Its hard to think that like 10 or 11 years ago on today *the 22* Amy had just had surgery... We got talkin about this tonight at dinner and it really made me think of all I have to be thankful for.  I mean I have a great family who would do anything for me, a great boyfriend who I am so lucky to have, and great friends who are always here for me when I need then.  I know those sound like the usual things you are thankful for but I dont know for some reason it just feels right typin them up in this post
 
 Have you ever thought about how something can influence something else... like when I was little I was jealous of Amy after she had her surgery because she got all of these cards and ballons and stuffed animals *all the stuff a little 5 year old would want* and so I would do stuff to get attention... Well now that Im grown up I still do stuff for attention because thats just who I am and how everyone is even if they wont admit it
 
 I love it how when I was little I always wanted to be like my sisters and I would dress like them and I would act like them and do whatever they told me to do.  Well now Im to the point and Im like I wanna be little again, I wanna wear sweats to school with no makeup and my hair a mess and not have anyone say anything to me
 
 Today Becky and I got talkin about our old house in Indiana and all the little random things we remembered about it like how when I was little I would go out into our garden with my mom and we'd just sit out there and color and it would be our time while Amy and Becky were off at school.  Or how when I was waitin with mom for Amy and Becks bus to arrive how Id talk to my imagine horse that would call me *it was really imaginary you see it was one of those little electronic things out infront of a Meijer store and for some reason Id talk to it every morning*  But in life its the little things I miss the most