Have you ever really hoped for something, something huge? And thought you knew when it MIGHT happen and somehow got all excited about it and caught up in it, all w/o knowing if it would happen? Yeah it SUCKS. I dont' even like that word but it describes this. I just dont know, blah, blah, blah. I feel like crying sorta but really its my own fault. If I could just learn to not hope things would be so much better.

MEW