kelsey shearron's PhuseBox

kelsey shearron — Thu, 01 Mar 2007 21:58:59 -0600

im going to memphis tomorrow:).

i get to see my favorite lumberjack and leeland.

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

When will they ever learn?

kelsey shearron — Fri, 26 Jan 2007 14:22:46 -0600

*sigh*

When will Oakland students learn that it's a bad idea to stay logged in to phusebox on school computers? Especially when you're actually out of town and not at at school to defend yourself when someone like myself happens upon the computer you have left yourself logged in on.

So consider this a public service announcement:

If you stay logged in on a school computer, I will find you. And I will write stuff in your blog. MWAHAHA!

So Kelsey, if you read this... I love you! Don't hate me forever.

Obnoxiously yours,
Sarah V.

mm hm

kelsey shearron — Thu, 30 Nov 2006 21:04:15 -0600

I play on the black keys
where i dont have to worry much
its already hard enough
to sing a song about this
some people try the white keys
but the thinkin' hurts my head
so i move back here instead
it comes easier

you know why
you're the one whos on the greivin' end
and just wave goodbye
and wonder if you'll ever breathe again
thats why

i play on the black keys
when it already takes my best
to pretend that this big mess
isn't happenin'
i play on the black keys
so i can close my eyes
try to picture you beside me
singin harmonies
and you know why
one day i will try and explain it all
and if you dont mind
id like some time to try and play it all

if i ever thought it would come to this
the needin' and the bleedin'
then i woulda tried to say it better better
if i ever thought i cherished you
and i mean it yeah i mean it
now i still think youre here
you're pullin in you're pullin in
but you wouldn't know why
because you're the one the one whos on the leavin' end
then you wave goodbye
when you saw me cry would you believe me then

thats why...i...i...i...
and i...i...i...
yeah...i...i...i...

i play on the black keys...yeah

kelsey shearron — Sun, 12 Nov 2006 17:38:51 -0600

i feel like writing tonight..
"look after you" by the fray is playing just about as loud as i can get it..
i put a frozen pizza in the oven.
and its just me.
just me tonight.
ive been thinking a lot today. about a million things

i got a letter from chicago - im accepted and in the running for the merit scholarship(full ride)..how insane is that?...im still looking at memphis col. of art...and knoxville

and am i good enough? is there some way that i can make art that really touches people. i dont want to be like every artist that says that their art is a reflection of themselves- finding out who they are.. making some sort of statement. no. i want all i do to move people. i want jesus to flow into every stroke on the canvas. i want to make the kind of art that, just like the powerful pushing and pulling of a violinists notes on his violin, pierce the very soul within... the holy spirit can move in music and if he chooses through a canvas too.. art that is me.. but is a shade of me that is covered in the assurance that my God is great. and that my God is the only source of true joy and beauty. he is what created everything before i even imagined creating something.

i am overwhelmed by the darkness of this world. i feel like there is nothing i can do sometimes..but then, he just takes my hand and tells me that i dont have to worry because hes already taken care of it...

that whatever college i end up in... it will be the one that i was meant for..
its hard to trust but im doing my best...its just alot to think about. my whole life is changing. people i thought i could love have forgotten me, my dad started a new job, high school is over on may the seventh. .. . i guess, i could be honest and say that im scared to death but at the same time im so excited..
i better go check on that pizza..
-kels

kelsey shearron — Wed, 01 Nov 2006 22:33:57 -0600

its been a loong week.

im headed to memphis on friday for the national portfolio day at memphis college of art.. so thatll be good and informative..and probably good for me to get a taste of what these art colleges are looking for..
love you- kels

lyrics..
youre not sure that you love me
but your not sure enough to let me go
baby it aint fair to just keep me hanging on
say you dont want to hurt me
dont want to see my tears
so why are you still standing here
just watching me drown
its alright yea ill be fine
dont worry about this heart of mine
just take your love and hit the road.
youre not makin up your mind
its killin me .. wasting time
i need so much more than that.

(the song of the day is "yesterday" -Beatles.)

oooh goodness..

kelsey shearron — Sat, 28 Oct 2006 13:05:17 -0500

what a morning. Hardees at about 6 in the morning with rachel...then on to the act.

that test was ridiculous.. i dont even know. what to say. . . thats got to be the hardest one of those ive seen..

but anyways...

now im going to make muffins and forget all about it...turn on some bb king, or for this occasion i may need some gangsta rap..
-kels

sittin around listening to music..

kelsey shearron — Sat, 21 Oct 2006 00:45:09 -0500

Thoughts of rain at sunset
Clouds of rainbow blue
Thoughts of sun on sand-dunes
Where the seabirds flew
This was our season, and we said it couldn't end
But my love left with the rain.

