Yo Home To Bel-Air!

July 02, 2005I <3 this show. Mhmm.

Well not much has been going on lately. Sean left today. I think his flight left at three. He called me around twelve before they left for the airport. Too bad I was like half asleep and I only remember three or four things he said. Mrph. I slept from 4 AM to around 4:30 PM. I\'ve felt sick and groggy all day.

I helped my mom put up shelves in the \'parlor\' earlier. Lots of old china my great grandmother gave her. Tomorrow I have to help her get things ready for our yard sale we\'re suppose to have. I\'m hopeing the money will go towards a vacation. I\'m really hopeing we get to go to St. Louis.I\'ve never been west of the Mississippi river and I really want to get out of this state. Meh.

Just got done watching \'A Series Of Unfortunate Events\' on PPV. Third time I\'ve seen it but it passed the time by. I have a feeling that I\'m going to be watching a lot of movies in the next three weeks.

Only 19 days. <3

Ciao <3

Just Some Lyrics.

June 30, 2005\"Forgive Me\"

\'Can you forgive me again?
I don\'t know what I said
But I didn\'t mean to hurt you

I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you

Then you look at me
You\'re not shouting anymore
You\'re silently broken

I\'d give anything now
to kill those words for you

Each time I say something I regret I cry \"I don\'t want to lose you.\"
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.

\'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I\'ll make you see
How happy you make me

I can\'t live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive

So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I\'m screaming inside that I\'m sorry.

And you forgive me again
You\'re my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you\'

This song reminds me of the past. It seems to describe everything perfectly.

Join my group: Kidz Bop ruined the music. Cause you\'re cool like that. ;-)

So I Lied.

June 28, 2005Okay maybe I lied.

Life may seem too good to be true.

But why is there always a lingering fear in the back of my mind?

I never want to lose the best thing in my life, I would absolutely die.

I\'m sorry I\'m such a horrible person.

I don\'t mean to be such a pest, I just don\'t want things to end all wrong again.

And I realize I am an absolutely ugly person when I cry.

Perfection

June 28, 2005\'It\'s not what it seems
Not what you think
No I must be dreaming
It\'s only in my mind
Not in real life
No I must be dreaming\'

I think life is too good to be true. <3

Nothing.

June 26, 2005So I guess I now know how it feels to cry myself to sleep.