I've been tryin to not complain, but its so hard when you get confused...and everyone gets mad...and then you just feel depressed for an hour or two... I just wanna fit in but I feel like Im not even who I am, or even who I wanna be. Im so confused and songs keep rushing through my head until I wanna explode. I think Im gonna go crazy if I dont find a friend who actually relates to my personality, or even someone within my brainwave. I feel alone yet I have friends, I feel sad yet I have so much to be grateful for, I feel tired but want to push on. Then all of those feelings are reversed and I dont know what to do. I guess Im lucky for what I have but Im frustrated with myself. Im gonna go to bed and stay asleep till 10 at least tommorrow. I wanna explode. My friends complain to me and dont understand when I try to complain to them. Forgive me for complaining. Pray for me to have calmness please.

HELP NEEDED:
I need someone to understand.

Thanks for lettin me talk to yall.
- jacob