Thoughts of leaves in autumn
Falling from the trees
Thoughts of hoaring tree tops
Leading to the sea
This was our season, no lies and no pretend
But my love left with the rain.

Thoughts of springtime rainfall
Touching flowers that bend
Thoughts of wind in willows
Days that never end
This was our season, but sorrow waited round the bend
For my love left with the rain.

Rain's the way you move now
Sun the way you seem
Leaves the way you wonder
Flowers the way you dream
This was our season, and we said it couldn't end
But my love left with the rain - NIck Drake

i love that song.

one of those nights..

kelsey shearron — Sat, 14 Oct 2006 19:57:10 -0500

when you feel like dancing
when youre all alone
when youve got a candle burning
when you feel like youre waiting for something to happen..
when miles davis is putting your mind at ease
and when you just want to go take the first plane to anywhere

hi there...

kelsey shearron — Sun, 01 Oct 2006 16:19:12 -0500

well. i havent been on phusebox in a very long time..but i thought getting crowned homecoming queen was a noteworthy subject...heh. it was such a fun night..and ill try and get some pictures on here as soon as i can..

...emily has her night of elegance or whatever at her church sooo ive gotta go curl hair and make her look nice and presentable...love you-kels

im headed for..

kelsey shearron — Fri, 15 Sep 2006 16:13:13 -0500

Memphis!... me and Cameron are about to hit the road as soon as he gets here! ...have a good weekend! -kels

its happening to me..

kelsey shearron — Sat, 02 Sep 2006 23:16:52 -0500

so im a little stressed.

ive begun to think about (dum,dum,dum) college.

somebody just do this for me?

guess what..

kelsey shearron — Wed, 30 Aug 2006 16:42:33 -0500

so, today was a pretty good day. i dont do anything at school!..its pretty great.
but anyways...i had a reeally big surprise today...i was walking through the hallway after first and all these people were like..hey kelsey..i voted for you...and i was like ..huh?...until stephen attacked me in the hall and informed me that im a homecoming nominee.. ive never thought of myself as someone that would get to do that. so im pretty shocked...but pretty happy about it too..even a little excited:-)

me and nemanja are going to starbucks after church around 7:30-8 ...soooo...come!

give me one reason to stay here
and ill turn right back around
give me one reason to stay here
and ill lturn right back around
i dont want to leave you lonely
you gunna make me change
my mind -tracy chapman

love you-kels

ravioli in the morning

kelsey shearron — Mon, 28 Aug 2006 08:29:59 -0500

well its 8:28 in the morning and im at oakland...sitting in the art computer lab with the hottest guy in the world aka. allen huber..eating ravoli.

i thought that was entry worthy.ha- kels

*edit*

excuse me, but i seem to have offended brian king. allen is not the hottest man in the world. Brian obviously is. and i will forever regret ever have letting allen influence me to say such a thing.

just for you brian king!

kelsey shearron — Fri, 25 Aug 2006 22:43:05 -0500

we all are going to miss yah kiddo! -kels

my grandpa

kelsey shearron — Tue, 22 Aug 2006 18:38:32 -0500

i love him.

he just called me a "stinker". . . agree?

...and told me that i "aint aloud to court nobudy till youre 22" (the age he was when he was married)

he also informed me that there isnt a boy out there that half deserves me...ha.

ooh. grandparents. great stuff. -kels

good music gets me through the school day..

kelsey shearron — Fri, 18 Aug 2006 10:54:06 -0500

well here i am in art...ive been working on a collage drawing..and now im starving..i have fist lunch at 11 30 (i think) if anyone feels like coming to see me.

do you ever feel like you are just missing something? something huge? just the feeling that everyone gets it but you?.. ive been feeling like that today ...almost like theres something happening that i cant see or understand but its still happening.

theres the bell..talk to you soon-kels

Can I call you if I'm back in town?
Leave a message when I'm southbound?
Could I please, could I please?
Won't be long till I'll be passing through,
Maybe three days, maybe two.

