February 18 2006
yeah so... i went to the mall lastnight. it was the absolute worst time of my life ever. urm... we showed up.. and corey and eliza were arguing, that was pretty bad, my friend wasnt working, ben was there, and that made my heart fall to the floor, i got some new BUGGIE GLASSES and yeah.. well i had a little fun. tony took me to mcdonalds and we talked. but it was still really hard for me not to just break out in tears. i just, wow, i just dont want that kid to get hurt agian (ben) and i saw him, and he didnt look happy. idk maybe she makes him happy in all the ways i cant see, but i just. i just dont want to see him get hurt again. i really dont. i cant describe how much i like that kid. i have known him forever and an effin day and... i thouhgt things were going good. and all she does is say one word and its like i dont even exist anymore. but i guess... i guess thats what friends are for.