Okay, first things first: I AM OFF ACADEMIC PROBATION!!! I know to most of you guys are thinking what in the world was I doing on there in the first place? But I got off, I am so happy you have no idea. I set a goal of hitting 3.0 for the semester not even imagining that would be enough to get me off, but it was. The Lord can some amazing things when you give it to Him. Because there is no way in the world I did that. Okay, another thought:

I'm a mess right now, and a mess I shouldn't be. I thought my life was getting in order, I was getting older had more things figured out; boy, was I ever wrong. I'm at a loss right now, such a loss. Confused beyond confused and about something that I shouldn't even be confused about....

Something happened that changed me and now I can't turn it off. I feel like a lost kid again wandering through Disney World for the first time. I'm completely amazed but yet confused on how the world could be this beautiful and would ever give me a chance to get close to it. I know most of you might be wondering what it is I'm talking about but yet I cannot tell because of the closeness to my heart this subject is: but its great and awful at the same time.

Over the last two days I've started to do something I haven't done in years: write music. And with this inside of me I feel like it deserves an audience. And one day; it will. But as for my problem I do not know what to do about it and for once in my life, I'm going to show a little patience. But the Lord has it in his pocket so I'm comforted. Well, back to the upstairs with my guitar and set of headphones to laydown the most heartfelt thing I've ever written...