i dont wanna talk bad about people. but i wanna move out

now i gotta hit the books. gotta work hard you know. i just... dont like western civ. blah

i wanna go home sometime too. get away for a while.

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so i realized that there is a job fair tomorow. UT is known for there carreer services department. there's over 500 companies there. i didnt decide till today that i should go. cause really, what is there for a poli sci major right? but i'm going to go. but i spent over an hour at the mall looking for new dress clothes. cause i've lost 30 pounds since i've joined college and i wanna look my best. and i left my dress pants at home. so it was somewhat of a neccessity. lol.

but before i went to the mall i went to work out. and i was going to parrellel park outside the rec center. i have to parrellel park, or sometimes i choose to in order to get to class faster, and easy 3 or more times a week. i'm quite good at it. but i shouldnt brag. cause today i hit a car while doing it. :( i was so mad. well, i thought about driving off. i've seen people do it a hundred times, they hit a parked car on campus and then just drive off. i looked at my car, there wasnt anything wrong. i looked at the other car, and it had a scrape on the rubber of the bumper. but, this car was already pretty beat up. it was pretty bad off. so i thought about it for a while. but i just couldnt do it. so i called my dad and then i left a note on the car saying i hit their car and left my number. they havent called yet. so they must not care. but i felt alot better knowing that i did the right thing.

before that was class. class was class. blah

so now i know i have a soul. lol

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i saw this article and about non traditional jobs for men, and teaching was one of them. here's the small note about it.

According to the National Education Association, of the 2.8 million teachers in the United States, only 24.9 percent are men, and only 9 percent are elementary teachers. And these numbers are declining every year.

Matt certainly is bucking the trend. A former Marine, Matt has been teaching first grade for the past five years. "I went into the education field because I witnessed my own children learn to read and I wanted to teach reading. Elementary education is both challenging and rewarding," he says. "This profession will wear you out, but there is no doubt that you can and will develop a sense of pride knowing that you have made a difference in the lives of your students."

 thats why i wanna do it. so i can have pride in what i do

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this week has just started and it has already gotten off to a bad start. i'm ready for it to be over. but the thing is. i'm so sick of one of my roommates. i really wanna move out. i dont know if i can though. i may not be able to break my lease. which sucks. they might let me though. we'll see how it goes. pray for me though. it really irritates me.

i had a good holiday weekend. i hope ya'll did as well. but i didnt get my work done. blah. i'm in the procecss of writing my paper right now that is due in like, oh, and hour or so. well, like 2 and half hours, but i have another class in an hour, so i gotta finish it before that. i could just take the computer with me, but i'd still have to print it out. i'll get it done.

man, i just feel so, distraught all of a sudden. blah

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so i went to church up here last night, and it stunk. i was really excited about going. but no one really talked to me. i tried to talk to the other college people, but it didnt work. oh well. you would think that the one place you could go and make alot of friends would be at church. i guess not. it really bummed me out last night. i havent felt that way since freshman year. oh well.

so today is the first day of school. yesterday wasnt too bad. but late last night i had to add a history class. i more or less had to take world civilizations. it makes me mad. it's at 8 in the morning. kinda sucks. oh well. i'll make it. i'm thinking i can probably make and A in every class this semester. but world civ will be tough. if i just make it to every class it will be a miracle in itself.

i hope everyone else is doing great. i wish i could come home for a while. i'll be home in a few weeks i guess.

i'm at the library waiting on my next class to start. i'm listening to pandora. i love that web site.

well, wish me luck on the new school year. this school stuff is killing me. i wish i hadnt taken so long to decided what i wanna major in. oh well. i can get that stuff done. lol.

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i was flipping through the channels just now and stopped on the news and they were saying that right now there is a law that is trying to be passed that says that sermons in church about homosexuality is considered hate speech and is illegal. how redicuolous is that? psh. some people. if you cant read the bible and realize that homosexuality is wrong, than, sorry if this offends you, but you're retarded. i know that sounds bad. but thats the just of it. 

this weekend was awesome. my brother got married. it was great. i'll put pictures up when i get some. haha. but they'll be on facebook as well.

