ah frick today was such a good day :) :) :)

 

WHAT IS MARCH 15TH? ANYBODY KNOW?  WELL, I WILL TELL YOU. ARE YOU READY TO HEAR IT?   JARRED MILLARD WILL BE FINISHED WITH Emergency Response Training! 

We are taking on the 40 Day Revolution at my church mostly with our youth group. A lot of the things have to do with school, but since we aren't in school I'm asking all of you guys to pray for our or your schools. Pray for all the issues at our schools. Ask God to help the spiritual climate of our schools.

HAPPY

 

 

 

:)

 

 

 

last year today what were you doing?

well some of you were totally stoked about going to Hawaii with the mime team.  Yes, that is right tomorrow will be one year since we went here the first time.  Its kinda crazy how everything has changed since then and its only been 1 year. 

well just thought i would remind you guys

i found when you look for an easier way out to problems the problems will come back to you.

 when I start to accept my responsibilties , and prepare to what i have to, i really find a lot gets easier.

 things get easier when i am determined to get it done anyways, and im not looking for it to.

 

So today is my birthday, and I turned fifteen. I guess it's pretty cool that it snowed on my birthday except it messed things up a little bit. It was fifteen years ago today that I was born...and it was snowing really heavy. I think that's pretty cool. Other than that it just seems like any other day. I don't feel any older. I don't get any presents today. My did get me a brownie cake though which was really tasty. Oh, and Keri and Batey called me and sang Happy Birthday to me which made me happy. I thought everyone had forgot it was birthday today. I remember in sixth grade I did forget it was birthday. I was at Leslie Littleton's birthday party, and I just totally forgot. Sad, I know. Overall, I guess I've had an OK birthday this year. At least I'm here to 'celebrate' it.

 Prayer Requests

My dad

My cousin

My youth group

The guy I wrote about in an earlier thought

All my friends traveling while on Spring Break

Unspoken

That my birthday party works out

 

I was on my way back home from Nashville yesterday and somebody with road rage decided to bump my car from behind. The speed limit on the interstate was supposed to be 70mph, but I was going 80 to make room between me and that crazy driver.

There were only two lanes and the lane next to me was free, but the driver didn't move over. So I moved over to let that person pass, but instead they moved over behind me. I moved over again...to let them pass, but they moved over behind me again. I sped up to 90 mph and the other driver did the same. The whole time this was going on, it was raining heavily and I could barely see out the window. Next thing I know, the driver sped up to 100 mph and changed lanes only to ram into my car on the right side...running me of the road. Luckily there wasn't a wall there or any on comming traffic...but there was this field of grass there.

When they rammed into my car, they broke my headlights...making it worse for me to see out the window...and since the right side of the car got damaged pretty bad, it cut into my tires on the right side and blew them out. I am so glad that God is always in control, because the car should have flipped over several times, but instead it didn't. I should have been pulled over by a cop for driving without any lights...and with 2 flat tires, but instead God's grace prevaled again. I made it back to MTSU on two blown tires and no headlights...in the pouring rain...heavy rain, without even being pulled over by the police.

My caution lights were even broken and yet I was safe the whole trip back to MTSU...

it was supposed to have this song.

Wow so like I thought I had this perfect thing planned out. Erin was going to come over tonight and meet my mom. Then tomorrow mom and I were going to head to N.C. My old "home." Well everything kinda got screwed up. Because of ice I will not be able to see Erin or my mom tonight. My mother got stuck out side of Memphis and is in a hotel for the night. She will be picking me up tomorrow at 8ish. Arriving in NC much later than previously planned. Erin did not get to come over because of ice as well. Kind of dissapointing but I guess that is life. I am some what tired though of letting myself get excited or hopes up about something. It has happened too many times and I am annoyed at being let down. I don't understand I had such a high gaurd but eventually I let it down...silly. I told myself that there is no reason to be hurt because of a person, still is. I won't let it happen again though.

 

note: not the song of the week.  

So right now I'm extremely frustrated. There is not one day that I can have my birthday party where everyone can be there. And even though I know I can't control the weather or other things, I feel like it's my fault. My mom told me that I can't please everyone, but she failed to mention that the birthday girl is not pleased right now. I just wanted one day where all my friends could be there, but that just seems impossible to do. So I don't know what to do. I guess I'll just have my party next week and whoever comes comes. Hopefully things will be fun, but I don't know. :-(

I've been reading some very unique books lately. If any of you have read Jane Eyre and Wuthering Heights you know what I mean. They make you think it such a....um, unusual way. I really think that the people that wrote them were not right in their head when they did. They have some misconcepts about....well, a lot of things. 

 I have been reading a book about apologetics. I've realized that I need to know more about things like that. I'm also gonna start reading "The Case for Christ" which seems like it will be really good book.  I've already read "Mere Christianity" but didn't like that all that much. I'm starting figure out exactly what I believe and why. I've realized working at Kohl's that the people I'm around will not always agree with what I believe. Which is ok. But, I want to make a mark on their life. I want them to know when they walk away that I'm different. I've always been around people who were "like minded" but now I'm not. It's pushing me to know withut a doubt what I believe kinda like what 1 Peter 3:15-16: "But in your hearts set apart Christ the Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect, keeping a clear conscience, so that those who speak maliciously against your good behavior in Christ may be ashamed for their slander." That is my goal. 

 Revival at DFA has definitely helped that. I'm learning to lean on God more than anything else. Something Pastor Steve said on Sunday night really got me thinking. He said that we need to rend our hearts to open to God. We need to become so desperate for God that we can't live without Him. That's were I totally want to be. And I'm starting to get there. : ) 

Ha life is so funny. I mean really, sit back and look at your life.......now that you've done this, did you think you would end up where you are? I sure as heck didn't think i would be where i am. Where am i? you ask...(if you didn't ask..to bad your gonna find out :P) I am sitting in a chair at the computer..rather cold but deeper then that i'm slipping and moving forward at the same time. Its rather weird..i mean everytime i hear or read something about my EXBestFriend / EXboyfriend life is the one thing i dont want, no lie i stop breathing and die a little more. But when i'm with anyone else or at church i'm a whole other person. I laugh and smile and really mean it. At times i'm moving forward in Christ, i finally found where i need to be and i have an idea where i need to be and people NEED me. It always feels good to be NEEDED. And yet again i'm crushed b/c someone that makes me smile...has let me down...and my mom is always on my case for not being who she wants me to be. You know what i need...you guessed it..a girls night with FLINT! :P Face paint...laughing..randomness! sounds like a party! :P hahaWell yeah now that this is overly long and no one will read all this so i better just close it off and say sorry for not making you smile today..i'll try better next time.

hhmmm.... what do you think about altruistic people?

Pretty Pointless and not that worth your time. God and I have had a kind of weird relationship. I am not completly sure where I am at with him all the time. I am not talking about if I am saved or not but just who he is and who I am. I never mention God much at all during the day and I am fine with that. I don't call myself christian, because I hate most christians. They are so frigging judgemetnal, hypocritical, fake, and liars. The best part about it is that they don't even notice it. I know i just describbed a lot of my christian friends. But any way this is not a rant. God and I have just kinda been like two really good friends that grew apart. We talk about hanging out more but then I just blow it off. Truth is I didn't care all that much. Now I see and understand that God wasn't just wasting air when he said "hey lets get together some time." It took a lot of pain to realize that. Now I am being pushed to be this leader that I know I can be and I now understand why God wanted to hang out more. God has this certain will that WILL get done. I realized that he will try to prepare you for what is going to happen but if you don't listen you will have to prepare yourself, because it is going to happen. Before and really still, I won't talk about God. I know that I am not really at the place to be a representative to him, not yet. I have been changing like crazy to get there. Ya know I learned that it is not good at all to be a different person in different places. A lot of you who see me at school know that I am not the same at school. I say a lot of things I would not normallly say but that is what God has really been working with me about. With a little more work and sweat I will be the man God wants me to be.

uhm basically you aint gonna like how this guy talks but

its what i hear a lot so deal with it

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If you are menopausal, put the gun down, hang up, turn on the fan, lie down and cry. You won't be crazy forever.

If you are blonde, don't press any buttons, you'll just mess it up.

This coming week is National Mental Health Care week.

You can do your part by remembering to contact at least one unstable person to show you care.

Well, my job is done .....Your turn

Are you happy that you met the person who posted this before you?
uh duh

Do you like orange juice?
eh it hurts my tummy...:P

Reason behind the last time you threw up?
sickness...but i don't remember when it was

Do you have unlimited texting?
no i have super limited!!!  which means no texting!!!  YEAH!  not.

Has anyone lied to you today?

probably but if they lied in the first place, why would they tell me???  tha's stupid.

What kind of shampoo do you use?
uh...some neutrogena stuff.  it smells bad.

How many myspace friends do you have?
a big fat ZERO

Isn't it a little late for you to be up?
um no it's only 9 o clock, homie.  gosh.

What song made you cry last?
i don't remember for they are few and far between. 

Sex?
GURL.

Who was the last person to abuse your trust?
i am not real sure...i don't think anyone has...and if they did i don't have a reason to bring it back up.  it's the past! 

How many times a day do you brush your teeth?
like 3 or more usually...fun

Do you like ring pops?
yeah they are the biggest rock i will ever have on my finger!

What do you think when you look in the mirror?
ewww what's that

What does your hair look like right now?
wet and curly...ish

What's your favorite brand of crackers?
AUSTIN!!!  lol

Last time you snuck out?
well....not ever

What's the reason behind why you last cried?
um i was at church and the sermon made me cry.  it was awesome

Ever dated anyone in your top 4?
i ain't not never ever dated no one

Do you like bananas?
um this is a freakin random question.  yes, i happen to quite enjoy the banana.

Do you try in school?
um sometimes.  but most of the time i don't have to.

Are you happy that you met the person who posted this before you?
yeah

Do you like orange juice?
Its okay

Reason behind the last time you threw up?
I don't remember the last time. I was probably really sick.

Do you have unlimited texting?
i WISH

Has anyone lied to you today?

How would i know. The only people i talked to were Seth,Sam, and Scooter

What kind of shampoo do you use?
Dove, i think

How many myspace friends do you have?
like 47 i think

Isn't it a little late for you to be up?
its like 5:30...lol

What song made you cry last?
uhmmm none 

Sex?
Female.

Who was the last person to abuse your trust?
Thats easy Tyler

How many times a day do you brush your teeth?
3times..or more:P

Do you like ring pops?
sometimes

What do you think when you look in the mirror?
wow there are two of me. lol j/k i dont know what i think

What does your hair look like right now?
horrible lol

What's your favorite brand of crackers?
i have not a clue.

Last time you snuck out?
never

What's the reason behind why you last cried?
I dont feel the need to tell you but thanks for asking anyway

Ever dated anyone in your top 4?
not my top 4...but go a little farther down and you might find someone......

Do you like bananas?
they are good

Do you try in school?
Yes

 

Yes some of you have noticed that I have a cowboy hat, I like it. I just bought it monday and I love waring it I need to get it fixed a little more to my liking though. It is fun to mess with. Tell me what you think about my new cowboy hat.

photo from austincaresnot

Soo. I'm a little bored, and I though I'd write(type) about the last couple or three days.

 

Saturday: Was a blast. I spent almost the whole day by myself, and sometimes that's nice. It was a lovely day, and when I got up, I found Momma organizing the closets. YIKES. That definitely meant I needed to spend the day outside. So I did my chores, grabbed my knife, a gun, flint and steel and some string, and went on my merry way. I decided that I would just chill in the woods, and see if I could kill anything and eat it(I'm particularly fond of squirrels). First off, I went down to the pond and decided to try to catch a fish. So I cut off about six feet of string, whittled a fish hook, and went to look for some bait. Rotten logs are usually good places to find grubs, so I found a log, rolled it over, and found a salamander instead of the grub I was expecting. I reckoned he would be good bait, so I caught him and cut off his head. Trot line in place, I went to look for some meat. I went around beating the brush, and scared up a couple of cottontails, but they always seemed to be running toward the house. I couldn't shoot in that direction, so I decided to build a rabbit trap. I've been trapping rabbits with Curtis for years, and so I went to the house for a shovel, and built one. There really wasn't much to do but wait, and so I Just whittled and shot at trees to pass the time, but eventually, I had to go in and go to bed.

