In A Relationship
November 12 2006
Three years ago I had an energy for Jesus I thought I wouldn't lose.
Two years ago I was going through a depression I thought wouldn't end.
One year ago I realized that though my faithfullness to God had paid off, the energy I had for Him had almost stopped.
It's so hard to see the world as I saw it at 17.
I was almost in tears as I drove to Panera Bread with Mom last night.
God doesn't change, this I know.
It is I that changed, and I love Him so much, but I cannot figure out why I'm having such a hard time being on fire for Him again.
I know He is faithful. He has led me this far, and He continues to.
I really used to feel like I was a light for Him.
Now I don't.
I want to be a light.