Could I see you one more time, if its ok if you don't mind?
I'm the shade of a shadow, baby.
Been thinkin' bout you tonight, how sweetly you bring light.
You're the ray of the sun, and I'm the shade of a shadow.

Of all the letters I never sent and all the time we haven't spent,
Could I please, could I please?
You always said I play games I know I'd lose,
you always said that's the life I'd choose.

Oh why do they leave
On the day that you needed them the most
Simple cards and things
Rosecolored sunsets no flowers for me
Simple cards and things
Rosecolored sunsets no flowers for me
Lover why do you leave
On the day I want you for me
Say say it ain't so
That he will take you tomorrow
And I will sit here today
The worst
Simple cards and things
Rosecolored sunsets no flowers for me
Simple cards and things
Rosecolored sunsets Curtains for me
Lover why do you leave
Lover why do you leave
On the day I want you to be
The one

...weeeellll

kelsey shearron — Thu, 10 Aug 2006 10:57:41 -0500

at the garish break of dawn i woke up and drove to oakland.

only to be barked at by some evil voice coming through the intercom telling me that- yes, i must tuck in my shirts..among other things and- student ids willl be worn at all times..

.somebody save me.

then im informed that teacher aiding isnt allowed anymore...im going to fight.
-kels

senior

kelsey shearron — Sat, 05 Aug 2006 00:11:02 -0500

well im sitting here thinking about a new year...a really easy one at that...

ap english
gov/econ
art 4
teachers aid (art 4)
photography
and..
yearbook

this year is going to be completely dedicated to good grades, and making art.

im kinda excited.

the only hard thing is letting go of many good friends. last year was hard and this one is going to be even harder... im going to miss all of you so much. well kiddos.. im going to go curl up in bed with good ole jane eyre..

love-kels

late night poetry..

kelsey shearron — Thu, 03 Aug 2006 00:12:35 -0500

Tell all the Truth but tell it slant -
Success in Circuit lines
Too bright for our infirm delight
The truth's superb surprise
As lightning to the children eased
With explanation kind
The truth must dazzle gradually
or every man be blind.
-emily d.

If you were coming in the fall,
I'd brush the summer by
With half a smile, and half a spurn,
As housewives do, a fly

If I could see you in a year,
I'd wind the months in balls -
And put them each in separate drawers,
For fear the numbers fuse

If only centuries, delayed,
I'd count them on my hand,
Subtracting, till my fingers dropped
Into Van Dieman's Land,

If certain, when this life was out -
that yours and mine, should be
I'd toss it yonder, think a rind,
And take eternity -

But, now, uncertain of the length
of this, that is between,
It goads me, like the Goblin bee -
That will not state - it's sting
-dickinson

stuck on I-40

kelsey shearron — Thu, 27 Jul 2006 00:14:38 -0500

so today i wake up to a call from emily...as usual.. and shes like ..hey!.. lets go to the mall, so i go to her house and we hop in her car...half way there she starts hitting the gas but the car wont speed up ..so we pull over...and start laughing and freaking out.

so we think...hm..maybe if we just restart it itll be fine...
well...when she put it in drive it started rolling backwards..

two police passed us and didnt stop so we got really mad at them, but when a interstate emergency guy showed up a few minutes later we guessed they called him...

he took a look and was like well..girls, looks like the transmission blew.. :-0..not good..

OH but heres the really scary part.

we were sitting there with the windows down, sweatin it up..and i look over and this guy in his car with his windows down is staring at me. so i hit em and was like roll up the windows!..for about 5 seconds we were both freakin out until he held up his badge and asked if we were okay...ha.ha.

so we boiled in the 100 degree sun and her dad came and got us..

it was definitely a crazy day with my best friend on the side of I-40...

to add to all of that..last night me and em were comin home on 96 and got stuck for about 45 minutes while a motorcyclist was lifeflighted to nashville....ive never been that close to a wreck...or seen a helicopter come straight down on the road..it was so crazy..

tomorrow im going with em for senior pictures...not mine..but she needs the support..ha..
im dreading having them made...yuck

love you--kels

so much life to live

kelsey shearron — Sun, 23 Jul 2006 17:58:21 -0500

i went to a musical last night in woodbury...it was pretty funny stuff...but the whole time i couldnt help but just keep looking off at this old man. . .

wrinkled and gray, hands folded in his lap, smirk on his face. . .his wife was sitting close to him and he looked so happy. he was simply satisfied..

i couldnt help but think about....just...who im going to be next to years and years from now...who i might be helping out of a seat or who will be helping me...and what kind of person i will be when ive lived so much more than i have..what kind of memories will i have made?

love -kels

waiting on a bagel in line today this song played..

