God is the center of my life. Other interests are: drawing, or any kind of art including graphic, oil, and others, photography (especially b&w, and old looking stuff), horseback riding (love this!), learning fun words, hanging out with my awesome friends, and anything you can think of that's fun, especially if it's thrilling.
January 31 2006
January 28 2006
Off topic.... have you ever found it strange how joyful you can still be even when you are sorrowful. I miss her. But God has done so much in my life. He has restored the joy, and now though I may mourn and cry, I have His joy. God is so good.
January 20 2006
Talk to y'all later, leave me some comments!
January 18 2006
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January 12 2006
PS. you all need to comment on my art!!!! pretty please I want to know what you all think.
January 11 2006
Really criticize away. I am not going to feel hurt really.. most of what is here are excercises and practices, I know I could use improvement. So don't be shy really give me some feedback... pretty please?
January 11 2006
Last week was a bad week I admit that I had a bad attitude for part of it, and I messed up some things, but I am fixing it. Thank you for commenting on my last post. It helped.
Between now and when school starts I'm going to be swamped!! ick!
So what's going on with you all? Do you ever feel like you are two people? The person you feel like you are and want to be, and then the person who keeps messing up and having to deal with stuff?
January 06 2006
So someone told me that I needed to do this name thing.... tell me what you guys think... that means you have to comment!!
You are both a visionary and a realist able to bring your dreams into tangible form. Pioneering and ambitious you accept new challanges and the responsibilities which go with them willingly. Your sound judgement, resourcefulness and posative nature means that your progress in life is assured. Certainly your kindness and generosity to others and your inspirational manner attract success as well as many admirers.
Grace : Hebrew
Charming, witty, original and idealistic you have a creative and inventive mind with great intuition. Your broad vision, perceptive powers and compassion gives you an instinctive understanding of peoples needs.You are a natural leader who has a talent for inspiring and teaching others and always display fairness, honesty and integrity. You are always a new challange for your vast creative potential.
You are an inspiring leader whose originality, creativity and wisdom are applied to creating practical solutions to "unsolvable" problems. Humanitarian and idealistic your vision is to make the world a better place and you will work to this end. Hardworking and tenacious people admire you for your honesty and integrity. You are a loved and loyal friend and partner. You have the potential to achieve success in the world.
Ok so obviously everyone wants to think they have potential for success, but is any of this really me?
January 05 2006
Life is good, God is better.
Hope you all have an awesome day!!
January 02 2006
Grief is a strange thing and so many times I feel this twisting pain that hurts more than anything I had ever experienced. And yet I was also thankful that she no longer suffered, because there were many times when she would cry and tell me she wanted to go home, not home to tennessee but home to be with God her Father. I want to thank a few people again for how much they did for me.
Hooper, Chris Morgan, and Randy, faithfully called me every day while I was in Washington you have absolutely no idea how much those calls meant.
Everyone who helped here at my house to keep it running while I was gone, including, Mrs. Candi, Mrs. Danita, Mrs. Donna, and Mrs. Suzanne.
So many things since then were packed into my year. Showing that life doesn't stop. Since then I worked my tail off to finish all my highschool requirements on time, graduated early, competed in national fine arts, did secretarial work for my father, and completed my first semester at MTSU.
It's a strange feeling sometimes because you almost don't want life to go on... people say "life goes on" and sometimes I wanted to start screaming and say that no it shouldn't... so many things have gone wrong and I have messed up in so many different ways. But life does go on and all we can do is remember that God is in control. I have learned to enjoy life in the present no matter what is going on, and I have learned that maybe, maybe sometimes it is ok to cry and think back, but I shouldn't always see that as weakness and beat myself up for it.
God has blessed me... He gave me a wonderful family, he gave me time with my mother, she was more than just a mom, she was like a best friend and my mom, I learned so much from her, and I will see her again. He gave me a Dad with strong faith, brothers and a sister to lean on, and to give me a feeling that I can give to them as well as draw from them.