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well i finally finished the seventh harry potter book. i was about to say last, but for some reason, i kinda dont want it to be last. as my friend and i were saying the other day, it's like the symbol of the close to our childhood. my friends and i were talking the other day, and it amazed us how we could still be so into something that we started when we werent even teenagers yet.

i was thinking on the way to the library, as i still dont have my comp back yet, why i like the harry potter books. i think i know why. and part of it just dawned on me right now. but i'll elaborate on that later. i'm on a time crunch. i gotta go to stats class here soon.

lately i seem to know that i am called for something more. something worthwild. i'll find it. and when i say something more. i mean more than just a stupid desk job. buy ya'll know what i mean

hope ya'll had a great day!

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so my computer has a virus. they said they may not have to delete everything, but who knows. if they do, they can save my documents, but not my music. i have about 5000 songs on my computer. blah. i'm hoping for the best.

i dont know if i've written this on here or not. i think i have. but i wanna write it again.

i've come to the conclusion that i wanna do something worth-while with my life. not just sit at a computer all day and crunch numbers. so i think i really wanna become a teacher. speaking of which. i should head over to the advisor today. but i have alot of homeowork... i know, i'm making excuses. but i wanna make a diference in the world.

i hate how people down America and the government. i cant even begin to fathom living in a different country. for instance. everyone loves ireland, but in half of the country you cant even walk out in the streets without being afraid of getting killed for your religous beliefs. or like how in israel, everywhere you go it is just like walking into an american airport. you get searched because terrorism is so bad over there. and a universal healthcare system is the last thing we need.

i've known about the ireland thing for a long time, but it didnt really hit me until i watched the ESPY awards the other night.

two men from ireland, one catholic, one protestant. two people that would normaly fight each other just for looking the other in the eye. these two men won the humanitarian award for bringing school aged children of different religions together to play basketball. through sports they have been able to show the country that it doenst matter what religion you are, you can get along with each other no matter what.

this really got me thinking. i dont care about winning an award. just like with rowing. ya, we can be successful at times. but 9 times out of ten, we get stomped. but i still go to the gym every day and work out. i still go to practice everyday and give it my all. it's not about the glory, it's about the personal satisfaction of knowing you did all you could to help. (that last bit might of come out wrong). but do you see what i'm saying. who cares if i get remembered at UT for centuries to come.

one of the posters in my room is of muhamed ali, one of the greatest athletes of all time. the quote says "the fight is won long before i dance under those lights. it's won out on the street, and in the gym."

that probably had nothign to do with it. but i like it. i dont the quote is word for word.

but i've been trying to think of ways that i can be productive with my life and help other people. other than being a teacher.

sorry. i try not to be political. but coming from a military family, and when i have many friends taht i've grown up with in the military right now. i hate to hear people, not people on here mind you, down america. we have it pretty good compared to just about anywhere else. just look at the facts.

ok, well i'm headed to carreer services now.

oh ya, i'm in the library since my computer is at the doctor right now. they guy next to me is wearing a dress...... um....... kind weird.

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so i ended up dropping my stats class. which was probably best. my brother called me just in time for us to talk about it. i had to drop it by 4, we got decided i should drop it around 330. didnt cut it too awfully close, but it was pushing it.

it brought a great relief. i'm auditing the class, so thats good. when i do take the class i'll know how to do it already and make an A. hopefully. lol.

i still dont know what i wanna do with my life. i just now remembered, i need to go by carreer services. hopefully they can give me some insight. along with my advisor. i got alot to do. i have tons of homework.

i'm at the library and i'm listening to pandora radio, which is something nathan told us about a long time ago. one of my friends this past year was like, hey, have you heard of pandora, it's so cool. i was like, "it's so old. i've been using it for ever." it was funny.

i wanna go hiking sometime soon. i'm headed home this weekend. so maybe next weekend i can go. i wanna do some major hiking. it'd be fun. it'll help me relax and forget about summer school.

