Life is beautiful.  I wonder what's truth: abstract or physical. 

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I want to be moved again.  I want that conviction that drove me and got me through high school.  It's like I'm going through the motions of college just to get by.  I'm missing out on so much.  I'm sitting here in a beautiful apartment, with a beautiful 3rd floor balcony and a beautiful view of nature.  Chattanooga is beautiful.  The river greenway brings so much peace.  I was driving home today, and the clouds.  They were so beautiful.  Just another sunny day in Californ-i-a?

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I need you, whoever you are.  You--you'll reach deep down in my heart and see the real me.  And you'll stick there no matter what I do, even when I try to keep myself from you.  Won't you be the one to heal my heart?  I've been missing you.