I have decided that maybe I am a little stubborn as some tell me, and that that is a blessign from God because if I wasn't than I would have givven up on some of this stuff I have been going through as of late. But instead I have gotten through it with persistance, but most of all with the help of my savior, Christ.
And He has also given me the best friends anyone could ever have, friends who cried with me and supported me, who when I was at me weakest points, including that night my mom passed away, have gathered around me and helped me through it all. I love you all. Thank you so much
And thank you that you have all taught me that you can have joy, laugh and be thankful even at times as now when I am sitting here thinking how rediculous I must look sitting crying over a keyboard because I am so grateful. I love you all really you all know who you are. and I am proud to have such caring and wonderful friends.
December 30 2005
So phusebox is back up... well I suppose that's obvious. I'm in New Hampshire right now, and I got to play in the snow!! built an igloo and a snow-woman/caroler and got to know Jeff's fiance, Anady, better. I also went ice skating for the first time ever!!!! It was sooo much fun! I'll try to put pictures of my vacation up here....
I know all you people back there miss me and yeah I miss you all too... haha sure ya do. anyway christmas was amazing, loads of fun!
So yeah life without school is definatly awesome and I really don't want to go back right away... ::sigh:: but yeah there is a lot of stuff that I need to do before then.
So are you all making any new years resolutions?
I am going to:
Start (or continue as I have the last week) running, doing my workout routine and eating more healthily (word?) so that I can lose some weight.
Read the one year bible again... I haven't gone through the whole thing in a while, unless you count my devotions, but those are usually pretty much new testament, old occasionally but I always find myself going back to favorites for devotions.. like james, I &II Timothy, and Psalms.
Be more organized with my school... I need to get caught up with filing and get my room in shape.
And continue trying to have more fun... not changing what I do but have more fun doing it... basically enjoy what God has given me, but don't mistake that as kicking back, I want to do more for Him now than ever! Life should be completely and totally lived for Him, and that is my #1 priority.
So any resolutions? I think it's fun to hear others.
December 16 2005
Your Birthdate: June 24
You understand people well and are a natural born therapist.
A peacemaker, people always seem to get along when you are around.
You tend to be a father or mother figure to friends, even to those older than you.
You enjoy your role, and you find that you are close to many people.
Your strength: Your devotion
Your weakness: Reliance on others for happiness
Your power color: Lilac
Your power symbol: Heart
Your power month: June
December 16 2005
I have also been out with my horses, the cats, out in the hot-tub, and christmas shopping. It's not that I don't have anything to do, but I have had just enough to do to keep me busy while getting to do fun stuff in-between.
and MY COMPUTER IS TOGETHER!!! Windows still needs to be installed and some small stuff. but it's together! (for those who don't know I'm building a computer.) It rocks! It's better than Paul's or Chris'!!! YAY!.. (sorry I had to brag)
On another note.. don't you love having friends!!
PS.. have you noticed that I learned to type in a way that is as if I were speaking and that is not so formal! aren't you guys proud of me?
December 14 2005
December 12 2005
December 10 2005
I love you all dearly,
Now don't shed a tear,
I'm spending my Christmas
With Jesus this year.
I know she is happy. And, yet still, everything that went on in Washington still stays clear and heavy in my mind. She is wiht Christ, well and rejoicing. But the images of things past cling. It seems sometimes, that only those who are older, desire for their time to be with Christ, to hasten in it's coming, but I sometimes so desire that time to be now. Chirst is the only one to whom you can draw close, without the fear of losing that one. I want to draw closer to Him. May I always remember that He should be my focus.
December 02 2005
Are we all going to be caught up in the stress and rush of getting everything done? I really want to make sure that I take time to enjoy this break. I don't want to forget about, excuse the cliche, the reason for the season. I mean, I don't think that I will actually forget it, but with so much to do I may get lost in the hurry of everything.
I would like, because I have more time over break, to spend more time in my devotion tme. Do you all ever feel like you are trying to give your life to Christ, but you keep doing your own thing while you are "waiting for Him" to give you somehing specific to do?