well i got alot to do. alot of homework. blah.

today, well the past couple of days really, i've been pretty stressed over what i should do for the rest of my life. i know that God is in control, but i feel like i'm in like limbo right now. like i dont know what i'm meant for. what am i supposed to major in. what am i going to do with my life. i'm so confused i dont even know how to explain it. i just need some guidance. some inspiration. i wish i could find something i really enjoy and go for it. i think inside of me, there's alot of conflict. like, i enjoy so much, how can i choose just one thing.

i think i would really like to go into business for my self. but thats a big risk. and i'm all for it. but it's kinda crazy. who knows.

but i have 4 hours to decide if i'm going to drop my stats class or not.

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so i set a new goal for my self.

to be the oldest living person.

right now the oldest person is 111. so, i have a long time to break this record. but it is something i have to work towards every day. keep my self healthy and what not. i need to keep the stress levels down you know. haha.

other than that, summer school stinks! but i'm making it

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first off, HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL!

does anyone else ever feel like they wont be successful. it makes me so mad. i just feel like i'm not going to make it when i get out of college. alot of times i feel like i wont make it out of college. alot of people i know will go out and party every night, but i dont. and then they make better grades then i do. i dont get it.

oh well

i'm coming home today!

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so this past weekend, we went to Bonnaroo.   I know, I know, your probably like, why in the world would you go to Bonnaroo. But i say when it comes to some things, dont knock it till you've tried it. Bonnaroo was..... AMAZING. Minus the whole everyone on drugs part. everyone wasnt on drugs, so it wasnt too bad. I think it was the combination of 80,000+ people, some amazing music, and getting to go with some good friends that made it worth wild. And my cousin got me free tickets so that made it better. i wasnt about to pay the price for a ticket.

the best band i saw was The Black Keys. The were great. I'm definately going to go get a CD or two. haha.

me and mike, i just bought my hat cause i was getting so sunburned.

i know, your probably like, patrick, put your shirt back on, but it made it like 10 degrees cooler without it

 while we were waiting on the Kings of Leon. they were good

mike and krysten. we jsut woke up. we had alot of fun.

ok, well i gotta go finish some stats homework. blah.

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i thought late nights at the library were reserved just for midterms and finals. apparently it's also for homework during summer school. this place is packed with people. i can rest assured in the fact that i'm not the only one. haha

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so we decided today that if Bruce Lee and Andrew Jackson were to have a baby, it would come out as Chuck Norris.

i was watching the news today and saw where presiden Bush went to Albania and he was greated like a... a national hero. it was pretty amazing to see our president, who seems to be hated by alot of people in out own country, to go to a predominately musilum country and be treated this way. i'm not saying we should be throwing parades for him, but we should show a little more respect. when people talk bad about our president i always say "i'd like to see you do better, or get the support of the nation twice in a row to even have the chance". to talk bad about our government is undermining the security we have in our freedom. lets respect it and be willing to do what has to be done to keep everyone safe.

anyways, enough about politics, i dont like talking about it.

i had alot of fun this weekend. it was great. whitney and i had a blast.

there wasnt any snow, but there was some country music, dancing and, well, some good fun. thats right, we went to tootsis orchid lounge. it was great.

summer school is, well.... about as fun as going to school during the summer time. haha.

so on that note, i g2g do some homework. blah.

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i finally made it back to knoxville this morning at 2 AM. i sat in the same spot on I-40 for 2 hours. it took forever. i got out and walked around for a while. talked to people. you know me.

but i made it back to knoxville. i didnt really wanna leave. i mean, when i first got home i wanted to come back like right away. but when it came closer to time for me to come back,i didnt want to. crazy how life works huh?

i have a job interview here soon. i'm nervous. haha. we'll see how it goes.

hope everyone is having a great day!

