oh boy.

this might be bad.

i hope i dont mess that up too...

am i being selfish? taking something away from someone else? im not trying to. i dont want to let it be my fault, but i dont want to miss out on something that could be wonderful either. not that its even an option at the moment...

only time will tell i suppose.

: ]

thats all.

i think iv just REALLY realized, for the first time, that i have a problem.

whoops. : P

kind of lame.

i dont know if ur doing it on purpose, but i wish you would just tell me.

no sense in ignoring it or pretending theres nothing different.

hmm. sigh.

AHHHH

its gorgeous up there.

i like the mountains a lot. i dont know if theyre as good as the MA mountains, cuz theyre not as big, but then again, i wasnt on any of the in chat. mt holyoke is a good mountain. im gonna take atara running up it in college : ]

wer also gonna wear big poofy jackets and mittens and boots and scarves on the winter. and learn to drive on icey roads.

"you better lose yourself in the music, the moment, you want it, you better never let it go, you only got one shot do not miss your chance to blow, this oportunity comes once in a lifetime."

oh seven fourth years WHAT!

: P

have a question.

would like an answer.

p.s. y do i keep using this???

i guess cuz no one reads it.

: P

have a question.

would like an answer.

p.s. y do i keep using this???

and the tempurature is dropping and the breezes are picking up.

the pumpkins are all out at the church across from the football field

and i can guarentee u that all the trees are changing color elsewhere.

whish i could see it.

i guess google image search will just have to do for now ; ]

woooo chilli.

wooooo straight superiors.

wooooo senior year!

boooo all county.

booooo hw.

woooooo cell phone and free weekend minutes : ]

and halloween is in one week!

YAY!

thats all for now. oh, and report cards r out next week... : / i dont know.

is this a bad idea? am i pushing it too far?

maybe.

i wish i could give myself advice, the way i seem to be able to do so well for everyone else.

y is it so much harder when ur the one in the situation?

i suck sometiems.

is it really that u dont have a ride?

or r u not really trying to find one cuz u think its best just not to go?

cuz i really would love for u to visit, even its it was only for a few hours. it would b something.

if it really is just that u cant find a ride, and ur willing, i might have a way...

let me know what ur thinking, k? k.

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woooo water day! its all good : ]

p.s. spinning-in-circle contests r the way to go. i dominate.

the world isnt ending, and im not creepy.

"i HATE this boat!!"

"YOU'RE FAT!!!"

hahahaaa i love my girls. : ]

and i will kick some booty on that erg...whenever i make it up. : P

*and the beat goes on*

so ive decided to stay in that math class after all.

im starting to understand stuff now, and i dont think im going to totally fail!

at the moment, my life pretty much consists of school, band, crew, homework, and college essays and applications.

i did take a break last night tho, and got my nails all did. : ]

p.s. is there a way to make this thing prettier?