 

Sunday: I stayed home from Church because my brother was going to call from boot camp, and someone had to be there to take down his address. So I got up early that morning, and it was a lovely Spring day again, so I sat outside under a tree and read my Bible for about an hour. Then I went inside and cooked breakfast, and stumbled my way through a few hymns on the piano. It was really a great time, and I realized how much emphasis we put on church for Church's sake. Then I just read, and played the Fiddle until Curtis called. They only let him talk for three minutes, but it was good to talk to him. It took that long just to get his address, so I didn't get any details about boot camp, but it made me realize how much I miss him. Pretty soon after that, I went to bed.

 

So now you've had a look at my EXTREMELY exciting life. Happy Birthday.

 

Yep. 18. Older.

 

Now all I have to do is graduate. Then I'm outta here. 

lol fun times :P

lol wow we are so amaZingly weird :P

well.

my granddad is home now. and doing a lot better. 

we're still praying for a full recovery.

 

 since last post, i've been a little better i guess..just learning to live with stress and pain. i never knew i would miss my aunt this much after 9 months. i mean, i honestly wasn't even that close with her...and maybe that's my problem? i don't know. things have been really tough for me since then.

 

 i went to a linkin park/coheed and cambria/chiodos concert last week. it was a lot of fun...and the concert was amazing. getting out of the house was the best part though, not to mention it was all paid for my a friend. :]

 

but yeah...i think i'll go for now.

maybe i'll update more often....haha.

 

seriously though, keep me in your prayers still...

i'm definitely not out of my storm yet. :/

 

love you guys.

[becca] 

 

Our youth conference this weekend was so amazing. Probably one of the best ever. During our sermon yesterday, the preacher talked about what has really bothering me the past year. He talked about how so many Christians, me being one of them, are 'empty suits'. We have the appearance of a Chritian, but we aren't living it outside of church.

having a form of godliness but denying its power. And from those people turn away!

2 Timonthy 3:5

 

Last night and well into the early hours of this morning, our room talked about what the sermon meant to us. Two of the guys came to say goodnight and ended up staying in our room until about one in the morning. What started out almost getting us in to trouble, ended up being one of the revivals ever. One of the guys paticular, I really honestly feel like God spoke to him last night, and is going to continue to work on him. We aren't really best friends, but I've known him for a pretty long time. As we were talking about things he's done wrong, he actually began to cry. I felt bad at first because I was practically yelling at him, but now I feel like it made him realize he needs to really surrender his life to the Lord. I just want to ask everyone to pray for him and the rest of my youth group. Last night we found out a lot about some of the people in our youth group, and we really need some help. Just pray that we will all stop being 'empty suits' and really do something. 

 

2 songs called "what's this life for" & "higher" by Creed inspired me...  
"i see your soul its kind of gray, you see my heart
          you look away."-whats this life for?
   " at sunrise i fight to stay asleep,
cuz i dont wanna leave the comfort of this place."-higher

   Will i be ashamed when you see my heart, or will you know it's there from the start...
 Is it better to hide my deepest sins or confess them when they first begin.
If I tell of my struggles you'll know i'm not strong,
 but will everything you've ever known of me be shaken
if it all hits you one day?
 I don't wanna leave my comfort place, I rather just get away from just another day!
 but is that fear in me? is fear okay to be scared of?
take me higher, but will you even touch my hand after you see me fall?
 is it stronger to hide it all, or is it stronger to
show all the falls & scars....

  

will you be ashamed when i see your heart, or will i know
 it's there from the start..
 is it better to hide your deepest sins or confess them when they first begin.
 If you tell of your struggles i'll know your not strong,
 but will everything i've ever known of you be shaken
if it all hits me one day?
 i know you don't wanna leave your comfort place, you rather just get away from just another day!
 but is that fear in you? is fear okay to be scared of?
 ill take you higher, but will i even touch your hand after i see you fall?
 is it stronger to hide it all, or is it stronger to
show all the falls & scars....

Okay so i am going to be happy! Yaaaa all smiles here! How are my people? No one is ever on PhuseBox other then my girl Flint. Well tomorrow i have to wake up super early, like an unGodly hour so i can go somewhere with Flint. I dont even know where i'm going...all i know is it has to do with Cars and i have a feeling i'll be taking alot of pictures like always. Well even though life sucks BIG TIME i'm gona smile and try to make other people happy. B/c making other people smile or laugh makes me WAY happy so i think i shall smile more and look down less! I should keep my head held high, i've done nothing wrong or anything to mess anything up, so i should be oh so happy! yeah...right....Well thanks for reading my oh so boring and meaningless "thought" leave me stuff if you feel the need to be nice and make my day :P(oh and Flint i dont feel like messaging you but i was thinking about when we went to Main-Street..and i just so happened to be doing that just at that time when we came out of the oh so amaZing pink store were i said the word Giggly is so much fun to say and the lady looked at me funny :P lol fun times!)

Have you ever wondered why we want the people we cant have and that we have the people that we really dont want? I really like this guy NOW and i come to find out that my chance has come and passed. Okay he used to really like me but i wasnt ready for a relashionship with him and i didnt really like him that mmuch then well i kinda did but i was scared to go further with him and of course when he asked me out i said no BIG MISTAKE, and now that he doesnt like me that much anymore i really really like him and i just dont know how im gonna get over him i really want to but for some reason i just CANT i used to think it would be easy to just STOP liking someone but i've come to find out that its not that easy, you cant just make your life come to a halt and stop loving someone ( can you ? ) Well i dont know truthfully i dont think i ever will but somehow it will work its way out i hope! ( advise please )

i got a new girl

nuff said

 

 

my girlfriends super cool :)

even if she teases me about my country accent.

 

well i just have a second and no one really reads these so i dont really know why i even put anything up. But i might was well.

 

Uhmm yeah so life is rather crappy. I never get to see my friends and the one night i get to see *someone* my brother was watching me like i was a new TV show. It was so sad..so i didn't get to TALK to *someone* and that made me rather sad.

well my times up.

G2G

 

Really like this song. There are a few parts where I am just like, wow I have heared a lot better from the drums then I am like, WOW nice drums. I am in no way better than any of them at probably anything but that is my opinion and I am sharing it. Well please enjoy Avenged Sevenfold's "Unholy Confessions"

1. How many people have you held hands with within the past month?

3 

2. What's your middle name?
Danielle

4. Will you have a valentine this year?

that passed, and I did have one

 

5. Is it easy for others to make you feel intimidated?

nope 

6. Do you have unlimited texting?
technichly yes, but never use it?

7. Wheres your girlfriend/boyfriend at?
somewhere when I'm ready

8. Are you on a desktop or laptop?
desktop

9. Do you have fast reflexes?
nope, except when I fight.

10. Can you make yourself cry?
No? why would that be an accomplishment?

11. What are you planning to do today?:
chill with kenneth, emily, fuzzy, robert, lauren, dustin s., etc. Maybe go eat at strattons...

12. Do you have a crush on someone?
YEP.

13. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
No, I've come to realize we all make mistakes. I just so happen to waste a fraction of my life I'll never get back

14. What are your favorite colors?:
rainbow/tie-dye (yes they are colors)

15. Have you ever had your nails done?
yes.

16. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing right now?
The Childrens Shop

17. Have you ever kissed someone who's named starts with an M?
Matt :)

18. Have you ever passed out?
yessss. haaaaa. amazing

20. Are you easily confused?:
when it comes to the opposite sex; yes

21. Do you think you would make a good wife/husband?:
nope. I'd leave him. It's in my blood to leave. So I'm just gonna live in sin with the love of my life? when I find a new one. Or I'll get a male-order man.

22. What's your favorite kind of ice cream?
orange

23. Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
Plenty, controlling is like crap too right?

24. Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
mostly yea

25. What color are your socks?
hate socks

26. Has anyone ever borrowed something from you and never returned it?
yep.

27. Do you fall for people easily?
nopee. it takes alot for me to say "I Love You" it's not just three words you throw around?

28. Everything happens for a reason?
yes.

29. Have you ever dated someone more than once?:
nope, try not to. second chances never matter, people never change. Unless Rehabs involved.

30. Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
nobody

32. In your last relationship did you break up or were you broken up with?
I broke up with him.

33. When is the last time you talked to number 1 on your top friends?
a while

34. What are you listening to right now?:
Spongebob... brothers are watching it extremely loud

35. What does your last incoming text say?
i miss you

36. What stands out about the person you like?:
his tats. lol

37. Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?
nope, I've already told everyone what I've needed to say.

38. What is your biggest turn off?
when someone tells me about another girl; when i like that person? stupid.

40. Who was the last person to stay in your bed?

Dustin Hoggatt. not fun. 

41. Do you prefer being single or taken?
I'm not sure? I've realized right now datings not my thing, since I like someone and I don't know if he likes me back? happends alot. I usually have feelings for someone who doesn't like me back?

42. Do you love anyone?

kinda? it's a feeling of love but I'd never be with him?

(Hugh Laurie a.k.a HOUSE!) amazing isn't he? 

43. Last person of the opposite sex you said I love you to?

Tim, the first person in a long time, but as a brother.

44. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?:
yes.

45. What is it you truly want right now?
a nuclear explosion. destroy a certain state. mwa ha ha ha.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

1. Do you like blue cheese?
nope

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
uh no I do not believe so

3. Do you own a gun?
yep, just incase he comes around.

4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
sweet tea

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
yes

6. What do you think of hot dogs?(animal-scrap)
I don't eat hot dogs, or hamburgers.

7. Favorite Christmas song?
uhm "i wish every year there wasn't christmas?"

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Coffee

9. Can you do push ups?
nope

10. Can you do a chin up?
whats it gonna prove? nothing.

11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
my gages.

12. Favorite hobby?
writting

13. Ever been in a car wreck?
yes.

14. Do you have A.D.D.?
uhm no.

15. What's one trait that you hate about yourself?
my face.

16. Middle name?
Danielle

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment..
1. I wanna chill with kenneth
2. I don't care.
3. I think this one guy is kinda pathetic

18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
1. chicken
2. a shirt
3. coke... a cola.

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
1.) coffee
2.) amp
3.) sweet tea

20. Current worry?
acuna matata= no worries

21. Current hate right now?
none

22. Favorite place to be?
my yard

23. How did you ring in the New Year?
I don't remeber

24. Where would you like to go?
africa

25. Name three people who will complete this?
tyler (already has), grace, i think carmen

26. Do you own slippers?
no

27. What shirt are you wearing?
tree huggers are better than baby killers shirt.

28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
uhmmm no

29. Can you whistle?
nope

30. Favorite color?
rainbow & tie-dye again

31. Would you be a pirate?
nope. A ninja, they're better than smelly pirates.

32. What songs do you sing in the shower?
free style

33. Favorite girl's name?
Williow, Godsisters name "Willow Robyn" she's 1 and amazing

34. Favorite boy's name?
Kadyn Shay

35. What's in your pocket right now?
I don't have pockets.. HA HA HA!

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
not having pockets!

37. Best bed sheets as a child?

ninja turtles

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
dog bites

39. Do you love where you live?
nope.. not one bit

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
3.

41. Who is your loudest friend?
josh

42. How many dogs do you have?
ZERO!

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
Honestly I don't care?

45. What is your favorite book?
too hot too handle

46. What is your favorite candy?
skittles twizzlers

47. Favorite Sports Team?
none

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
Bright Eyes Land Locked Blues "And we can trade places play musical gaves, until we're free start runnin away"

49. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
waiting

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
and you are?

" if my heart has been enticed by a [man]or if i have lurked at my neighbors door, then may my [husband] grind another [woman]'s grain and may other women sleep with him."

Job 31:9-10

  i read this the other day & thought wow! i never thought of it like that, so that is my prayer to God , not just the lust factor of my life but including it too, may that my thoughts , the way i treat people, the thoughts i think in a wrong sense may it be done to me also. 

