yes i should be cleaning clothes but i just can't help thinking about things...mostly because i think about things too much, but i'm working on it.

this past week has been absolutely amazing...its also been one of the most challenging weeks of my life. not only have i been waking up at 7:15 to take a shower and not sleeping till after midnight, my mind has been racing with the thoughts of possibilities and things yet to come. thoughts of wanting to keep people at a distance to keep them safe and thoughts of pulling people in closer to save their life. and the people i need to push away is the person i want to be closer...hence the title...its just one of those internal conflicts. something that God will work through, if only i will trust in Him and his perfect will for my life...i'm just being patient...He's been teaching me that since like February, yeah, it hasnt been going so well the past, hm, month and a half? but, i know i'm changing.

so this week, myself and 21 other people went to new jersey to work w/ the point church. we served the community in order to form relationships and bonds w/ the people so that the point could better reach the community. i've never thought about how community service can help a church because in the south it just seems like we open our doors, preach the Word and people come...but up there (points above the mason-dixon) churches really have to make the effort to go out into the community and pursuade the public at large that Christians are not condescending and conceited...we are people just like them, making it in a world where no one really knows what is going on.

and i met an AMAZING new friend from Georgia...she basically moved in with us last week and it was so much fun!!! yay for strobe lights and hotel room dance parties!!! (and lets not EVER forget pride and prejudice)