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well we lost another phuseboxer it looks like. i think now it's just me, amy, and the moores.

you know, i was thinking today. it's wierd coming home. used to i liked being in the boro more than knoxville. now, i dont like coming back. i was thinking today why that is. and it's cause i have too many good memories here. like i remember the good times how i can never have that back. all my friends that have changed for the worse and i wont see anymore cause their not their regular self anymore. i just hate coming home and things not being the same. i really just kinda feel like an out sider. it kinda made me realize why my parents dont go to their high school reunions anymore. things change. people change. and who wants to look back on the past and realize that things have changed so much for the worse. but i dont talk to my parents about why they dont go. i'm just speculating.

well, i'm in town for a few weeks. i wanna hang out and have fun. maybe i can find something to do.

hope everything is going good with yall

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i'm sick again. i dont know why. blah.

i have somewhat of an important final tomorow and i was hoping to study alot this weekend, but i was pretty much out of comission yesterday. hopefully i can make it through today. :(  but i just did the math. as long as i make above a 70 or higher on the test i'll have a B in the class. but i'm hoping for a B+.

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so if i make a 97 on my math exam today i can make a B in the class, and if i make a 98 on my accounting exam on monday i can make an A in the class. so... who knows how that will go down. haha

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my favorite sport season is here, besides baseball (because baseball is glorious), yes, finals season is here.

you may be wondering to yourself, "how and why is patrick considering finals a sport". well, anytime a person puts in alot of work and long hours into something and makes it competitive at the same time, then yes, it could be a sport. i say this cause i just got back from the library at 230 in the AM, and yet, my night is not over. i still have at least 2 or more hours of studying.

so, i'm going to get going.

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so this weekend we had a race, it was two day event. it was great, we had awesome weather, met some new people, and saw some other people that we knew from other teams.

the great thing about rowing is you kinda get to know other teams pretty well even if you dont know the actual individuals, you still kinda know them, make sense?

anyways, there's a tradition in rowing that the winners of the race gets the team shirts from the everyone else in the race. well, our team doesnt really participate in that cause we would spend a fortune in t-shirts. haha. but another thing people do is trade shirts with people. so my friend matt and i were walking around going to different teams trading shirts. well, i saw a group of people walking towards the virginia tech trailer and they had blue shirts on with orange V's. well, if you take notice, tech's colors are maroon and orange, and UVAs' colors are blue and orange. so ol'smart patrick was like "hey virginia tech, wanna trade shirts" and the guys were like, "we would except we're not virginia tech, we're university of virginia...hahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahaah"

ya, i felt stupid. and my friends laughed a lot too cause matt was in the process of telling me that they werent tech. and we wanted virginias shirts too cause they were cool. oh well. needless to say we didnt get either of their shirts. but their still cool guys. the coolest teams we met, were wakeforest, michigan, and south carolina. south carolina is definately the coolest of them though.

anyways, the races went well. we beat the teams we set out to beat, but didnt win any medals.

school is going good. i found out that i could possibly make all A's except for math, which i'll probably have to retake. but thats ok. i'll just understand it really well.

and how are ya'll?

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well i finished treasure island yesterday and now it's time to move on to Blue Like Jazz. it should be good.

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the warm air blowing in through the windows and ratteling the blinds in the mixed with the warm air with the sound of thunder and rain pounding the sidewalk outside in the courtyard. it brings good memorys of times past and hours sitting and having fun while waiting out the rain. not to mention all the time spent playing in the rain.

Oh God and His renewing the earth. it's great.

today was good. got a good workout in. i dont post on here much anymore. but not many people use it much. kinda sad. oh well. it happens. i still check it alot.we have another race this weekend. maybe i can follow up my previous post with another post about a gold medal. but the boys from the south, georgia tech, have some tricks up their sleeves. and the good ol' boys from texas are pretty trickey them selves. the saying is everything is bigger in texas. well. i wouldnt say they are any bigger than us, but their collection of championships are. but thats ok. we beat them at the Head of the Hooch last semester. so we'll see whats up.

by the way. the Lady Vols just won the national champion ship. some pretty cool stuff.

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