There are very few things that bring me to tears these days. Infact only about 3: "Saving Priviate Ryan," A good Scrubs episode, and this last spot is open to whatever happens to do it at the time (wich is a very narrow spot). Now as you can tell I don't have a tear in my eyes very often, why is that you ask? It is not because I am a guy because I know plenty of guys that cry, and I am one of them...if it fits my requirement. But this time it was because I let my self get caught off gaurd in a deep wonder. I wonder if that gatorade and one can of soup will keep them both warm, I wonder if they will get what they need to make it through the night on the side of the street. I wonder if they really tried in life or if this is just a cop-out. I wonder how long it will take for another person like us to stop and give what they have. It doesn't have to be much but do a selfless act for once you self-rightous pricks. Maybe that is why I don't have tears in my eyes as much, this world full of disgusting, and self centered peices of crap. I can't believe some people.

"Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."

 

my favorite poem, random.

but i saw it.

and it made me smile.

  BEAUTY AND THE BEAST......

  10$$$

  IM IN IT

 MARCH  6++7

  COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEE PLEASE!

 CREEK wood

It's kind of funny how when you hear other people say some of the very things you've said yourself, you realize how silly it sounds, or at least you realize there's something wrong with the statement.

 

Over the weekend, I worked with 8th grade girls for One Weekend. And it really struck me Saturday night when they were talking about how they approach prayer, and what they talk to God about. And let me just preface my next sentence by saying that I am a terrible example of how a Christian's prayer life should be, but hearing what they said really hit me. While they were talking about what they talk to God about I asked them, "When y'all pray, do y'all do all the talking?"

 

"Well yeah," they replied, like what else was supposed to happen?

 

"Do y'all realize that prayer is a conversation with God, and you need to hear what He's saying?"

 

I could tell that resonated with the girls, and it resonated with me too, because I'm just the same as them. I rarely ever sit still long enough to listen to His voice. But it only makes sense that He would talk back to me, because a relationship does not fall on the shoulders of one individual.  

 

And you know, maybe if I took the time to actually carry a true conversation with God, I would realize some things so much sooner than I do. A perfect example would be the fact that I just had to back out of AO's Spring Break trip to New York, because I realized that I couldn't do that and so many other things I needed to plus maintain rest and communion with God. It was way too much and I've been wearing myself too thin as it is.

 

So I did as what Jerel calls, "laying the fleece out", and asked God that if I wasn't supposed to go, to please quickly find someone to take my place. So I told Hodge how I felt and boom - next day, I was replaced. Just like that. And while I paid like $200 and don't get to go, someone else gets to go for free, and to them, that may be a huge blessing. And just knowing that makes me feel better. If I had listened long ago, I wouldn't have been in this situation, but thank God I finally did listen, and thank God that someone else is being blessed. And it will be so nice to finally have a week to rest. 

 

Changing the subject, I've been to many Disciple Now events, whether it was Journey at my church in Houston or One Weekend at Belle Aire. I've gone to one every year since sixth grade, even during my college years since I've been a leader, totaling to ten of these things. The one that really truly sticks out in my mind more than any other is from my freshman year of high school.

 

That weekend we reflected on John 15, and how it is vital to abide in Christ. Our speaker for the weekend was Clayton King, and I remember him talking about how if we are to bear fruit for Christ, we have to be prunned (trimmed) and that can hurt! But it's so important. And I was able to mention that to my girls this weekend, and it was just neat to see what a resonating theme that is. As a Christian, we're going to go through fiery furnaces, and we may be rescued and we may not, but abiding is essential, and when we're focused on Christ and His purpose, then we are exactly where we need to be. It's easy to get comfortable where we are. But as I type, I can see out of the corner of my eye some pictures from M-Fuge this summer, and I remember that I'm not supposed to be comfortable in my set ways. I'm supposed to be glorifying Him. 

 

But you know what's really great about that? It doesn't mean I always have to go on mission trips, just as I'm learning this year. Sometimes it means resting in Him and hearing what He has to say. And I hope I don't miss that this next week.  

"Desperate for changing,

starving for truth.

I'm closer than where I started

chasing after you.

I've fallen even more in love with you

letting go of all I've held on to

I'm standing here until you make me move

just hanging by a moment here with you."

-life house-

"hanging by a moment"

 

goshhh.

i'm ready to give up...

i'm tired of hurting and longing for comfort.

it's annoying to think you're gonna

have your old life back when you

wake up in the morning but in reality your not.

But the brightside is i'm dealibng with it.

kinda?

So something has to be seriously wrong with me. I'm already stressing about next school year. I'm already worried about failing algebra II honors. The only thing is I know as I hadn't taken it that I would have regretted it. I'm still waiting for the regret of taking it. Sometimes I just wish I could be a stupid person and not care about my grades, but then I wouldn't get anywhere life which is definately not good. At this point in time I plan on relearning everything from eighth grade in algebra I this summer to get ready for algebra II, and I'm most likely going to have my head in a book twenty-four seven next year studying. My friends tried to get my to take regular algebra, but my mom really wanted to take honors. She also said the ultimate decision was up to me, but I just didn't want to let her down. Sometimes it feels like its more stressful coming from a dumb family then a long line of super geniuses because I'm the first person to come along that even has a chance of being something important. So if I mess this up, everyone's going to be really dissapointed. Other times though it seems like my parents don't really care how well I do in school. I mean they do, but I guess it feels like they just assume I'm going to make good grades. Which most of the time I usually do, but when I don't do so well I don't know how to tell them. I just wish I could be smart. I mean I know I'm smart, but I mean really smart so I wouldn't have to worry about my grades, but unfortunately I'm not so I have to turn to writing about on here which you guys probably really don't care. So yeah, how has your day been?

Take this quiz and find out how girly you are. (GUYS TOO) Put x's beside each thing that's true. Each x that you put is one percent. Have fun!! erase x's from other people when you are filling it out


[] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
[] during the summer the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[x] my favorite toys as a child were barbies, Bratz, etc.
[] my favorite color is pink or purple
[x] I did Gymnastics
[] I love skirts
[x] Hollister and/or American Eagle are my favorite places to shop
[] tight jeans are the only jeans i will wear
[] I own Victoria's Secret PINK pants
[x] i did ballet as a little girl
Total: 4


[x] my hair is almost always straightened
[] I own a purse from Coach or Prada
[] I love to hang out at the mall with friends
[] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace or earrings
[] In the summer i have to have a tan
[x] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[x] I love reality shows
[] Bobby pins are my best friend
[] I wear a shower cap
TOTAL: 7


[] I don't shop at Hot Topic
[] my cell phone or ipod might as well become a part of me
[x] I wear mascara everyday
[] bathing suits are adorable
[] I don't know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[] big sunglasses are hott
[] I have gotten my nails done before
[x] I own over 10 purses (but i don't carry any of them)
[] MTV is one of my favorite channels
TOTAL: 9


[] all I want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
[] I love people doing my hair
[] I give and receive hugs from all my friends
[x] I hate bugs, especially spiders
[] carnivals are so fun
[] Summer is THE greatest thing ever
[x] my swimsuit has 2 pieces
[x] Im waiting for my knight in shining armor
[x] musicians are so hot
TOTAL: 13

[x] i am self-conscious
[x] I cry often
[] i pick out shampoo and conditioner strictly based on smell
[x] I don't like sports
[x] I HATE to run
[] I squeal when i am surprised or angry
[] i eat fruit as a snack
[x]I love romance novels
[] Drew Barrymore is so cute
TOTAL: 18


[] I dance a lot.
[] I only have 5 billion hair products
[] I love to get dressed up.
[] every part of my outfit needs to match
[] I talk on the phone at least once a day
[] I would love to have a photo shoot
[] I apply lip stuff 50 times a day
[] I wish I looked like a model
TOTAL: 18


[] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton
[] I wanted a bra way before i ever needed one
[] i own Birkenstock's
[x] i love music
[] I pop my collar
[] I like to be the center of attention
[x] guys with mohawks are weird
[x] u gotta love rainbows
[x] I'd rather not pay attention in school
[x] KITTIES are adorable
TOTAL: 23

[] I write my own music
[x] I'd love to visit Hawaii
[] Valentine's day is cute
[] I would not be caught in all black
[x] My closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[] I like to read magazines
TOTAL: 25

[] I love to talk
[x] I had Lisa Frank folders/posters/notebooks as a kid
[] I love Celine Dion
[x] I have or still do plan ahead for my wedding
[] My friends and I are in a strict group.
[x] I like little kids
[x] soda rules
[] I am or at one point was a vegetarian
[x] love chocolate!
TOTAL: 30

[] check my myspace/email everyday.
[] I love life
[x] i have a lot of jewelry
[] I have to shop
[] i show my legs almost every day
[] I have a friend named maddie (I had, when I was little)
[x] i would never want to be the other sex
[] Its not what they said it's the way they said it
[] I have more than 3 pillows on my bed
TOTAL: 32

Sometimes i think about life after death i know there has to be more than what meets the eye i know for alot of people when they think of the end they think of being buried but i know there has to be more than just taking a ride to your grave in a hearse but i know whatever happens after death everyone is going to experience so i guess ill just wait and find out for myself.

Jarred will be home in a little over 2 weeks. He has been very busy. Spent 2 weeks in Dive Training in Miami and then 1 week in Ash Flats, Ar. helping out the tornado victims by cutting down trees and clearing their property.

I know that he will be glad to see all of you. 

It's been one of those days where you just need a hug you know. bible study was good though. piece

Would You Improv for God?

Are you one of the 5 Million + viewers who have checked out the 'Frozen Grand Central Station' You Tube video? If you haven't checked it out- here's the link.

If you have seen it, you probably had some of the same reactions as I did. It's both fascinating and freaky weird as you see 200 improv actors simultaneously freeze in place at one of the busiest places on planet earth. They are 'frozen' in mid-step, picking up papers, and all of them have obviously been trained well to stay as motionless as possible.

I'm sure the stunt brought mixed reviews. You could see that some were annoyed (i.e., those with little to no sense of humor) - and others were probably convinced the aliens had finally landed and commenced with their global body snatching plan (i.e., those with way too much free time).

Would you ever do something like that? I think I might enjoy being part of a harmless public stunt - except of course in Grand Central Station, where I'm pretty sure you'd get your wallet or purse stolen if you froze for even 5 seconds.

It seems to me that most people just go about the daily grind with little outside thought until something creative and radical happens. It also seems to me that this is true in a spiritual sense with your friends who don't know Christ as well. Sure, maybe you've had a few 'talks' about God, but after a while it gets in a rut, and you never seem to get beyond a certain point - right?

Ah - but this video gives me an idea that just might help you in this area. No, freezing in place in a crowded public area is not what I had in mind, but doing something creative and radical for God publicly in front of your friends is one of the best 'rut killers' around. For most people these days, the God talk tends to remain just that...talk...that is until it's backed up with radical action.

And it's not like this is a new plan or anything. It's actually one of the primary strategies that people in the Bible have used for centuries. Here's a short list:

Noah - built a gihugical boat. How is that radical? Well, since it had probably never rained or flooded before, the entire population of the world thought Noah was one French fry short of a Happy Meal. But aren't you glad he went ahead with his public project? Yep, he saved civilization.

Joseph - dared to tell the Pharaoh of Egypt that he could interpret dreams. If he blew it, he'd be toast inside a few seconds. But he went ahead with the triple dog dare, and - oh yes, saved civilization.

Daniel - threw open the shutters of his home and prayed to the God that was despised by the all his neighbors - even though it could bring him the death penalty. And it did. Only instead of death, he gained some new furry friends in the lion's den.

I could go on and on - but do you know who completed the most radical and life changing public act of all time? You guessed it - God Himself. He was so desperate and crazy in love with the people of planet earth that He came down here wrapped in flesh. He lived a perfect public (and private) life, led a miraculous public ministry (can you say feeding 5000 folks from 5 loaves of bread and two sardines?), and of course, He died one of the most cruel - and public- deaths that you could ever imagine. Oh yeah, then He came back from the grave and appeared in public to over 500 people in 40 days.

Talk about a radical and creative way to get people's attention for God!

