ok well i wasnt going to put anything on here about this but i need all the praying i can get.this week has been terrible. it started a couple of days ago my brother is working a fireworks tent and they got robbed. they tied my brother and his friends up and held them there at gunpoint.if theyt moved they would've been shot. my brother is ok and so is his friend. they stole my brothers brand new truck and his cell phone and everything. we found his truck. that was reall scary . that isnt the whole story but its part. then today i found out more bad news. my grandad is in the fourth stage of amnesia(the worst) and he doesnt have very much longer to live. i am really sad right now and i know it is all part of gods plan and he will be at a better place but it is so frustrating. this has definitely been the worst week of my life.please just pray for my family right now.that might sound a little selfish but we really need it. i just am really sad because all the happened at once. it is an overload of bad news. well im gonna go. but these lyrica are amazing.

I'll tell you flat out
it hurts so much to think of this
so from my thoughts I will exclude
this very thing that
I hate more than everything is
the way I'm powerless
to dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
so many things that could've been much more
and I just pray
my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's not the way it works

when I go down
I go down hard
and I take everything I've learned
and teach myself some disregard
when I go down
it hurts to hit the bottom
and of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can
clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
into a place where
peace can search me out and find
that I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away
the hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
so many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
the secret to find an end to this
and I just pray
my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's not the way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
while my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
reprimands me
then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
yet you love me
and that consumes me
and I'll stand up again
and do so willingly

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
you touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
as I exhale I hear your voice
and I answer you, though I heardly make a noise
and from my lips the words I choose to say
seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise
because I love you
oh God, I love you
and life is now worth living
if only because of you
and when they say I'm dead and gone
it won't be further from the truth

When I go down
I life my eyes up to you
I won't look very far
cause you'll be there
with open arms
to lift me up again
to life me up again

-relient k "When I Go Down"


-brett