When your long day is over
And you can barely drag your feet
When the weight of the world
Is on your shoulders
I know what you need
Bring it on home to me
You know I know you
Like the back of my hand
You know I'm gonna do
All that I can right here
Gonna lie with you
Till you fall asleep
When the morning comes
I'm still gonna be right here

last day..

kelsey shearron — Fri, 14 Jul 2006 11:49:43 -0500

im gunna miss these kids..

if you wanna see more pics go to my facebook ...

-kels

dear you,

kelsey shearron — Thu, 13 Jul 2006 17:29:33 -0500

well. it hit me...it finally hit me. ive realized so much about myself in the last few days, not only has governors school inspired me it has taught me and opened me up to so many things that i didnt even know were options...its funny how you think youve got it all figured out, two seconds later everything changes..

im really going to miss everyone here..tomorrow is the last full day.. its so annoying how you finally get the hang of this type of "college" life and you start learning people and really enjoying yourslelf and then its over. im going to miss my little cubical in the painting studio. and coming home to a bunch of crazy sweet girls...im going to miss laughing at and just watching all the drama kids, the many many nights in the lobby of piano playing and singing from the music kids..and of course the awesome art kids that have inspired me to do so much more.

so saturday ill be finished and hopefully totally moved out by about noon..

lets do something alright? i think a party will work...can you believe school starts back in less than a month..or atleast i think so....?

love-kels

Two hearts fading, like a flower.

And all this waiting, for the power.

For some answer, to this fire.

Sinking slowly. The water's higher.

Desire

With no secrets. No obsession.

This time I'm speeding with no direction.

Without a reason. What is this fire?

Burning slowly. My one and only.

Desire

You know me. You don't mind waiting.

You just can't show me, but God I'm praying,

That you'll find me, and that you'll see me,

That you run and never tire.

Desire-ryan adams

4 days..

kelsey shearron — Tue, 11 Jul 2006 22:33:55 -0500

today was really laid back. no teacher...so i left and took a 2 hour nap!..

then later...

we watched the planets - a piano performance... it was really beautiful.. i have this thing for the piano.. there is something so beautiful about watching someone sway with that music in thier soul and watching them pour it out onto the keys..

nooow...im sitting here with a bunch of girls..listening to Usher..hes telling me to let it burn..heh.

-kels

Oh, why do they leave?

Oh, why do they leave?

On the day that you needed them the most

Simple cards and things

Rose-colored sunsets, no flowers for me

Simple cards and things

Rose-colored sunsets, no flowers for me

Lover, why do you leave

Lover, why do you leave

On the day I want you for me?

Say, say it ain't so

That he will take you tomorrow

And I will sit here today (The worst)

Simple cards and things

Rose-colored sunsets, no flowers for me

Simple cards and things

Rose-colored sunsets, Curtains for me

Lover, why do you leave

Lover, why do you leave

On the day I want you to be

The one

keaton! i took pictures of the elephants for you!

kelsey shearron — Sat, 08 Jul 2006 19:04:16 -0500

fun at the zoo..

i named him joey..

hiding in the bamboo..

i really like bamboo

so the nashville zoo wasnt very impressive but getting off the mtsu campus was great..
now im off to see the tennessee valley winds.. last night was the nashville ballet..

love you, kels

im going,,

kelsey shearron — Sat, 08 Jul 2006 11:40:39 -0500

to the zoo!

i only have 7 days left and im home for the summer...-kels

hey you..

kelsey shearron — Mon, 03 Jul 2006 22:06:16 -0500

i just gotta say to all my hommies out there that i miss you all so so much..as soon as i get back lets have a party...alright?

gov school fun..

kelsey shearron — Sat, 01 Jul 2006 23:01:10 -0500

kate me bailey and bianca

so the mall today was fun.. i spent too much money in the usual place and had a blast with bianca and sasha!

sasha is so awesome..

dresses and new shoes..

katie bug and the kelsinator!