And it worked. Now it's your turn. Auction off your iPod to give money to the poor, skip a movie and volunteer at a homeless shelter. Start a public blog that does nothing but investigate the claims of Jesus. Pass out pro-life flyers near an abortion clinic. Use your imagination - but keep it completely motivated by this message:

For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life. (John 3:16)

Freezing in Grand Central Station is cool - but even cooler would be to do something that caught the attention of people around you and turned it - not to You Tube...but to the God who wants an eternal relationship with them.

Head: What you need to know about this truth

People who don't have a relationship with God through Jesus Christ need to see radical and creative evidence of vital and authentic Christianity.

Heart: What you need to feel about this truth

Simple question: If you were put on trial for being a Christian, would there be enough physical evidence to convict you? If not - perhaps it's time for a heart check and a lifestyle shift.

Hands: What you need to do about this truth

Write down a few ideas you have about radical and creative ways to show the world that you are a Christian, then get together with your youth leader and youth group to discuss how you could put those ideas into action.

 

© 2008 Dare 2 Share Ministries

so I feel the need to tell you all who are going to be sick in the future and love the effects of Nyquill but hate the taste as much as I do, do not, ever, wash Nyquill down with orange juice. Rooky mistake. I wanted to throw up more than I did before. now all of you, rejoice in my pain!

I've realized that life is kinda scary.

me and matt broke up.

because of my fear of being hurt again.

i feel like crap.

but life goes on.

6 months  today! <3

 

LoL It isn't as good as the other one but Flint is rather funny in this one :) lol have fun watching us..being us :)

LoL Just laugh and have fun while watching this...we were way tired and had nothing better to do.and thats when all the fun starts right??? :) lol

Hey,

Okay so i'm not sure whats going on. I can be so happy then get this horrible sick hurt feeling that is the worst feeling ever.

But that horrible feeling goes away as soon as one of my close friends looks me in the eyes..i feel....the way i did with one of my other friends. But when that horrible feeling goes away i feel werid b/c the only person that used to be able to do that, crushed me..and now i'm scared this person is gona do that to me. This person isn't the kinda kid i would usually get close too....so i'm rather confused and scared.....but then again i'm so so happy.

Why is it so hard to figure things out?????!!!!????

Take this quiz and find out how girly you are. (GUYS TOO) Put x's beside each thing that's true. Each x that you put is one percent. Have fun!! erase x's from other people when you are filling it out


[x] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
[x] during the summer the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[x] my favorite toys as a child were barbies, Bratz, etc.
[x] my favorite color is pink or purple
[x] I did Gymnastics
[x] I love skirts
[x] Hollister and/or American Eagle are my favorite places to shop
[] tight jeans are the only jeans i will wear
[] I own Victoria's Secret PINK pants
[x] i did ballet as a little girl
Total: 8


[x] my hair is almost always straightened
[] I own a purse from Coach or Prada
[x] I love to hang out at the mall with friends
[] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace or earrings
[x] In the summer i have to have a tan
[x] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[] I love reality shows
[x] Bobby pins are my best friend
[] I wear a shower cap
TOTAL: 13


[x] I don't shop at Hot Topic
[X] my cell phone or ipod might as well become a part of me
[] I wear mascara everyday
[x] bathing suits are adorable
[] I don't know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[x] big sunglasses are hott
[] I have gotten my nails done before
[x] I own over 10 purses
[] MTV is one of my favorite channels
TOTAL: 18


[x] all I want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
[x] I love people doing my hair
[] I give and receive hugs from all my friends
[x] I hate bugs, especially spiders
[] carnivals are so fun
[x] Summer is THE greatest thing ever
[x] my swimsuit has 2 pieces
[x] Im waiting for my knight in shining armor
[] musicians are so hot
TOTAL: 24

[x] i am self-conscious
[x] I cry often
[x] i pick out shampoo and conditioner strictly based on smell
[] I don't like sports
[] I HATE to run
[x] I squeal when i am surprised or angry
[x] i eat fruit as a snack
[x]I love romance novels
[] Drew Barrymore is so cute
TOTAL: 30


[x] I dance a lot.
[x] I only have 5 billion hair products
[x] I love to get dressed up.
[x] every part of my outfit needs to match
[x] I talk on the phone at least once a day
[x] I would love to have a photo shoot
[] I apply lip stuff 50 times a day
[x] I wish I looked like a model
TOTAL: 37


[] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton
[x] I wanted a bra way before i ever needed one
[] i own Birkenstock's
[X] i love music
[] I pop my colla(r)
[x] I like to be the center of attention
[x] guys with mohawks are weird
[x] u gotta love rainbows
[x] I'd rather not pay attention in school
[x] KITTIES are adorable
TOTAL: 44

[] I write my own music
[x] I'd love to visit Hawaii
[x] Valentine's day is cute
[x] I would not be caught in all black
[] My closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[x] I like to read magazines
TOTAL: 48

[X] I love to talk
[x] I had Lisa Frank folders/posters/notebooks as a kid
[] I love Celine Dion
[x] I have or still do plan ahead for my wedding
[] My friends and I are in a strict group.
[x] I like little kids
[] soda rules
[x] I am or at one point was a vegetarian
[x] love chocolate!
TOTAL: 54

[X] check my myspace/email everyday.
[x] I love life
[] i have a lot of jewelry
[x] I have to shop
[] i show my legs almost every day
[x] I have a friend named maddie (I had, when I was little)
[x] i would never want to be the other sex
[x] Its not what they said it's the way they said it
[] I have more than 3 pillows on my bed
TOTAL: 60

Have you ever just sat and wondered about the future and asked yourself, am i going to make a family, or am i going to be successfull in the career i worked so hard for, or am i even going to live long enogh to get married. Lets face it the future is a scary place and we have to face it one step at a time whether we want to or not. Sometimes i just sit and try to plan things out but you have to remember alot of things dont go as they are planned i guess you just have to look at it this way god made plans for all of us so whatever happens in my life is meant to happen i just have to steer myself the right way until i get there!

A little hardcore but love the song, I know thatsome parts are hard to understand but they have some amazing lyrics. If you get a chance to look them up do it. Seriously they put some thought in your head, plus they are presented in this form and it is just awesome. Another clean Avenged Sevenfold song. Enjoy.

 

"We all know what to do but no one does it.
Now this time has passed and full of regret."

 

"To me you were my life.
To me you were my soul companion.
Now you are so far away.
Nothing can take away the times and the memories we had."

 

now just one more

 

"Two in my heart have left me a while, I stand alone.
When they get back, it won't be the same."

Take this quiz and find out how girly you are. (GUYS TOO) Put x's beside each thing that's true. Each x that you put is one percent. Have fun!! erase x's from other people when you are filling it out


[] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
[x] during the summer the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[] my favorite toys as a child were barbies, Bratz, etc.
[] my favorite color is pink or purple
[x] I did Gymnastics
[] I love skirts
[x] Hollister and/or American Eagle are my favorite places to shop
[] tight jeans are the only jeans i will wear
[] I own Victoria's Secret PINK pants
[] i did ballet as a little girl
Total: 3


[] my hair is almost always straightened
[] I own a purse from Coach or Prada
[x] I love to hang out at the mall with friends
[] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace or earrings
[] In the summer i have to have a tan
[] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[] I love reality shows
[x] Bobby pins are my best friend
[] I wear a shower cap
TOTAL: 5


[x] I don't shop at Hot Topic
[X] my cell phone or ipod might as well become a part of me
[] I wear mascara everyday
[] bathing suits are adorable
[] I don't know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[] big sunglasses are hott
[] I have gotten my nails done before
[] I own over 10 purses
[] MTV is one of my favorite channels
TOTAL: 7


[] all I want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys -
[] I love people doing my hair
[] I give and receive hugs from all my friends
[x(just spiders)] I hate bugs, especially spiders
[x] carnivals are so fun
[] Summer is THE greatest thing ever
[] my swimsuit has 2 pieces
[x] Im waiting for my knight in shining armor
[] musicians are so hot
TOTAL: 10

[x] i am self-conscious
[] I cry often
[] i pick out shampoo and conditioner strictly based on smell
[] I don't like sports
[] I HATE to run
[] I squeal when i am surprised or angry
[] i eat fruit as a snack
[]I love romance novels
[] Drew Barrymore is so cute
TOTAL: 11


[x] I dance a lot.
[] I only have 5 billion hair products
[x] I love to get dressed up.
[] every part of my outfit needs to match
[] I talk on the phone at least once a day
[x] I would love to have a photo shoot
[] I apply lip stuff 50 times a day
[] I wish I looked like a model
TOTAL: 14


[] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton
[] I wanted a bra way before i ever needed one
[] i own Birkenstock's
[X] i love music
[] I pop my colla(r)
[] I like to be the center of attention
[] guys with mohawks are weird
[x] u gotta love rainbows
[x] I'd rather not pay attention in school
[x] KITTIES are adorable
TOTAL: 18

[] I write my own music
[NOOOOOOO] I'd love to visit Hawaii
[NOOOOOOO] Valentine's day is cute
[x] I would not be caught in all black
[] My closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[] I like to read magazines
TOTAL: 19

[X] I love to talk
[x] I had Lisa Frank folders/posters/notebooks as a kid
[] I love Celine Dion
[x] I have or still do plan ahead for my wedding
[] My friends and I are in a strict group.
[x] I like little kids
[] soda rules
[] I am or at one point was a vegetarian
[x] love chocolate!
TOTAL: 24

[X] check my myspace/email everyday.
[x] I love life
[] i have a lot of jewelry
[] I have to shop
[] i show my legs almost every day
[] I have a friend named maddie
[x] i would never want to be the other sex
[x] Its not what they said it's the way they said it
[x] I have more than 3 pillows on my bed
TOTAL: 29

1. Was your last kiss a mistake?
uh i ain't never kissed nobody.

2. When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
Tuesday

3. If the world was to end tomorrow, what would you be doing right now?
i would take chances with some that i wouldn't dream of taking any other time.

4. What was the last thing you heard?
i don't remember

5. What is bothering you right now?
something, i can't pinpoint it, but everyone seems to notice.

6. Do you think slavery was wrong?
yeah

7. Have you ever seen somebody get shot?
in a movie :P

8. When was the last time you got into a physical fight?
i've never really been in a physical fight, technically.

9. Who do you tell everything to?
Grace and God.  that's it.

10. Have you ever taken a picture in a bathroom?
yeah i took my profile pic in a bathroom

11. Do you use big words?
uh yeah i guess so...people tell me i do.  i don't notice.

12. Have you ever been called a 'slut' or 'manwhore'?
hahaha lol *(inside joke, grace.)* yeah that'd be a yeah.
13. Where are you?
sadly, here.  not there.
14. Does your head hurt?
no but my heart does.

15. Favorite number?
i'd say something around the lines of 13.
16. Have you ever rented out a hotel room?
not me, as in carmen.
17. Have you ever injected a drug?
no thanks.  i don't roll that way.

18. When was the last time you saw your Father?
a few minutes ago, i believe.

19. Name a lyric from the song you're listening to?
i'm not listening to a song.

20. Do you use your friends?
i use them to talk to...and be friends with. :)

22. Do you fight with your parents often?
yes.

23. Where is the shirt you're wearing from?
um....it's mission 12:2 shirt.  it's from them or whatever.

25. Have you ever been in a car accident?
do not speak of car accidents.  i will get dizzy...again.

26. Do you have to check in with your parents before you go someplace?
uh yeah...do you know me?  no.

27. The thing that was bothering you before, is it still bothering you?
yeah i'm sure it prolly is

28. How often do you shower?
every freakin day.  random.

29. Do you know anyone with cancer?
yes

30. Do you have any picture frames in your room?
yeah a couple.  one has frogs on it.  i like it, quite a lot actually. 

31. Where did you spend Christmas?
at my house and my granny's

32. Ever smoked a cigarette?
I DON'T FREAKIN ROLL THAT WAY, HOMIE!

33. Do you think the whole day is better if you smoke pot?
yo homie, no.

34. Has anyone ever saved your life?
emotionally, yes.

36. Do you get good grades?
yeah sure why not

37. Have you ever been intoxicated twice in one week?
intoxicated on life.

38. Do you know a secret about anybody?
yeah sure.

39. Who cooks dinner in your home?
mi madre.  and occasionally, me.  if you call that cooking.  i just call it cereal and mac n' cheese. lol

40. Did you ever go to a special learning center?
i went to a school.  yay.

41. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
yeah a few times

42. Does a kiss make you feel better?
i do not know...never tried.

43.Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
um....naw.

44. Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
before.  what kind of freak starts the water in the shower?  that's wierd.

45. What did you do today?
school...parent teacher conference, breathe a little, drama.

46. Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?
no i do not recall doing such.

47. Have you ever thought about your death?
um yeah.  that's sad.

49. Have you ever had stitches?
no i am a safe child.  lol not

50. How long ago did you hug someone?
i really don't remember.  i think it was tuesday.

51. Do you like the Red Sox or Yankees?
um...i like red socks.  they are purty.  yankees are northerners.  bleh.  ick.  gross.  lol

52. What are you doing this weekend?
so far, nothing except a 5K...no biggie!!  lol (hey grace, i wanna go to the movies.!!!!.)

53. Have you ever given money to a homeless person?
no, to be honest, i am rather afraid of the hobos.  not really.  they are my friends.

1. Was your last kiss a mistake?
i've never kissed anyone, and i hope that when i do it will never be a mistake

2. When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
the other night, but it wasn't for a usual reason, it was actually for a more happy reason

3. If the world was to end tomorrow, what would you be doing right now?
i have no idea

4. What was the last thing you heard?
something on american idol

5. What is bothering you right now?
loneliness

6. Do you think slavery was wrong?
YES!

7. Have you ever seen somebody get shot?
no, and i hope i never do

8. When was the last time you got into a physical fight?
i've never been in a real fight

9. Who do you tell everything to?
no one, but I know God already knows everything, but just saying things out loud makes it seem real and worse

10. Have you ever taken a picture in a bathroom?
yeah

11. Do you use big words?
yeah, but i sometimes others think they are big words when i don't think they are

12. Have you ever been called a 'slut' or 'manwhore'?
yeah, sadly

13. Where are you?
my bedroom

14. Does your head hurt?
a little actually

15. Favorite number?
31

16. Have you ever rented out a hotel room?
with my family and youth leaders

17. Have you ever injected a drug?
no, i think that's absolutely stupid to do something like that

18. When was the last time you saw your Father?
a few mintues ago

19. Name a lyric from the song you're listening to?
not listening to a song right now

20. Do you use your friends?
no, that's just cruel

22. Do you fight with your parents often?
my dad

23. Where is the shirt you're wearing from?
goalpost

25. Have you ever been in a car accident?
no, and i really hope i never am

26. Do you have to check in with your parents before you go someplace?
usually i just end up going home with somebody and call my mom to pick me up sometime

27. The thing that was bothering you before, is it still bothering you?
yeah, i'm still pretty lonely right now

28. How often do you shower?
every day, which i hope most people do, unless they can't or something like that, then i feel bad for those people

29. Do you know anyone with cancer?
my uncle had cancer a while back

30. Do you have any picture frames in your room?
a lot of cheerleading pictures 

31. Where did you spend Christmas?
my house and my and aunt's house and my grandparents

32. Ever smoked a cigarette?
absolutely no, i think they are horribly gross

33. Do you think the whole day is better if you smoke pot?
refer to previous question

34. Has anyone ever saved your life?
Jesus

36. Do you get good grades?
i usually make straight a's but i've made a couple of b's

37. Have you ever been intoxicated twice in one week?
no, alcohol should be banned

38. Do you know a secret about anybody?
yeah, but of course i can't tell you

39. Who cooks dinner in your home?
my dad or mom or sometimes me or my sister

40. Did you ever go to a special learning center?
no

41. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
no, i really don't like piercings

 

42. Does a kiss make you feel better?
i don't know, because i've never had one

43.Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
no

44. Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
before, but it would probably be smarter to do it after since i get lots of water on the floor

45. What did you do today?
wake up and go to school and take some test and laugh a lot in first block (i love my first block) then eat and go home and then read and watch tv

46. Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?
actually yeah, but i was really rushed so i was multi tasking

47. Have you ever thought about your death?
yeah

49. Have you ever had stitches?
nope

50. How long ago did you hug someone?
i hugged my mom earlier tonight

51. Do you like the Red Sox or Yankees?
i don't really have preference

52. What are you doing this weekend?
a meeting for people to people. fun.

53. Have you ever given money to a homeless person?
yeah

I found the best shirt ever. I must have it! I am going to order this some time in the near future. "I would rather be waterboarding"  

 

 

http://www.thoseshirts.com/images/square-med-wtr.gif

1. Was your last kiss a mistake?
seeing there was no "last kiss" i couldn't say

2. When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
Wednesday the 13th of February

3. If the world was to end tomorrow, what would you be doing right now?
I dont know lol what kinda question is that

4. What was the last thing you heard?
Shawn saying something to Sam

5. What is bothering you right now?
My family

6. Do you think slavery was wrong?
Yes

7. Have you ever seen somebody get shot?
Nope, and i would like to keep it that way

8. When was the last time you got into a physical fight?
I cant remember, i try not to get in fights

9. Who do you tell everything to?
Jesus..no one else can be trusted..at lest thats what i think

10. Have you ever taken a picture in a bathroom?
yes.

11. Do you use big words?
Ha if i know what they mean...but most of the time, that would be a big fat no

12. Have you ever been called a 'slut' or 'manwhore'?
slut. they were just kidding though :P

13. Where are you?
In My kitchen..wishing i was somewhere else

14. Does your head hurt?
Not at the moment no

15. Favorite number?
45

16. Have you ever rented out a hotel room?
i haven't but my parents have.

17. Have you ever injected a drug?
No personally i think its rather stupid

18. When was the last time you saw your Father?
a year now..maybe longer

19. Name a lyric from the song you're listening to?
I Will Not Be Moved.

20. Do you use your friends?
No thats horrible

22. Do you fight with your parents often?
I try not to but....

23. Where is the shirt you're wearing from?
the camp i went to last year (86hours)

25. Have you ever been in a car accident?
no and i would like to keep it that way! I already hate riding in cars..so getting in an accident would not help that!

26. Do you have to check in with your parents before you go someplace?
parent-yeah..my dad would let me do whatever i wanted..he doesn't care about anything

27. The thing that was bothering you before, is it still bothering you?
yeah..lol why would it go away in a matter of minutes...

28. How often do you shower?
every day. And i hope you do too!

29. Do you know anyone with cancer?
I did, but they passed

30. Do you have any picture frames in your room?
Like one..i think

31. Where did you spend Christmas?
My house and with my moms family

32. Ever smoked a cigarette?
That would be a big no. I'm not into that kinda stuff

33. Do you think the whole day is better if you smoke pot?
Ha no. I think i pretty much just told you i'm not into that kinda stuff

34. Has anyone ever saved your life?
Not really

36. Do you get good grades?
i strive to..but not always

37. Have you ever been intoxicated twice in one week?
No gosh you people should get the picture by now!

38. Do you know a secret about anybody?
Thats creppy :P

39. Who cooks dinner in your home?
Anyone who feels the need to

40. Did you ever go to a special learning center?
no


41. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
nope

42. Does a kiss make you feel better?
wouldn't know

43.Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
Thats random, and no

44. Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
before. and who comes up with these random and rather creppy questions! lol

45. What did you do today?
watched kids at church, school, got on myspace and talked to friends over texts

46. Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?
no, again random question

47. Have you ever thought about your death?
Creppy but yes

49. Have you ever had stitches?
nope

50. How long ago did you hug someone?
Its been since new years

51. Do you like the Red Sox or Yankees?
Dont really care...

52. What are you doing this weekend?
Not a clue..Anyone want to go to the movies?? :)

53. Have you ever given money to a homeless person?
yeah

okay so last night was AmaZZZzzzZZZzing!
BUT (carmen) its not turning out so hot, Seth has a problem like i said he would!!! :( but HoBo said it will work out so i'm happy :) lol
HAVE A NICE DAY!!! :)

i dont want your sympathy.... But Gosh do i feel worthless right about now.... passed out til about 10  its just easier to sleep away sickness than anything else! plus my energy level is like a 10 , not a good combination!!!

 so im at home, sitting here at home,

playing on the computer sitting here at home.

 

 

oh yeah , i meant to tell you.

 Austin & I are on 6 months Monday!!

 A lot of people believed we wouldn't make it ,

and at the beginning our relationship,

 thats what kept me fighting to keep us together,

now when we struggle i fight because im scared i won't make it,

i fight because he would have my heart and though i know if it all blow up in my face i would still be breathing,

 i would just be breathing differently! hes become part of me....

more than any guy is or ever was

 

 im proud of the neclace he put around my neck that cold december night,

 Im proud of the football hoody he dared me to wear to school,

i'm also proud of the times we've struggled,

I'm proud of the times no words could even be said,

 but those words spoke louder than anything.

I'm proud of second thoughts,

I'm proud of  close moments,

where i could almost tell you what he was thinking.

im proud of nights i couldnt get him off my mind all night long,

im proud of tears i ve cried because of him.

Im proud of awkward conversations, where weve had to say "this isn't going to happen again"!

 im proud of pictures of us built from memories,

im proud of the person he has become because of me,

and the person he has made me.

 im proud of our silly conversations that don't go anywhere,

 im proud when he's moved my hair out of my eyes,

Im proud of the moments i felt locked into his soul,

 im proud of when he said any other girl wouldn't be me,

im proud of when i hug him like im the only one who gets to,

& im proud that he is the last thing i think about at night.

im proud of us making it this long , and im proud for whatever comes whether this be nearing end or just the beginning.

 

 

 

 

 

i was talking to my mom earlier today when i was at a pretty awesome outdoor store. though be it that everything was overpriced, they had some cool stuff. you gotta know your stuff sometimes when you go to these places, that can stick it to you sometimes.

 

but on to what my mom had to say.

 

she told me that she was listening to dave ramsey, whom i've listened to most all my life and i revere as a very knowledable person, whom was saying to a caller the other day that in this day and age, when job hunting, you have to have something specific to bring to the table. and my mom was asking me what i had to bring to the table when i graduate. well, i told her that was a good quesion. cause ever since i've decided to do public administration, i dont really know what i have to bring to the table. i could probably sell myself pretty well at a job interview, but that takes alot of confidence, and not that i dont have alot of confidence, but what do i have.

 

i still really wanna go to law school, so i should be studying for the Lsat, but i havent started yet. i should be studying more for what i am studying  now.

 

i'm watching the king and i right now. it's a good movie. a remake of an old movie from the sixties that i saw when i was in the 6th grade at central. there was a line in there that caught my attention:

"I wish to learn english to please his majesty."

teacher: "That is good but i hope more importantly you want to learn english to please yourself."

 

it made me think, ya, i need to learn something that is useful in life, something i can get a job with. but more importantly, why dont i learn something that i enjoy. that i like going to class for. that i like reading about. studying. discussing. maybe some of the classes that i'm in right now arent all that great. but it's still interesting to know how things work in government.

 

if you want to understand why things happen today you must first understand how they came to be over the years, and then understand how they work on a daily basis. so, history isnt that bad. i.e. if you want to know why south american countries are still considered developing countries, you must understand it's war torn past and military/political past.

 

anyways.

 

i'm tired of obama and his feel good message. his empty words. he has that sing song type speech kinda. they way he drags out certain letters to make it sound empowering and tug at your heart strings. he's telling the people of this country what they want to hear. that we need a change cause people believe that things are bad and it's because of the president. people should understand that the president actually holds a weak spot in governtment. maybe the reason things arent so great is the change in power in the House a couple of years back...

 

hillary isnt much better, but i dont think her words are empty such as obama. and, he accuses her of stealing his words of "yes we can", but in reality, thats the words of the farmers worker union. so really, he stole chaves words. Hugo that is. the "dictator" of venezuala. i call him a dictator. more than likely it's just a strong presidency. larger government=socialism/communism. universal health care=larger government.  it takes a while for things like that to evolve, but it could happen. you gotta watch out.

