Today started off so great.  I helped give out free coffee outside the BCM this morning.  I got to work on the lights at school.  When I got back to the B, though, I started thinking.  I hate it when I start thinking. I suddenly remembered every bad thing that's happened to me in the past five years and I got really depressed all of a sudden.  Of course, my Mom getting sick didn't help either.  I just found out a few minutes ago that she didn't have a stroke.  They're still not exactly sure what happened, but they have an idea.  Anyway, today, I started praying and I think God really spoke to me today.  My relationship with Him isn't exactly what it should be, but I'm going to work on it.  I just wish there was an in depth Bible study that I could go to sometime.  I miss my old Sunday School class.  I don't go to Sunday School because the Deaf Church doesn't have one for me.  I don't go to the hearing Sunday School for three reasons. 1, a long time ago, I went to the college class and I wasn't exactly impressed.  They talked mostly about cars and clothes and other stuff that I really don't care about.  It seemed more like a social event rather than a Bible study.  2, I went on a retreat with the college class and we didn't even open our Bibles and nobody talked to me for the entire weekend.  I thought that was just stupid.  I go on retreats to grow closer to God, not to socialize.  Of course I really wasn't socializing because nobody talked to me... Oh, well.  It doesn't matter anymore. 3, It's at the same time as the Deaf Church.  I love the Deaf Church because I can see that God is working there, the pastor is one of the most Godly men I know, and I've always felt loved there.  I pray that God will continue to bless BBDC.