..anyways..today was great, fun times at the mall...chinese food..and a nice concert to top it off in new clothes..:-)

love you-kels

kelsey shearron — Sat, 01 Jul 2006 09:36:51 -0500

we are leaving for opry mills at 10 45.... sooo if you have nothing to do today you should comce visit me!...ill have my phono

gov school stuff...

kelsey shearron — Thu, 29 Jun 2006 23:12:00 -0500

1st pic is of sasha me ans kate..the 2nd is a drawing i did in class today ...we only had about 15 minutes..live models are fun stuff..the last one is of ben frederick being a photo nerd..tonight was fun stuff..

im starting to get to know people and we are all getting used to eachother.. i uploaded a ton of pictures ..so check em out!..love you-kels

kelsey shearron — Wed, 28 Jun 2006 14:43:21 -0500

Wether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it" Isaiah 30:21

..well its been a good day, ive been spending a lot of time painting and thinking...painting and thinking really go hand in hand...you cant really paint without getting lost in some thought about what you are trying to convey or just simply thinking about something that caught your eye..

sooo.... i need some volounteers to become snipers and destroy the construction workers that tend to use loud machinery that in turn tends to wake me up every morning...any takers?
love you-kels

covered in..

kelsey shearron — Tue, 27 Jun 2006 17:24:35 -0500

- sunshine
- charcoal
- pastel
- chalk
- and paint.. :-)

well...day two of the third week is almost over..we are watching a foreign film and then we have a "dance"...should be pretty fun.. im making everyone jealous right now with my moms homemade soup she packed up for me and listening to some ryan adams...
-kels

read away..

kelsey shearron — Sun, 25 Jun 2006 18:39:39 -0500

im sittin here in the library wondering what in the world i have to say that would grab your attension...something that will make you laugh or simply make you think...

i guess ill start off by saying that i miss all of you so much... God has reeeally been showing me the huge importance of being surrounded by people that know why they are here...know that this life isnt about nothing...that we have a definite purpose. I am completely surrounded with teenagers that have no idea what they really want...but they are also all very nice people..and i enjoy so much meeting people...its one of my favorite things to do..especially people that are so talented..

ive been so lost in thought today just about the people here that ive met and the people that i will meet throughout my life...and i dont want to sound pessimistic but so many of them seem so very lost...happy but lost...like they are searching and searching for anything to fill them up..also..ive been trapped in thoughts of rain..i know, that sounds kinda lame..maybe..but i love it..i truly do...the other day it poured down big fat drops of water...i watched them fall from the edge of a building until they landed on my face..so very beautiful..it rained only a few minutes ago..everything is cooled off and greener..and dont forget that my hair is soaked..

we had parent day yesterday ...that was so very surreal to me. it went by so fast..we walked through the gallery..i did a painting all for keato-burrito...my mom of course was like aww kelseey!!!...i think they all miss me:-) i was home for a little while too and mom made my favorite homemade soup and i packed up a bunch of it...had it for supper tonight too...anything is better than mcallie..ha. i didi my laundry...and layed on my bed with emily...she left for ecuador this morning and i pretty jealous..she will have been and come back and also be on her way to ireland while im still here at mtsu..how crazy is that?

so...something interesting that happens almost everyday here in the lovely mtsu library is STORY TIME..ha..its halarious ..our latest book was...Do Little Mermaids Wet the Bed?...talk about funny stuff...my friend john reads them to us..all he has to do is open it and ill laugh for 10 minutes straight..i put up a picture of him reading..

all in all governors school is an amazing experience...very mind opening... new fresh outta college teachers that are pretty awesome..new friends..and lots of junk food and dance parties:-) love-kels

im home!

kelsey shearron — Sat, 24 Jun 2006 12:19:24 -0500

but only for a while...

i uploaded some pictures of my crazy governors school friends...check it out!

i love and miss all of you..-kels

art ive discovered lately..

kelsey shearron — Mon, 19 Jun 2006 21:06:17 -0500

i thought this was so neat...its by andy goldsworthy...he does nature art.

he takes the simplest things and makes them unique

he let the rain fall on him..

fall leaves...

just thought you might be interested in something a little different from your typical art..:-)

write me a letter!!