 

this post is getting way to long.

 

God will always provide. so i'm not too worried about what will come in my future. as long as i try my best and follow His ways, i believe it'll work out.

 

in other news, i'm going to start training for a marathon. might be fun. i'll get in good shape anyways. but i'm ready for it to warm up. spring break will be fun. but i need to some serious studying for my midterms. but i'm doing ok thus far. i like my stats teacher.

 

sorry this was so long. hope everyone is doing well.

 

piece 

 

I dont know why but here lately i just dont know what is going on with me one day i'll be fine and then the next day i just dont feel like myself and like i am depressed i dont know why this is happening to me and i dont know when its going to end all i know is god is the answer to all my problems and he holds the KEY. so maybe all of this is meant to be happening to me but im not realyy sure i havent really opened up about this before so i hope im doing the right thing but maybe one day when i am older i will understand what i am going through but for now it remains a mystery

I Want To Be The Girl He Points

 

To And Says

 

 

"THATS HER!!!!!"

Okay so tonight i had SO much fun! First i got to hang out with LILLY! Then i went to church and learned ALOT! THEN i got to talk to someone that makes me laugh and something about them makes me smile inside and out. CraZy i know but oh so true. And i felt pretty for once. All you know i hate people looking at me or being in the spot light of anything but today it was kinda nice for people to notice me for once. It wont happen again b.c i will most likely never wear a dress to Wal*Mart (maybe again to main street) but anyway today was really good for me, i really needed it!

 

 

1. Do you like blue cheese?
cant say ive ever had it but it smells bad.

 

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?

i didnt know you smoked it i thought you injected it or whatever......

3. Do you own a gun?
no but nate has ALOT.

4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
i get grilled cheeses from sonic.

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
no unless the doc's a perv.......so, yes.

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
their hot, dawg.

7. Favorite Christmas song?
Merry Christmas from the Family

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
nothing, it hurts my stomach.

9. Can you do push ups?
not, like, hard-core army push ups, no.

10. Can you do a chin up?
never tried. prolly not (as in NO)

11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
earrings-pretty much all earrings

 

12. Favorite hobby?

falafalalala

13. Ever been in a car wreck?
idk idc

14. Do you have A.D.D.?
yes as in no as in yes (as in yes)

15. What's one trait that you hate about yourself?
GORRILLA HANDS!!!!!!!!

16. Middle name?
zeppoka
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment..
1.god, what am i gonna say?

2. *a bunch of stupid stuff i thought just to write, like pickles*

3. i really do have gorrilla hands

18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
1. your soul

2. nothing

3. more nothing

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
1.) tea

2.) milk
3.) not water (ew)

20. Current worry?

earthquake project

21. Current hate right now?
water. actually, the whole 'let's be healthy!' revolution is pretty friggn stupid. "yay salad! yay water! let's be heath freaks and all preppy and stuff!" your gonna die anyway might as well eat what you want on the way.

22. Favorite place to be?
in room, alone.

23. How did you ring in the New Year?
i sleep and wake up. it's another day.

24. Where would you like to go?
to sleep.

25. Name three people who will complete this?
well, i did.

26. Do you own slippers?
why does this survey care? in fact, why am i wasteing my time???

27. What shirt are you wearing?
orange

28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
dear lord i cant take it.

29. Can you whistle?
no

30. Favorite color?
yellow

31. Would you be a pirate?
 who thinks of these things? sure

32. What songs do you sing in the shower?
the song of silence

33. Favorite girl's name?
trinity, evangeleen

34. Favorite boy's name?
goober

 

35. What's in your pocket right now?

im in pj's, otherwise, all kinds of crap.

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
nate

37. Best bed sheets as a child?

O_0*

38. Worst injury you've ever had?

bit my tounge off.


39. Do you love where you live?

why not?

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?

5

 

41. Who is your loudest friend?
please, im not even close to hallie's constant annoying screech (in a good way) Carmen you better read this.

42. How many dogs do you have?
1

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
....................ug.......................

45. What is your favorite book?
twilight

46. What is your favorite candy?
airheads

47. Favorite Sports Team?

preds!!!


48. What song do you want played at your funeral?

"well, im dead"

49. What were you doing 12 AM last night?

watching tv

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?

i wonder if i'll do a pointless and stupid survey today.......

Spiritual 'Rehab'

They tried to make me go to rehab but I said 'no, no, no.'
Yes I've been black but when I come back you'll know, know, know.
I ain't got the time and if my daddy thinks I'm fin,e
He's tried to make me go to rehab but I won't go, go, go.

Has anybody ever tried to make you do something that you didn't want to do? It's definitely not fun - and it's definitely the way Amy Winehouse was feeling a while back when she was riding a huge wave of success in her professional life, but crashing and burning in her personal life. And, as with most people, she had friends and family who truly care for and love her. When you see a good friend or relative in a downward spiral, you tend to get very concerned, which is why Amy's circle of friends advised her to check into a rehabilitation center.

Obviously things have changed since she penned those words, because as I write these words, Amy is in rehab - and evidently making great progress at beating the drug and alcohol temptations that threaten to take her down. Here's what her brother said:

Detox was tough, but she did it. She was as bright and vivacious as she had been before her demons took over. It (the night of the Grammys) was without a doubt the greatest night our family has enjoyed in a long, long time.

In my opinion, we all need a rehab of sorts. Of course, just like Amy - we don't want anyone to make us go. But when the people who love us give us straight up talk about the deadly and destructive paths we oftentimes walk down, it's time to listen.

That's what Amy Winehouse did.

That's what we need to do.

So perhaps you're reading this, and you're thinking "Dude - I don't smoke crack cocaine and get drunk all the time. In fact, I don't do any of that stuff - so why would I need rehab?"

Great point - and I agree, if that's you - you don't need a chemical detox - probably most of us don't. But... we ALL have another kind of poison coursing through our spiritual veins - and unfortunately, we are all addicted to this deadly venom.

It's called sin. It comes in all kinds of forms, but here's a list that might help you identify your particular toxins:

Sexual immorality, impurity, lustful pleasures, idolatry, sorcery, hostility, quarreling, jealousy, outbursts of anger, selfish ambition, dissension, division, envy, drunkenness, wild parties, and other sins like these (Galatians 5:19-21).

These are things that need to be taken as seriously as a drug or alcohol addiction, because left unchecked, they *will* kill you. Maybe not physical death, but for sure they will poison your life to the point where you are trapped in an emotional and spiritual death state that sucks out any hope of finding joy and meaning in life. They all stem from what the Bible calls 'the flesh' - which is really the source of all our problems.

So what's 'rehab' for the flesh? Here's God's advice:

Those who belong to Christ Jesus have nailed the passions and desires of their sinful nature to his cross and crucified them there. Since we are living by the Spirit, let us follow the Spirit's leading in every part of our lives (Galatians 5:24-25).

Rehab for our sinful flesh isn't a place, it's a Person. If you are a Christian, the Holy Spirit lives inside you. The power of God is at your disposal 24/7 to "crucify" the poisons and addictions that can and will destroy your life. Seek His help the next time you get the peer pressure to go to the wrong party, or feel the destructive feelings and temptations rising up inside you.

Nope, nobody can 'make you' check into spiritual rehab, but the Person who loves you most - Jesus Christ - pleads with you at this very moment to ask His help in defeating your poisonous flesh. Go to Him right now in prayer and begin the process of spiritual detox. Like Amy, I promise you will find the happiness you probably haven't enjoyed in a long, long time.

Head: What you need to know about this truth

Through the power of Jesus Christ, we can defeat the deadly power of sin and conquer the addictions that threaten to destroy our lives.

Heart: What you need to feel about this truth

It's easy for most to look at Amy Winehouse and feel strongly about her need for rehab - but how often do we take the same attitude with ourselves? Here's a critical verse from the Bible to reflect on this week:

There is a path before each person that seems right, but it ends in death. (Proverbs 14:12)

Hands: What you need to do about this truth

Take some time this week and list out the sin 'addictions' that seem to cause you the most trouble. Is it lust? Pride? Anger? These are not 'personality problems' or simple mistakes - these are destructive poisons that will eventually ruin the amazing life God has planned for you.

 

© 2008 Dare 2 Share Ministries

(i was there when this video was made)

This guy is amazing.

He gave me his cd when me and emily went

to this christian rave thing.

so cool!

ahh!

He doesn't beat around the bush he's striaght forward.

And he talked about Clinton in one song

he goes

"The systems a lie I mean

When our Presidents smoke weed and Cheat on their wives"

and when i heard that i screamed "CLINTON!!!"

HA HAH A!

hope you guys like him

This is a letter to her and all of her majesty,
To show my appreciation for all of the help she has given me.
This is a letter to her and all of her majesty,
To ask what happened to such a beautiful woman.
This is a letter to her and all of her majesty,
To ask why her beautiful long hair is up in a bun.

What happened to this wonderful “person”
Whose beauty stretched from sea to sea?
How could “someone” so great and wonderful
Take such a hard fall?
Does anyone know what happened?
Does anyone want to admit it?
I think I know, bad direction,
Bad things influencing her,
And worst of all, the things living inside her
Ate her alive, slowly destroying her.

Once a beautiful, majestic, sturdy, and powerful woman,
Is now what seems to be a feeble falling old lady?
How will she get back on her feet?
How can she regain control of her mind?
Only by relinquishing control can she be well again,
She cannot hold this ground as one person.
Power must be spread out, let the hands handle things,
Let the brain think, let the heart love,
And let her feet move forward,
At least from this defensive stance she has taken.

Now that the correct parts have control,
Now, she can be able to walk like the person she was,
And have control and power that she once was.
She was feared but love, caring but stern.
Faithful but reasonable and she was strong and unforgiving.
She is America.

Have you ever had one of those days when nothing seems to be going right? Well i have learned from recent experience that trying to go into depression wont help anything! With your time on this earth all you can really rely on is people who really are your friends and will support you through the bad times and your family

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes Y-O-U! And I HOPE You Have An AmaZZZing Rest Of The Day!

hey yall whats up not much with me omg i cant believe we  got out of school for 6 days!  That is too much time out of school for me i dont know about you but i actually like school this year i guess im just starting to enjoy my last year of middle school but im really excited about creek wood high school is a big step for me and im kinda not looking forward to it and at the same time but i have to go see ya later!

Again a LITTLE of the most AMAZZZZING movie EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is only a LITTLE of the most amaZZZZZing movie EVER!!!!!

so there are 3 main characters in this story ELizabeth, Erin & her! 
  first there was Elizabeth the girl i've strived to be, ive never really got there at any certain point but last year up til june i was closer than ever to her!The Elizabeth loved God, always was doing right, laughing, making pplhappy, helping other.
she was herself, and i came very close to attaining that!
   Then there was her.. the her is the girl of this world, though an okay kid comparing others, very disgraceful to any Elizabeth out there. she lied a little..she was kinda rude, and she
thought that the wordly things would make her happy....
but one day her decided to change..
 that brings us to Erin... Erin is the girl striving to be the Elizabeth while also remembering HER and she learned a lot from her, a lot of good came from what Erin learned though, too. it wasn't allnegative effects, she wouldnt take it back but she does miss her Elizabeth innocence....
   but today , today.. im Erin the girl who left her.. and knows she will never quite be elizabeth. She may attain above or below, but never that same degree she once almost could.
 Im Erin! I love God, & i get confused often between 2 lives... but ive come to realize im not either
 of those people! I am who i am .. right now! & between a peanut butter sandwich, painting in my
basement, and an ipod blasting music in my ears ive come to accomplish my vision of who i really am..

_ _ _
 If you know me as Elizabeth you put my heart to shame of who i am now, but if you know me as Erin you remind me of the girl i am now &
will be for awhile now!

so...my new profile song is for those of you that are trying to figure out who you are.  it's appropriately titled "Find Yourself" by Brad Paisley

I was going to write a blog yesterday about my Grandmother because it was her birthday and the first year without her on her birthday. But I decided to wait until the 28th to write that blog.

