I just recently realized how life really goes by like a hand out the window in the wind... no really and that realization though petty has been alot for my little mind to deal with .I dont know if  this thought brings as much dread to me as to others... but   although this and many other thoughts undiscussable now bother me... I am so happy... and satisfied with my life and time here... its beautiful and undescribable in this blog leaves me speechless...