-kels

gov. school ...2nd day..

kelsey shearron — Tue, 13 Jun 2006 17:15:38 -0500

hey everybody...

well. here i am in the MTSU library...its so weird being stuck on the campus that ive been on forever..but in a way its nice.. i dont feel like im in college at all..but hey its only day 2..

my schedule is pretty cool....i start my dayt off (usually) with a shower. Then i run off to the mccally (?) lunchroom and eat lots of fruit, because it atleast looks real..

then i go to the todd art bldg for my painting class..i have my own little studio thing set up..we havent done anything much yet....just set up and played cards ..the art professors havent exactly made it here yet (they lack in organization- we go tour schedules today as opposed to the vocal and music kiddos recieving it the day the arrived..ha)...so we just hang out and talk..yesterday we snuck around the bldg and ravaged through the leftover artwork and explored any open doors..after that i wander around with many new friends...until lunchtime rolls around and off i go back to mccally..

after lunch i have "art appreciation"...thats an adventure...our teacher enjoys being enthusiastic and assigning lots of reading. im actually going to be tested and my grade will determine my college credit....ooo.

afer that we go back to our studios to paint..on mon. and wed. i have painting...on tues. and thurs. i have Advanced Drawing..so today was drawing...it was neat...the teacher was actually there for most of the class and we were given an object to draw every 3 minutes...13 total ..and had to fit it together the best way we could to make a piece of "aesthetically" pleasing art...:-)

after classes...i have suppa and usually lots of free time.. tonight theyre showing a movie..

love you -kels

send me mail..its just better

kelsey shearron — Sat, 10 Jun 2006 23:06:29 -0500

Kelsey Shearron
Governor's School for the Arts
MTSU P.O. Box 38
Murfreesboro, TN 37132

packages by private shippers like UPS:

Kelsey Shearron
Governor's School for the Arts (SFA 111)
Middle Tennessee State University
1500 Greenland Drive
Murfreesboro, TN 37132

i think mail is much more personal and in my case more appreciated!

i love you and im gunna miss you -kels

the wind's feelin' real these days..

kelsey shearron — Fri, 09 Jun 2006 18:12:29 -0500

long drive home today on 96 was perfect...60mph, sunshine, air, and music..what more could you want out of summer?

....well.

how about 5 weeks of doing what you love everyday?...mmmm hm. life is good.

-kels

so, i was sitting on my bed and it hit me that i needed detergent and hand soap.. .. half way to the store i forgot what i needed and went to hastings instead..ha..once again... procrastination at its very best...

Dear Chicago,
You'll never guess.
You know the girl you said I'd meet someday?
Well, I've got something to confess.
She picked me up on Friday.
Asked me if she reminded me of you.
I just laughed and lit a cigarette,
Said "that's impossible to do."
My life's gotten simple since.
And it fluctuates so much.
Happy and sad and back again.
I'm not crying out to much.
Think about you all the time.
It's strange and hard to deal.
Think about you lying there.
And those blankets lie so still.

The wind's feeling real these days.
Yeah, baby, it hurt's me some.
Never thought I'd feel so blue.
New York City, you're almost gone.
I think that I've fallen out of love,
I think I've fallen out of love . . . with you. -ryan adams...

3 days..

kelsey shearron — Thu, 08 Jun 2006 14:52:45 -0500

3 days and ill be gone until july 15th..

i am the epitome of procrastination ...im wasting my time on itunes and phusebox when..

im moving out for over a month... (yea, that hasnt even hit me yet)

and i have to work all day tomorrow... that leaves me with saturday..ha..cest le vie
-love-kels

cheer up

kelsey shearron — Tue, 06 Jun 2006 21:07:24 -0500

Took a walk with you
In the shadow of my shoes
Danced around the broken blues
In the dirty summer rain
Moonlight on the cars
Parked in single file at bars
With a thick and rosy smoke
Waving its busted hand

Bringing you down, can't bring you down
Bring you down, can't bring you down
Bring you down, can't hear the sound
Run through the river and into town
Pretty little moon with it's head hung down
Chin up. Cheer up. -ryan a.

--------------everyday has lyrics-------------------

what a looong day. i havent done anything...ive been thinking alot about governors school and i keep finding myself just wanting to go ..get there and be happy..just get away from everything.... all i did today was swing under a tree, listen to music, and paint.. . .summer is alright with me

Nemanjas goodbye party was so fun...especially when everyone was gone and the rest of us layed around on couches and played games...then..brian drove me to my car and we threw cheese at peoples mailboxes..ha.. and you cant forget reading the labels of aquafina bottles seductively..ha..

i think tomorrow morning at 6 a bunch a kiddos are meeting at cracker barrell to say some goodbyes to nemanja and brian...so come ..you might see me there (i dont like mornings)

love -kels

come pick me up

kelsey shearron — Sun, 04 Jun 2006 19:49:47 -0500

When they call your name
Will you walk right up
With a smile on your face
Or will you cower in fear
In your favorite sweater