 

So instead I'm going to write about the Valentine's Day Ball. Here it goes.

 Febuary 9, 2008 was a beautiful day. It was clear and a light wind was blowing to make it a crisp day. We got to the Kelley home about 4:15 which was (amazingly) on time for us. Lindsey still wasn't home yet from work so I talked to Grant for a while until he had to get ready for work. Then I played with the little kids which was a lot of fun. Much to Grant's annoyance, we left (late) to meet the Davison's at Home depot. Once we got there we were amptly supplied with coffee and candy. We were soon on our way to the ball in a rather fast fashion. We were soon very close to our destination when we stopped at a near by Shell station to get our hoops on (which is quite interesting). So we actually only got lost once and we weren't lost really. The poor people at the Recreation center probably thought Mrs. Kelley was crazy. 

 When we got to the right place Grant escorted Lindsey and I into the building were we had to sign in and get our dance cards. Now the purpose of a dance card is to get it filled up with random people to dance with during the night. You aren't suppose to dance with the same guy more than once. I broke that rule. Of course I wasn't comfortable with random guys coming up to me but I soon got over that. I danced with everybody I knew except one guy. But he was a nice fellow so it was ok.

 Dancing was quite interesting. I must admit I think I was probably the shortest person there. I'm glad that I went to the Kelley's the night before to learn the dance. There was this one older man who wasn't very nice. I didn't like him.

 All and all, it was a very good night. The best dance was the Polka with Mr. Kelley. : ) 

This song is awesome...it is one of the Avenged Sevenfold songs that don't cuss, pretty nice. I really like their music but some of it after listening to I must repent to God for....lol. They are with out a doubt great musicians, I don't see how anyone could say differently. If you actually listen to the lyrics I am sure you will like this song.

"The fighting rages on and on, to challenge me you must be strong.
I walk your land but don't belong, two million soldiers can't be wrong"

Some parts may sound like Avenged Sevenfold is againts soldiers, I don't think.  

So here's what happened:

So have you ever heard of soul tithes? Well a soul tithe is bad.

It's where you have a heart ache for someone you shouldn't be thinking about. In order to break a soul tithe you have to be honest and tell that person how you feel. It was my way of clearing the air so I could breathe again. Well I pour my heart out to this person whop I am attempting to break my soul tithe with, and you know what happened? It turned into a conversation I would never have with anyone. I mentioned something I shouldn't have and it turned around to reflect on "what a bad person I am" Which honestly the things that were said hurt me very badly. So I just avoided everything and turned off my phone and left my house. Here's what happened after I left my house, I went to a friend, who would maybe try and talk some since into me about just forgetting about it but instead here's what happened. I told him WORD FOR WORD about the conversation I had with this previous person, and instead of getting the whole yelling speech here's what he did, He hugged me and said "That guy isn't right for you. You did the right thing by telling him how you felt, but he's the one who's missing out." Which he showed me compassion, and understanding. NOT YELLING, NOT BRINGING ME DOWN, NOT MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I WAS ALONE AGAIN. NOT MAKING ME FEEL LIKE IT WAS MY FAULT!!!!! Which was a big deal. But you know it doesn't always happen. But I'll be fine. I just decide to erase a fraction of my life from my memory. I now realize his opinion of me doesn't matter. That I am now a very different person. I am now a much more viberant person. That I am now very independent. I now realize that the person who makes me want to die is just another person, another face in the crowd. And I'm one of those faces too. We all make mistakes? So that does't mean you can make yourself perfect for one person. I mean you can't controll someone you don't even care about. You can't be paranoid about something you're never gonna fix.

So get over it.

There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.

What happened to that kid 8 months ago? 

The kid name Tyler. 

Why has he changed so much? 

Why does he swear every other sentence now? 

Why does he enjoy hurting other people? 

Why does he not think things through any more? 

Why does he go by a different name? 

Why does James want to forget his past even though it was so great? 

Why does he not consder what other people have to think and what their feelings are? 

Where the hell did i go wrong?

 

Why am I not like this any more????

photo from

 

 

why do i have to be like this????

photo from

 

 

Why do i have to be so stern and upright?  not relaxing a little while and just taking up the joys in life

WHAT HAPPENED

(i love quotes.  <3)

"No matter what happens, somebody will find a way to take it too seriously."

"When trouble arises and things look bad, there is always one individual who perceives a solution and is willing to take command.  Very often, that individual is crazy." (my favorite.)

"Nobody cares if you can't dance well.  Just get up and dance."

"Never lick a steak knife."

"Take out the fortune before you eat the cookie."

"The most powerful force in the world is gossip."

"You will never find anybody who can give you a clear and compelling reason why we observe daylight savings time."

-The Chatterbox

"If you decide not to choose, then you've already made the wrong choice."

"A dream is just a dream.  A goal is a dream with a plan and a deadline." -Harvey Mackay

"you can say what you want about the South, but you never hear of anyone retiring and moving north."  haha

"A balanced diet is chocolate in both hands."  SO TRUE!!!

• FUN FACTS:
• 75% of all animals are insects.
• Blue whales are the largest animals that ever lived.  They are even larger than dinosaurs.
• Porcupines can float.
• Cockroaches can survive underwater for up to 15 minutes.
• A swordfish can swim about as fast as a cheetah can run. 

@#@$#$$#@##$@# YEAH!!!!!!!! I just got accepted to UTC!!!!!!

funny. but i never saw me like that,

 until one day i did, and there's no going back!

you know.I have my victory, And its not all

 i am going to ask of me!

I want the faraway dream, but I want it light!

i live everything in the day, but ill sleep it at night!

 

Who Am I?  Yeah thats the question i want answered..and i know you people never comment on PhuseBox anymore but i feel the need to write and just spill how i feel and what the heck is going on in my life.First off, i'm lucky to have the life i have...and i know that! Its just sometimes, i wonder why everyone says Good-Bye to me. LoL its like once things are going good they take a turn and start to suck. I'm not slowly dieing anymore..i'm just trying to find where i fit, who my friends are, where God wants me, what i should be doing. Some many doors are slamming in my face and so many are swinging open, but i'm scared to go through them..i'm scared once i get one foot in its gona slam on me and i'm gona end up hurting again! Ha life is so funny. If you step back and look at whats going on in the middle of all the craZyness...its rather funny to see how crappy life is! Ha i laugh rather then cry....i find it better and more joyful.   I'm so lucky to be where i am and to have gone through what i've gone through! It may seem like hell to me but its not all that bad when you get to thinkin about it!Well i'm done boring you people.

Ya know awhile back i got a message from tyler but i never read it because i said i wasn't getting back on here, this is the only way i can tlk to Kaelynn,a few  ppl said i should get back on here and i wanted to know how you guys are doing, so I believe This Is gonna make me a liar!

 Im back....

 Oh by the way , Happy Valentines day, i agree its a pretty dumb holiday, but it was the best dumb Valentine's i had in awhile!

:)

 _ _

Erin

 

...I'm so determined to do this right.  I will not mess this up.  I want to, for once, find someone and get it right.  I'm not sure if I'm trying to be someone else...that you want, or if I'm being myself and you only want me to be just that.  I don't know who I'm trying to be, if anyone, but I'm trying not to try to be someone else.  I want to be the one that you understand.  Not the two people you don't.  Really, the only thing I want to be....

 

 

...is with you.

Yes I know before I said that I had lost the future I planned out perfectly, but I talked to someone who works for the gonvener and she said that I could compile a bunch of letters and what not and maybe still get what I wanted...hazzah

It kinda sucks when your dreams and the future you planned out to a T all comes tumbling down like nothing, worst part about it...is that it happened within 20 seconds and I never saw it coming.

I just found out from Batey and my mom that we don't have to go to school until Tuesday until of NEXT WEEK! Just thought I would let all you guys know. Now I don't have to see everyone get presents from everyone tomorrow when I don't have anyone to get anything from. Sad, but I'm still really happy. So yeah, I'll talk to you cool kids later.

i want to hit someone right about now.  hard.  so hard that they won't forget it.  ever!  so hard that........that they fall on the ground and scream and cry like a little girl!!!!!!

hey my people

uhmm yeah just thought i would say hey and i need some prayers! i'm not gona say way b/c its a little much for me at the moment..but its got to do with V-Day and not having a dad and tyler..and just a lot of stuff so yeah please just keep me in your prayers!!!
I love you guys and hope you have an amaZing V-day!

1. Do you like blue cheese?
no thanks
2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
no i haven't

3. Do you own a gun?
no not me personally as in carmen 

4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
i don't add things....i like root beer.  :)

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
no i get extremely frustrated.  i hate doctors and i could never e one ever.

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
i'm not sure what's in them.

7. Favorite Christmas song?
i don't know i'll think of something later.  :P

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
i like milk...and coffee of course

9. Can you do push ups?
yeah that's a stupid question

10. Can you do a chin up?
yes i can do A (as in one, singular, uno.) chin up

11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
i am really not sure 

12. Favorite hobby?
i like music...anything and everything to do with music

13. Ever been in a car wreck?
no and i'm never going to because i'm not going to drive...ever. :P

14. Do you have A.D.D.?
no i don't think so...i'm just excessively hyper all the time

15. What's one trait that you hate about yourself?
i like myself fairly well, actually

16. Middle name?
uh...ANDREW FLINT CLAYTON POOCHEA!!!! YAAAA!!!!
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment..
1. i hate snow!!!!!!

2. are we going to have church tonight???  gosh i hope so 
3. ....stupid snow....

18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
1. idk

2. hmmmm idk

3. i had a dream i bought some coffee with my mom's credit card!!!! lol
19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
1.) water

2.) coffee
3.) more coffee (:P)

20. Current worry?
stupid snow.  i want to go to church

21. Current hate right now?
snow.

22. Favorite place to be?
church all the way!!!!  but the stupid snow....GAAH!!!

23. How did you ring in the New Year?
i prefer not to relive moments i did not like.  it's the past. 

24. Where would you like to go?
church!!!!

25. Name three people who will complete this?
well....who cares?  probably no one.  surely not austin.

26. Do you own slippers?
uh...yeah.  i never wear them

27. What shirt are you wearing?
i don't know...it's blue.  but i just woke up

28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
well i've never done that, but i don't like the way satin feels.  so no.

29. Can you whistle?
haha no

30. Favorite color?
orange because it's citrusy!!!  (lol chico!!)

31. Would you be a pirate?
heck yeah i would so be a pirate!!!!!!! 

32. What songs do you sing in the shower?
eh it depends

33. Favorite girl's name?
melody, harmony, and faryn

34. Favorite boy's name?
i prefer not to go there!!  lucas.  maybe.  idk

when i get married i want my son to be ____ ______ ____ the second.  so yeah.

35. What's in your pocket right now?
considering that i don't have pockets...that'd be nothing!!!

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
one of my friends most likely.  but i don't remember.

37. Best bed sheets as a child?
what the crap?  what kind of question is that??

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
uh...my toe!!!

39. Do you love where you live?
yes but i don't like snow.  i like cold weather...and i like rain...but not snow.
40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
4 that are plugged up....lots that aren't... lol

41. Who is your loudest friend?
i have lots.  it would be rather close between hallie and keri.

42. How many dogs do you have?
3

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
golly gee i sure hope so!!!!

45. What is your favorite book?
twilight, new moon, and eclipse

46. What is your favorite candy?
CHOCOLATE

47. Favorite Sports Team?
redwings....

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
that's sad.  i don't want to think about that.

49. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
dreaming.

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
gosh i hate snow.

