

Donnie's counting off to sing Happy Birthday to her nephew Andy ^^ he's 5 ^^

Donnie and Andy ^^ awww

Donnie's Going away cake

Andy's B-day cake

Bos eating his ice cream

 like sister...
like brother lol

Tomorrow... Raye and Bos Day! ^^ w00t!

last nite, bible study actually went pretty well... we're doing a pretty funny skit this Sunday that my brother will be starring in. come check it out! Sunday morning @ 10 @ Blackman High's gym.

tonite is LaDonna's going away dinner @ Ryan's >.< it'll be fun but i'm gonna miss her.

tomorrow is Raye and Bos Day! my brother and i are gonna spend some quality time together! i love him! he's so awesome! ^^ we'll prolly go see a movie or maybe even just hang out, go shopping, etc.

I REALLY can't wait to see Wicked >.<


http://www.beyondtherainbow2oz.com/wicked-a-new-musical-in-pictures.html

"Giving a smile fit for each situation
Saying plausible words
I go blank
It's about time to end up pretending to be impassive"
-Ayu (INSPIRE)

Kelvin Hill is really cool.

"Do you think you have controlled everything
With a knowing look?
We are not dolls
Who are only dreaming"
-Ayu (my name's WOMEN)

"Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out"
-Muse (Time is Running Out)

i'm gettin me a clarinet! ^^

somethings i love (in no particular order):
Dirty Rotten Scoundrels the musical
Soymilk
Wicked the musical
Elissa
cake
Ayumi Hamasaki
my mom
Gackt
Big Red gum
Jackie
Sherie Rene Scott
my computer
CDs
Norbert Leo Butz
sleep
Rae Rae
my TV
Brady
Aida
Adam Pascal

"hello, Steven? Steven! HAHAHAHA! Steven, you stop calling the dressing room! Steven Speilburg. HAHAHA! Steven! I'm not naked! You stop! I'm not naked this time! You silly! I know you're married!"- Sherie Rene Scott (on the phone)

http://www.broadway.com/gen/Buzz_Video.aspx?ci=512808

so... yeah... today... yeah... life... yeah...

somethings i love (in no particular order):
Dirty Rotten Scoundrels the musical
Soymilk
Wicked the musical
Elissa
cake
Ayumi Hamasaki
my mom
Gackt
Big Red gum
Jackie
Sherie Rene Scott
my computer
CDs
Norbert Leo Butz
sleep
my TV
Brady
Aida
Adam Pascal

"hello, Steven? Steven! HAHAHAHA! Steven, you stop calling the dressing room! Steven Speilburg. HAHAHA! Steven! I'm not naked! You stop! I'm not naked this time! You silly! I know you're married!"- Sherie Rene Scott (on the phone)

http://www.broadway.com/gen/Buzz_Video.aspx?ci=512808

"Choosing only the things you like
isn't irresponsible.
If you can't find anything you like
then why accept the responsibility?
I take only the possibilities that I'm ready to accept."

today was nice and full. I went to church after work this morning. then we (Jordan, Apes, Sayray, Elissa, mom, dad, Bos, Matt, The Russells, Will, Mel, Garrett- forgive me if i forgot someone) went to Cap'n D's for lunch. Then Elissa went with us to my cousin's first birthday. Chocolate party cake is amazing! >.< Elissa came home w/ us after the party and we watched The Little Mermaid. we didn't finish it cuz she had to be home at 6:30

but here are some pics from today:

I saw Hunter for the first time in forever! he kept tryin to take my picture >.< you gotta love the Bodle man!

Elissa smiling like the Emma

Emma and Debi ^^ both so adorable! >.<

Will gorgeously magical hair ^^

my lil cousin, Dakota ^^

the party theme was cowboys lol (Karston and Cason-- two other cousins)

the craw-dad i caught in the creek! w00t!

one of my most favorite ppl in the world- my Uncle Steve ^^

so there you have it. my day.

so, i just had a really great time w/ Brady and Jackie ^^ we went to O' Charley's and then we went and saw Tristan & Isolde. it was pretty good. sweet, funny, violent lol we had fun making fun of it too lol but off to work i go ^^

"Despite my strong desire,
I started giving up.
I'd find it, release it, and sometimes
there were nights when I hurt myself.

If there were something I could give to you,
If there were something I could give to you,
It would be my unchanging, certain thoughts."
-Ayu (NEVER EVER)

so... i worked last nite... on my way home this morning, i just wanted to do something you kno? just something. so i called my mom but she said she wasn't ready to go do anything so i came home and after a few hours, i transformed into this lazy monster... my lack of sleep is setting in...

itz like there's so much i wanna do.
and so much i need to do.
and it seems like i can't do anything... *shrugs*

"We've arrived in these times.
But somehow things move on
So somehow we're standing here
and we're living through today."
-Ayu (evolution)

I'll just post the main parts, like one's that have solos (i would post the entire cast but that would be alot of typing):

Riff- Daniel
Tony- Greg
Action- Kyle
Bernardo- Brady
Maria- Sarah/Elizabeth
Anita- Olivia/Alison
Rosalia- Rachel Chase

yeah, thatz right, I'm Rosalia and I'm greatful... I have alot of lines and solos ^^ so this is a big "YAY GOD!"