With an old love letter
I wish you would

I wish you would
Come pick me up
Take me out
Steal my records

I wish you would

When you're walking downtown
Do you wish I was there
Do you wish it was me
With the windows clear and the mannequins eyes

Do they all look like mine
You know you could
I wish you would
Come pick me up
Take me out
Steal my records
- Ryan Adams

i love summer rain..i was sitting outside tonight and thunder started rolling...

keep on keepin on kids.-kels (heh)

kelsey shearron — Tue, 30 May 2006 22:40:34 -0500

i just want to thank Brian and Nemanja for kidnapping me today..getting me out of cleaning my closet and taking me to Marinas and a movie...:-).. i love you kiddos!

never put your soul
into someone you dont know
because when you turn round you see your frown
yet all the while a smile
you feign

youre drowning in this place
yet its all voluntary
what you thought you once loved
your partridge...your dove
is nothing more than a part time friend
...your blindness must be hereditary

its time for a change so you go all the way
only to find out that youre the stray,
youre lost in this world without a trace
of the light of your love...no sign of her face
her favorite roses...the sunset she'd say

ive been a bit out of place
...imagining things again
comes with the territory i guess...

-----------------------------------------------------

i can see the smile upon your face
all at once falling from its place
your image slowly fades from my mind
a symbol of the love you left behind

you pulled me in but you really through me out
you made me sure while filling me with doubt
youre the only one who gave me a chance
and now you send me home
yeah thats romance

why did you have to let me go
when only yesterday you loved me so
none of this is making any sense
was it ever love or only false pretense

you took my dark and turned it into light
you were the only one who made things right
you became my muse when i needed hope
and now you send me home
yeah what a joke

...a few words i came across...they rang true for me tonight
-kels

i want to be van gogh

kelsey shearron — Mon, 29 May 2006 23:40:41 -0500

not only for his painting style..but ive come to realize that he had the right idea when he cut off his ear...mine are both dying..i have an ear infection..plug your ears with your fingers and youll have a good idea of how well i can hear..

so may 28th came and went much too fast...and im 17 and beginning my time on my actual 18th year..i feel like time is flying by..soon ill be living in a dorm at mtsu for a month..then comes senior year at oakland..

i had a good birthday.

keaton gave me moonstruck and elizabethtown
mom and dad- easel and brushes(which i reeally needed)..and new clothes
emily -sidewalk chalk, playdough, and stickers for my lovely car
grandparents -$
we went to shopryland (as my dad calls it) and then to the spaghetti factory..me and keaton walked around..came home and rachel swift, ron moore, and my grandparents ate lemon cake or chocolate pudding cake..mm. i hope you saw my sunset last night ..it was beautiful.

-kels

-oh and remember to pray for poor emily...shes dying in girls state at mtsu hah.

shes impossible to forget but hard to remember..

kelsey shearron — Wed, 17 May 2006 21:38:11 -0500

there have been about a million things running through my head these last few days..so much has happened..only two days of school left and all the graduations coming up..

it hit me tonight how every year i seem to get so close to the seniors and then off they go...im really going to miss this group so much.. tonight at church some of the seniors got up and spoke about their high school years and what they had learned.. brian king spoke about love.. and how thats really what it all boils down to. Theres also a quote that ive come to love in the last few hours that Brian shared with me..

"It is the intensity of love we put in our gestures that make them into something beautiful for God." - Mother Teresa

i just think that that is so true. i believe in great love and that love pouring from every inch of your heart is where you will find peace.. -kels

Let me say it, let me play it,
Let me lay it on you.
Let me know you, let me show you,
Let me grow it on you.
All I have is yours,
All you see is mine
And I'm glad to have you in my arms,
I'd have you any time.

..................................................................

My love she speaks like silence,
Without ideals or violence,
She doesn't have to say she's faithful,
Yet she's true, like ice, like fire.
People carry roses,
Make promises by the hours,
My love she laughs like the flowers,
Valentines can't buy her.