1. How many people have you held hands with within the past month?
sad to say..none

2. What's your middle name?
You know it..but i'll tell you again in case you have forgotten :) Its Chico...lol naaa its Grace

4. Will you have a valentine this year?
Who knows...no one has asked me yet :( so sad (lol)

5. Is it easy for others to make you feel intimidated?
yeah

6. Do you have unlimited texting?
gosh i'm out at the moment..which means no i dont have unlimited texting :( :( i want it though

7. Wheres your girlfriend/boyfriend at?
in Hawaii..so not cool

8. Are you on a desktop or laptop?
desktop

9. Do you have fast reflexes?
lol no ha

10. Can you make yourself cry?
ha yeah i can lol its kinda fun :P

11. What are you planning to do today?:
well seeing that the day is over... but i still have some algebra and reading to do..bad me :P lol

12. Do you have a crush on someone?
Why no i dont

13. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
nope, i've learned something from everything that has happened in my past..so i'll leave it as is

14. What are your favorite colors?:
i like Green, Gray, Blue, and Brown

15. Have you ever had your nails done?
why no i haven't...i dont see the need to

16. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing right now?
Youth Group

17. Have you ever kissed someone who's named starts with an M?
nope

18. Have you ever passed out?
yeah when i was like 3

20. Are you easily confused?:
ha do you know who your talking to :P lol

21. Do you think you would make a good wife/husband?:
how would i know

22. What's your favorite kind of ice cream?
i really like death by chocolate

23. Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
that would be a big NO 

24. Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
100% babe :P lol

25. What color are your socks?
they are white

26. Has anyone ever borrowed something from you and never returned it?
lol yeah

27. Do you fall for people easily?
nope...you have to work for me :P lol j.k

28. Everything happens for a reason?
yeah i believe so

29. Have you ever dated someone more than once?:
i guess you could say that...but i'm not sure

30. Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
not in the last 24 hours :(

32. In your last relationship did you break up or were you broken up with?
lol i'm not quite sure how it all went down..

33. When is the last time you talked to number 1 on your top friends?
seeing that he is my brother..like everyday

34. What are you listening to right now?:
Remeber The Name

35. What does your last incoming text say?
i dont remember.....it was forever ago

36. What stands out about the person you like?:
just who he is. The way he treats me and...just him altogether :) lol

37. Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?
not really

38. What is your biggest turn off?
lack of respect

40. Who was the last person to stay in your bed?
ME! :)

41. Do you prefer being single or taken?
i like being taken :)

42. Do you love anyone?
Why yes i do

43. Last person of the opposite sex you said I love you to?

Tyler

44. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?:
seeing i haven't kissed anyone..that would have to be a no

45. What is it you truly want right now?
to be held

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

1. Do you like blue cheese?
no!

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
ha ...... no

3. Do you own a gun?
no, ha they dont trust me with a gun lol i dont know why :P

4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
anything i feel like gosh!

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
every time.

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
they are okay

7. Favorite Christmas song?
who has a 'favorite' Christmas song! lol come on you got to like them all

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
COFFEE...but i never get it :( so sad

9. Can you do push ups?
hahahahaha

10. Can you do a chin up?
hahahahaha

11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
my ring 

12. Favorite hobby?
TALKING :)

13. Ever been in a car wreck?
nope, and i would like to keep it that way

14. Do you have A.D.D.?
ha who knows :) probably

15. What's one trait that you hate about yourself?
ha to many to list

16. Middle name?
GRACE

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment..
1. i NEED texts.
2. Why do guys have to be so weird sometimes.
3. But its cool he cares

18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
1. nothing
2. nothing.
3. nothing.

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
1.) water.
2.) water
3.) coffee

20. Current worry?
WOW uhmmm to many things to say

21. Current hate right now?
nothing really

22. Favorite place to be?
church

23. How did you ring in the New Year?
hung out with friends

24. Where would you like to go?
Hawaii.

25. Name three people who will complete this?
no one :P

26. Do you own slippers?
nope

27. What shirt are you wearing?
LD shirt

28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
haven't ever done that.

29. Can you whistle?
not a big fan of it so no

30. Favorite color?
Green, gray, blue, and brown

31. Would you be a pirate?
SURE

32. What songs do you sing in the shower?
anything i feel like gosh 

33. Favorite girl's name?
i like a few

34. Favorite boy's name?
Seth Cohen

35. What's in your pocket right now?
nothing

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
it would be a person, Charlie

37. Best bed sheets as a child?
i dont know

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
broken heart.

39. Do you love where you live?
dickson's okay.

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
like 5 i think

41. Who is your loudest friend?
.... i guess Carmen...

42. How many dogs do you have?
1

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
i'm not sure

45. What is your favorite book?
i like the Bible and some others

46. What is your favorite candy?
sweet-tarts and chocolate

47. Favorite Sports Team?
ugh. don't care.

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
who thinks about that kinda stuff!

49. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
sleeping.

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
oh crap i'm late

I forgot how busy 15 (technically 16) hours of school could be. But this semester is still better than last semester...

 

For that "one hour" I have in addition to the five classes I'm already taking, I am in the "tutorial" stage of my thesis/project that I am doing in order to graduate from the Honors College. My proposal for what I want to do is due this Friday, so I'm working on that and another paper this week. I have decided that for my project I am going to do a short film LOOSELY based off Crime and Punishment. I'm excited about the potential it has, but I'm sort of afraid I won't be able to pull it off, especially after having such a bad semester of Single Cam and the fact I will be out of practice once summer rolls around (which is when I plan to shoot). Hopefully, however, with help from talented friends and professional equipment from the school, I should be able to do a pretty good job. I hope, anyways. I'm going to try to make it as simple as possible, since it really is a character-driven story.

 

Anyhow, not much else to report on for now...  

1. How many people have you held hands with within the past month?

none, unless my sis counts
 2. What's your middle name?
lynn, and i hate it

4. Will you have a valentine this year?
not unless my friends count

5. Is it easy for others to make you feel intimidated?
some people

6. Do you have unlimited texting?
yeah, but it's totally pointless since like a whole four of my friend can text

7. Wheres your girlfriend/boyfriend at?
well since i don't have one, i can't answer that now can i

8. Are you on a desktop or laptop?
desktop

9. Do you have fast reflexes?
sometimes

10. Can you make yourself cry?
yeah, when i want my mom to buy me something or let me go somewhere, etc.

11. What are you planning to do today?:
eat and sleep

12. Do you have a crush on someone?
not really

13. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
i used to say i would a lot, but the only reason i would now is to relieve the good times

14. What are your favorite colors?:
orange and purple

15. Have you ever had your nails done?
yeah, and i didn't really like it

16. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing right now?
i don't know

17. Have you ever kissed someone who's named starts with an M?
no

18. Have you ever passed out?
kinda

20. Are you easily confused?:
very

21. Do you think you would make a good wife/husband?:
of course

22. What's your favorite kind of ice cream?
phish food

23. Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
not really

24. Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
yeah

25. What color are your socks?
i don't have socks on right now

26. Has anyone ever borrowed something from you and never returned it?
lots of times

27. Do you fall for people easily?
yeah, and i wish i didn't

28. Everything happens for a reason?
i try to remember that

29. Have you ever dated someone more than once?
no since i've never dated anyone

30. Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
keri, sydnee, my mom, and my cousin, oh and some random person that knew my name (freaky)

32. In your last relationship did you break up or were you broken up with?

no since i’ve never had a relationship

33. When is the last time you talked to number 1 on your top friends?
don’t have a top friends list

34. What are you listening to right now?:
the news

35. What does your last incoming text say?
something like i didn’t notice they were flirting

36. What qualities do you like about the person you like?

i really don’t really like anyone right now, but if i did i would like them to be easy to talk to and like me for who i am

 

37. Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?
yeah i guess

38. What is your biggest turn off?
rude and really bad grammar

40. Who was the last person to stay in your bed?
my sister

41. Do you prefer being single or taken?
don’t really know

42. Do you love anyone?
yes!

43. Last person of the opposite sex you said I love you to?

my dad

44. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?:
i’ve never kissed anyone so can’t really answer that

45. What is it you truly want right now?

i want things to be like old times and i want my friends back

 

(oh, to all of you that i told i didn't make callbacks for the wiz...i lied and i didn't know it!!!  i am in the ensemble, but i don't have a main part, really.  :P)

1. How many people have you held hands with within the past month?
um that would be a big zero
2. What's your middle name?
it's pretty dumb.

4. Will you have a valentine this year?
it's quite possible that i might sorta kinda maybe a little have a half way valentine :P

5. Is it easy for others to make you feel intimidated?
no one intimidate me.

6. Do you have unlimited texting?
no i have limited....in fact, its so limited, that i don't have it at all!!!  amazing!!!

7. Wheres your girlfriend/boyfriend at?
i don't know considering i don't have one of either!!!!!

8. Are you on a desktop or laptop?
desktop

9. Do you have fast reflexes?
yes

10. Can you make yourself cry?
why would i want to do that?

11. What are you planning to do today?:
go to piano, and then go to the read-thru

12. Do you have a crush on someone?
yeah i really do...but i'm not a loser!!! :P

13. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
probably not...because i would still be in "love" with someone.  and i wouldn't have talked to a guy i really like a lot.  plus it's the past and it's meant to stay that way!!!

14. What are your favorite colors?:
i like orange a lot...and green.

15. Have you ever had your nails done?
yeah i probably won't do it again.  at least not at the same place.

16. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing right now?
i don't know my mom got it for my b day

17. Have you ever kissed someone who's named starts with an M?
mom yes

18. Have you ever passed out?
pretty much

20. Are you easily confused?:
what???  i'm confused.

21. Do you think you would make a good wife/husband?:
i would NOT make a good husband.  duh

22. What's your favorite kind of ice cream?
i really like death by chocolate...but i don't like the nuts in it...so i have to say mint chocolate chip

23. Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
hahahahahahahaha who doesn't know the answer to that question? 

24. Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
yeah pretty much

25. What color are your socks?
they are white

26. Has anyone ever borrowed something from you and never returned it?
i don't know

27. Do you fall for people easily?
ahhh...i think they are cute and then i develop crushes that last a whole two days.  but this one won't go away.  so that's cool.

28. Everything happens for a reason?
yeah i believe so

29. Have you ever dated someone more than once?:
i've never dated anyone more than zero times.

30. Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
well, since i (don't) have texting, i have (not) texted every single one of my friends ever!!!!

32. In your last relationship did you break up or were you broken up with?
um trash is dumped, not me!!!  remember that.

lol

33. When is the last time you talked to number 1 on your top friends?
i don't have top friends.

34. What are you listening to right now?:
nothing.

silence.

it's loud.  ;)

35. What does your last incoming text say?
well i read one of hallies texts that said something about guys...it was cute.

36. What stands out about the person you like?:
they are easy to talk to and they like the same things i do...but still they are different around me, they make me laugh, they make me happy, i crave talking to them....they are fairly freakin good lookin'!!!  lol
37. Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?
eh not so much.  seems that someone told them last wednesday, so i just got over it and talked to them!  yay me.

38. What is your biggest turn off?
something gross.  i'm not sure.

40. Who was the last person to stay in your bed?
no one sleeps in my bed, thank you very much.

41. Do you prefer being single or taken?
well, i like being single, it's alright.  but i also like the feeling of being 'loved' and having someone to 'love'.

42. Do you love anyone?
of course!!!!

43. Last person of the opposite sex you said I love you to?

that'd have to be austin.

.......

44. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?:
i don't never been kissin' no body

45. What is it you truly want right now?
i would really like to get to know Steele better and become really good friends.

I know I sure am. What is wrong with SOME liberals??? Just because you have a right does not mean it is right. There are liberals in some states protesting infront of USMC and other recruiting offices. Not letting anyone in. You people make me sick! I bet you my last dollar that if a country invaded America you would not be protesting them fighting. This really shows what kind of picko, double standard, pick, liberals you really are. Now I am not saying that all liberals are but how can you stand for something that calls themselves that. It is the same as me calling myself christian, I am ashamed because of the people who claim to be (different story, different time) Let me finish with this "If you don't fully stand behind our military, feel free to stand infront of them" Semper Fi, Marines.

Hey yall whats up not very much for me eccept there is alot of drama going around to me because of my friends arguments and im kinda tired of it all i mean i love all my friends but i dont love them so much when they pull me into a motherload of CRAP that i dont want to deal with i am 14 years old for crying out loud i mean there is enogh drama in my life as it is just for me going through my teen stages in life i dont need any extra added on top of that.

IF YOU KNOW WHAT IM SAYIN !!! sooooo now that i got that out of my system i feel a little better thank god for phusebox my anger management ANGEL !!!!