"We are scared of tomorrow
Because we are so anxious about what we haven't yet seen
But if tomorrow is too obvious to see
It's so much boring
Don't you think so?"
-Ayu (Beautiful Day)

have you ever decided not to think about something and then thatz all you can think about?  it makes my head ache and my stomache churn...

"Why am I so powerless and stupid?"
-Ayu (criminal)



"Even in the freezing pain, I still remember kindness
If you can erase everything, than I don't even need this heart"
-Gackt (Ash)

So, today went pretty well... I went to the Prom fashion show and had a lot of fun. i even did really good acting/singing A Boy Like That in 5th period for Choir.

there's alot i wanna say.                    but i shouldn't say it. so i won't...

what is it? 

i just think i might cry...

"There are lots of stars
As if to fill the gap between thick clouds
They are shining like a prayer
Almost like a shout
And my chest is constricted
I hope the morning will come for me soon
Before I can't hide up my weakness"
-Ayu (HAPPY ENDING)

Call backs for West Side Story are today... >.< and i am SOOO nervous. but i dressed up for em and everything! ppl have been so nice about it... but i'm so scared... *prays*

"Even if you think yourself as too bold
It's just good
To be frank, I'm reluctant
To be prudent and reserved
Don't watch me quietly, stand up and show me
Be free
Raise your voices
Let me realize
That you are there"
-Ayu (Bold & Delicious)

"Every time we come to a fork in the road
We choose one and go forward
But the other way we didn't choose
Always looks so bright
Why?



What's a Beautiful Day?
What's a Beautiful Day?
When you hesitate over a choice, surely (You know)
What's a Beautiful Day?
What's a Beautiful Day?
You already know
That you are just hesitating to choose the answer you want to choose

It's a Beautiful Day
It's a Beautiful Day
You don't have to be afraid

What's a Beautiful Day?
What's a Beautiful Day?
It's easy to get a beautiful moment, but (You know)
What's a Beautiful Day?
What's a Beautiful Day?
You already know
That you can't get beautiful things just by being beautiful

It's a Beautiful Day
It's a Beautiful Day
You don't have to be afraid

What's a Beautiful Day?
What's a Beautiful Day?
When you hesitate over a choice, surely (You know)
What's a Beautiful Day?
What's a Beautiful Day?
You already know
That you are just hesitating to choose the answer you want to choose






What's a Beautiful Day?
What's a Beautiful Day?
You already know
That you can't get beautiful things just by being beautiful"
-Ayu (Beautiful Day)

so when i looked at the call back sheet for West Side Story this morning, i wasn't there and neither was Ashley Brown... but.. Donna Shearron (i went to her for comfort lol) told me that Mama G just talked to her for like half an hour about how she thought about it last nite and wanted to call back me and Ashley. and then in music theory Mama G pulled me aside into her office and told me she wanted to call me back ^^ and then in Choir 5th period she called back Ashley and Lupoli! ^^ and a bunch of ppl i love got called back as dancers! w00t! now i'm goin over to Rae's to practice lines ^^ I LOVE YOU ALL!

"There are so many choices
That I can't make any guess
Where I like to find my way at last
But as we walk side by side
Expecting the same future
I feel nothing is so true as your profile
Because you know?
There is nothing but love
That is valuable in the end"
-Ayu (ourselves)

so when i looked at the call back sheet, i wasn't there and neither was Ashley Brown... but.. Donna Shearron (i went to her for comfort lol) told me that Mama G just talked to her for like half an hour about how she thought about it last nite and wanted to call back me and Ashley. and then in music theory Mama G pulled me aside into her office and told me she wanted to call me back ^^ and so i'm thinkin and hoping that she'll call Ashley back too ^^

yay!

thanks for your support, all! ^^

so... just got back from WSS auditions and i feel great!!!! that was the most amazing audition i've ever done! i've never felt so good singin in front of ppl! and i even felt i did well acting-wise too! ^^ and they held me after w/ some other girls too so i think i'll get called back! ^^ i mean, if i don't, i'll just die >.< but i'm very proud of myself

for a while... my days sucked but lately every day has been beautiful. in itz own way

"I go my way
Humming a song
If it makes no difference whether I may cry or smile
I smile"
-Ayu (Humming 7/4)

so i was reading my magical rainbow Bible at breakfast this morning and i really liked this verse:

"Stop judging by mere appearances, and make a right judgment."-John 7:24

"It was a cold day
I kept on waiting
Just for you
In the hard rain
I was afraid of nothing
I could even think
That even if it was the last day of my life
I didn't care
People who were
Happily smiling together
Passed just close to me
So many times
But I was smiling
More gently than anyone else
Standing alone
Without an umbrella"
-Ayu (rainy day)

last nite, i had a blast at Brady's watchin High School Musical! (i LOVE that movie! i am so gettin the soundtrack! ^^) after that, i went to work and you know i took my camera and we did some pictures this morning:

Caleb's scary face

my scary face

Caleb watching Spongebob

the picture Caleb took of me

the amazingly delicious pancake Brenan made for me

Brenan showin off his pancake skills lol

Caleb eating pancakes

the past few days have been good but now in these next few days i am cursed... and WSS auditions are the next 2 days... -_-