In the dime stores and bus stations,
People talk of situations,
Read books, repeat quotations,
Draw conclusions on the wall.
Some speak of the future,
My love she speaks softly,
She knows there's no success like failure
And that failure's no success at all. -Bob Dylan

after midnight

kelsey shearron — Sun, 07 May 2006 01:01:43 -0500

jazz fest..
nothings better than jazz in the rain.
nothings better than laying under a tree
nothings better than coffee when youre cold
nothings better than the soft lights on the square
and nothings better than sweet sounds driving home

it was a nice night. came home and me and emily ventured into my old journals from the last couple of years..it was pretty hilarious reading through my old thoughts and just reading what i was going through or prayin about.
..its funny how unexpected things happen and you go back and see how things were before they had happened...

did that make sense?...

anyways ive been obsessed with an artist named madeleine peyroux..so heres some lyrics:

I go out walkin’ after midnight
Out in the moonlight
Just like we used to do
I’m always walkin’ after midnight searchin’ for you

I walk for miles along the highway
Well, that’s just my way
Of sayin’ I love you
I’m always walkin’ after midnight, searchin’ for you

I go out walkin’ after midnight
Out in the moonlight*
Just hopin’ you may be
Somewhere a-walkin’ after midnight, searchin’ for me

kelsey shearron — Sat, 29 Apr 2006 16:28:08 -0500

packin up the van with blankets and pillows...food and music.

im really excited about tonight...sleepin outside and such..

kelsey shearron — Wed, 26 Apr 2006 17:29:40 -0500

You got to leave me now, you got to go alone
You got to chase a dream, one that's all your own
Before it slips away
When you're flyin' high, take my heart along
I'll be the harmony to every lonely song
That you learn to play

When you're soarin' through the air
I'll be your solid ground
Take every chance you dare
I'll still be there
When you come back down
When you come back down

I'll keep lookin' up awaitin' your return

My greatest fear will be that you will crash and burn
And I won't feel your fire

I'll be the other hand that always holds the line
Connectin' in between your sweet heart and mine
I'm strung out on that wire

And I'll be on the other end
To hear you when you call
Angel, you were born to fly
And if you get too high
I'll catch you when you fall
I'll catch you when you fall

Your memory's the sunshine every new day brings
I know the sky is calling.
..........................................................................................

well...4th day being sick and i feel so gross. im sick of laying in bed.. BUT..

i have rediscovered that i have the worlds best - best friend forever and ever (BFFAE..ha:-))

Emily Windham brought me lilies today.. i think they make me feel better than the medicine does..

if you didnt hear about it...invisible children was on Oprah today...the three guys that went to Uganda were on the show..it was awesome...if you dont have anything going on this weekend..make sure you go to invisiblechildren.com and get involved in the Global Night Commute in Franklin..we will be meeting at the target in the cool springs area saturday the 29th at 8..

love-kels

enjoying the rain...

kelsey shearron — Fri, 21 Apr 2006 21:47:26 -0500

i was just thinking
that i have been missing you
for way too long
and theres something inside this weary head
that wants us to love just instead

..i am sinkin, merrily sinkin.

i think about long distance rates
instead of kissing you babe
and if i wait for you longer my affection is stronger
but i was just thinking
merrily thinking

...the grandparents dropped in today.

i love my grandparents so much - they are so happy and so full of life... they've got stories to tell and everything they say is sentimental to me...

my grandpa has been diagnosed with Alzheimers... which makes me so sad..hes acting a little differently already.. keep my grandma in your prayers

-kels

kelsey shearron — Wed, 19 Apr 2006 11:07:31 -0500

so that last entry was pretty interesting huh?..chemistry class missed me...:-)

let me paint you a picture of what im doing at "school" right now...the room is dark and the door to outside is wide open with a nice breeze comin in...a movie is playing...im listening to slowdive.. and writing to you.

i guess what im really trying to say is that school is a complete waste of time and i really would love love love to be done...yesterday i spent the whole day walking around mtsu...it was pretty nice. the art building was really fun, but (im sure ive said this a thousand times) i just feel so at home there because i truly know what it is that i want to do ...i want to be a silly girl in college covered in paint ..doing something that i truly love..

ah. i guess itll come sooner than i think..but for now..ill sit in a spanish class, listen to music and daydream about where my life might go..

-kels

un jour la défectuosité connaissent votre puits de visage ainsi que ma brosse n'aura pas besoin de mes yeux

kelsey shearron — Tue, 18 Apr 2006 10:22:02 -0500

hey, i like pocketwatches and dinosaurs! I am too good to go to school today, instead i went on a field trip. I am cooler then everyone else in the world..

my name is kelsey

and i love shebelseys

my dog is hoot

and it looks like a boot

this is my rhyme

and now im outa time