I read something in my book, Seeing Yourself as God Sees You, that made me really think...It's talking about a girl that Josh McDowell heard about at one of his conferences..

"She is one of the prettiest girls in the world, but she thinks she is incredibly ugly, she considers herself grotesque. That's why she can't trust anyone who says they love her. It's as if she is saying to God, 'God, if you love me, you must be a real jerk.'"

I was completely taken back by that...I'm not saying I'm one of the prettiest girls in the world because I know I'm not it's just like I've been saying that to God for the past 15 years. It just kind of hit me that it seriously does not even matter what I look like...my heart...the way God made me on the inside is the beauty in me. Some of the people I have the most respect for are those who don't have the prettiest figure or face and who get made fun of, but they still keep there heads up and don't let that stuff get them down. I look at those kind of people and I'm like, "Man, if only I could just brush it off like they do...I would live my life with so much more joy and happiness" People can be so mean but honestly it really doesn't matter...and I should never let it bug me. If my confidence truly lied in Jesus then it wouldn't bother me..

Then this was in the book..

"A loving God holds the key to her identity. Only he knows her true worth, which is infinately more precious than her appearance, performance, or status. Only he can fill her longing for acceptance, love, and meaning."

God continues to slowly but surely open my eyes to all of this stuff. Thank you for the prayers. I just can't imagine where I'd be without my Lord Jesus...He's the love of my life.

Have a wonderful weekend! God bless.

Andrea

"But the Lord said to Samuel, 'Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.'"- 1 Samuel 16:7